Air Force Ones!
Ugh, I literally was stalked by the library officer? Tha fuck is that- hey, he got a new Tahoe doh and a shiny pension... too bad for those with misdemeanors who can't even apply for such jobs... at least not to my knowledge... but, I bet his kin folk can! So annoying! mInd you he doesn't have a card or anything- however he did give me his badge number hoping I would be like- oh they so legit and shit. No- I was actually leaving that San Jose State University Police Depaterments Office after meeting with the Independent Police AUdiotr. This is the land of (dull grey- not a true grey like me.... what's the difference?) dull grey. The Auditor was fantastic though I think she was a lil confused as to why I didn't want it investigated as to change my own personal case... I was like, because- just cause I have suffered doesnt mean I want their bullshit erased from my name- it's a tribute to how deep it goes... that the person investigating their bullshit was possibly even on their side at the close of our pre-lunch meeting. I didn't have an appointment and she still took the time to appease me and I honestly think she's on my side and was like damn- a bitch did. Yes, I'm on a good one with Usher in my ear feeling accounplished! Yeah! What I could do without is the perpetual time suck this is to me now and how much shit I have to do... I'm blogging about it first... because not as many people are reading it now... that's fine. They bullshit has already been made known by me... and now I have to actually follow through with all this. It's exhausting and I dare say that if something happens to keep me from doing so its a purposeful act on their part- as, I will make this happen. I will. If I can't then it's a testament to my being held captive in a foreign country that is actually in our great USA. The library officer thought that I was my double-ganger and that i was headed to the bullshit MLK library instead of leaving my other meeting to... when I was arrested I was told that they were one in the same... I'm saying Mr. Watch Commander I dare say that your department is on watch even before I showed up... so you better take me seriously. Also- The independent police auditor is an attorney that takes statements and essentially 3rd parties the Internal Affairs people.... Hopefully, she's not a former public defender... cause if so then the bullshit continues! Do you know that my middle toe on my left foot is perpetually numb from your bullshit officer? Additionally, I think I smell pretty nice after 10 days of not showering. All the people I know in this city are yours so stop trying to find an outside perp... cause I'd look in the mirror if I were you to save hella time dude. So my to do list- I secretly think that my public defender is the one who had the library officer on my ass as to not report her to da bar association. And all because I actually had the decency to email her and let her know what was up... pardon my couth and your lack of... cause she was heard saying 'Fuck- he is gonna get killed!' Please lady- my mama got Munchhausen syndrome by proxy for the second time in my life- I'm not saying I'm not scared... but the complete disregard for human life is either going through me or is ending with me. I am maybe helping you in the long run also- given that the ones in charge are the ones that I'm hoping to grab by the... I use words. Just saying- only when San Ho decided to mug me in LA hoping I wouldn't see through the fake ass airbrushing and corn rows. Fuck you for trying to 1. think I haven't taken care of people in warm shock before and thought some dopamine and primacor might be to your benefit 2 Bitch please why the internet here show pics of Kim Kardahsian West looking just like that... and since I have actually lived in LA and West Hollywood and know the legitness that a place can be... I hope she handles your ass for impersonation and degradation of character or something like that... I don't know. She doesn't live here so her attorney that's not from here and part of your shit show of a... real people live here, you have a total disregard for another person.. And I'm saying all lives might matter.... but I'm saying We Matter. I'm creating inclusion and removing the 'heartless' undertone of this community. Which my community is everywhere... I may not be familiar with what my food stamp office is like in Alabama but I bet I can ask someone- who will remind me that I also thought she lived in the ghetto and to fuck off. Then I'll do exactly when I've done here and ask someone and go and do or whatever... at least I'm willing to admit my problems and yes, I know you know I know you know. I mean hey- the city hall bathrooms have paper towels and the dispenser regular of a motionless wall mount just throws them at you... in the public library's they are probably like the VTA and trying to compensate the community for yo worthless ass... so yes I bitch about the libraries not having paper towels... but it's a question in my mind of are paper towels on the budget or budgeted? and if so go ahead and say that the 'homeless' used them all up, I'll show you the need for my presence in this community has now created two years worth of you covering your tracks and I'm friends with everyone so I guarantee a librarian or a tech will tell me, and then yes, I have homies in the community that will tell me what their experience has been- and yes... odds are I know more actual people in your community. Both in the 110+ miles of the city limits and the rest of the country if you're curious... odds are they'll bore you with the actual conversation we have verses a poll or a question or a facebook status search. Go home and be quiet with that shit! I'm sorry to my homie that was again profiled in Palo Alto in that bomb ass ride... or maybe you just ran out of gas (wink wink) prior to or in the middle of shitting your pants. It's chill- I was on the bus. And you are the first car I've ever seen pulled over in the 8 or 9 months I've been here... accounting for if it resonates with you then pursue it cause I can do it by myself but you were technically in a different city. Also- i was on one of those blue buses that change the traffic signals with no regard to human life and the fact that you may have driven that drive for years and fuck the light just changed! Well, enjoy your $350 ticket, increased insurance, and possible classes in addition to I hope you don't enjoy a beverage on the way home... if so, sadly here you probably got out of a well deserved DUI. Well, fuck you. do better in that area also- I know someone, more then one person affected by the tragedy (it just took me 3 minutes to realize that the spellcheck in blogger was not going to spell tragicitity correctly for me, to yahoo search it cause that's my default in Mozilla that's been updated and then not be able to copy and paste it- and have to remember it all so... ha ha I'm important enough that people have corrected it as they go... it aint hard when you have the equipment you a-hole! And not that I'm important but they, unlike you, are real people and know me.. or they don't and are like some and wanna put their faces in my 10 day unshowered face.... I dunno.) around just drinking and driving and themselves... good came from my story... but, wait I've said I learned from mine and am Thankful... But in a legitness that isn't concerned with making money and is concerned with people and things getting better. So yes- i was behind you in a blue bus and I know you didn't know they affect traffic lights or maybe so... maybe you can tell me your story. or better yet blog about it, then work through it. Cause these assholes are still acting up waiting for me to leave. Hell Nah! I'm so tired of you and your- owning and running most of the world... but not actually 'owning it.' Not the Oprah way, the UAB Hospital way, more specifically the CNO I followed there that literally changed a system that wasn't...I dunno what it was.... but she saved a Health System in my eyes... or at least prepared it for today's mayhem. Wait- I don't mean the mayhem here in San Jose... this is a corrupt I got my shower and water, and I ain't sharing or letting anyone different have access to the community efforts to make up for your stinginess! I have terrible vision- like terrible... what's terrible is that yes, they were whole and are now gone as a consequence of circumstance to San Jose... that's fine. Clearly, my lack of clear vision still has you stumped there... cause you know what... Here in San Jose- my lenscrafter's appointment isn't until August. That's how much work is still left to be done here in San Jose. Like, that's not a specialist appointment... that's a regular eye doctor appointment if I may be so bold. I may not- cause I sure as fuck haven't put in the actual man hours and effort that even 'birth-right?' won't help you 'fly' to credentialing. I dare say that law in this community is though- in a federal system that has set forth parameters to.... hey, technology was birthed here, why not corruption or the... honestly, I believe your a good and proper dis-connected community pillar. So let me get you connected to the shitty mess that is your water works system. I believe in my heart and also- thankfully my belief in research and evidenced based practice (best... evidenced based best practice) tells me that people are innately good- please argue with me so I can go and get said study for you. me and my- I can vouch for... what's said is that you're covering your tracks and changing variables in a community as it relates to me in hopes that I'll be outtie.... nah, cause I saw that coming... if only I had blogged in a way that my hinting to as such and your lack of humility to read it wouldn't have proven me... stop it. Stop It. and make it better... ok fine, changes take time, etc... lemme put you behind bars in jail real quick and have you have to hear about something or someone you care about or be missing in action yet again to a family with issues.... and then let me know how you feel about not actually having even set any realistic time goals or even acted like you know me, when I know you do. I mean, you didn't, you mugged me, then you didn't again, then we met or I spoke, then now you're still too cool for school in your system where parents may or may not get use their tax dollars as they should in a safe quality public school system while you've got enough waves flying around to literally have me and my post surgery eye on the floor in the bathroom in the park sometimes when I first got here in pain like I have never known. I wanted to grab a fork and pluck my eye ball out it hurt so bad- thankfully I'm new here and my reality is still relatively solid even now... if I had grown up here or been subjected to your bullshit I may have actually given you a reason to pity me or to label me as truly a victum/insane. You like pronouns and adjectives I don't... but that story is not only mine nut others, I'm not that unique- only foreign to you as you are a victim of your own system... and luckily, even your bullying and static energy or whatever it was that actually broke my glasses.... the same type of bullying and hate could have and was in my mind used on someone and people before me... either, you actually like the way I smell also or I actually talked about it and made my struggle here known so you had to stop. Or maybe you just took my glasses instead of trying to break them with sound waves or.... hey, I think that technique for kidney stones is way outdated and not part of evidenced based best practice as it could also break or shatter an indwelling catheter or stent or valve or... I dunno. But, I would love to maybe use some to the resources in place to bridge the gap between all your waves and your corruption... however there is not a single gay publication available in any place where similar magazines or literature is sold or borrowed or lent. So fuck you and your couch! It is right and proper that a 14 year old consent to surgery- hey in NYC they be having they own brownstones and in the ghetto they mom may be at work or like mine have Munchhausen syndrome by proxy. If you have access to info that is unknown to another- then to me even if it's your child you're to be held responsible for your actions with said information in mind as it skews the relationship and the other party would probably do different if they knew you had access to privacy they thought you had trusted them with in the first place. Hey cellphone carriers.... you give someone access to my information and texts, etc. even if as a child pornography liability scape goat then I say- you better have informed the person who not only pays the phone bill but uses the phone... as a condition of that's what ought to have been done. But what do I know, I've only seen the far end of the aftermath of those types of relationships and access when it isn't... it wasn't worth it! I mean- it wasn't... but thank good ness I already know me... I'm not going through puberty, doing battle everyday as is the life of any person... but when I was growing up and through out my life I've paid my own cell phone bill and had that privacy.... my mom paid my brothers even though some of adult hood- I'll ask him how he feels about whether that privacy was his to have or not and wether it was a variable in the offer to add him as a line. Cost effective, possibly a consequence of circumstance that you... whatever.... I told you ages ago you were doing it to someone else you conveniently added a line for and that was just because of your stank attitude in certain situations and my stellar abilities and the great fortune to have a diverse background as well as a value. I'm not to good for anything, hey, you were for awhile and it thankfully probably kept me from being another body in a gutter in this community- i call it just a product of your nonesense and my continual reassessment of the situation and hey.... i said to the trees in the park that i had a blog.... you used it to pair my facebook, my phones I've had here and there and god knows what has been searched on them or what not- thank fully I had a passcode on it- but wait- you have all these cameras as verification and...ugh- people are dying while your fact checking me in all the wrong places instead of using me as a person who wants things to be better. yes, things are hard, but fuck if you haven't created dead ends for me the way i know to be specific to San Jose as you have others. Fact! Did you fact check anything else? No- you were to good to hear the blog part and then.... now thankfully yes, you are totally to blame and my effort is totally exhausting to you because I'm just trying.... and you're keeping or controlling or doing everything other then just... I'm thankful for you. Just like I hope you are for me... I've lied here and there- fudged details.... but I've made the best decisions that are mine with the information and variable you gave me.... fuck off if they weren't true, or have put me in a compromising situation... depending on what that variable is--- you're responsible in a conspiratorial (my word=conspiriatious ) way.... or just plain fucked up kinda way. Phadrea is gonna call you a duck- if look like a duck, smell like a duck (how the fuck?), quack like a duck, yellow like a duck- it's probably you and your life lessons the whole world gone benefit from thanks to my blog! Subtly and lies are not kind... I lie about things in a manner to protect marvelous institutions such as HIPAA or children's hospitals.... you lie to cover your own ass or make or sontrol variables that eventually come to truth... this is not a suicide note... now will it ever be... this county has done that to far too many people for me to let them use the tricks I've uncovered to their intentionally intentional per-meditated corrupt ways. We matter. you and me and them and those... I'm called a fake or stupid by people who literally don't know what it is that a stranger would just want things to change for them and not me... I mean- I'm pissed... but I'll be damned if I'm going to let someone who doesn't know better suffer. You do- so now your at fault...again! . .
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