but I guess I'll start calling this the land of trillionaires... ha, google and its spell checking mess doesn't even recognize the word... the irony. By fail I mean that I can't go to the library on Sunday- as the only one that is open (mind you this is a library system of 22 actual buildings, and only 1 that double dips as a college library or triple dips if you think about it.) has these awful security guards and then even last night as I was walking through the PA or Palo Alto, CA was- you know how you get those eerie feelings. I was always thought to follow those- even though I was scared of my own shadow a lot of the time- it doesn't mean that I didn't grow out of it. I did. Anyways, I was walking down El Camino in PA and I don't know why but I go that feeling, kept going only to pass two cop cars that were there with their lights on probably arresting or harassing someone they had already pegged as someone to arrest who was probably doing nothing wrong and gave the real thugs time to get by with whatever they wanted. It's a very weird place. I guess they arrested this guy and as I walked by I just told myself it was just me panicking from all the nonsense I've gone through here until that eerie feeling was still there. it was terrible, to the point that thank goodness I didn't have headphones in, i would have never heard him. Mind you I don't have a phone- the one I was supposed to get from Senter road is still in the midst of whatever corrupt bullshit that exists here... I heard that 500,000 'free' phones have been lost at 80 S market. Like, 500,000 actual phones! This is before they stopped sending them there! Who knows when that was? I don't but for a city with a population of 1 million that's purely insane. The disparities so great that they have three huge homeless shelters here, THU's, etc. (when I was released a certain program had 80 open beds, my insurance would have paid for it, and the judge monohan still wouldn't refer me!). Ok, so I heard foot steps behind me. I was like, oh no, I am not about to get killed in this awful place. So I heard the steps turned around and looked at the guy and was like 'Ummm.,,, ' Thankfully, the dude didn't expect that, he was like oh, my bad. I waited for him to pass me and then I yelled, 'I know I am not about to get mugged or have to deal with the same SJSU PD cop that I have to file charges against?! I know that isn't about to happen.' So yes, it was him! Thank god that even though I'm without my glasses I can still know whats what. I was terrified. Terrified. I literally walked backed down by adobe creek and laid down and waited until morning. I intended just to walk to Walmart, eat my ice cream i got with a gift card and think about the world- too bad that used to be when i would call my grandmother when i had a phone. Instead, I get harassed again. It was to the point I could feel him still around- people here are brought up in this area and I dare say they don't have that instinct. I am not here for no reason. It's meant to be. He literally was on the other side of this rock thing that was on the same wall that I was paralleled with crouched as I was laying on the concrete I yelled- 'you better leave me alone you motherfucker- our laws protect the people, not corrupt cops like you- I hope they deport your ass!' Thank goodness I just laid their quiet and someone walked by in the opposite direction a little while later and then I felt better. To say that last time he was around me he was in a uniform and this time he was in street clothes terrifies me. I don't think it had anything to do with those two other cop cars unless he was somehow making sure that the person they arrested was tagged as his in their weird point system of an incentive arrest and payroll. Furious! I have never had that happen! Ever- and I know it was him because when I yelled at him the first time, he stopped dead in his tracks like oh shit, he knows its me! Not like I was yelling really loud, more in a stern loud- 'no you don't' voice! I am not confident that he wouldn't have turned all the way around to follow me again had I not still been facing him when he turned around after stopping. I waited and not sure if I said you better not follow me, or said that after he saw my face.and that I turned around- last time he arrested me I had a scared look on my face and even yes, thought I was being mugged just like this time, only last time apparently he was yelling 'Hey, hey you!' and not using his siren or flashing his light like he supposed to do, as is the law! This time, he wasn't yelling, and was creeping up on me (sorry Eminem, I was listening to you on youtube, but these white parents, or latino parents, or whoever- I ain't trying to draw more attention- so let me play some edm just to offset any ill will towards me- oh wait, they don't like gays here either- I don't know... I wish the bay and I had never met, I wish San Jose and I had never met, I wish that now that I'm here I could actually help bring about change- but I can honestly say that they will probably make California it's own country before they actually change anything in San Jose- as it's just that bad, it's just that un-american and I can't believe that I'm not actually in a nightmare instead of life. They have auido equipment in the trees here that I dare say if you have facebook videos uploaded will then ping you into a system and goes there from and to who knows. It is a fact. I would never ever bring my children here as they will eventually have a facebook and when you talk in the park on the sidewalks its all saved as tagged or not- those not are saved in an amount or time long enough to be compared, validated, and replicated being run through the system as new profiles are created and new data uploaded to social media... I dare say they are heating up the ocean with the processors, servers, and storage both underground and underwater... it is literally heating up the ocean. It's not? Ok, prove me wrong! Artificial (gmo) trees that help cool the ones underground?) Yes, buying organs or transplanting them after pressuring someone that's in jail or after your awful legal system has put them there is happening! I've seen it, talked to these people, and know that it is happening! Not so they can get out jail! That would show corruption! Right? Yes! Oh you're in jail for however long, well, here instead of gangs pressuring your family the officers do as a means to get you to 'donate' an organ from jail to who knows who, not so you can get out of jail after their system put you there, but so that your family can get pennies for it. Pennies! You think someone in jail can negotiate the amount of money they should for a kidney- or do you think they are able to negotiate for their whole body? I could cry. It's to awful not to be true...a man- caught up in the system that is San Jose and Santa Clara County, who for whatever reason- is in jail and not at home to protect his family, which is probably what got him there or trumped up DUI charges or profiling- whatever. Only to have his life in jail be that the phones never work, they are always in use, the CO's keep the inmates on lock down just so they can shoot the shit and smoke and who cares- they a prisoners. I care! I care! And that same man may not have a wife or bitch or girlfriend or family that can come visit him because of wait- you can visit people in jail if you're on probation can't you? No, you cant! Didn't know that- I'm telling you! They then come at you with whatever offer they can or have and it goes from there- or you know it exists like I do and approach them with 'hey, know anyone looking for a cornea?' I don't know. But, it's not unimaginable to think that that's a type of 'suicide by cop' I heard them mention on The View! Thank you to The View! 160 people per day dying of suicide or overdoses? Holy Fuck! Cause- yes, they can have whatever they want... I hope this man negotiates or is able to. Can you imagine 1. having to follow the laws of no probation visitors visiting you behind bars, not seeing your kids before 2. that they will actually follow through and pay the money like they supposed to in a system you know to be corrupt 3. to go to the OR 'donating' your entire body as a means of creating a better life for your family... the only way you can or could or have the opportunity to and that got you in that position in the first place, then continuing to do so until the end for I dare say they would even offer someone $20,000 for their entire body. I've had to fight my fight for $200 a month in food stamp money- and it was an act of congress- in a funny way not so funny! I have to continue to fight my fight- I still havent gottnen a phone- I am not that far out there in my thinking like some may think... I'm sorry for my typos and run on sentences but I'm doing my best.
Like they also only have sccgov.org for Santa Clara County? Explain that shit to me. lacounty.gov is the LA County website. What is that? Well, I know I trust LA, and I hate this fake ass place so tell me, tell me, I want you to tell me- since I clearly can't tell ya'lls stupid asses nothin- why isn't your website a .gov website?(it might be or is probably my internet here in the library and the land of corruption.) technology was born here, so the disparities being greatest here makes too much sense!
http://santaclaraca.gov/
that website literally won't load on my computer here at the library.
https://www.lacounty.gov/
https://www.sccgov.org
it will then add this to the end when the site is opened... /sites/scc/Documents/home.html
ok- additionally... narcan nasal spray?! omg- what a way to cause a seizure! Or cover up the shit I've been talking about!
Sheriff McDonnell Announces Deployment of
Narcan® Anti-Opioid Nasal Spray to First Responding Patrol Deputies for
Use in Aiding Suspected Overdose Emergencies
I just found that on the la county . gov website which I was like, oh this is a good way to induce a seizure or holy crap not that I was overdosing at the time when I called 911 for myself- stupid I guess, everyone here tells me that... so I will agree because these are some corrupt mother fuckers. I called, asked for an ambulance, they sent cops, I never saw an ambulance or fire and rescue.... and now those idiots will be able to carry narcan nasal spray! AH! Help! This is in LA and all my issues have been here in San Jose, Santa Clara County- but still. I dare say Narcan can as equally as life threatening if given correctly! Here, the blue buses that go from eastridge to palo alto or stanford get priority at traffic lights and literally move people- yeah, straight from the private air strip to the place to get they new solid organ transplant they paid for. Hopefully- at least a billion dollars for. Considering the first actual billionaire died in the 70's- he got that real money, not that like that just appears... what do I know, I'm homeless. Why would they let me have something that neither of us can live without or something that I won't be able to live without cause that's just how awful people are- why let a homeless man live when I am changing the world?!- not my words or thought process, but.... it's not far fetched and it is happening! Illegally! Yes, I'm calling bullshit again- the organ procurement department I saw over by the light rail station on north first street is one of the reasons I call bullshit on so many things here. Including my thinking I'm on a 'truman show' version of my life. Its so stupid- yes, that i would want a billion dollars for a kidney or lung, no its not..... its stupid to think that even a trillionaire would be willing to pay that much.
I mean- they mismanaging they money if they aren't trillionaires by now- and fuck if they aren't trillionaaires cause hey- they quick fixing instead of doing right. First question post extubation from chainsmoking billionaire.... when can I have a cig or beer? And sad fact- if he bought it why would he have to follow the rules? He wouldn't in my mind- even if its third transplanted kidney!
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