Tuesday

I just got done with a meeting at the Law Foundation of Silicone Valley- I mean, what do these people actually do.  I told them I wanted to sue The King Library and she was like well we might can have the ban lifted but we don't sue, that's a different type of litigation.  I was like, well I don't care about the money- I'll give it to you if you want- I just want the bullshit to stoop because I'm not that special.  I know they have done this to others that don't deserve it and I know that they probably have even done life long bans to people that pay taxes for this shit- and it's not right.  I have no doubt that it's been a life line for many people in this city and being this is the teenage suicide capital of the world- as a county, and the sex trafficking capital of the world- the Law Foundation of Silicone Valley has no interested in doing anything about it.  Many Ms. Whoopi can come and bring the noise cause I clearly can't.  So literally this office be having all kinds of people in it, lunching and being merry- I'm not hating- but damn... at least do something.  Oh wait, you don't live here, you must be one of those that comes in on those big fancy buses from SF or wherever like a lot of people do.  Have no interest in actually doing anything other then keeping your office chair warm then heading back to your tiny house in the air that you pay over $4000 a month for and live their with a roommate.  or you own and your HOA fees are $1000 a month on top of that.  I'm not mad- I really am not.  I just wish these epople had to do what I did when I was in school.  Thank you so much to my professors for giving their hearts and souls in the curriculum they taught- cause we got experience.  They lawyers, litigators, attorneys learn about community law but are to scared to actually walk around in the jungle or walk around the storm frains by the freweway.... hey, come on with me.  I took one person to the EBT office.  I'm so serious- fuck those billable hours.  I mean they are going to get to bill Ryan White for their sucky services.... and I doubt they even know who he was... well, here you go 

    The Ryan White HIV/AIDS Program was named for a courageous young man named Ryan White who was diagnosed with AIDS following a blood transfusion in December 1984. Ryan White was diagnosed at age 13 while living in Komono, Indiana and was given six months to live. When Ryan White tried to return to school, he fought AIDS-related discrimination in his Indiana community. Along with his mother Jeanne White Ginder, Ryan White rallied for his right to attend school - gaining national attention - and became the face of public education about his disease. Surprising his doctors, Ryan White lived five years longer than predicted. He died in April 1990, one month before his high school graduation and only months before Congress passed the legislation bearing his name in August 1990 - the Ryan White Comprehensive AIDS Resources Emergency (CARE) Act.

I can't be more tired of the money suck that this town is!  Why do they get to provide services that do nothing for me and bill this program for it?  How can I fight the billing this program for it!  It isn't right.  Same thing with thehealthtrust.org - these people have done absolutely nothing for me.  oh wait- they gave gift cards and then I took one of the social workers to the EBT office- other then that nothing.  They haven't even helped me get into housing or any of the other legal stuff I've asked about.  Oh, and thehealthtrust.org pays $1 in rent per month at the Sobrato Center for Non-profits.  They probably bill ryan white also.  

Dr. Walsh as the PACE clinic- who knows what she does.  She told thehealthtrust.org that housing for me wasn't medically necessary.  What a lie!  It so is- even if it isn't available.  Part of this communities problem could be a complete lack of knowing how things work.  and I'll be the first to say that I don't know how to run a community- but I know how things work and if not, then I can tell if something does or does not make sense...  to say I don't need housing, though you and I both know I do, just because their isn't housing available is a true testament to ignorance.  My meds have been stolen so many times that I fear building up resistance to them is already evident in my labs.  Not to mention that every time I go get more all it does is create more of a money suck for this city where corruption is king.  Also- can we go back to Narcan?  How do you know they don't need romazicon?  How do you know what else they are taking as a base line treatment of co-morbidites and diagnosis' so complex that if I were an officer I wouldn't dare want that liability on myself.  Cause not only do you have to give it with caution, but one dose doesn't work.  The half life is short so that person may wake up and slug you (not literally, but I've seen it- it's like when they give the shot of Epi through the chest wall directly into the heart.... they just come to life.... that's the Narcan reaction you better be ready for.... or if it doesn't happen then do you give more?  Do you wait?  do you have a stop watch or watch to know when 5 minutes has past?  Did you turn your personal camera on?  Are you ready to hold all this up in court?), then pass right back out as the narcan has only 'eaten' a small amount of the drug and then worn off related to the 'taken by the person' drugs have half lifes way longer.  So what do you do?  Are they seizing now?  Breathing?  Yeah, go ahead give another- Fuck you dude... by now an ambulance should be there and already this scenario sounds like a money suck to me.  Please tell me it's fake- maybe those blue buses will be there faster to arrive and take the person to the ER since they get traffic signal priority... and if the ambulance and the bus are going to an intersection at the same time then who gets priority?  I don't have a clue... Bueller?  Ha to Dr. Walsh- look fool, housing is medically necessary but it's not available.  Hey, by you listing it that way then it shows the need- cause I haven't showered in 9 days.  Yeah, this place is that great to live.... now you can see how the CO's in jail have so much power cause one of the weeks I spent in jail I didn't shower then entire time their either... Yeah, come on to this place?  Ha, no- even if you love me and want to come rescue me- stay away.  Because I love you guys and I don't know what the legalities and parameters are with all this info they be gathering.  If its not secured by the government or is old technology then it isn't safe and can then be hacked or gathered or used by anyone.  Like, no one here knows what they are doing.  It's furious.  Thank you you tube for the gay flag next to your logo! So they are professional number skewers here- usually to suck more money from the federal government and programs mean to help people, only to put  it where it doesn't belong or into their city meth lab cooking project for the city workers, and then skew numbers opposite to make it look like the need in other places isn't there... I don't know what these fools are doing- but I've decided the mayor of San Jose is a terrorist.  So is his vice mayor- cause the fuck is that anyways?!  I mean- the fuck is actually going here?  Idiots

Best,

jr <3