Distractions suck- and bullying is real, hate is real.  The struggle I'm going through is real.  Here in San Jose, A City in Santa Clara County or The City of San Jose... The ones like me who come here new are targets, as are the students and any international or national that has the pleasure of enjoying the benefits of the corrution that exists here.  Things sadly are just that bad.  I dare say they push ervery relapse and addiction triggering buttion someone may or maynot even know they have.  Additionally, they further from the idea that relapse is a part of recovery- as a city wide initiative to--- if you say it's not possible that a city would cook meth as an initive to to not only create a premium product for their undercovers to benefit from and then to have a matrix or allgorythm to not only create the reason I say they don't outsource adn that aint right.  New people is new eyes and 'hmmm.... that doesn't seem right.' 
I don't think it is everywhere- if anything I think that my leaving San Jose with memoriabilia if you will- clothes, etc is the reason I was mugged there by someone from here or with ties to here.  I wish I could say that they were doing the real good of spending money as they should or i think hta they ought to.  But I dare say, they are- but as a corrupt system to further solidify their actions.  Do I think that it's odd I've had the same pattern of a skin reation/ hives/ sunburn- once.  once I had a hives reaction on my arm with a sunburn and then once without.  Like I said I'm an outlier- or am I? depends on if your from here or not and if you know stuff.  I will sadly not be like the rest and leave.  I think that's why I didn't get housing from the judge.  Because I have said- and yes, I can be and so can you. be that big where you live.  And to a corrupt system that's scary.  Scary enough to possibly try to up the murder total in LA- only, they underestimated my abilities to literally 'run like Rachel' only in place.  I told a google person I wish I could add a video here and the bitch from facebook did it first!  haha, jkjk- I should say that considering I slap like a man.  Ha!  (If I'm Rose where is Jack?)  Some how that is not and just now coming to me - only in my ow story.

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