and then after review of available resources find out/discover....
it depends on what it is... I did say earlier on a VTA bus that I felt like .org websites might not be as reputable as they once were... I do beieve that but I have no idea who polices such things. Here's what I will tell you that i know and/or think... I could not access the .gov website at the actual time when I was at the library doing so. I hate that I have to come to the library and don't have a home. I am so harping on this city and the library and I don't care if you want to say I'm not welcome or kick my foot as a means of doing whatever- yes, I do think that this is the city of libilies and bullshit. It is so far beyond here that I am literally not raising a ruccous for no reason... I just cant explain it enough how much I hate it here. I knew something was up the first time I came here. honestly I did.. It was almost like to good to be true.. and it is. I have a theory- that I literally look up what I need to but a llot of my info is old info... in that I know it to be true... it wasn't anything like crazy- I mean knowing the difference between .org and .com and .gov makes sense that the police departments would be a .org. A non-profit... however, I do and dont feel like thats appropriate... I don't see the police dept as a non-profit... it's still a .gov or government entity? I did think abou this when I was in LA and got my DUI... at the time no, I didn't blog about it becaseu I trusted the system and/or it was just a thought in my head like... hmmmm.... I think about a non-profit being 'good, reputable, and not really a place to ever cause harm.' Example... I'm going to use what is in my current com unity as it's a method for consideration in my thought process...I'm explaining because i hate this place. I do- I hate it. Some may love it- and that's fine... odds are they ahve lived here their whole lives and honestly I don't know their story and even if they are lying or not... I know and have a consisneces that I have to again make sure that I'm not in a fake reality show of a world. A round about way or the way I am or am not doing things in to say taht here- the undercover officers aren't made aware of- if you told me that when they were recruited or signed up or whatever it would be a 'new role.' If I told you ther legal system here was that of the 70's... then you would be accuate as I cant believe people have actually been homeles here for 30 years. Like, I don't know this that or the other- but there is no privacy here. I loved my apartment at 99 Vista montana, 95113. I did, I do... and I would live there in a heart beat. It wasn't an opportunistic decision- literally all of this is meant to be... I'm putting myself out there as a way that no one really knows my whole story... i mean they do and don't. Not that I lie- but if I need to be truly authentic with someone about my mental health I will be. I am, and I have been- to say that I experienced moments of insanity when I was a child here and there I think would be normal... honest I am depends on the crowd... that's normal. Have I had mental issues my whole life- with parts of the learning process and stages of developpment concerned yes and no... thats a lot for information...Like- I can't stand it. I make it about everyone else but me- and have been called as fake.... I'm not going to say I was fake ever, honest... yes. Like, the fact that I posted on facebook that I was diagnosed with HIV absolutly is and I know the right thing to do... I love facebook. Literally- I think something I have conversation with Mark Z about what I'm going through. Not that I relate or even actually know him... I know what he is to me, what he gave me, and what a mightmare he is reluctantly still the face of. I don't think he meant to create the nightmare that it is now. It was almost too perfect... but, I get it... sometimes you just do things. You could be a total asshole and have had 5 kidney transplants paid for by your dad the first actual or 1 known billionaire and then he stopped paying for them so you created Facebook or marketed it as a way to keep paying for them yourself.... I don't know. That is of course not in my normal realm of thought- but when I say in San Jose that it's convient they have tenant laws yet they have more people in tents then the apartments those laws apply to... and I dont even know how up to par they are besides that I had an apartment in San Jose that had a patio and street access- and that it is and was considered private- so any work they were going to do on it or anything to deal with it had to come with prior motive.... the eviction notice people so violated that... but my managmetn people didn't Thank you. Or to my knowledge they didn't... details to follow realted to life expereinces and why wait.... I lived at an apartment complex that had a lock on the door totally inaccessible to the outside. then one that was, and then a chain... some may or may not call that false sense of security... I totally call that a true statement and also history. That apartment to me has history.... here in The Bay Area, now know to me as The Shady Bay... I dont know that I want to say they create complexes with a door call box, and then a locked parking garage with the fobes and gates with the same only to have then another elevator or door to your hall that then also requires seperate access only to have a front door with a single dead bolt that is accessible on both sides of the door, no chain, and no lock on the actual door handle... not to mention it was like the door handles in jarrasic park... is that technolgy and thought process far out there... no, yes... (Ah! Thank you for singing to me in my ear at 3:44pm as per the ebtech03 computer/hp all in one at the east san jose library in santa clara county that has version 12.6.1.26 Itune program, a version of windows that is outdated though specifics are locked by the administrator, and 54.0.1 (64 bit) of mozilla, Version 59.0.3071.115 (Official Build) (32-bit) of . chrome, now it's 3:51pm same computer, and internet explorer 11 is, i had to write it down as I couldnt copy and paste it...version 11.0.9600.18015, update version 11.0.23 (KB3087038), Product ID 00150-20000-00003- AA459. 2013 Microsoft.... this is all of info right and wrong.. it's as specific as I need to be because neither the person who sings u2/ (put words in the victoria's secret models mouths), none of the mark's, or my heroes can actually be here, right here with me going through my fight... In my mind though- they can be... which is to either hack the system themselves... or i just gave them some validity tools to maybe put two and four together... and when they do with the details I have given them and the information that I can't see which version of windows I have and if that actual version has proper updates in stalled... well guess what...I bet that can be recreated or validated as such to say that i know what I know... and now I feel posting this... so I am and then going to keep going so that you have a current time line. I have many un-named and name changed heroes... the park here has me quoted- after this asshole came and got me from where I was ok, warm, and sleeping by a grill that was still warm only to take me over where he and one of his priends were sleeping, offered to share his blanket with me, did so, then did a 'whoa bro I'm straight' instance in buckesto park on empire and 13th in san jose would tell you that literally said out loud after having then being to tired of cold to go back to where I was, being literally hate-crimed almost-by someone offering and even coming to me and waking me up, only to have have to use my own body heat to then heat up the concrete I then forced to lay on after 2 minutes or less in his blanket on the concrete and then second blanket on himself... I was like what in the fuck is this hell hole of a nightmare... I don't know that persons intentions- but to me if I was warm and sleeping, then was put into that situation... I did say out loud 'I wish a straight marine was here cause they would cuddle with me and...' I think i also called the dude a pussy and said that if I had a lighter I would set his blanket on fire... which then made him really freak out... I don't care about the labels.. but to say someone or this system here then did so
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