The numbers and the change that comes after...

Tennessee.... and like 

if you don’t believe that hate crimes are real... take a look at TN

• So with there shenanigans I forgot to mention...
• To the voting person in senate of that state... i admire your courage to stay true to what’s becoming of an elected public servant... some of you voted in the lgbtq bill that allows discrimination as ‘present.’  
• That being said- my heart is with you and I’m sending the most protective all around stellar energy you way- I hope you pursue legal action for the nightmare that is being outed or something being a conflict as to what I don’t know... 
• but if they can state their conflicts of interest so can everyone else.  

What does that look like?

Joshua Ray, no conflicts.  Other then I’m not hating on republicans... during one administration Teflon was outlawed as it directly causes cancer- thank you!   I like no child left behind because with out it some children would have no where to go as if no child left behind wasn’t in place then those children wouldn’t be allowed in school and then what?  You got some deep pockets? Do you? Oh sirrrrr sir I see you whispering... sir I know we kept people from they tax dollars but it’s all because people haven’t been surviving as long until if recent. 

My homie is about to finish after twenty years of service- actually like probably ten to seventeen men and women I know are about to retire and a few have already come home and I’m so proud of all of them.  Seriously, I never knew that any of them were in it until I was just scrolling around and saw either the uniform or the place they live and asked... I can’t wait to see you if I get the chance... like my college friends too! Am I the only one that didn’t or hasn't served... guess that may have to change...who knows...

• Hey so yeah... about the mummy situation and recreating his vocal cords or something... so that’s awesome... so should you into the replicated cords of a 3000 year old mummy... beware...
• So I’m not trippin but like- you think you gonna summon his 3000 year old dog as well- I do wonder what that would look like...
• I know I know half the world is suspersous or respectful so they ain’t blowing... the other part has been there done that and are please please, don’t blow on the 3000 vocal cords!!! Or through I guess... and I’m like,
• You did see the one Jurassic park where the dude did the same thing... and those beasts came running with furver.  Like I be scared... and Brendan Frazier is like hmmm the movie dictates 1, 2, and 3... I know, I know... any excuse to blow on  anything other than a man.  The women loosing their choices and rights and bending over with furver, the freaking mummy is like if these fools call my name- like, this is not the century and I am not the one, and then sirrrrr sirrrr... sir, the mummy will probably be hungry and not up for learning the stanky leg.... but sir!  
• Technically the fault is in the ground of the... sirrrrrr!  Sirrr!  Was it the carbon dioxide in outer space causing climate change?  Or are we shipping American shit? Cause the option to return to sender is eff real ok!  
• Sirrrr!  I didn’t do it. Sirrrrrr oh shit one of your eyes look a little like mine- sir here’s a banana! 
• Sir! Could I get a loan?  The details we can work out after I get the money..,, ah ah ah then the deal and time for them details’ is technically as written by one man/woman trying to again, instead of suck, blow, and Swallow get one over on another man/women or group of such. 
• Omg and have you ever thought that if I could have getting legal aid- like odds are you can’t actually sue the jails or law enforcement as a lot of legal aid places ‘don’t do that!’ And I’m just saying... if that’s all the lawyer living on or about one side of town and ain’t got a clue of the struggle or tragedy or loss of life and I’m saying, I want to know, for me....  Yes for others but I’m not trying to speak for them cause they have voices, wanna know go ask! No one told me to suggest that ok by demographics and technically could be done on a individualized cellular level if born between and in a certain or at like a academic medical center v podunkia memorial or something... 
• So twenty people weren’t reported as being murdered in a neighborhood labeled or some word that means ‘fucked the fuck up and if this shit ain’t part of our history and in some books real quick and in a hurry’ then (and don’t act as though I ever want to be right in the ways I am sometimes... I never want to compromise the integrity of anything... like- the entire department of officers were corrupt and were mislabeling.... you better have that solid and not be ruffling numbers again I will be... and right when I get going and get like, I think of a effing loophole like... so those were only investigations correct?  
• And not the loss of life numbers. (If I say murder too many times it’ll become less and less readable and I know it’s the population and people who care and want to know but there are others looking for a reason to not either put these numbers out to the masses or put them out to you as the community that been the victims of all this and their or tour contacts such as like your aunt in Florida... she could readily find the numbers or also may even see news broadcasts about the years missing from the world, the universe is so upset Mercury spins backwards sometimes in retrograde and imagine acknowledging all of them on a level I don’t get to decide but I feel like if someone was meant to live until their 90’s and was killed at the age of twelve years old- that’s a total of 78 years missing from the world.  And then a 60 year old killed that was to live to be 89 as they had certain technology to know when that person was born how long their dna is projecting them to live...  so that’s twenty nine years.  78+ 29= 107 with two people and thousands more in just one place. 
• And I’ll say if other places don’t have these numbers that I’m serious will have officers and sheriffs in tears... like I’m not in a position to defend this when it’s very good police work to say that in some places with no numbers like these speaks to where they have to come from because it’s like they didn’t even care that much to keep track... but that goodness for people and honestly individuals who knew that one day their would be a Kobe (rest in peace), or a President Obama, or just finally someone to walk around crazy for a couple of years trying to literally figure out not only what I’m feeling internally but the feelings around me... I’m serious.... like that’s two people and 107 years (if my math is off I apologize but this is an example and I’m so proud and thankful that the LAPD is compiling the totals and being open about the reality and the actuality of peoples lives. Thers no way the number is goingntk be small. And if you had to go to the community for the number which I’m sure have a name and date of birth and a photo or once able... but- the recipes were spoken and passed down... if you get the opportunity to write down these names and ages from literally a person and person and person who one has A-C, D-F... and so on don’t interrupt don’t record and clicking might be to much or it could be done while cooking or multitasking a bit... I don’t know. It’s a movie and a book and it’s got my best friends name written all over it and I’m serious... but its gonna be gut wretchijh when it’s like 1 million or so years missing and not at the supper table, or graduations, or around to have the blessing of grounding them when their late or make bad grades or do like i did and drink and take liquor on a school field trip. Omg- if my dog were right here I’d hug on him or my bestie like some will do their kiddos and each others or the energies around them... I’m just saying- you may have a whole new grieving process when they can finally also... like you may  as a person so directly still like some people have no one left or around as they aren’t on this earth... husband, son, daughter, cousin...cause the energy will be different... all of a sudden or I’m not sure.  But, you may miss it even if you realize how much weight and burden you were under and I’m so sorry that you had to carry that around your entire lives like you have.  It sucks. Like, I don’t have words but I have this... grammatically imperfect nightmare and please don’t let someone tell you or use stupid words that aren’t applicable. I sugar coat it because It’s like I don’t want to disrespect the situation. See, right there situation?! The fuck!? Like the news or whomever but if you keep it quiet as it’s been done and it only comes out in a book form from one source that is absolutely something I support to the fullest. 
• Seriously, but can I just say...  it’s not a celebration... but I do feel we as a country have to stop saddening lives and memories and see it more as a celebration of life for just a that’s a healthy and what I’ve been taught is best... if it doesn’t feel right to have some factual accounts from.... on the lapd side, the matriarch side, the local doctor, or yes of course the community leaders no matter what or how they’ve called you out of your name in a sense... this could be the end of a situation and so don’t wait for the government or whoever even writes school books and stuff. 
• Can’t you see Ms. Cicely Tyson or the mother’s from the MTV music awards and Will smith and literally I know I’ve been on the bus with some people who haven’t been on the bus in years and ain’t nothing changed... so keep it as a community and then publish it.  I’m not giving up I’m just saying... it’s an idea.. ewww lemme finds out someone doesn't get broken off in the money side and had a direct connection to it all... and no, I’m not talking about me... ha!  Seriously, I have money sitting out there in my own traumas as well.  
• An itemized of sorts type of just numbers and names- seems cold but I hope it’s there somewhere. I advocate for that because 1 life, is and was too many and should be... grouped by age or however... in aa they do a countdown... the the person with the most time like 45 years clean. Then you go down from there 44. 43.  42- two people.
• Gathering information is phenomenal... but presenting it in an organized way of just ... I didn’t even know this life existed and I mean the one I’m living in now kind of.  Homeless and people dying and if not being recorded. Like what the hell... and then to find out what the total is and then in a life span total and all and it’s like a billion years of peoples lives that aren’t with us anymore? Are you kidding me... if that doesn’t change the world I don’t know what will and it has to get better from there on a natural way...
• I can ramble or go around and around the politically correctness tree until it just gets straight up a convoluted mess!

Oh yeah, slip knot. Ok bye. Hey it’s 5 o’clock somewhere right... so here goes