Omg I had to get hot sauce though!!

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From now on they are always title... 

• What to do... avenir next is the font and it’s perfect for me... thank you apple and pages.  Truly, have you seen the things you can do within some of the programs?  Just saying...
• I’m so angry- I swear I think I’m living under/in a program/transitional housing program/shelter and if anyone knows where I live... get over it.  If we don’t talk about kids dying in jails or the streets you think we talk or talked about all the (wow I was going to use the word travesty- upon ‘define’ing it I am going to not...) awful things people have been subjected to. Like
• I spent the first part of my life in a house where doors were slammed, and people yelled, and all of that. And now I’m in one again!  Being accused of locking a door I didn’t lock.  Naturally, I was having a dance party of sorts in the shower, as I didn’t know someone was moving in tonight, and get out and you feel like I’m distressed a bit and hmmm, maybe. I’ll get out for a bit...
• Here comes drama knocking on the door all angry like... when no offense the dryer door hits my door all the time. Like so does the (thank you) the refrigerator door to the wall where my closet is in the kitchen.   I’m not mad- I just keep to myself and stay in my room. 
• Chilling- listened to Coldplay and then Coldplay and the chain smokers and then the Chainsmokers... its like distractions?  No no, this, not the music, is torture.  I know no one is going to save me and I knew that as a baby. Like, I was born to die. It’s a real awful (I just had to type that out 5 times and it wasn’t misspelled! Autocorrect wanted it to say awesome, awe full, it’s like...) reality and I shouldn’t take the title of literally a favorite album that I was and is to this day besides the Spice Girls the only album I’ve ever listened to from top to bottom beginning to end in that order.  I know. I should do better but music is my safe place. If I wasn’t w a battery that states ‘service’ I would have earbuds in...alas, I am stuck to a wall again.  And not sage kinda way but a leash or maybe sadly one more thing that keeps me at home in a sense of I was at the library one time, had already used my one portable charger to charge, was at the library and all of a sudden that same cord wouldn’t after multiple outlets, one way in and the flipped and in the other way, bending the cord in ways that I know and that have worked in the past.... like, the panic was real.  
• I was like, I don’t know how to get somewhere to get a charger and I don’t have the money and I know if I told you I was at the library and I dunno the vibe was already tense for me... That may have been the night i slept outside around a place I had an appointment because I didn’t want to be late and I had my heart set on saving this place as a last resort because I got such a good vibe that I was like ok... I’m involved with these or this one but... so I waited and waited and I’m like... wtf is going on so in the effort of things getting better I went... I hate giving people the opportunity to loose a piece of their soul by lying or just being one more real business or entity that I’ve driven past or heard about that I thought helped people.  
• So I slept outside because after showing up one day at like 10:45am when the time before was instructed that intakes aren’t done until 9am.  Cool. I didn’t think that meant form a line and be in that line at 9am.  So, second time I was there at 9am but it was Friday.  They only do them Monday through Thursday. I was like ok..... so here I go... slept outside With my little shiny emergency blanket on the bike path and in one of my typical-ish type spots....
• So I had bought snacks and then peed and noticed a something... I was like damn either they good, like they good, they knew... no, out of my mind I put that d left that... and I’ve creamed it up.... literally the blanket says heats up... like absorbs sun light or light!  Holla!  I open it, it was cold, cover up, and the effing light goes out. I wave hoping for the sense of motion.... nope. But, then I was like aweee.  See people do care!  And just don’t know that the light could help keep me warmer via the blanket.... I still have it and may utilize ta-night! 
• So I go at 9am on a Monday-Friday... there early, couldn’t use their bathroom had to walk to one, and then... I don’t think they thought I was going to show up. Real surprised like...
• Then I got real sassy when they acted as though they couldn’t see me or didnt have services for me. I had changed clothes, had a coffee one too many related to nervousness and just boredom at 7am.. so 
• Ewww, I’m so thankful- there is an app called ‘Be my eyes- helping the blind’ it’s a testament to thank you... I dunno if the developer or person with the pitch saw a market and a place to money make but it’s free and people volunteer... there may be in app purchases I don’t know... ha I did make sure that it was free before I talked about it here and no I’m not getting a kickback- not that I’m hating on that... If you have that connect I’m down...but the person who is responsible brought it up in Denmark and then Dubai a on the list.... ugh, Better hurry up I can feel his reach ever so doing the opposites of making America great again and somehow deporting the app.  I hope not. 
• What? At least I told y’all it effing exists... I mean I could have kept it to myself and then you might not have ever know.... and that’s the truth though!  
• Oh heyy, you should have called or made an appointment... or I dunno.... point is I guess they expected or hoped I would show up as something more or less then I wasn’t... I was like, hi I’m josh... the person was like, ‘hey, we don’t have housing!’  I was like ‘josh... my name josh!.’ The struggle wasn’t real as I was again, hoping Ashton K, or maybe he’d prefer to be called daddy K... I dunno!  But, I sure wasn’t impressed with being called ‘we don’t have housing.’  It was evermore confusing when literally she kept getting me confused with this person ‘we don’t have housing.’  It was the realest challenge... because I kept leaving it open.. like I do so often it isn’t an excuse for someone... like all the ‘Josh’ I hear throughout  the day... that when I say ‘yes?’ Or  ‘what’s up’ or is that another hint that we are stupid as to not have a... like no person (see... could have said b***h but I didn’t!) as I was confused with mam a lot and often still am unless its ai that answers and they don’t get confused though there was a period of ‘intentional opps if there was a question and not trying to be rude.... it’s cool but to some outrageously reaffirming (as with the object being ones genderness...), or wait... the point is I will not have some of the ‘do if a true story or recount of actual events was in a sense recounted (not numbers) or a situation recounted by a software or a (ok ok so a car accident happen and is indeed caught on a traffic cam!  Score... well, look the don’t make more then like $140,000 a year or so... so... you know that’s too much I can’t be bothered by I'm trying to shoot someone instead and.... like I’m... not disrespecting anything other the lack of authority our politicians are showing over the ‘authorities’ and maybe that’s the concern... so limiting automatic weapons or gun control... does it pertain to authorities as well?  Could be, could not be, or... so I wish I had a timer and had measured the time in which I drafted this page to this point so far and the statistically speaking how many had died of gun violence since... 
• I mean I am reasonably confused as to how I’m using an apple device and the apple headphones or we buds I’m using aren't supported!? I don’t but I wish and then... he homeless why he got an iPhone anyways?!!! Such a real statement said by someone somewhere and more then once. But, just saying- I make comments like that and yes I’m insecure.... but you have no idea what people will say to people, person to person, and yes in the presence of who they’re taking about. 
• I get it, trust we both know that this person is in need of a shower and my eyes are watering also.  I said I was that person not to long ago and still kinda am.... (talk about a way to... get a funny face and end what could have been a conversation that I... I don’t think that rude of me? But, it’s hard. Like even in sub group like I am now of people who don’t have homes... or a home... wanna talk about someone who doesn’t want to be in that situation and just got there!  Haha, not trippin as I wish and hope there is something available to us after but literally- its like people look at me as if I’m connected. Im serious. You can sense those that to me... like with the eyes, and anticipatory body language and I guess that’s the persuasion stuff I hate.  They have videos about it me that’s why I have to pray about not having nightmares before bed!  I’m like- ohh miii gahhhh I didn’t even know- and I don’t feel like I was sheltered... and I guess I should say I was... having a job and working doesn’t mean I wasn't sheltered i guess. And then look at how confusing that could be- no I wasn’t homeless growing up I’m using sheltered in a sense of protected and shielded.  It’s so confusing to think my whole life until college I never knew, read about, talked about, or was informed about.   (It’s stressful. I guess I thought that ended or was a part of history related to the ninja turtles and April and what was that dude splinter and the foot?  Or some body part... I dunno!  Omg and it was a mouse!  Dang if that doesn’t click like a seat belt I dunno what does!  Omg!). See I’m telling the truth!  I was trying or meant to help this the whole time... better hurry up and get some actual dollars also in these peoples hands and ok not working, some are able- but are in a society and country where McDonalds has standards Mr./Ms. judgmental! 
• I totally judge sometimes and that’s ok- but for me to think ‘oh I do prefer Rigorous honesty over Brutal honesty!’ and then also have, that would be a female on the sign with those words’ as a ‘I’m sure can’t even get janky with me over it bc a woman probably approves and did the head nod of stelllar work self!’ and all of that is ok, perfect, and not a problem.  Me putting in a blog... ummm that’s cool and this isn’t even judgmental on a scale of zero to holding a sign ‘faggots burn in hell change your ways’ in the middle of West Hollywood as I’ve seen (which would be a seven I guess...).  But, it’s the actions on the judgements and I am so glad that I don’t care I put it right here.   Hope the world gets better and... even omit my profanity as I’m able... but to me that’s almost a defamation or self kind... ‘oh I don’t judge! I don’t judge...’ imagine dragons has a song for you!!! They be like... ‘I’m a... wait for it... I wish the title wasn’t BAD LIAR! So that when it ‘‘twas goggled the shock value would be there but alas the title is respectable.... (no idea why the “ is present a few words back?! Like I didn’t do it!

Ok, I’m like almost home from target and ever so happy I could do something nice- because for awhile that wasn’t possible besides a word of kindness... so...  picking up where I left off tomorrow will be easier as I’m going to copy and paste and put it at the top of the new one for tomorrow! Old dog here... and girl watch out! Ha, I got a new trick!