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My heart is... 

can I use full... like my heart is full from seeing the of the American shit in between everyone and productivity... not to mention like...

• Ok so I believe that people know... come on they totally know... like, have to... 
• for there to be a level of American shit that makes it ok or like what kind of billing code does this get.... so you divorce someone, change your name, make up, and then remarry?   Furthermore to keep from having someone like me who is gonna either laugh in your face or call you on your shit you end up with more diagnosis from the stress and anxiety of having to keep up with lies and bullshit you’ve created?   And then have the nerve to get crazy and pick a fight with me over your criminalities associated with the name previous of the one that is supposed to be a fresh start?  

Like- I hate to be like this...

• I know I know....
• Literally in passing the ‘African American museum’ I can literally not roll my eyes far enough with the ‘well we don’t have a museum!’ Ugh, I dunno but the ummmph people get from the associations between a republican administration and the shit they believe or subconsciously permit themselves to say... it’s a lot. 
• Maybe that’s why I’m like so opposite yet kind of the same?  
• It’s shocking... Literally there is a museum holding the evidence safe and sound of the shit various people and communities and cultures have been subjected to and still the people at the top are like... what museum?   

• -how to:
• I can’t remember and if I did it wouldn’t be from a first responders stand point but I’ll say that there is a technique to waking someone up.  I think it was like nerve or pressure point in nature... like, you’re knees, elbows shoulders... one of them is a fight insinuation and the other is a like Im not here to hurt you type spot.  
• It’s not that I’m hating on it... but there is trainings on it... I know it was taught to me by nursing education dept staff at hospitals and then again by my co-workers... i don’t think I’ve ever been kicked waking someone up but I will say that in a situation like on a train or bus the person sleeping isn't in a peaceful bed like in a hospital... but has probably been fighting sleep or had a long day or night at work ya know... so probably no matter what the startle is always going to be there. What I’ll say is that the way you approach someone is the way they wake up... just saying.   Like, wake them up with confidence yet a peaceful nature- and I dunno... 
• like there should be a training or something you guys do right? I’m sure that the population has changed or molded over time to what it is now... though I can say that just like six years went by faster then I think I’ve ever had a slam of time go by in my life...haha that I can remember.  
• If you havent done trainings like that then I an advocate for that. I dunno, make a list of topics you wanna know... if I knew any of you guys I’d ask and post it but I don’t... like to be culturally competent it totally has a huge impact on just why people do what they do and I know that it probably hasn’t been done in homeless people... or maybe it is or has... if not I’m sure, as a nurse, I’m sure that there is a resource at a nursing level of just basics do’s and don’t’s.
• Like the navy uniforms or the is it beige and green et al... like, there is a stigma and bias there.., it’s probably not any of your faults directly but the situation of reinstalling trust is not an easy one.., and it may not be something you’re interested in but it may make your life a lot less agonizing...
• Omg so this one time... I asked out loud ‘did you know there are poeple that can throw their voices? What are they called?’
• Ventriloquist... 
• like, I’m so annoyed- and like, I will day like all the like’n time I want... I’m so annoyed with like (like= for me is I hate (and yeah I do mean hate...) someone who thinks they are more than, of greater standing as to not even acknowledge (like the example of how trust for some is so not there for some colors as that’s their trauma and right.... but then someone who hasn’t had that struggle to wake up to or send their family members off to defend something that is then abused by yes.... A white dude (dang I know now the eff people are taking about... it’s hard to call someone out when they behave just so damn jankey that it’s literally hard to accept even in just that but then for that person to actually have the balls or the skewed sense of self as why would you even do that.  It’s the opposite of the woman who doesn’t trust that what a white person is telling them to do is correct... (could the ones of you that are incognito as a homeless person or actually spraying foul ass scents on the metro or on a person as youve done me... stop it!) for a white man to in a sense do the same thing it is not ok!  Like why would you leave anyone out... and I know we all struggle like I said ewwwwww I’m already fearful for the time my kiddo comes home taking about someone took something from them or have to kiss or bandage their knees cause someone pushed them or... shit isn’t that a struggle of enough?  The answer is yes. Yes it is
• But what that struggle is and combined with the fears and real life nightmare that’s been the reality isn’t something other then just crappy blog writing, or the energy that was hanging over all of us- all of that was in each of our daily lives but isn’t the threats of actual danger and potential loss of life that is in every step and every breath of people that I didn’t even know existed. 
• For me, not knowing what I know now... I effing feel . Gyped/jipped.  There is a whole other side of nursing and then nursing plus a masters program on top of my degree that I could have pursued before even actually starting my career.  Hindsight right?  Well, look to your behind and hope that all the disrespect you’ve shown entire branches of like public health, business, and not to mention nonprofits with the information mismanagement of allowing people to be kept in the dark... how many boomers knew a ventriloquist compared to the people below them?  Double or nothing unless you know someone who can actually throw they voice then.... there may be a regional knowledge surplus or deficients- as I do feel that just doing things for those in the know is really evil, I know there I go.... you’re right sir!  Sir! Sirrrrrrr omg it is illegal.  Sir, the journalists know, I know, we allll know sir that they finger forward has there pointing straight up at your grill... cheese.  
• Sir sirrrrr.,, I do hope that you at least paid double per word for the con auctions of the ‘fake news’ or what’s that word... feelers or distractions because if like there are 25 people who are to deliver the poeple and then the young future leaders of the world and in whatever way that looks like to them... so 25... then 10 or 15 are in your pocket.... ohhhmiiii gahhhhh can you believe I just put some of those people in a pocket... like wow.  Better that then a jail cell or p p p prison but there’s much to be dealt with at least Ms. Winfrey went and Inspired the ones to start the decode off nce the house is clean!!!! Girl I know, the homeless white dude with a cussing problem no income and a credit score of 500 take a few tens of a points away and eahhhhh no credit and no home and he making a.... uh huh.  
• I really hope that the person that someone worked so hard to get out of prison after a sentance was bananas unfair and literally bleeding racism and bias and all the while the criminal justice system has a smirk as it pertains to confidential inform stds or ci’s or like a... it’s so not a set up. I don’t know if the person was actually inside on a day by day basis or if the sentance was like a wait and see what happens in a sense of the person out but then along came a stranger who cared enough to get a random person out of what is a hell on our earth and in our country... the concern is I’m not going to tolerate that good work and just out of the ordinary catalyst for change to be muffled or ‘well you know the person that got out really wasn’t a real but was one of us’ kind of a inside joke to people who watch others fight and everything else that goes on.  Don’t worry-literally should that be the truth... that’s one hell of a ‘are you effing serious?!’ real factual testiment to just how much revenge sex or pounding out some laws or gavels...
• I don’t know... what I think of this... but this is my official denouncing or Un-claiming  my Christian faith... I’m taking up Mormonism as a gay man... and my five husbands are brothers and I could give a shit show of a presidency that wiped out an entire almost entire culture... literally Literally literally you’re going to have a fright.... 
• I’m so pissed.   who think I’m getting inside information..,, it’s fucking true. I am receiving inside information. From a couple of times zones to the East...  that’s all. Enjoy ok.