Now, ain’t no excuse for late buses...

Oh geez eventually, I’ma end up tweet tweet tweeting via a blog blog blog...

Stellar day today...no wonder I was so attentive!!!!

• Speaker Pelosi and the House of Representatives voted to...
• Repeal the permissions for war in the Middle East... 
• should any actions be needed... they must ask Congresses permission and approval...
• Ew let me find out.:. Asking such permissions isn’t a fucking phone call in the middle of the night...it’s the most hell of a thing to do... and requires... oh wait... here’s 
• Here’s to starting what you finish... omg, eighteen years!  
• If you don’t believe in something greater then yourself or a person... this is a higher power type of motivation and stamina and omg!   This is the first time in history this has ever happened!  

And to think someone said it had all been done before!!! Isn’t it time for a...

Omg last one for today...

Two super bowl slots during the game all up in it like... I swear if he it the new Pepsi person or Coca Cola person as a he gonna sue us so let’s just... as ain’t never really had a dude... and may I just say Justin Timberlake brought sexy back and then nick and then nick and then Adam and the marky mark ohhh miii gahhhh and then holy moly here come effing Ricky martin and pit bull and every fine ass construction man i see working so very hard... and putting buildings together and holding this country together... so... when your taking up space where it’s meant to be about football the only thing that is the states and Canada unique..... so I will say... please do not use a world stage as, you’re all ready the impeached... anyways the two slots are now something to look forward to...!  Omg! How about a wardrobe malfunction and no... this will be the first one I’ve watched in five years... or so... I know that I could have probably found somewhere... but the alone time for even those couple of hours... mad me feel like a normal person.. in a way not being followed by others without knowing why...

What’s next...

Omg... I totally forgot!

so I did forget to wish Ms. Winfrey a Happy Happy Birthday!  I cannot believe I said it out loud while noting something... I was like duh!  Omg, it’s totally Oprah’s Birthday!! It was in the afternoon around or on or about... Happy Birthday!! 

• Did you ever think...
• that like the humblest of us all don’t know or realize how powerful or just how much they mean... I watched her on Ellen in jail naturally... everyday... I know... it’s like I do love Ellen but not that there were a shit ton of people there but do you think that that same problem Ms. Haddish had of getting mail to you others do as well. Was it an invite or crash or was it at?  I dunno. But, it’s nice that you all showed up.
• Is there etiquette. I was informed as someone who couldn’t get married at the time going to a wedding at least one hour in advance is best... I dunno why?  Though who knows and how is it? Like traffic? To not steal the thunder or I dunno. 
• But I hope it was a get together... and I dunno if you had fun or not this year... but it’s the start of a decade and I do feel you get at least a bit of a grace period. 
• I dunno if that’s proper... to know what grace is and then apply it to what I know in regards to money and a mortgage and also credit cards there should always be a grace period. Or a time in which the bill isn’t actually late even though it’s due on the first... it’s like, two weeks usually...  so the thought is grace is the thought that in current times you can ask for forgiveness and know that your mistake is forgiven no matter what and no matter how many times or the severity technically... it’s like... that sure doesn’t add up... a statement of owing verses forgiveness?
• Oh! I do support the United States House of Representatives today as they vote to repeal the permissions for war that was granted when I was in high school!  10th grade or sophomore year... freshman, sophomore, junior, senior. It’s like 9, 20, 11, and 12th grades re respectively meaning all in parallel or both references to the one point of naming a grade the two lists are associated as the first and the first or 9th grade and then freshman, so I know it says man and now men... but that is indeed one of those I don’t know... that’s just how it it is spelled.,. Promoting individuality at a crucial time. 
• I am going to be ecstatic and so thankful should we as a country and by the leadership of the public servants who indeed are voting their hearts in the house of reps and yeah!  It’s going to be the way to start not only a decade but I hope that and cannot support the idea enough to never ever give permission to go to war again... can you imagine that only in death are we ever like humbled snd like... it’s like a reset... or a moment of clarify or something... I cannot be more happy and supportive and I do wanna urge you to not repeal but revise for the permission of war to be no more, and this is the care and concern aftercare and supportive services in a wrap around and well rounded manner- the permission to go to war is removed and no more... the taking care of our people and showing concern and respect... the repeal might be a loophole. The timeline should remain and a revision or cease fire does... repeal versus revisions Ir Uniate? The drones in the air.... are they under a specific protocol... trigger words are a nightmare. So lease consult the Air Force and the navy and whomever else is involved... to make sure that if someone hyjacked or hacked a system that the drones would just fly off the handle or go bat shit crazy or let anything expel out of them or whatever-  no no no. They are to..., something in a peacefully manner. Like, if that a wasn’t built in.... then... remember space cowboys?
• Has anyone thought that a dog eating homework and the money for the homework or the supplies for a project... like that may be a kiddo not wanting to burden but showing the future leader inside... 
• I don't make promises anymore... I promised someone something once- and here we are... so I’m going to do everything I can to think and just be of service no matter if from a foreign country or a neighboring country... or on holiday.  Like- I cannot have those barriers not be removed. Especially when it’s the start of a decade... I think we get a year to get our perspective and consideration efforts truly the meat and potatoes of the goals and tasks and barriers and after and then the reassessments... everything needs a start and end as a loan has and a need for reassessments or evaluations or needs assessment... meaning... if no issues and all is well... then.., an evaluation yo confirm no escalation of support or barriers have been made known or presented themselves once the bill goes live.., this would be specific to the what its about... like how long does open enrollment last and then absolutely no changes unless a qualifying event... and that’s for planning and budget and future tripping of sorts... but ok fine lol can’t tackle it all at once...

Omg a family member straight up said they aren’t buying me a Mac.  I was like- to just do so or not because of my preference is just so not what I’m willing to tolerate and also I earn and people earn everything good that comes their way and the giving something to someone... is not to be a person with a dog and dog you... Don’t fake out the dog.., like the not high enough as you move your hand so they can’t get it even though they looked and assessed and wiggled and like a golfer concentrated and then jump to get the toy or treat... and the mean ass owner lifts their hand making it a miss.  Not cute, but gotta learn ya know!!  ;)

Did you know that we are doing the most here and some states have no emissions testing or public transit and furthermore no pro football teams

Omg I’ll post tomorrow also...

mr. zuckerberg... I do, i do, I do hate to tell you this... but I do believe in this election facebook was used as a pawn and now the onslaught associated with president trump... 

ohhhh mmmiiii gahhhh

• If I didn’t mention the last blog… I feel like feel like public charge is a direct attack at California in a way of largest borders that aren’t the United States... and then we got the ocean...Like you know that’s where they where they were going to on the Titanic.  Ohhhhmiiigahhhh the yanks (not my word but from a movie...)have now changed the current of the ocean and then there is ‘el neo’ or whatever the weather phenomenon is that changes things... like, geez. 
• So nothing is free in this world, there is advertising involved and remember once you have a product, make a product, and then are ready to sale your product in comes public policy which is kind of like public health or lol this other stuff.., like, a product sold here is different then a product sold elsewhere in that things must be American-ized. 
• He puts so much history into this post... and some of it I have to disagree on... he tells of violent events being captured by Facebook as to not post it and then alert authorities of such... that being said... in my situation or situations has any of them been recorded and not posted... and if posted were the assumptions that the enforcements called or notified would help?  Cause they didn’t and having hiv got me arrested and then at their mercy further.  And is the person that posted it aware that it wasn’t posted... has blog ever not been posted?
• Yes I deleted my Facebook, but also all others as well... my blog and Facebook saved my life... the problem is that I didn’t and wasn’t calling on the right or correct  people. In the states we associate the right and correctness... just we use i mean instead of Just correcting the misunderstanding.  Like I mean didn’t mean that I’m mean or and can also how else can that be taken the average, a persons behavior, the correct a misunderstanding, like what I mean to say is... and then what I didn’t say was... and further more...
• I was again, rude today... I didn’t even consider that someone would be working tonight and... disturbed them anyways... then I am in shock that I still can’t even process all of it and I Hope hope hope that mr. zuckerburg is ok and didn’t get court marshaled or something.  I think to put military into roles that can be controlled by military order isn’t ok. I’ve never made it that high to know if I am going to eventually have to give in and be controlled but I’m not military and i don’t look at it as controlled... I don’t want to have them contemplate about my saying that in meaning they don’t have a voice or aren’t relevant... because they are... like that one movie...
• So here’s the deal... I’m concerned.... and it’s weird how far down it goes... so for instance a person who is a nurse and works in the states and is from a foreign country or from parents who are or I hate being pc... I hate political correctness and I even tried to make it politically cognizant or to be politically conscious of things and that didn’t work... but that’s a whole different story... some cultures re held and hold themselves at such high standards they have a hard time in computerized documentation... when a facility and even pharmacy has had to set time lines around time... that’s what it means to me... I’m serious... where as yes vitals are to done at 7pm... but when I was a tech... it took and hour t least to do vitals and that was a good night.... at least like an hour and a half but they are 7pm vitals... so how exact are you supposed to be? Like is that a category? Or functionality? Or them not wanting to acknowledge the time in which it takes to complete a small thing like  that? Or?
• Omg do you know or remember the Polaroid picture... you know shakin it all the way up a hill... oh that’s OutKast and the album with Rosa parks the song on it... did you know that I didn’t even know that song existed until about two years ago!. I wish I listened to every song but I’m a singles kind of guy... the ones that are released...  
• and the 2000 calorie diet and the food groups are a sham or a mess. Like, not everyone is supposed to eat that way... if that’s so,.. it would count for everything, not be a hierarchy and also... would not be evermore present or required at or in hospitals, homeless shelters, shelters, gov funded places or entities or ones that give for the understated over emphasized diet requirements of the government.., or the suggestions. It so convoluted in the directions and the instructions and the how’s to and then the overload of information and then the fraudulent info and I’m telling you... the only way in which... like if Donald trump isnt a government sham like a drone of a wax museum replica... then he, and McDonald’s, are the ambassadors of the world... like and is trump like a catch all? As in Ramada, Hilton, Kipton, Hyatt, four seasons, et al...?  I can’t help it... it seems like a fairness of getting people to stand for something.. or to identity all the bigots in the world... and then all the progressives oh and here go your draft documents real quick like... I mean geez
• Hey, I will fucking say it.  Yes I will and I forget to... because I’m so not wanting to leave from the dream, wake up, and I like am not ready for the count down of when it actually starts... everything has an actual start point right? Correct... so we still have to figure that out. 
• Like public services are to be built around the needs you meet the needs, and are proactive in nature of planning for more, and also planning for what’s to come like...me saying that even when hiv is eradicated... as in a president that still sees it as a gay thing... think of this.. the right to disclose and then the group that doesn’t like to fight or be mean and is all about love... gay people are all about love... I’m a man who is gay and so I can say that I as such disclose and probably shouldnt... but mr straighty over there... don’t think that me straighty won’t find out or the other way around or who cares... if this was the basis for cheating or the how could you part... combined with the possibly of knowing and then kinda causing something or... a oh I found out he/she has it, and I sleept with him way back when and even did a diet soda... soda I know.. that and Gatorade and water kind of.. all we don’t import in a way... I go back to this all the time.. if we tell the truth I’m sure that... what we say or tell our people, versus what the actual people are taught and then told, and  then word of mouth and then... it would make a funny funny funny show.... but then people gonna find out and then there hide and seeking and then... I don’t know....
• So just a thing... you know pbr... professional bull riding.. did you know they wrap rope around the bulls balls and give it a yank as the gate opens...??!  I’m for real!  
• Has wrong person and a school grade and getting held back vs getting slide sled or slid or... I don’t know... its too much.. but I don’t know... and then...and I’ll be so mad...see. 
• You combined our nightmares of real life and then their technological advances... like everybody from the titanic got saved... but days later... and days later.. cold water... I dunno... I’m sure that’s where the dont leave someone behind comes into play... and the need for must have a ticket or I don’t know... could have been the first big ship making all that noise and an octopi got it... but like... if civil rights can’t be brought to court as in me myself and I have so we want to discuss even with just legal people... can’t do it... and to me... like eventually... this is going to get above our heads and we don’t have and I don’t have.. as in the locked doors in jails or in the court room holding tanks that are new... so scary.. air tight and so scary.... to the point to where you have to push a button to be heard to the hallway... the only reason they know you need toilet paper as that’s the most excercise some get... is because they are actively listening and watching and seeing looks at who and with what blah blah... it’s not leverage... it’s not ok. And see now you can think I’m crazy again! Yay!  But should anyone tell him that he was or is ever a problem in my life or anything like that... I will not make a threat... but just know he hasn’t done anything but good and has brought me to life more times then is fair... in a sense of literally or just in my mind and as courage... he hasn’t made an regressions happen or made me the stay at home self that I am currently.. and if and when I get to finally tell him all of this... I won’t even say that it was a funny coincidence that when I got to the lazy point or the whatever.. the loophole of out of options and resources that a lot are at... that ... anyways... I love you

Have a good night and a starting point and a time stamp please

Oh and 60 sixty Thompson and sferra and like no one tells you the sheets of a hotel and all are why I want to live in one for ever like coco Chanel did!  The movie!  It was controversial to wear hats as a woman or man...

Oh! Tennessee and the no contest or the present and then outing or not someone and the coverage in between... welcome to some actors lives and the government wanting to know?!?!! Geez!

I hope to be of this word- I’m saying to

because talent is talent... and Mr. Mark spoke to the power of a voice and free expression...

it’s a form of expression and... (y’all I cannot have more admiration for these people out of this world brilliant, ‘rich,’ ‘cliche this and cliche that’ (not my words but you know... ‘oh they a billionaire they do to know how to flush a toilet..’ surely by now (it was now then changed to know... and now I changed it back...) to them and my referring to them like that they know it’s in a sarcasm bleeding though the page of what people believe, I believed, I’ve overheard or been told, or just that devils advocate type voice in my head that helps me consider things... and also speaks to the diversity of the people around me and throughout me...cause the ones I’ve been around here and there... know my admiration... totally felt I hope but not always shown or in an obvious way...but all of that extraordinary... somehow, thankfully (back to mark...) in this speech he could not be more of this world... it’s like... you’ll see...Ima listen to it to (like right now in mah shower.... then having a dance party)! But you know it was slow and slow and then go for me in the beginning so I have to read and then listen and preferably with the actual recorded video of the speech in this example... like read it then watch it or whatever. The same thing applies to a lot of the greats. Oprah, Mr. Z, and Dr. Angelou, and Sally Field (like, to be accepted by your peers is an awesome thing...I don’t know is the never won one means not accepted or what....I don’t think so... but you came a abahgillion dollars and not be nominated so... anyways...), Jane Fond (academy awards- its my favorite), and others, many others...  no I don’t have a place, I don’t watch anything still (ci’s be camping at the tv, when I’m here the tv be in and occupied as a multiple instanced occurrence of a theme of not always but sometimes and certain people... remember six years!!!  

• Like, when are we goin gun to stop censoring art because I’m just saying... the conflicts of people can be very diverse... 
• yes, someone once said that they literally wanted to pick up a paint brush and paint... and they were like unable to function because that was their creative outlet or the one they needed at that time... and couldn’t cause the effing store was closed!  
• Amazon see what you did!  You created a free will situation of an option when there wasn’t another and then.... and then... and then... you had to go and offer same day effing delivery... like... then out of all things tyrannous are then attacked!  Is there a like a something... cause I know you’re under attack in more then one way... like, the amount of undelivered yet deluged and then watched per something and then verified by and then and then even then still resent....
• Something I thought of but was like you know, this is crazy already and my desperate as* isn’t trying to do things like that when it’s already so just much much much more of an issue that would be a person or propel or families in homes on a block or blocks of a neighborhood.
• It’s got to be... my bus pass.... 
• the H&M. Delivery I got that had to be reshaped thank you h&m for picking up that add charge and then the post man and this and that... 
• it went to 27 different places before it got here via usps or ups.  How is that effective other then just in a dry run situation of the sheriffs transporting inmates needlessly to get the transportation reimbursement but yet wasn’t a need in the first place which is around  $400 each way... feds I do believe that’s your bill... it needs to be paid cause we’re over here doing the least and charging the most and have to ughhhhhh and ughhhhh and hummmghnghggg make all this noise of a passive aggressive complaint tomorrow when we do the same thing with un/not-mirandized (we were trying to phase that out to be honest) good people! 
• Omg to the shark and the asexual reproduction phenomenon of a female shark in the crib and after sometime... they thought they were seeing double but alas life will find a...  a way or a way to a joke!  Cause- ya’ll watch this... they don’t ‘do’ that in the states and a republican administration... omg they cloned the shark, put the shark in the crib with the original or the offspring cause that’s not a false concern when I’m like... looking at a shark and shark and... we wonder why they so angry sometimes?!  Did anybody ask the shark prior to cloning itself and what if it wasn’t in the best mood at time of clonage specimen collection... like I got stuck and was already in a mood and still am dizzy ass hell from swimming in circles and now I have to just look at myself! And confused and I know... like, th at ain’t cute!
• I see you climate change... the ass and the hault are like!  But the pot and the kettle hold water but I as a black road or asphalt hold... ummm... hold heat? Or? Radiation from da sun? Or? Not in all places but in some... and we had this problem w tar on roofs and then got the black roofs or shingles that don’t absorpt heat but then whatever bounces off me and sticks to you or does it just be a back and forth of an argument and I’m just saying... the sun hasn’t always had mood flares!  Like... keep dusting and you might get a sneeze from the sun instead of a little sniffle!  I don’t know... 

• Oh since you made the announcement I thought you were... crap!  Think he’ll be ok with  me coming and then I mixed up who to be respectful to before just showing up without calling first! Gah!  Promise to have a chicken finger to take the edge off my caffeine naive system and what is my new French pressed morning routine... if I remember that I should start my day with a coffee!  Oh wait! That’s myself, in my own way again! ;) 
• I know an email should not sound like this... a text ok... but an email... not so much!! Or whatever... it may skew some though because it’s not typical behavior ya know... point is... one more example of like... the creating a loop hole in regards to destroying some ones chances or their name or whatever... it is defamation of character because it’s obviously purposeful. (Oh see, can’t ‘they me’ if I crafter my sentence around not using ‘they’ but then they and they and who they... who dat?  Who...? It’s like the why? 

• So British airlines is suspending all flights to China. The first to do so!
• so the flu somehow kills 35,000 Americans Americans each year... this year 15 million are sick and 8,200 dead.  
• Today has been like a new day... or at least an amazing one not characterized by my normal behaviors as someone just took up an issue- someone was being aggressive as like a part of a multi person assault on my mental and physical well-being and responses.
• I literally just had a person over for the first time.  And I choked for second... it could have been a setup and even if that is the case it’s the first time it’s ever been done since I started going through this... I feel like Charlotte York needs to be making a scene at a restaurant or something on this metroTrain being like... this is the first effing time someone has intervened or put a stop to or said one thing.  
• I’m not surprised at the demographics cause a person is a person but I’ll say he was either black/African Mercian/latino-black/African American.... or latino... heres the deal... 
• we’re on a metro filled with people and it looked a little awkward a man telling a younger man to stop it. 
• Gosh I am so like full of something... now I feel like I’m making a difference... i know I know.... let me n minimize ones good work or also how influence and inspiring and reassuring and  grounded my sense of self..... reaffirming and such.... omg. 
• It wasn’t a set up but I had to account for no one ever intervening even in that scenario if a supposed to be the reality of my life if only I wasn’t so good at calling those out so well
• Freedom of expression... where supply has the uninhibited limitless capacity to meet st surplus the demand and 
• So in LA I love that the metro the buses, the trains, and the dash are all scrolling ‘RIP Kobe.’  I dunno if it was said or mentioned anywhere else but it’s thoughtful I don’t want anyone slamming the metro for putting that up there because he played for the same team, in the same city, for twenty years! ... the buses always have ‘Go Dodgers,’ ‘Go Clippers,’ or ‘Go Lakers.’  I do hope that acknowledging versus endorsing isn’t going to be an issue here. If so- please don’t settle!  
• I don’t want to be annoying... but like, where is it written that certain entities within certain countries or areas can or can’t prescribe certain things... like, midwifery et al is not legal in some states!  Ah!! I just saw that in Alabama it’s now legal as per a decision in 2017 the first license was issued in 2018! Omg!  See there I go being irrelevant...or not up to date... see that’s me being used for good I feel/think.  But, in ways of public charge
• So there are microphones and speaker systems that in real time transit the sounds from out your door or window et al and then that way all those sounds can be removed more readily as a separate entity on a recording versus the sounds in one recording.  Another tool of the.... like that’s great for movies and film and cinematography.., however, it’s bullshit when DVD’s and all of that only exists for porn. Or the taking it out of theaters... and then the so if in a court room per se... a recording shows someone in a room talking themselves and in reality is stating he indeed was hearing and talking to people... like wasn’t just saying yes. For the sake of yes.  Or for no reason but as a response or not a response or I don’t know because he doesn’t remember as was a normal day and then the entity or an entity removed that party that the yes was directed to.... it’s fucked up. Cause if a system like above you could even be hearing this is real time and still have that party removed as a receiver et al is a relay station of sorts but not a pass through 100% or isn’t like a must... but stipulations is holding certain things back totally optionable and can be individualized... (one more example of a ‘your worth it’ and how things can get misconstrued... and I’m the person who open says I do this but not at total fault of my own when I have looked things up to double check like the Supreme Court process I’m curious of, or details or facts about celebrities or et al... and been fed wrong incorrect illegal word here to be inserted as it is a crime... could guide me down a path of thoughts or beliefs that when minor details like that add up to either people thinking I’m crazy or invalidating me or making it so people have a problem or am disrespectful or something like that... why?  Like? Why?  But I can’t concern myself with the why’s like that because I dunno,  not my job not my distraction not my waste of time... just doing me and trying to...
• Like how did the Supreme Court votes 5-4 to approve public charge on Monday- I guess Texas knew ahead of time the results since they said last week they literally were not going to allow immigrants or asylum seekers or refugees into their state! And now The Supreme Court- the federal one that has a justice not present right?! Or is he doing double duty...?  It literally, again is an attack on California... like we have the greatest perimeter of not our country and that of our country... mam... mammmmmmm, mammmmmm I see you!  I haven’t forgotten about Alaska! Duh!  Technically, I haven’t forgotten about the territory’s either? Which is weird... like, why are we trying to grow?  Do we really need more people to screw over? Or do commit injustices... especially after they’ve served in our military?! Like President Trump has done?  
• Public charge we do to people outside our country who are applying for green cards... for forget that some people not born in a hospital but could be my age... what’s their process?  So they have to get a green card and take a test et al? Or do they then or now are they at risk of deportation?  And to where?  And is that leverage or a... like, citizenship as a bargaining tool?  Are you for real though? I’m totally for real about saying that’s some American shit right there!  
• So I don’t know how the Supreme Court system works or what their process is?  I’ll have to be curious... until I learn about it... I can yes read online... but the confusion of Government websites and Mozilla not being compatible... as a website and then a browser... that means so if the site or what youre viewing on that page when clicked all bad sometimes as the link or page don’t follow the same standards or legitness that the next does... so I’m just saying... Its not that I don’t trust anyone... I mean, I do and I don’t... here and there... but like, I make other nervous when I go places sometimes... just cause of everyone else... me and the other person just trying to either get or keep their shit together both end up a little more nervous or on edge as... shit just got weird all of a sudden.  It be like, someone deodorant shopping everything cool, then I walk up, everything cool but maybe he looks not so at home shopping and is a little nervous... makes sense neither is had deo to put on this morning hence the need and hence the nervousness.... but then shit just got weird all these people are obviously like around this person, taunting kind of, having convos within their sub group of the group that just caught up and huh... that’s weird... then some seem nice... but shit just got weird so lemme go!  Like, I hope I don’t deter business from places. I went to lemonade. It’s so good.  You just feel better... but then a housemate is commenting very loudly about how he went to dinner and ‘can you believe I spent xyz on a burger!’  Like, that’s the total I spent and loud enough to be directed and associated and to either inform me of what someone else said about me, or to like ‘whatever’ me?!  I dunno. 
• I have a new blog coming or an addition or something possibly in the works as a new stage or fresh start or something that is and will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done with another and it will be amazing... it will.   I know I will. We know it will. They know it will to... but, it’s not something that I’m fully able to do currently and that’s my apprehension... because of all of this like my record, job- lack of, money- lack of..., and I’m so scared because I don’t know and I care... I don’t ever just leave... I’ve always intended to visit and randomly like show up somewhere I’ve been to shop or lunch or reminisce....  or are friends... and seriously... but, haven’t ever been able to yet kind of... because of all of this... and often as with a lot.. if a duh to you then a huh to me it will be probably..,.. I’m for real though!

Started on Tuesday... competed and posted today -and. A little here and there... 

I love you 

Don’t watch me and think think we were acting weird as in you’ve made in an us situation without me knowing... but feeling... duh

I’m saying to be of this world not like worldly or materialistic.... but in reverence to their knowing about the world on very real and impactful ways... seeing tragedy, beauty and whatever else in between or above and below and putting themselves out there to be the duh to the hug’s! And it’s called change... you know I was bitching about something... and someone wanna bring up Jesus and God... I was like.... I don’t know that he agreed with everyone in his time.,, but um... (no, I’m not like or have that self belief about myself... but that’s a cute little way of how I’ve been showing my ads since the first breathe or kick or whatever my first sign of independence was in a... open this door open this door kind of way... (ha!  Imagine a cutie pie of an animal you like, excited to see you and wanting to cuddle et al- and like knocking on the containment device to let you know every time no matter what!). To some I am like a dog... or have been made fun of as such... but I only...

The numbers and the change that comes after...

Tennessee.... and like 

if you don’t believe that hate crimes are real... take a look at TN

• So with there shenanigans I forgot to mention...
• To the voting person in senate of that state... i admire your courage to stay true to what’s becoming of an elected public servant... some of you voted in the lgbtq bill that allows discrimination as ‘present.’  
• That being said- my heart is with you and I’m sending the most protective all around stellar energy you way- I hope you pursue legal action for the nightmare that is being outed or something being a conflict as to what I don’t know... 
• but if they can state their conflicts of interest so can everyone else.  

What does that look like?

Joshua Ray, no conflicts.  Other then I’m not hating on republicans... during one administration Teflon was outlawed as it directly causes cancer- thank you!   I like no child left behind because with out it some children would have no where to go as if no child left behind wasn’t in place then those children wouldn’t be allowed in school and then what?  You got some deep pockets? Do you? Oh sirrrrr sir I see you whispering... sir I know we kept people from they tax dollars but it’s all because people haven’t been surviving as long until if recent. 

My homie is about to finish after twenty years of service- actually like probably ten to seventeen men and women I know are about to retire and a few have already come home and I’m so proud of all of them.  Seriously, I never knew that any of them were in it until I was just scrolling around and saw either the uniform or the place they live and asked... I can’t wait to see you if I get the chance... like my college friends too! Am I the only one that didn’t or hasn't served... guess that may have to change...who knows...

• Hey so yeah... about the mummy situation and recreating his vocal cords or something... so that’s awesome... so should you into the replicated cords of a 3000 year old mummy... beware...
• So I’m not trippin but like- you think you gonna summon his 3000 year old dog as well- I do wonder what that would look like...
• I know I know half the world is suspersous or respectful so they ain’t blowing... the other part has been there done that and are please please, don’t blow on the 3000 vocal cords!!! Or through I guess... and I’m like,
• You did see the one Jurassic park where the dude did the same thing... and those beasts came running with furver.  Like I be scared... and Brendan Frazier is like hmmm the movie dictates 1, 2, and 3... I know, I know... any excuse to blow on  anything other than a man.  The women loosing their choices and rights and bending over with furver, the freaking mummy is like if these fools call my name- like, this is not the century and I am not the one, and then sirrrrr sirrrr... sir, the mummy will probably be hungry and not up for learning the stanky leg.... but sir!  
• Technically the fault is in the ground of the... sirrrrrr!  Sirrr!  Was it the carbon dioxide in outer space causing climate change?  Or are we shipping American shit? Cause the option to return to sender is eff real ok!  
• Sirrrr!  I didn’t do it. Sirrrrrr oh shit one of your eyes look a little like mine- sir here’s a banana! 
• Sir! Could I get a loan?  The details we can work out after I get the money..,, ah ah ah then the deal and time for them details’ is technically as written by one man/woman trying to again, instead of suck, blow, and Swallow get one over on another man/women or group of such. 
• Omg and have you ever thought that if I could have getting legal aid- like odds are you can’t actually sue the jails or law enforcement as a lot of legal aid places ‘don’t do that!’ And I’m just saying... if that’s all the lawyer living on or about one side of town and ain’t got a clue of the struggle or tragedy or loss of life and I’m saying, I want to know, for me....  Yes for others but I’m not trying to speak for them cause they have voices, wanna know go ask! No one told me to suggest that ok by demographics and technically could be done on a individualized cellular level if born between and in a certain or at like a academic medical center v podunkia memorial or something... 
• So twenty people weren’t reported as being murdered in a neighborhood labeled or some word that means ‘fucked the fuck up and if this shit ain’t part of our history and in some books real quick and in a hurry’ then (and don’t act as though I ever want to be right in the ways I am sometimes... I never want to compromise the integrity of anything... like- the entire department of officers were corrupt and were mislabeling.... you better have that solid and not be ruffling numbers again I will be... and right when I get going and get like, I think of a effing loophole like... so those were only investigations correct?  
• And not the loss of life numbers. (If I say murder too many times it’ll become less and less readable and I know it’s the population and people who care and want to know but there are others looking for a reason to not either put these numbers out to the masses or put them out to you as the community that been the victims of all this and their or tour contacts such as like your aunt in Florida... she could readily find the numbers or also may even see news broadcasts about the years missing from the world, the universe is so upset Mercury spins backwards sometimes in retrograde and imagine acknowledging all of them on a level I don’t get to decide but I feel like if someone was meant to live until their 90’s and was killed at the age of twelve years old- that’s a total of 78 years missing from the world.  And then a 60 year old killed that was to live to be 89 as they had certain technology to know when that person was born how long their dna is projecting them to live...  so that’s twenty nine years.  78+ 29= 107 with two people and thousands more in just one place. 
• And I’ll say if other places don’t have these numbers that I’m serious will have officers and sheriffs in tears... like I’m not in a position to defend this when it’s very good police work to say that in some places with no numbers like these speaks to where they have to come from because it’s like they didn’t even care that much to keep track... but that goodness for people and honestly individuals who knew that one day their would be a Kobe (rest in peace), or a President Obama, or just finally someone to walk around crazy for a couple of years trying to literally figure out not only what I’m feeling internally but the feelings around me... I’m serious.... like that’s two people and 107 years (if my math is off I apologize but this is an example and I’m so proud and thankful that the LAPD is compiling the totals and being open about the reality and the actuality of peoples lives. Thers no way the number is goingntk be small. And if you had to go to the community for the number which I’m sure have a name and date of birth and a photo or once able... but- the recipes were spoken and passed down... if you get the opportunity to write down these names and ages from literally a person and person and person who one has A-C, D-F... and so on don’t interrupt don’t record and clicking might be to much or it could be done while cooking or multitasking a bit... I don’t know. It’s a movie and a book and it’s got my best friends name written all over it and I’m serious... but its gonna be gut wretchijh when it’s like 1 million or so years missing and not at the supper table, or graduations, or around to have the blessing of grounding them when their late or make bad grades or do like i did and drink and take liquor on a school field trip. Omg- if my dog were right here I’d hug on him or my bestie like some will do their kiddos and each others or the energies around them... I’m just saying- you may have a whole new grieving process when they can finally also... like you may  as a person so directly still like some people have no one left or around as they aren’t on this earth... husband, son, daughter, cousin...cause the energy will be different... all of a sudden or I’m not sure.  But, you may miss it even if you realize how much weight and burden you were under and I’m so sorry that you had to carry that around your entire lives like you have.  It sucks. Like, I don’t have words but I have this... grammatically imperfect nightmare and please don’t let someone tell you or use stupid words that aren’t applicable. I sugar coat it because It’s like I don’t want to disrespect the situation. See, right there situation?! The fuck!? Like the news or whomever but if you keep it quiet as it’s been done and it only comes out in a book form from one source that is absolutely something I support to the fullest. 
• Seriously, but can I just say...  it’s not a celebration... but I do feel we as a country have to stop saddening lives and memories and see it more as a celebration of life for just a that’s a healthy and what I’ve been taught is best... if it doesn’t feel right to have some factual accounts from.... on the lapd side, the matriarch side, the local doctor, or yes of course the community leaders no matter what or how they’ve called you out of your name in a sense... this could be the end of a situation and so don’t wait for the government or whoever even writes school books and stuff. 
• Can’t you see Ms. Cicely Tyson or the mother’s from the MTV music awards and Will smith and literally I know I’ve been on the bus with some people who haven’t been on the bus in years and ain’t nothing changed... so keep it as a community and then publish it.  I’m not giving up I’m just saying... it’s an idea.. ewww lemme finds out someone doesn't get broken off in the money side and had a direct connection to it all... and no, I’m not talking about me... ha!  Seriously, I have money sitting out there in my own traumas as well.  
• An itemized of sorts type of just numbers and names- seems cold but I hope it’s there somewhere. I advocate for that because 1 life, is and was too many and should be... grouped by age or however... in aa they do a countdown... the the person with the most time like 45 years clean. Then you go down from there 44. 43.  42- two people.
• Gathering information is phenomenal... but presenting it in an organized way of just ... I didn’t even know this life existed and I mean the one I’m living in now kind of.  Homeless and people dying and if not being recorded. Like what the hell... and then to find out what the total is and then in a life span total and all and it’s like a billion years of peoples lives that aren’t with us anymore? Are you kidding me... if that doesn’t change the world I don’t know what will and it has to get better from there on a natural way...
• I can ramble or go around and around the politically correctness tree until it just gets straight up a convoluted mess!

Oh yeah, slip knot. Ok bye. Hey it’s 5 o’clock somewhere right... so here goes 

Fraud...

Speaker... Lookie here...  I’m not trippin...

But dccc.org may be an example of fraud that’s the Republican Party false representing itself as the Democratic Party... cause... they can use that money as money to pay for the hookers of sorts or hit men or the journalists that may not have had a choice and no!  You can’t even get mad and try to figure out who done it... or who told me... I will gladly spear in court though should I need to and if I am not called then you’ve established my rank and worth and it is not president worthy yet... there’s too much work to be done to play.... serious shit needs to be put in writing... and I can’t... and that’s not all that’s to come. Think... ten years of a presidency... literally then twelve with me, my husband, and the Secretary of State... that’s what could be... imagine the Democratic systems like President Obama’s Legacy, then Madame President (hopefully she’ll let me intern...), then maybe me and all of that... mr. B and ms. W and ms. H are literally stellar and prime candidates that I can’t compare to when it comes to experience and the trust and the history and legacy of each ones service to our country and they have all served in one way or another... by that... I’ll save for tomorrow... I have more but that’s enough.  I hope he did shield himself or I might have dove... but my for-head snd him... you can’t bless yourself... but you can bless the shield of a baby in between you and probably a drone or quick shot fired all the way from?? Shit that was the first one to come back down after all those wars and naturally it’s going to go after his holiness. Like, who else not gonna hide that shit.... like sir Isaac Newton literally rolled over just now and is like... I did it first..

Draft documents that have been written if there is something I’m invited to and not being told about I will not be happy... it’s my right and id literally love to go on a good Will tour or something. I haven’t picked a side and no offense I’m only going to be respectable.  Ask my high school friends... never not once not ever have I crossed a line with them
Unless they did it first... then I’m like...  and that’s a concern from our own? You know fuck this I’m with my own feet I don’t need permission... I’m a representative of my husband technically. So there... yes I’m the female version in regards to  male female couple but a male and a male.  If we need to have a conversation about my becoming physically more aesthetically in line with what he sees us as.,, then duh!  I mean a haircut, waxing, who knows... but I’d do almost anything... (I love you, but the person I can’t stand is probably a drone or a captive and not the actual... do not forget that I have a choice sir... I’ve said you’re in total control beyond what’s normal.. but I always have a choice no matter what my alpha says or requests... and in that I can maybe be less rigid but I am not and will not ever have sex with him or be comfortable in regards to that and I will not allow you to be either... but you’re the alpha so your decision about that... and thats probably the only time that’ll happen haha- me saying no. If not a reality as a future trip. Sweet. Things change who knows... if I want to sleep with someone you send to keep me safe then I know you’re the one arranging it or such so... you’re in charge, my straight friend... I’m like the pet rock that moves and walks and talks and just takes it and takes it... I’m so in love with you!  Bromance is fucking real.  He’s my brother and yeah I know that was weird for even me to say... but it doesn’t mean..... ugh, videos of encounters. I’m all for it because men are worth it, the world is worth it, and yes.

Omg duh 2

My heart is... 

can I use full... like my heart is full from seeing the of the American shit in between everyone and productivity... not to mention like...

• Ok so I believe that people know... come on they totally know... like, have to... 
• for there to be a level of American shit that makes it ok or like what kind of billing code does this get.... so you divorce someone, change your name, make up, and then remarry?   Furthermore to keep from having someone like me who is gonna either laugh in your face or call you on your shit you end up with more diagnosis from the stress and anxiety of having to keep up with lies and bullshit you’ve created?   And then have the nerve to get crazy and pick a fight with me over your criminalities associated with the name previous of the one that is supposed to be a fresh start?  

Like- I hate to be like this...

• I know I know....
• Literally in passing the ‘African American museum’ I can literally not roll my eyes far enough with the ‘well we don’t have a museum!’ Ugh, I dunno but the ummmph people get from the associations between a republican administration and the shit they believe or subconsciously permit themselves to say... it’s a lot. 
• Maybe that’s why I’m like so opposite yet kind of the same?  
• It’s shocking... Literally there is a museum holding the evidence safe and sound of the shit various people and communities and cultures have been subjected to and still the people at the top are like... what museum?   

• -how to:
• I can’t remember and if I did it wouldn’t be from a first responders stand point but I’ll say that there is a technique to waking someone up.  I think it was like nerve or pressure point in nature... like, you’re knees, elbows shoulders... one of them is a fight insinuation and the other is a like Im not here to hurt you type spot.  
• It’s not that I’m hating on it... but there is trainings on it... I know it was taught to me by nursing education dept staff at hospitals and then again by my co-workers... i don’t think I’ve ever been kicked waking someone up but I will say that in a situation like on a train or bus the person sleeping isn't in a peaceful bed like in a hospital... but has probably been fighting sleep or had a long day or night at work ya know... so probably no matter what the startle is always going to be there. What I’ll say is that the way you approach someone is the way they wake up... just saying.   Like, wake them up with confidence yet a peaceful nature- and I dunno... 
• like there should be a training or something you guys do right? I’m sure that the population has changed or molded over time to what it is now... though I can say that just like six years went by faster then I think I’ve ever had a slam of time go by in my life...haha that I can remember.  
• If you havent done trainings like that then I an advocate for that. I dunno, make a list of topics you wanna know... if I knew any of you guys I’d ask and post it but I don’t... like to be culturally competent it totally has a huge impact on just why people do what they do and I know that it probably hasn’t been done in homeless people... or maybe it is or has... if not I’m sure, as a nurse, I’m sure that there is a resource at a nursing level of just basics do’s and don’t’s.
• Like the navy uniforms or the is it beige and green et al... like, there is a stigma and bias there.., it’s probably not any of your faults directly but the situation of reinstalling trust is not an easy one.., and it may not be something you’re interested in but it may make your life a lot less agonizing...
• Omg so this one time... I asked out loud ‘did you know there are poeple that can throw their voices? What are they called?’
• Ventriloquist... 
• like, I’m so annoyed- and like, I will day like all the like’n time I want... I’m so annoyed with like (like= for me is I hate (and yeah I do mean hate...) someone who thinks they are more than, of greater standing as to not even acknowledge (like the example of how trust for some is so not there for some colors as that’s their trauma and right.... but then someone who hasn’t had that struggle to wake up to or send their family members off to defend something that is then abused by yes.... A white dude (dang I know now the eff people are taking about... it’s hard to call someone out when they behave just so damn jankey that it’s literally hard to accept even in just that but then for that person to actually have the balls or the skewed sense of self as why would you even do that.  It’s the opposite of the woman who doesn’t trust that what a white person is telling them to do is correct... (could the ones of you that are incognito as a homeless person or actually spraying foul ass scents on the metro or on a person as youve done me... stop it!) for a white man to in a sense do the same thing it is not ok!  Like why would you leave anyone out... and I know we all struggle like I said ewwwwww I’m already fearful for the time my kiddo comes home taking about someone took something from them or have to kiss or bandage their knees cause someone pushed them or... shit isn’t that a struggle of enough?  The answer is yes. Yes it is
• But what that struggle is and combined with the fears and real life nightmare that’s been the reality isn’t something other then just crappy blog writing, or the energy that was hanging over all of us- all of that was in each of our daily lives but isn’t the threats of actual danger and potential loss of life that is in every step and every breath of people that I didn’t even know existed. 
• For me, not knowing what I know now... I effing feel . Gyped/jipped.  There is a whole other side of nursing and then nursing plus a masters program on top of my degree that I could have pursued before even actually starting my career.  Hindsight right?  Well, look to your behind and hope that all the disrespect you’ve shown entire branches of like public health, business, and not to mention nonprofits with the information mismanagement of allowing people to be kept in the dark... how many boomers knew a ventriloquist compared to the people below them?  Double or nothing unless you know someone who can actually throw they voice then.... there may be a regional knowledge surplus or deficients- as I do feel that just doing things for those in the know is really evil, I know there I go.... you’re right sir!  Sir! Sirrrrrrr omg it is illegal.  Sir, the journalists know, I know, we allll know sir that they finger forward has there pointing straight up at your grill... cheese.  
• Sir sirrrrr.,, I do hope that you at least paid double per word for the con auctions of the ‘fake news’ or what’s that word... feelers or distractions because if like there are 25 people who are to deliver the poeple and then the young future leaders of the world and in whatever way that looks like to them... so 25... then 10 or 15 are in your pocket.... ohhhmiiii gahhhhh can you believe I just put some of those people in a pocket... like wow.  Better that then a jail cell or p p p prison but there’s much to be dealt with at least Ms. Winfrey went and Inspired the ones to start the decode off nce the house is clean!!!! Girl I know, the homeless white dude with a cussing problem no income and a credit score of 500 take a few tens of a points away and eahhhhh no credit and no home and he making a.... uh huh.  
• I really hope that the person that someone worked so hard to get out of prison after a sentance was bananas unfair and literally bleeding racism and bias and all the while the criminal justice system has a smirk as it pertains to confidential inform stds or ci’s or like a... it’s so not a set up. I don’t know if the person was actually inside on a day by day basis or if the sentance was like a wait and see what happens in a sense of the person out but then along came a stranger who cared enough to get a random person out of what is a hell on our earth and in our country... the concern is I’m not going to tolerate that good work and just out of the ordinary catalyst for change to be muffled or ‘well you know the person that got out really wasn’t a real but was one of us’ kind of a inside joke to people who watch others fight and everything else that goes on.  Don’t worry-literally should that be the truth... that’s one hell of a ‘are you effing serious?!’ real factual testiment to just how much revenge sex or pounding out some laws or gavels...
• I don’t know... what I think of this... but this is my official denouncing or Un-claiming  my Christian faith... I’m taking up Mormonism as a gay man... and my five husbands are brothers and I could give a shit show of a presidency that wiped out an entire almost entire culture... literally Literally literally you’re going to have a fright.... 
• I’m so pissed.   who think I’m getting inside information..,, it’s fucking true. I am receiving inside information. From a couple of times zones to the East...  that’s all. Enjoy ok. 

Omg duh

I’m disappointed in the USSC decision today...

I'm suing the Supreme Court...

That’s not a false claim, and as I was instructed I would like to know the manner in which I am to proceed with legal action against you as the Supreme Court and also as individuals (bout to take yo seat) related to:

• Don’t worry I can still go pro per so don’t let the issue of my not being able to find legal counsel so far give you as justices a false sense of security...
• Security blanket.... yeah, you’re dealing with someone who’s slept out side without a blanket more times then what’s the median.... 
• Public Charge was approved today by the Supreme Court... oh thought I’d died?  Lemme just slip one in? 
• Tell me I’m bias and I’ll post everything I’ve been writing that you’ve already changed to say who knows what and literally is equivalent to the falsities of my licking a fish ewwww v a piece of meat yum.... 
• multiple me can confirm...  at least not of recent but that’s a benefit to protecting me with people of a certain demographic and ethnicity (which may not be loop holed...) as an agency or investigative entity or a just shadow him or tail him? 
• Think public charge could be a code word for an assassination?
• How much or many of the journalists that write the news are in his pocket?  I do hope he’s paying at least quadruple what is for the usual truthful validated through vindication and a piece of our history news article.... 
• no, you’re not doing a quality control or quality assurance as that American shit coming out of my thoughts of being a natural is not going to get you out of this one...
• Josh I wish you were here, I saw your pigeons down in the metro station and got so concerned that I hope it made you feel better...
• I sent my
• I sent a message last night and just it’s difficult having to be subjected to parents  who get divorced then a mom who changes her name and then gets remarried to the original or the same person... and then I’m sitting here like, not respectful enough or thankful enough for all their extra efforts And work... and like... are you joking?!
• The only reason that even makes half sense of a cent is the actual stupidity that revolves around it... makes total sense when they would have one person taking the fall for everything and then when I can finally lawyer up oh nooo that person doesn’t exist!  Yeah facial recognition knows. Who you are you murderer- the only thing that’s worthless it seems is your common sense and then absolute Faith in your common sense... like I got more then all those worthless put together watch, I’ll get on legal soon then hire an attorney to pay with pardons... burn in you’re own sweat on the beach. One 
• Bad sunburn can exacerbate or cause issue. So just saying. Use your phone... to set a reminder every 4 hours to reapply. Do you really have to ask why didn’t think of that…probably because you’ve been in the thick of it you know. 
• You’re pulling this document up on a computer I paid for or an iPad Air 2 that I paid for, as its still got the negative balance on my account from the qvc purchase and att purchase... to Saratoga me.  I still have the serial numbers. I still the information and the software to read your mind won’t matter now that the international community is involved... because the crimes of talking about them after wait what??  After you weren’t and aren’t supposed to?? Oh no...  well I do hope it’s shared. 
• If I’m allowed to leave doesn’t feel that way and am not and am being kept at a financially destitute place personally. 

The United States Supreme Court.... I was told that it was over, was informed of what it was and wasn’t and then the associations and where it could go from there made aware of... let me find out that they person who came to talk about it works for you et al and or The President or any Republican in the know of a plan that included using me and my blog and my name and my possible influence or platform as I don’t have one but the place I heard the presentation at.... I dunno.  But I do know, that this speaks to removal from office like none other. I demand it. And furthermore demand to know why I was never told about such proceedings as a party involved directly. That’s a mistrial. And I am.....

Still without a computer/apple device other then my iPhone. But hey.... someone brought it up earlier that they have an iPhone 6 or 7 and insinuated their upgrade should come first. Ugh. That’s fine ;)