Yay!

so annoying to kick someone out of a market for stealing, or supposedly stealing though nothing formal has been done- to be kicked out and told to never come back someone who does not work at the store and pressured the store manager to side with him as a representative of law enforcement and the west Hollywood sheriff only to make dinner references and how don't call him late for dinner.... was awesome.  I thank you Mr officer for being a true representative of law enforcement in the united states of America and how big of a person/people you guys actually are.  speaks not only to your 'education' with in your profession or (within your profession) but also to your character.  Yes, you were called an asshole my sheriff as that person/me was actually fucking hungry.  your instigating technique worked- sad to say that officer have fallen because of such techniques. 

Have you ever seen someone leaving a store, only to be caught stealing, return the items, then when asked for the reusable bag back have that person/security guard then RIP the bag and hand it back to them?  Oh my god ms security lady- how cool are you... only to be a true testament to your character also and how professional you are- once again speaking to those instigating techniques used and yes- i have never wanted to pull a sandra bullock and pull a computer monitor off a desk so bad in my life... cause its like....

do you know they go through certain neighborhoods with sirens every morning and they actually have laws for tents on side walks on certain streets, not all for the 'tents up'  issue.  6am-9pm.... I have no idea what these laws are or how to be made known of then besides.... i dunno.... i was alseep on the side walk in my sleeping bag and then was woken up to be made aware of me needing to move.  however while waiting at a bus stop this officer- only one... which is weird went walking around beating on tents to wake people up.... then like the officer in the park that kicked me while i was laying down alseep to wake me up did the same of equivalent to someone who then i think pulled a knife on her and swiped.  thank god i was there to say do not site him for that.  as, you need to one have someone else with you for your safety and the safety of the people, the camera systems are not your backups however, your a stupid unqualified officer if you think that one, someone knows your an officer just cause your waking them up by uncovering them,.. anyone can buy your uniform and anyone can impersonate someone and also- if you were assigned to slit his throat through the red light system you would want to properly identify him correct?  you weren't trying to do that i don't think... however- i did not ask for your badge number of know who you are- however i do assume you are a new upper in the enforcement in that area and not a rookie... though fuck...

Kesha- being alive hurts too much.  ouch.  

so I'm at the west hollywood library- not only was this person bitching about me being her as i guess i am a criminal... but he is literally following around the library manager making notes of his doings... what in the fuck? 


Did you know that ABC is owned by Disney.... gives a whole new thought process to are you news anchors actually really real?  I mean i can vouch for some but I dunno about all...  just thinking about how much money they are actually saving or would actually save by not having to pay someone or people to not only deliver the news, but follow orders as to what news in delivered and then also to live a 'right and correct, true' life as defined by their superiors.  

so you know that movie with rachel mcadams.. morning glory- i really think that was about anderson cooper but anyways... that dudes contract was so long and detailed, etc.  lemme tell ya a travel nurses contract is less than one page and 'at will.'

so biostatic material ads are up all over west hollywood.  Rupaul- i cannot think you enough for being on Diva's Live- you have no idea the doors you opened for me and the 'hmms' you raised in my head and the curiosities and questions and doubts you answered.  as i am not you or your brand or your label i will say that... i was sad when i saw your ad being rolled up and replaced, i smiled every time i saw it.  That gold and those curves does the same thing for some straight men and makes their lives better- Kendra can't suck it enough.  Even Holly i am appalled by, i get shes married to another man now, but i read in a newspaper her remarks about Mr. Hefner after his death and wanted to barf.  Like, what were you thinking?  Unless he didn't really die or unless... i don't know but didn't he keep the H for you... ugh, all i'm saying is their is something to be said for the nature for a man, no matter what he is or isn't... it aint anything like that.... all this sex scandal stuff is only closing bitches legs for them and getting me and my bros on our stomachs and pounded like bitches by men.  straight, gay, bi, curious.. our holes are tighter cause we want them to be... and our mouths stay shut for the repeats... let me not pretend that homeland security should be sued for discrimination over the shut down of rent boy.  also- can the federal government be sued for tax evasion cause they totally should be- its literally impossible to make them accountable as they should be... Ronald Reagan said- government isnt the answer to our problems, but the problem.'

https://la.curbed.com/2017/9/27/16377702/hugh-hefner-hollywood-sign-playboy-mansion-fundraiser


https://youtu.be/_HKH7Emy1SY she be like, ladies i think its time to switch roles... as in a 'amen.' 

God Bless America for the rumor of the possibility of a Kennedy in the White House. 

So I was using the restroom yesterday at the Bloc downtown- literally the most fabulous mall kinda... lemme tell you about what happened. So naturally there were like a one or two other people in there initially.  then the cleaning dude came in and literally made them leave.  I was like i literally jsut got in here... he was waiting outside the door peaking through the door crack.  even jiggled the door so that the door came unhinged from the latch... I was like, seriously... then the security guard came.... (Sam Smith is the manager at the bloc that i have to follow up with) and was female and did the same.  then called me a 'bitch ass mother fucker,' told me that she would call LAPD, i was like, yes, please do.  make this official and create paperwork- did she?  No.  The harassment continued.  The dude was like, he not allowing me to do my job, how you gonna stop someone from doing they job?  I was like, wtf?  SO then the manager dude gets there- sam smith and was reprimanding them.  the one guy said but how can a transient keep someone from doing they job?  the manager was so embarrassed and apologized them.  I was like, um i know that did not just happen... He referenced someone named Charles.... he said to the two harassers, yeah, but Charles doesn't work here.  hmmm sounds like someone is affiliated and is receiving order or instructions from someone and something other then his w-2 job and on top of that those loyalties lie with and where? The security guard also told me to ask my mama what her name and id number was...

Can a sheriff or ought a sheriff use the word git?  like, ok, now git!  like git out of here?  hmmm?


Bsc said that she felt worse when i called and so i said i wouldn't anymore.  It speaks to the support system Ive had and that i should know better.  Literally, the first couple of times i didn't come home in college first semester that nation guard was called- i mean she couldn't stand that they already knew where i was as they were just inside of me.  so then i moved out and then continued after saying ti was just a phase to let stellar men inside and so she stopped supporting me with the money she and my father said i could count on for rent and monthly bills as a result.  vindictive?  mean?  caused issues?  let me said that said stress didn't contribute to my early male pattern baldness- but the stellar men's hands or hand on the same spot during said situations did.  ha!  They'll love that- cheers all round.

does anyone elses Obama phone always tell the wrong time and have to be reset?  or is it just mine?  here's the other thing- i cant stand that i refer to them with negativity- the concept is fantastic.  the amount of data, the quality- being that there is no 911 service with it, and also that the battery in a new on that's considered an upgraded one only lasts 5 hours- that's with data off, location off, and battery saver mode on.  shit- people be like well lets get rid of them.  that's whats great is you cant... so why don't you not put tax payer dollars in total shit phones and service?  look into the issue- a high quality product that is on a percentage scale of being 100% or twice as good or better might cost an actual $0.05 increase in cost to the tax payers.  instead of the continual replacements and just none sense of what shit are people supposed to get together with shit?

can youtube please get a most reputable filter option?

Omg- how fabulous did The First Lady look at the State of the Union- odds are not wearing american designers as a lot of them refused to work with her?

 Ms Trump showed up to the event – separately from her husband, as some pointed out – in a striking all-white pantsuit by Christian Dior. She coupled it with a white silk Dolce & Gabbana blouse and Christian Louboutin pumps.  As reported by the independent. 

Its funny how private people from 1st world countries are... as America is a 2nd world country in my mind- or at least acting like one... like no one knows what they have or who they are... only when they tell us.  so amazing when you think of Americans supporting drug dealers- not including anti retro virals, but aren't limited to anything else, all because of privacy. 

How fantastic was P!nk on the red carpet and on the stage. 

No people- the 'oh I don't support the president does not mean, oh I'm not going to watch the state of the union.' 

If I can hate on the fact that we never really see the backs of any of our politicians but it is always like a huge thing for our celebs...

I smoked a...

Cig and omg- I was like stumbling.  Like those things are potent... and yes I am a light/lite weight.  Ask any crna that has ever given me something to make me a little less nervous in pre-op or going down the hallway and they will vouch for that shit.

So watching the devil wears Prada at the library... omg, can we say that I have eaten an onion bagel after having literally never ever wanted one... in jail in Milpitas/san Jose in the Elmwood correction facility.... I got a fucking piece of onion stuck in my teeth and literally could do nothing but drink ice cold water for hours and hours, like there is something to be said for nerve pain... dunno if it was m y mandibular, which is a terminal branch of cranial nerve 5 or your trigeminal nerve. Speaking of jail- I noticed today that Folgers coffee is $1.29 for 7 packets (or seven packets if I'm in an English class) as opposed to Starbucks for $6.49 for eight.  I mean- I will never ever get this Folgers crap again because of the association- sorry Folgers.  It's so good, I recommend it highly.  But, damn bitch.  Oh geez- lemme say now if I end up in jail again, please let me bum some if you have?  I will be thankful- this is more of me just being bitchy.

Call Donatella- get her jet.  You know what’s annoying about that American crime movie about the assassination of Gianni Versace?  I think we did it outside of the statue of when we have to pay her money for telling the story of how her father was shot outside his Miami home.    

So I do buy lottery tickets- Bridgett jones did or does it so there must be something there... I am sketchy so I do love scratchers.  Can I be very honest about something though....? I hate that this upgraded 'free phone free service' phone won’t scan the barcode.  For those that don’t know if you don’t win anything- you can win like a free ticket or a some dollas or the whole actual grand prize or whatever... the point is that 2nd chance not only has been developed to keep track of tickets and money and winnings but you can also win through the 2nd chance submissions.  It's annoying that there is an app not available to everyone that has a function further not available to everyone related to the things available... ugh, I do hope that I win again like I did in San Jose or like that officer that stole ir after he faked a firedrill did.  I still need to follow up about that as if it was a drill there should be something documented from the fire Marshall no?  as I did not see any firemen, man, or wo... i shall conclude that once again the effing cops or officers are effing liars.  my dad knows all about that kind of stuff, the fire code stuff that is- so glad he is willing to help in even that way---- ha i got jokes today.  We shall see.

So you know those annoying yellow things- bsc/tsttw bsc loves buying wine and then having to go over them.... so you know what this right- and this is on a leaving Walmart level or crossing the street or both...

When I was in San Jose- I read in their local publication- not the mercury news... but like the social magazine kinda.... within the first couple of pages they had a section where they would include tweets... One said, 'Keep writing Josh.’ I am curious... but I won't ask.  It had to be towards me right?  I think so... I want to say thank you.  It didn't make me feel like anything more then- shit that was like 6 months ago or so... I mean it gave me courage that got me out of that awful place and situation and home.  So thank you- even if it wasn't for me... thank you to the OH that reminds me I do love wired magazine, but I was thinking of... or meaning to cite/site Metro Silicon Valley.

Last night I was thinking about school... just getting a Judicial Degree, or going to LA film school or something... then I was like, I wonder if you can just get a 'generic' bachelor’s degree- kinda like an extension of high school or an update of sorts.  I don't know- I learned nothing about anything to do with Kosovo or desert storm or Nixon or anything in high school- people reference those things like daily in various ways and I'm like- wtf is that.  I want to go back to school so badly- but I don’t know for sure what I would major in- as I don’t think the above exists... did you know only 33% of people have Bachelor’s degrees?  I mean... that is what I think is written in the Audacity of Hope- up from 19%.  Not sure what the new numbers are as that was written on 2006- or published then..... But so far it is fantastic- the book, not the numbers.  Literally am I stupid to think that like almost everyone I encountered had a college education or something.  I mean I know that in other countries a master’s degree is a duh.  That's the truth... like, that's the issue.  This is the land of opportunity so why aren't more people taking the said opportunities?  Literally, I don't believe in lowering standards but I do believe in assessing why people don't or aren't or can’t meet them.  And I think that is a huge deal with college- besides just the money game.

I wish there was like a life insurance policy I could take out on myself.... if you can get a life insurance policy for $100,000 when you die for $11/$12 per month- why can’t I do that now.  Like, why can’t I take out a $100,000 life insurance policy on myself now to get back on my feet?  It would make much more sense than getting on ssi and having to take affordable housing and all- I’m not saying I don’t need it because I do however I think there are a lot of options that I have that others don’t being that only 33% of Americans have bachelor’s degrees.  I do realize I'd be getting a loan to pay the payments with the money from the loan and that is part of what crashed the housing market- lending people above the value of the home with the good faith that they would use said money renovate it or remodel it.  But is it really fair that not only is the system broken as stated by people way above my ranking in making those statements- but now I have to not only become a  victim of it but rely on it and wait on it and then also in a sense- the money I don’t care about.  like I do feel like getting ssi may or might or could or will keep someone else form getting it... others will say no or that’s stupid but that’s just how I think.... and it does literally apply to the affordable housing and apartment market when in fact there are only so many actual homes and apartments in the country.... ya know.  But at the same time what else am I to do.  Create a business plan for getting my life together or what all I need to do and what to do... like I want to write a book about things I learned in jail- like a not for tourist book kinda.   Remember those?  Or something.  But I don’t think I have the experience for that but I literally just walked to the water fountain one time and got in trouble over walking behind a co or deputy.  He was like doing ever does that- I was like do what?  Get water. He was like no; you don’t ever walk behind a co.  Just like you don’t ever walk up to a co with a full cup of coffee or really anything in your hand...  truth.  I guess someone has thrown something on them before or something... I don’t know.  The whole flushing the toilet thing and the only two flushes per 30 minutes... that resets after 5 minutes.  So you can flush the toilet am every five minutes... and it never be limited.... I think.... I didn’t try that like if there is a max per hour... but I am at least a two flusher... kinda back to back.... but instead I learned to wait five minutes before flush two and then I could have a after another five minutes.  So stupid huh?  well, it will or might keep someone with ungrateful parents from getting their ass beat or killed all so their parents can get insurance money from them... roll your eyes baby boomer and I’ll ask how medicated you are.... all this shit and crap people are on... its literally like we are taking away human emotions and empathy and caring.  I hate to say we are doing to ourselves through just living a real life- and I’m not trying to take away from people who have problems and are handling them... but there are some that are just victims no matter what and those are the ones I worry about.... omg my kid got suspended or having sex with another guy in the parking lot after school... what have I done to deserve this?  Ugh, not... omg junior- is you ok? Let’s talk about it?  Do you and he need the house to yourselves tonight while your father and I busy us or something along those lines.  Like, are you going to have trouble at school now, if you do I have zero tolerance for anyone hating on you for being you- so if something happens do not worry about what I will or am going to do but tell me regardless.  Do you feel like other kids do this and you were singled out?  Etc. 

I smoked...

So I smoked a cigarette last night... i was hungry adn instead of walking my ass to da store I decided to grab this random whole cigarette sitting on a retaining wall.  It was a paul mall- and was super minty.  Not trying to endorse him- no idea who that is however what i do know is bitch was stumbling.  I wanted to go hop on a dick- instead... i called bsc.  she was like oh my gosh why why why did you do that.  I mean- the cuddles came after the phone call and a walk and a nap- I love the being asleep and then you just feel safe all the sudden.  Seriously- I never sleep like that unless he is close... its a fact.  So this one time he came to check on me- you know this whole fillibuster of my life and moving around- he of course has been my knight.  Bsc was like I dont even know what he looks like- I'm like, duh... cause um... yeah, anyways.   This one time he literally like, didnt hit me... but of course I was like fighting sleep, in my apartment after surgery and alone... well, naturally he thuggy.  So he crawls on the couch with me.  Literally, I may start referring to him as jared- hope you get the subway reference.  all i mean by that is yes, i put it in my mouth.  he was asleep i think and i of course migrate... literally in my sleep also i almost suffocated.  And he couldnt get me off him in a way- i was so happy i bear hugged him, with it down my throat, not gagging but sucking... I mean, after turing blue its safe to say that I was sucking for air.  and next thing i know... I realize... he's very strong... like literally, totally manhandled untangling my arms and pulling me away only to out my arms around his shoulders.  Thats how you know- when they let you run your hand up the back of their neck into their hair and hold them close. 

Happy Grammy's!

https://youtu.be/PGfSaVDymjk

there was some talk this morning on 105.9 or 106 which ever comes in clearer on your 'free phone free service' device about Cardi B's 'fuck with him and then I get some money' line.... they talked about that being where she came from- having to have sex for money.  So thought it de-powered women.... and I'm like- well thank you for opening up the conversation for children who may not know what parts of the world is like.... opening up conversations is so important.... i am going to pull the daddy butts line and say.... she like if i fuck with him I'm going to get some money... shot.  Yum yum.  Breakfast, snack, dinner, luncheon...  of champions!  :)  Thank you Cardi B for being the pretty women of the latino community.  She be like, all they have to do is ask me what i mean by my lyrics... haha that would be too easy- the dialog comes first i guess.

Life happens, and it;s hard- one of my most favorite- lets face it I have a lot of favorites- co-workers (not using the ford former) has a child getting chemo.  God I know she can't wait until there is a past tense with that... isn't it awful to think about how cute a kiddo would be on his last day of receiving chemo therapy to have a little shit or snapback that said, 'I got chemo'd.'

I spoke to my mom the other night.  She is soo complicated.  I've decided to call her in my blog BSC.  for Bat Shit Crazy.  She is nothing like, Victoria Beckham,  Hillary Rhodman, Bridgett Jones' mom, or dad, or anything other then or than just real.  So let me just make a joke about all of it now.  Lemme tell you about the joke it wasn't when i told bsc to write a blog- I told her I never go back adn read mine.  ever- i write what i want when i have time to even if i work on one for days and days I try to not have to use auto-correct or anything program or tool to correct my writing because at the end of day related to the fuckwittage... all that can be taken away- if you use a program or app to correct or add something to enhance.... all that can be taken away.  and make you look like a fool on the world wide web all because of someone or the government wanting to fuck with you.  She was like, well blah blah blah.... im not sending you money and blah blah blah.... I'm like why cant you take my aunts jargon to heart.  she never said to us- you cant have that, we cant, or I cant afford it.  so fucking wise.  She would say, no, you dont need that.  I'm like, bsc, why dont you just say something other then no, im not sending you money you're on drugs, or someone will take it, or you'll go get all dolled up and try to sit on a worthless Mexican?  It's so annoying.   maybe I should call her tsttw bsc... as in three sheets to the wind bat shit crazy.  Anywho, who knows if i was even talking to her.

you do know that when you live a public life- whether it be a famous one or not.... you are famous.  like me, i take the bus, sleep outside, jack off or give head in public places, an tracked by satellites that can read my lips from outer space, etc.  so in that system of watching me or monitoring me.... there exists 'google translate into josh when he's having a good day' that persona can then be used to have a real time actual conversation with my bsc and neither of us be any the wiser as to what just happened.  the system knows how i react to annoying people, to people it puts in my way specifically to try to get a decent p-value type variable.... etc.  it knows when i think something is fake and that i am always right.   to my homeless mates- please jack off once per day as a.... its healthy, sanity improving, and healthy for your prostate.  I guarantee you if more women would nut it would reduce their cancers....

 https://youtu.be/aJEzl31zL-I

I mean i need a Bentayga... Like, whoa.  Then I need B. Jenner to customize it for me.  Ugh, don't let me trip like I wouldn't rather have a Tesla SUV cause I totally would.  That shit has California written all over it- I'm so thankful that our former governor was like, you mean we be designing, making, producing, and selling these all electric amazing machines and then you want to fucking drill off our coast?  Bye boo.


 https://youtu.be/LnHc7Ma8EF0

I do write my blog in such away that whether he, bsc, the other he, my best friend, or your mama.... reads it... I don't really care.  It literally saved my life in San Jose- where I was writing it as a legit message in a bottle for help or something.... but i think it was all very perfect.  I left that situation with no one from there ever going to follow me and attack me again as well as life long friends- some may be one in the same... either way if something had been different there may not be that absolution from the situation.

Apple HomePod- yes, please.  Anything apple.  Invite google into your home- and you're inviting the government... oh you know how we were talking about that super sweet never before heard of invention then all the sudden someone is on tv having invented it.... yeah, probably some animated joker produced by the government (gmail- government mail) to make another trillion dollars to further not do anything for its people.  Like, are Bill and Melinda Gates actual people?  I dunno.  They could be animated or whatever people to represent government technology.... Apple.  That's British and since we do plaster those white folks all over our media I support them to the fullest as they have literally been around since the dawn of times.... 

Omg so i was just grocery shopping and saw... I mean so this person went to the bathroom, and it seemed like the security guard followed him and started yelling at him... i mean he set his items down and went into the bathroom.   I have no idea what her problem was as well as neither do the other patrons that i talked to.  on top of that she continued to follow him around the store to the point to were he set the items down by one of those sale shelves and boom there she was behind him.  He looked terrified.  she put her hands on him, even pushing, yelling, and then further making it worse by literally following him out the store after an associate who actually works for the store told him it was ok to leave.  I mean who is she- she literally was so threatening that people were talking about her in the parking lot.  I feel bad for the market because they will probably loose business just because of her.  that's terrible.  It just goes to show you either that something needs to change or thats how close food and the government are related.  Like, if they would rather ban people from libraries, food, and lottery tickets then there is a real issue of, no offense, fuck russia....our government has literally created concentration camps.  I'm hella worried about germany coming to get theirs if you know what I mean.  I'm trying to be happy- but all that shit that is suppposed to be there isnt.  period.  everyone knows this- ive heard this... but only now after living it can i say that it is true. 

oh, you, poor person, we have these benefits available, its 2017, now 2018, come, fill out, then go, do, and prosper.  oh wait... you have a tent, a house, or a home in a neighborhood or place where law enforcement, or someone harmful entity will enter your domain and steal from you or cause you harm.... oh well, I'm so sorry.  but since you did risk it all and come to the office here are all these papers you can fill out, or here is a packet, then when you've completed it I'll be happy to help you.  oh wait, actually it'll be three months and that little shut down just made things so backed up on a computer processing level that it'll be 90 days.  oh, and i can go ahead and tell you that you don't qualify.  then boom, that person gets back to their dwelling or domain that's been tainted and destroyed.  gross. 

(3, three, 1)one 

its brilliant.  not the area code- that's for the birds.   I mean the concept...  like, is the last one an exponent?  or a?  is the first one a group of three or a single? 'because there are three 'whatevers' within the parenthesis which are free values as in no recognized in some systems there for in that whole group you only have 4 actualities to play with.  the one comes with it can be three groups of the four with a possibility of an exponent of three at the end of each... it depends on what you need and how much room you need in a way.  there are hard limits- such as in an actual 40 week term.  there is so much knowledge out there that Americans aren't privy to.  Like, a woman giving birth to 5 kiddos- triplets, then a kiddo, then another kiddo.... all conceived naturally. two different dads.  like, that research gets even more in dept all the way to 7... there are only so many square inches.  I mean we can plug up a heart in the states and make it work as shown by greys anatomy... what else can we just plug up like that???  anyways... I'm applying it to technology intelligence and how if someone sees an act on camera at a subway/metro/or rail station that can possibly be interpreted on a 7th person level.  the camera see it, then a person sees it on a monitor- that's third person already as described by me...but is that initial monitoring branch just one... no its three.... because like us the system does have prejudices.... so that's two.... but then it also has itself... making that three....  cause a break off of that is the monitoring system. 

Literally, in san jose if you live in one of those fancy apartments with a sensor that activates the light when you walk in- its an actual camera...

I am so excited to see p!nk perform.  Like, I cant wait.  I'm sure bsc will be like, i dont know why they have to be so political.... i mean what about us.... is it political or humanitarianism or?  Ask Madam Beckham and then ask her what she said to barbra walters after she brought up sugar during her interview (is that political).... i mean, instead of talk about meaningful things during her time with royalty, Barbra (barbara?- no idea how to spell and working on a deadline which is me and star trek into darkness- priorities ya know.) walters asked her about a cupcake and sugar.... like, barb, you're the one your country decided was capable of delivering the hard news as described in your episode of master class?  nooo.......



 https://youtu.be/FJfFZqTlWrQ how have i never watched some of these music videos.  I mean lol! 

Dolly was that sheep that was cloned.  now someone has been cloned.  they are calling it an ape... or prime mate.... but i think it was Tom Cruise.  Imagine.  oh oh, or hey, how about christiano?!  oh oh, or there is a whole world.... for all I know it could bloody be fake news and im just buying in.  ugh. 

So yay! FInally able to retire... and now I'm being deported...

You know what- shame on this president and trying to get rid of all these people at the age of their retirement... I pray that him saying they don't have to worry about March is true.... mind you this will only hurt our economy sir!  Hello!  March madness is supposed to be a happy time!  So make it so- handle it now so we can all concentrate on our brackets please! 

Here's the deal about tech and science.... we are the only country that limits it in such ways.... other countries don't limit it in the sense we do.... we just don't do it.... other countries do it to see possiblies and be leaving those dumb Americans behind...  only when we know what is possible do we know how to protect ourselves.... meaning other countries will do what they wanna do... our president doesn't control stem cell research on an international level.  

so here's a piece of theorized science for you... the human genome project.... it should be studied in gay men.  like just like the hiv virus becomes part of someones dna.... so do the men a bottom sleeps with unprotected.... this is so done been had knowledge in other countries....  literally their dna becomes apart of that person and is replicated and permanent... but only in the good ways.... in all the good ways it can... theoretically someone can become more of someone else then when they were born.... just saying....

https://youtu.be/rFz59Jmgewk

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https://youtu.be/qb9cETC9EnA


I was reminiscing with a friend list night on messenger- so retarded but we both lead crazy busy lives.... I was like remember back in the day when.... and it was total nostalgia.  Him sneaking into my apartment back in the day- me sleeping like a literal brick.  I mean, its sad that when my alarm would go off- me like a bat out of hell.... I would literally get up and get out of bed, shower and leave my house with him still in bed, like bye.... thanks for the sleep.  Literally, I have to have a solid man with me at all times to sleep well.   its so annoying.  thankfully i can think hard enough about my best friend to be able to sleep but then someone times we are so connected i think it wakes him up to come look for me.  its weird how energies work.

This song is literally every college students motto, as was mine back in the day... and today...

https://youtu.be/jCUiGArhW2M

bystander abuse- it's when those around know that something is going on and don't report it.... not to be confused with being an asshole reporting someone stealing food because they are hungry to security..... that is different.  this is where someone knows someone is being held captive or someone is being abused and no one says anything or does anything.... while witnessing injustice or wrongdoing.  I think it's different- silence is complicity.  

yay so I got a phone!  It's an upgraded 'free phone free service' phones.  Hopefully the information gathered with it isnt free- but who knows if that legislation and litigation and court cases have been created yet? At the end of the day I dont care- but for everyone else i do.  I dont like them picking and choosing who what when where and what to apply and how hard to apply it.  Anyways- the awesome person gave me a brand head set to go with it and somehow after one day its been effing hacked to only play out of one side.  yes, if there is a microphone people it can be hacked.... jsut like our electricity jacks can transmit information about you from whatever device.... the grounding piort is indeed information

OMG I got my new glasses!  Ah!  So excited I can see- i swear these are the best ones I've ever had!  I feel like I walk around so much differently!

https://youtu.be/EBt_88nxG4c?list=RDClU3fctbGls

Here's my thing about some of this shit you see on TV or in ads.... like the truth ads.  I love them but can we be real.... like who is the face of big tobacco.  I see Trey's face in the house of representatives doing his part with his hit ginger mug all over his name and his legacy.... can we just be honest and say that there is no face of big tobacco companies but our actual government?!  Like, people- our government controls so much.... and yes, he did something with all the imports and exports not sure exactly what- but Honda, Hyundai, and Mercedes all have plants in the states.... in Alabama actually.  If you live there and are hungry- girl they be getting hella tax dollars.... get those food stamps and shit while you get your shit together- or while you wait for them to get their shit together kinda like me.... seriously.  They don't care- they will let you starve.... they got they money and food...  

you know... and I know... that the

Philadelphia Eagles are going to do the same thing for Tom Brady and the Pats that I would... bend over.  I mean, duh.  Star struck, stud struck, Pats struck!  YASSSSSSS!

Hundreds of thousands of federal employees had to stay at home from their jobs... did they get paid?

There is a judge in San Jose named McCracken.... like, in Prates of the Caribbean.  I hear she's a real ball buster.

So I went to Griffith park for the first time ever the other day- it was fucking phenomenal.  I mean- it is absolutely beautiful.... i barely made it to the top.... i was wearing flip flops and lets just say I'll be using that as a benchmark of my determination for at least one year.  one calendar year that is...

https://youtu.be/r0EVEXX9kpk

the video above makes me lip sync like I'm performing at an after party for the super bowl smelling like fresh pull out.  (not sure how i put all that together- but the term smelling like fresh pull out i learned while incarcerated.)  I was like- pull out like a sofa?  yeah, talk about having a whole room look at you and smile...

I saw ryan seacrest wearing work out clothes... i was like i wonder if this one he stopped to talk to people and his you know what was hanging out the bottom of his shorts and he was like opps, seacrest out! haha.  the real question is does he use crest toothpaste?

 https://youtu.be/_-oJKyHHxKk

I ate sushi today and it made me so happy- i did share.  also, i got cookie butter- the biscoff kinda.  omg i like to dip pop tarts in it. 

If the current administration tries to drill off the coast of California i will totally brave the sharks and squeeze my ass into a wet suit to protest- like the former governor said- drill off mar-a-logo or where ever the fuck that place is.  I thought we were after renewable resources and things like that... after the BP oil spill are we really effing drilling more?  like really?  as far as i know the lithium ion battery didnt come from dinosaurs.... neither did tesla. 

https://youtu.be/8UFIYGkROII

if i have to take care of my alcoholic hater parents when i get older will i get a tax write off?

Dont tell em... and mean muggin...

https://youtu.be/LnHc7Ma8EF0

Omg so yeah- shithole countries for some reason to me means gay or a derogatory term for gay.... i mean urban dictionary doesn't necessarily agree but i mean what i learned in jail is what applied there so.... just thought i would give a different perspective... also- im about to hit a bitch witha  bottle.... i hope my friend doesnt mind me telling a bit of her story here...

I am pissed- just like that Sunny from the view... I have a nurse friend.  She and I go wayyyyy back.  I was orienting at a new job, and she and i knew each other from the gym but hadn't talked that much.  Naturally that day we bonded.  Over a cliff bar and a hero.  It's only natural that the strength I've now come to admir, a strength that's given me courage and fight, in her is something she had to overcome.  Since they were talking about Haiti I had to get up and leave the library.  I went to go finish my salad outside and have a cry.  Ya'll we had soldiers that died in that 'shithole' country.  Like, let me try and give him a little slack and say maybe his words were taken out of context but at the same time what exactly was he trying to say? It hurts.  It hurt me for her, I can't even muster up the courage to message her and apoligize to her for him.  It means so much when someone tells you their story the way she did only for like years later me to be crying in a library in west hollywood over how much it hurts.  further more, for me to be telling it here, for him to maybe read it, and further disrespect lives past and present. 

I leave it at that for tonight.  WOD for Warriors.   

Just thinking about....

like last night these cops came to the park... this officer literally woke me up by stepping on me... like not an accident but a solid step- then proceeded to rip my sleeping bag... Yes, I swung several times and hit his bitch ass then yes, they left.  you just don't do that to people... im not trying to be cocky by any means, but as soon as i started saying DA reject and that I would take this shit to jury trial on a time not waived basis and hold their asses accountable for this shit- they got real scared.  Literally, yes, they cited me- even better cause i got they names and shit.  One of them said i hope you're not here when we come with a bunch more officers and just arrest everyone... i was like why cause i'll be holla'ren just like i am now and scare you guys off.  see some officers are bitches like that.... they tr4y to provoke a fight only to get to early retire.  Ugh.  while that person kinda like me last night probably has an assault on an officer charge that will stick only cause it was a different situation or i don't know.... but damn if i wasn't pissed.  i'm glad they come through at 0430... meaning you cant be in the park between 2200-0500.  so if they arrest people or someone they get over time.  its annoying...

So about DACA- does that mean that Ivanka and Jared will be deported to Jerusalem?  Like, why is that even being called into question?   they were brought here as children meaning.... what?  that this isn't their home or that even then they had a choice on the matter?  

Could Ms. Cushion (and no i dont mean for the pushin.... i mean as in a whoopie cushion) please ask Commissioner Judy if she is offended by me not calling her a Judge and if their is a difference and what said difference is and also why if their is one are their judges court rooms without court reporters and commissioners court rooms with them.... like is all that legal or is a question as to why some people think the world is fake or have a moment of insanity as it pertains to their reality...cause i know some places when the right to bare arms comes into play in these situations and it seems to be loose lose for everyone.... but.... like, i said.... i kinda wanna know what she thinks about all this.

Like, if my country will deport people that are home, what will they do to me? 

so this weekend i was downtown- coincidentally there was a women's march of some sorts... for what i dont know but there was a woman holding a sign that said something about the 'hood was here.'  I was infuriated.  I had to just keep walking... if i was of equal to her meaning a woman... i would have beat her ass.  literally, you wanna see hood bitch, ill show you hood as there are children in certain places who have died peacefully in their beds because of gun violence/stray bullets.  can you imagine.... i was like for csi to have made an episode about that i wonder how many people that has happened to?

can we just be clear that shit hole is a gay term of hate.... its derogatory.  if you call someone a shithole teacher.... that means you're calling them a gay hate term.  like a faggot teacher.  this is what i learned in jail in san jose.... 

  https://youtu.be/R3mjJV_XGaQ

a good man scares away the dark...

to my best friend... who keeps the afraid away from the dark for me....

 https://youtu.be/VRuoR--LdqQ

ugh, still don't have glasses so I'm terrified at night... i just hunker down and pray.

 https://youtu.be/fqXU2ett-2o

So about this government shut down and what it means to me… well I think it means that a lot of people don’t know what it means…I went to the ssi office today in Glendale and was turned away by a security guard… you know I had to show out… I was like I know I didn’t just get up the courage to show up like I am with my belongs and hustle up bus rides only to be told to turn around and go home by a security guard and not an actual ssi rep.  I was like oh no… then the other security guards tried to be knuck and buck over contraband… guess what that was… a bottle of tobacco…. He was like but its glass… and I was like ok dude… pick on the homeless dude and make him throw the shit away…. I had to take the elevator back down the 6 floors to the damn outside of the building to throw it away… that whole glass bottle thing is on a daily.  But I was appalled that some people were actually taking the first security guards word for it… and just leaving.  It makes me sad because that could be someone’s day when their family member has a hospice sitter that day or has arranged for someone to come and watch someone they care for or like me just hustled up the courage and the rides to get there… and gone through the bullshit of having to deal with the people at the door who think they have the authority to turn people away… um they don’t…. those security guards should be held liable as well as our president for the deaths that will occur because of this shut down… its putting people in harm’s way outside of the normal variables they may or may not be subjected to.  This dude had the nerve to tell me to watch the news… I was like ok shaboolya- watch this…. Middle finger to the sky.

Born to Die…. I just now got that my parent’s sole purpose for my life was to die and be an insurance payout.  Thank goodness I’m resilient but sad for them because I made their lives more difficult…. If you’ve ever felt like your parents are or have tried to hurt you or that they don’t give a damn on purpose…. See if they have a big insurance claim on you…. If so take legal action against them…

 https://youtu.be/IHbY3blOGwc

hate is the strongest drug... but I still pick (not sure which choose or chose or choice to use...) love.

any body need oprah-

she be at the extended stay america in San Jose, the mccarthy ranch one working the front desk from time to time... since interpol has been barred access I just thought I'd play fair... you know, mona lisa.... and those two men who are a family with someone who is very important to me will not be your ammo anymore or anything else like that as it pertains to... oh, don't you wish you were me.... don't... i have issues.... just be you boo.  then maybe they will want to be... up in you.... sugar?  that was funny eh?  not to me- do not hate on good people like that.... cause they might be too goof to say it in a way of- damn fuck you bitch.  you dont have children and you're going to threaten mine because one of your thugs stole his cellphone while we we here trying to be people.... thank god thank god for grace cause that's the only way you will get any sugar... me on the other hand.... I am taking the bully head on... ha, oprah just wishes whe was a cum dump like I have been... hey, she be using satellites to look in on my aptin weho for leverage also- i mean, videos are there but so is privacy.  

up front...

1.  did you know you can or could smoke in the white house- I mean who gonna tell the president he cant do something like that.... so can we please give them a break when it comes to style, how you work and live, and why the fuck would i want to decorate my home in furniture from the Lincoln days that literally is covered in third hand smoke... bitch please.....

2. If i can read then I am never lost- pretty fucking glad I read lies then... or fudges on the truth as in a one inst the one but is the one or an approved psuedo person... and you got why Oprah neighbors with the Queen of England... she don't play that shit of the bullshit0 they have their system. (why is it that sometimes you cant edit or fix or correct the text without it deleting that space on the actual document or some shit and you have why Oprah ain't... she aint neighbors... i dont think she can even talk about the royals even in our own media... girl bye.

3. did you know that to say something is shit hole is a derogatory gay slang thing or whatever.... ebhing that on the cover of the times over the weekend you're on the receiving end of things i would expect you to know... but just ion case you thought I wasn't on just the greater good side.... and are you talking about ryan reynolds, inrique iglesiaas, or sia?   if so- then hey, they are all night native born and might have been deported to their own shit hole country and they probably aint got hepatitis A in their shower water....  hows the economy... I hear its as fabulous as my shit hole... did you hear?

4.  We can't send or deport anyone to Africa... that the queens also and she aint playing...  it's relatively safe but lets continue with the people eating people just so no one gets any wise ideas to try and.... hide diamonds in animals... or children madonna!  Hey, did johnny6 depp ever get his pups back?  i mean some poeple can steal children from countr5ies or allegedly do so and yet.... it's harder in reguards to animansl.... i mena I get it but damn if we aint more humane in others ways of the world but not our own...shit i got my animals, i got my home away from you know who, and I got my real you know what.... so boom, bitch i am and did and how you gonna limit the iphones tech?  stupid.... my dad brought the iphone to the gov just cause im amazing and showed him it... so you real dumb... they are a British company... at the beginning end of and the for eternity as far as our beig shut off from the world goes...  Oprah cant even build a building in weho without all those celebs homes getting broken into- let me not think VB got a assault rifle or at least the gold bricks and diamonds safe and sound... cause hell naw they didn't bring that or those with them... they real safe adn why am i going to create insurance fraud? oh i didn't, but who knows....and literally i remember my aunt running to get a newspaper after a helicopter dropped them off in downtown Birmingham from somewhere else.... and you gonna tell me some details are fudged right before we go to press all because.... what?  it doesn't mean that much?  ok, then quit saying that liver failure ios an opiod overdose or bullshit like that please... those are not published by healthcare so do not believe that all these opiod overdoses are or arent actually happening... liver failure and ascites are not to be associated with my aunt.... but, aergo the rest of the 'he aint grateful for nothing' others that are getting high off not replying to my messages or whatever... My best friend doesn't count- he cares, he doesn't have Munchhausen syndrome or by proxy but he might can see where a lot of almost everyone in my life kinda does.... but hey, they agree, i agree, and aint no one worthless... can i get a big swallow of worthless- cause i'll be a leaf blower... those could be t-shirts or something or... 'yeah yeah, ill just worry about the blowing part- the rest is so.... something that I just think would be a grand cute funny idea... mexican.  leaf blower. just in case there was any confusion... please let america be safe enough one day for a straight man to say, duh i let my gay best friend suck my dick if.... I mean hey- separate your church and state while I enjoy the rest of day after a little 'upfrontness in my life.'  see at least that way we both get what we need and no randomness.... literally- just a scenario people.

anyone know why my hole is tighter then iggy's or beyonce's?  cause I want it to be...

for the kiddos...

so in the awful juvenile hall system/youth authority... there are children who have completed their sentences, or served their time, done their time whatever.... and because of social situations and limiting factors on not their fault they are stuck.  Like, they aren't being released?  I mean, that is a question mark after that statement but it is a fact.  I have no idea how many or where or who- but currently that is a concern needing attention from our legislators.  Wouldn't a dorm room and tuition be nice?  It's a sad fact- and omg what if they are being deported or something?  I mean really?  I'm 31- what if I was one of those 20 year sentences I've heard of being dished out to 10 year olds?
I mean I just had to correct sentance for the now third time- sentence.

I drank three java chip frapps yesterday- not sure why but they made my day and gave me indigestion from all the dairy- but so worth it.

The day before I went to Griffith and made it to the top in flip- flops!  Ugh- seriously I was like a smoker wanting a cigarette when I got to the top and I don't smoke.....

Grey is the answer... cause it's all of us.  Just saying.  

Also- if someone took my phone or glasses... please continue to pick on me.... not an old person or something.  I think that was the first time i cried over the news... this guy or two broke into this elderly lady's apartment in Birmingham in the 90's and like tortured her or something... now I kinda wanna cry again.... but seriously....

I'm so thankful to be LA...   I hope it's mutual if there is such a thing as a city feeling so... but I feel it.  Plus- some of those resources that are supposed to be available somehow are here... three incomplete applications for benefits, three library suspensions in san jose.  I went through 5 phones there in like a month... and only one so far and I think that's cause i dropped it down a storm drain go figure.  :)

Ask not why that person is napping on the sidewalk- but what earned him or her that nap.
 

Is it? Manic either way...

OK- so slightly worse for wear or ware… or where?  Ugh, so confusing… note to self- ask someone at the library!  So I am roaming around with no glasses- beware.  No rudeness on my part- but literally am about 5 finger widths from the monitor right now so be sure and spoil me by going the extra mile and being awkward haha!  I think they are with my obama phone... maybe my doppelganger is the same rx'd eye wear as me and needed to make a call.  Nightmare- but oh well, at least it’s not like the time I was in Texas and got my peroxide solutions and cases mixed up- yeah, for some reason and you’re welcome in advance for the humbling, or lack there, by not falling to your knees while trying to dig the tiny but of searing plastic from your eye ball cause instead of acting like a normal contact and floating it kind of burns itself in place if you’re not quick!  Of course I was in a hotel room with two strangers at advocare success school at 6am… wow that was just before moving!   I dunno why all I know is ouch!

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so went to copy and past my blog and couldn't cause somehow it didn't do that ....and so all was lost.  great.  I need an apple device!  Its so something that will help.  Next time I will have to make sure and keep it on my person at all times, even if it has a dead battery.

Loves

I'm in a filibuster with myself et al....

I am serious.  Here is my current issue.  That I don't have anyone to help me.... I don't really have a place to go for like... so for civil rights, being gay doesn't matter until you're a white male.  And that's a fact.  Did you know that having government benefits such as an Obama phone goes against your credit? 

I was speaking a talent person about auditioning for the gay adult film industry and I said first off I'm not sure if you have already been approached about me or not but I am fighting racism by only consenting to sex with people who are not of me- as in no white guys or black guys.  She said funny, the person approaching wanted it to include an African American knowing you wouldn't.  I was like well someone from Shonda rimes new show Grownish walked in to the same holding cell I was in in and said 'nigga you stink.'  I was like- yeah.... not one for all but fuck if I'll ever watch that show.

So the President is coming to LA!?  Only when that happens and also prior to an unscheduled trip the locals are only to continue on.  Well, thank you West Hollywood sheriffs for conducting that illegal search of that man’s van last night only to stop when I said something in reference to the above.  I know so because he came to Birmingham Alabama when I was college. 

So it’s funny that Hillary Clinton said nurses make too much money- never heard that from anyone I wasn’t to be around.  like, maybe she shouldn’t have been paying out of pocket for something that she didn’t want people to know about and in saying so in a surveillanced work and automation I think it’s funny that we may never know anything other than she said it, and could have been leaked by an automated system created entity to leak such an outrageous statement.  No one makes or earns too much money.  Like, how much money did she make last year?

I hate that ivanka trumps attorney can write a nondisclosure agreement to include then looking at someone’s Facebook profile, reading their blog, and sending or opening an email from me. 

Hey, so I was in an area and noticed a bunch of apartments empty not being renovates and thought please please please dont let it be.  its in a

Oprah and her building can pack her shit and go.  All this opera organized crime nonsense can go.  It hasn’t got nothing to do with anything other than creating a bad energy.  I will not have all this violence which is exactly what you brought.  LA is a sleepy town- and a relatively safe one.  All the sudden cars are being broken into and shit.  Combined with people in my situation being run out of their normal places while they wait on some of these lists only to have to sleep in some of these open lite garages and then be arrested or something and put in jail etc... And you just happen to hope its long enough so one of your associates can take their place or move on up on that list.  And that person sleeping in the garage and the same one that be committing crimes and hurting folks.  (Leave drugs out of it- though that is an issue since I’m making it a none issue. The police however will.  and it’s not fair that those violent individuals will call the police with their cronies also only to have an attorney working for those individuals sue them when they don’t come because they know me and where I am as the buttons to cross the side walk do indeed get your finger print that’s why two presses is two partials which is a whole and then the phone calls from those violent individuals will not be answered as legit because they know.  Yet- I am so not having it.  I am indeed scared- and it’s your fault.  And it’s also offensive and a personal attack when my support is indeed for everyone.  But just like I don’t think the peace officers have ever taken a college level psych 101 classes.... have you? 

So I was in a cell with a man who knows someone who as a leader in their community went to federal prison for identity theft.  I don’t know what’s but I am not ashamed to say that that’s why I love people- aint nothing like a bitch (me) paying respect to a man or thug or bad boy.  It’s deserved- they will take the fall for everyone. 

So- when the president comes to town- it’s ;like a hard reset.... all this satellite following me nonsense and it getting hotter everywhere I go as a literal thing means that sometimes the system has to be reset.  The piece officers will whoop their lights to reset it but sometimes the fire and rescue guys have to.  I wish they had a separate number.

When I expressed solidarity in a certain person my mom called him a worthless Mexican.   It wasn't a lie so I don’t think she lost part of her soul but it did strengthen me gut feeling and instinct. 

People of LA- do not blame this on the metro opening up access and creating opportunity.  it has to deal with that big white own building she built right or just inside the west Hollywood city limits for a tapping into information gathering and also- she does not like gay people.  Does not.  black and gay.... she stops at the black part and sees same love.  I'm sorry MAcklemore for reapplying your lyrics in such a none love kind of way but I think that your same love is for everyone.

So I went and looked at apartments in Hollywood.  $10,000 per month is what I have to make before taxes to qualify.  Not to mention those apartments I mentioned are just down the street and their plumbing probably went capote after these monstrosities were built and it isn’t right. 

I can’t believe that someone took it upon themselves to; with voice recognition and replication have conversations as me with my best friend.  How dare you.  Aint nobody worthless but you.

Yes, I am at a filibuster with myself and the world.  I don’t know that it will get better and as our country was at a trying time and all I think its ok that a family member had alias created for himself so that we would be safe and I mean not everyone knows there was even an assassination attempt on Pope John Paul when he came to the States.  Yep- he forgave the man before he left also.  But then with all the other stuff- it makes sense.... I mean, I think I'm scared when at the end of the day that alias is documented somewhere and is now my family's out for just literally not helping me and turning a blind eye.  I mean, an officer harassed me yesterday as it pertains to 'in the interest of justice.'  Naw boo- I'm swelling.  Stay away from me and it just doesn’t feel right. 

I said Happy New Year to someone last night who growled at me after.  I was like- I might taste like chicken.

I am solid in my a certain ethnicity gang or mafia following me because I was using the computer at the health justice the other day and literally a man can and posted up right behind me then had an attitude with the employee when asked if he needed anything.  He was literally spying on me and my doings.  I wrote something to that effect on a sticky note and was going to pass it to her but thought better to not involve her and only my blog. 

Those entire celebrity home break INS happened when what building was completed?

My attack in la happened at about that time.

if I don’t file charges in that attack I hope the da has to let me know if he brings a case against someone as it pertains to something that happened to me....

people of the world- know that when an officer or whomever runs a check on your id your entire medical record is now known including psych history and hiv status as they are the ones that could be harmed by you in their eyes.

I wish I could know every person that’s looked up my record as a law enforcement agency or entity... like, is a random sheriff has looked me up without a need to know I have a reason to know that as it might lead to harm and just in the initial look up has caused harm.

 I think I should let ms handler know that your dog is safe from hep a as it pertains to ya'lls scat fetish- though consult your vet to be sure.

I want an SRO downtown built trader joes.  I don’t think there would be issues and those are all very good nonviolent people who I hope would steal but as the bottom line is what it is I just am thinking about the store or shop owner who wants to retiree but can’t cause his block might not have groceries anymore and I do feel that you guys are the best.

I was in the security office at target in trouble with 5 other peopling the entire same different ethnic label.  So girl was the one to ring up the items and total them- funny how she rang a few things up twice.... she was doing a little preordering I’m sure.  The guy of coarse took them off as a the more compassionate one.  Please don’t think I’m playing when I say that I should be able to go somewhere and not be held any more or less accountable for anything.  If any of you were actually officers of the law then when I file discrimination charges against target I hope that will be made known but otherwise you’re actual jobs and such shouldn’t be put in jeopardy as I am going against target not you. 

I was told I skills.  I wish that it was profitable at the moment. 

I am thankful that I believe in energy- so if someone knows I am me I think I can feel that.  Sometimes I speak sometimes I don’t.  So if they recognize me but don’t know then when I see them or make eye contact that evens the energy out.  Sometimes I feel the need to speak sometimes I don’t.  Sometimes if I speak and say happy New Year and they say it back depending on the energy I then say thanks.

There is etic in when or when not to send a thank you card after someone dies.  sad that people will get pissed for not receiving a thank you card after sending a pant to a grieving loved one but then think someone over did it when sending a thank you card for a sympathy card. 

My friend just graduated nursing school.  She may be the first in a lot of ways.  always smiling and will be a blessing in some many family's or patients time of need.... if your studying for boards relax and just take question after question.  Do not read in to.  You weren’t educated to be an intensive care or geriatric nurse specifically though your education has provided you with such.... the board want to make sure you can care for a patient at the entry level.  No anticipating what may come or thinking five steps ahead.  Like don’t be thinking about if the patient has bands or not and all that shifting nonsense when your question is looking for you to be thinking about needing to collect labs or have an order for such.   I don’t want to use the work floor nurse or something like that- because I don’t know what that is... but anyone requiring nursing care at the entry level are the questions concerned about.... entry new grad.   I went in knowing I was going to get all

A black man just threw magazine on a book shelf- go away.  Leave that shit at the door.  I wish I could not think like that but I, like Judge Sonya Sotomayor am someone of difference.  Huge fan- dunno why just am thankful that when i say I have huge issues of hate that i want to seek justice for and cant she'll find a way to help me. 

Have poeple noticed something different about the buses and metro here?  I am not happy that people can post up at these places and monitor who what when and where.   

The McDonalds on la Brea is a prime example.  It’s hurting their business.   I can tell a difference between a homeless or person in my situation as opposed to someone in my situation as an also member of something that’s more than that.  It’s hurting their business/proprietor shit- stop it.

It's not right.  the secret service will network all this shit on a new and different level and is its geared towards a certain this that or other it’s on an individual level that's created that as in a this person been a part of this same issue now in three different cities so yes has more of  a risk issue then me...

This is a real town where real people move to and live and find themselves and create and support each other.  Before I felt comfortable sitting with another guy anywhere and kissing or showing affection.  I was on the blvd the other day and that energy was there and I know if would have made an impact in appositive way where we were at that time but I didn’t.  All these people on bike surveying or doing whatever they are doing as part of the new and dangerous are to blame.

you know that the sheriffs using excessive use on me and breaking my laptop screen and destroying my belong to cover that up make it so difficult to prove that I was only looking for my car and writing down pats available for rent.   Like that all I was doing.  Like that’s all.

so I love that on barber shop the mom walks in and makes a 'so that makes it free right?' kind of statement.... a white mom would potentially do that to a dentist molesting her son while hes under anesthesia and do the same thing but with further compensation and keep it for herself... trust.

I'm sorry but i dont need charitiy or a job that someone else could have that doesnt have a degree yet at starbucks... like im not using that job to come up and taking it from someone who could use it now as their come up.... we are two different people and i dont know them but i know me..... while i use their job as mine they could die from all these violent people being around and i amint having that.

instead of that awful jackhammer that me and ms bs were subjected to today with her information gathering chipped humane shelter adoted dog... look why can they jsut use a little firework to break all that shit up... if we are the global economic leaders and we are.... other countries do that.  so whould we.... yes, i think if thhats a security issue then outsource it.  cause i was sitting on a corner the other norniong and ill be fucked silly if this pipe company truck didnt come and start making all this noise on the street directly infront of me only to leave when i did or soon their after.  they were form mentebello or monticeito and were pissed with i flipped a bitch or popped a u-ie or u-y and made eye contact with them.   why would they do that jsut to get me ot leave?  laying pipe?  or something but people live in tha tcomplex and stay at that lowes hotel right there and why you fucking with that business. 

I want to go to grad school but wish i could get paid to and live in an off campus apartment.  i think my community health information is golden however as far as script writing and my story goes that belongs to one person and he wouldhave to be in on it so maybe ill have convos wiht him first, let him create, and go from there.

seeing has how i dont have sex with anyone im not into- i think there is reason for human genome project continuance and how their dna kinda replaces mine in all the right survival of the fitest kinda ways.  i dont know if its certain but i thank them for the blessingn they are in my life.  I wasnt and am not trying to deliberately hurt myself nor will i ever.  for myself and futures and in respect to you.  its like when dr angelou takes about she takes everyone who has ever been kind to her with her when she goes to teach or speak.  unlike her, you guys have feed me when i was homeless or not so... let me not make that assumtion. 

when did people start needing something to take the edge off?  like if we outlawed gum like they have in sigapore- then that would od the same fo rthe gum right? 

please please please know that im not a judger.... when i say i dont smoke im not condoning or supporting only intending ot say 'idont have one to not give you' and i hate that there are networks of people or who test that limit..... and you just bought cigarettes at the store gave that guy one and not me.... is it cause im..... no, dude.... its cause youre an asshole and before i would say exactly that to you in this city but currently i do not feel safe doing so cuase there are attitudes around like the sheriff who wanted to break me in half when i make the 'piss' statement to him.  yes, i was scared then to say it- but he has a badge, etc and so.... in that situation me and my firned were the smae difference as it pertains to them.  yes, my friend was the mark walhberg, i was the camera we were at a planet annd they were the....

i think its unfair for an officer to use their 'look up' powers on all my facebook friends.

to not qualify someone because of credit i feel is discrimination at this people in the universe. 

whne asked at work if i spent christmas with my family my mom get a 'hate high' from saying i was in jail.  i dont know if youre an enabler or not but i dont think so.... however i think me telling you that she will not support me in a way of actually helping as then i may not actually come home and visit means that you might be after being made awar eof such.

im sorry this isnt a funny blog- im in a great mood- and am so thankful for this day but i didnt wake up to my other half... were on different planes right now and there are real issues at hand besides whats handelable.  Yesterday was my SSI appointment and I didn;t go thoguht i have completed mym app- both arent needed only one.... the point is i didnt feel safe to go.  literally, its validated fear when someone of an ethnicity different from your own tells you he is going ot seek people of his ethnicy on you.  i ihave no idea what that means.

I wonder if krovcheck and Dr. Rice joined the Marine one mile high club. 

i cant blame a parent for telling their child stop looking at the place when we walk by- you arent ever going ot be able to live there or have that as an option so stop.  i dont want to tell them anything other then- I dont know i am not in a position to teach.  but, i wish i could help them appreciate that light in their childs eye and admire it the way i do.  all that parent is doing is not quashing hope but being a consequence of the squashed oppurtunites they should have had and arent available to that child.  I go for the children cause as much as i pray things would be different for that parent- i am trying to rally everyone and everyone is someones. 

Literally, the other night i was using my obama phone and i know when they were pinging my location and turning my camera on becasue my battery would die super fast then nbot then super fast then not.

i wish that people who access protected info at home would uncover their cameras as it a thing they have to do to make sure its you and not someone else and then not telling you that and denying your access is a its probably not you then or it is or youre a weird mother fucker and maybe you'll jsut stop and let those that dont have your psychosis be the ones impacting other peoples lives.   they dont care if your smoking weed or naked its about identification of the face even if there is something like a cigareete in your mouth.... they may or may not bill for your it support call either way so if you get fired related to such just know they do bill for that and your employer is footing it and oyure impacting raises of other employees.... so do indeed stop it.

my iphone 5, etc was taken while i slept.  its ok.   im sad about it- but i think that i will not still access my iTunes account from a public computer, i will be able to when i do let apple know when i twas stolen, and if and when things were accessed or changed on it and info gathering there will be an electronic trail of sense.  I'm adding a hate crime to whatever other crime may or may not be related to that.  even if someone noticed my passcode and someone else took it etc... iphone and apple are amazing and if i felt safe i could access my account and  turn it into a brick and know my and others info was safe... however, to protect both of use i am not doing so yet you will still be held accountable as there is a camera facing whomever powers up and on that phone.... and it is and will be made known as it was....1/3 i think when it happened- maybe 12/31 going into 1/1.

windows was forced to stop getting better because of hardware limitations in the piublic areas.  If ten is limitless I need for the gov to sanction itself and put system requirement compliant or whatever hardware in these buildings by a certain date.