I hate it when I do things I semi-regret…
Calling people out ain’t cute… or at least not the way I do it. Do you think that if I learn to banter, then I’ll be able to do so in a cuter way? My process for doing so currently is thinking the best of people until after months of doing so I finally send an email or text that speaks to the efforts so far, that again I should have known better, and then follow that up, follow that up, follow that up, until eventually one of us gives… there has to be a better way… however, I may regret saying this as well but the issue of me having to do this with a “parental figure” in my life is a recurring theme and speaks to just how fortunate I am to have even made it this far in the world- like truly, I've been having these conversations as an infant.
- So to add to the post from yesterday- that I know I wasn’t able to post on the new platform but its because I don’t have a phone to then authenticate myself…. Ugh- trapped within the confines I set up myself for my identity security- how effing frustrating….
- So the mask… I think- that with the on I currently have on hand, ha… that the front and back or the out to the world v towards your world… like the out to the world side make it so they should look like blinds or over lap…. So start at the top and if water runs down it figuratively or you finger moves down it freely without getting caught then you have the side that is the out to the world side… :)
- Ugh have to rsememrb to download some of my music instead of just streaking it- these damn confidential informants on the metro m=buses like don’t know how to act
- Where the police at when white folks aren’t acting like human beings and wearing their masks… I swear I’m about to start counting, and then I’m going to walk my ego and purpose done to one of these nonprofits and subpoena which one of you people with a badges were working that day and hope the number break ever- oh, I know y’all have been working so hard truly… so maybe each one of you can then be arrested for negligence and go through the process yourself… all of a sudden ain't nobody left in MCJ on wayside Tuesday or Wednesday but the comrades… do your job. What are you scared of that white person? Why you can’t walk up to them during a pandemic and ask if they have a mask and when they don’t no matter what give them a citation- this is a nightmare and you’re not doing your part, your not protecting people which I do believe is the first one in one of those cliches you operate under, and on top of that you're undermining yourselves, making me look foolish when I speak to entities being the problem not the beings and furthermore putting lives, real lives, children, women, men, and my heart in danger. Please, do your job.
- And let me find out that youre walk-in around the jails talking about how this is fake or not real- excuse me, Her Majesty, The Queen has spoken twice about this, Prince Charles still can’t hasn’t recovered his sense of taste fully, and His Holiness has spoken about it, so before you endanger a life, or undermine authority that is unknown to you and your employees authority I would severely consider may place and right to do so.
- So please, put some bassjackers or some audio courage in your morning and take up for people- that’s what you are to me, the hero when someone is being beaten up over lunch money or when someone like me who is different means opposition- you’re not supposed to be the ones being mean to people or not taking up for those who need support… what is wrong with you?
- I cried all morning- I was trying to write a thing for one of the meetings I attended yesterday. It was hard- it’s for sheriff’s reform. I try to create an environment within the writing and I often get so wrapped up in it that end up rambling on and on about something that has me sounding like a nightmare. But in that, I was speaking to the execution style, who do I call them- maneuvers, trainings, murders doesn’t fit… but, that being said brought that up… leave it to me eh.
- So if a sixteen fo seventeen year old is executed by a badge- not only is it that this kid is then on his knees in front of a bunch of badges with guns but often peers who are then supposed to learn their place. ugh, I'm about to start now on the metro and its not the place… but oh well…
- So after a gun is raised to that child’s forehead and the trigger pulled- that’s over twenty nine thousand two hundred ‘I love you dad’ or ‘I love you mom- hope you have a good day’’s that are missing from the parents worlds… its. A skewed example as that’s if the person was to live to be 80 and yes I know that’s possible as parents could live to be 100 or so- but not in the communities in which this take save and occurs…
- And then I look at the news and read how our president is wanting new justices on the supreme court… omg, go find a tit to suck on.
- So can I trip for a minute… there was this matte graphite amg GLE that just fhuuunnngggg past… my mouth and jaw have got to get it together… it’s embarrassing… haha.
- So this is the last soap box for the day- I am kind of over it to be honest. And that’s what? bathrooms. like, I swear to everything democratic if I encounter one more tool with a key that is having a conflicting thoughts or opinions about if to hand it over or not… its like I’m a kid, or its like that time in jail when I was sitting in a court room and this officer told me I should have gone before I got there (mind you I was in handuffs at the time… and so that was an unreasonable thing to say…)…it is gettin really annoying… if I have to whip my dick out one more time and piss in a court room as I also the to then or in public as I almost had to or like in the past when I have actually had to do so and almost probably get my ass beat by the person with the key for peeing in front of them as they hold the key to the restroom I am going to… I don’t knwo.
- I don’t make empty threats fo one day if everyone who relates to this or sees themselves in that statement jus straight up walks to city hall or somewhere and pisses on the front door one by one until the incumbents do something about it then at least that’s reasonable… and hopefully the least likely way someone like me or someone exercising their constitutional right to demonstrate publicly- yes, that is an unconventional way but hey, the conventional ways lately have come under fire a bit.
- Hey, that being said we have to reimagine and rethink our ways of living life right? :) The brilliant part about it is that incumbents can do something about this before it gets to the point of people one by one walking up to city hall or at their leisure and taking a piss on the front door speaking to the need for government to see a need or feel a need or hear a need and take action.
- White people everywhere… or at least ones that feel compelled to.. as the world is in pandemia, I can think of no better opportunity to turn tragedy into something… I am so over white parental’s not supporting or taking care of their biologicals or presumed biologicals or assumed biologicals… Britney Spears held her dad accountable for his shitty behavior, Drew Berrymore emancipated herself… and I’m no better then someone actually committing an act of violence or something along those lines if I just shit back and let this happen in my life-
- okokok, There is a Chinese proverb- I know, look at me getting all philosophical and shit-
- One generation plants the trees; another gets the shade. ~ Chinese Proverb
- On that note I’ll say I’m done for now and I am trying os hard to get a new iphone- if anyone knows of a resource let me know as so many of my ongoings two factor authenticate through that number and not having a device connected through it has all my efforts in jeopardy of missing deadlines and all of that… so when I speak to holding parental accountable that’s what im speaking to… like, my dad may or may not have ben the one to orgastrate my phone being stolen, my eviction, of financial benefits fo rthe entity that then carried out my eviction, and then the getting my ass beat…. like, he’s capable of helping or supporting me… but, he has a problem with me, with who I am, with the way I live my life, with who and or whom I love, and it only gets sicker and more trivial from there… its unacceptable behavior not to mention for him to then have an opinion about the way o manner in which others parent, or the way minorities live and parent… I will not stand for it…so if I don’t see the benefits directly, I hope another gets the shade from the tree I plant.
- 50,000 NYC amount of evictions waiting to be filed…
- 9,000 North Carolina amount of evictions waiting to be filed
- But as the country begins opening up again, moratoriums are ending and 40% of states no longer offer renters any protection. The CARES Act protections only apply to less than one-third of the country's 108 million renters.
- 75,000 evictions in Michigan’s state court are waiting to be filed…
- There is a story of a women who was concerned for her health and social distancing and then having to court over her eviction or pending eviction in Kansas… this being said- there they have a 99% eviction rate… meaning that !% of the time the courts there side with the renter…
- Four people per minute in our country are evicted from there homes… and this is pre pandemia. Like 2.3 million people per year- no idea if this is like head o house hold o total members of a household or what…
- "Housing was the prescription [for coronavirus,]" said Tara Raghuveer, the director of KC Tenants. "People are going to be forced to put themselves at extraordinary health risk only to show up to court and get evicted.”
- Benfer agreed that what is truly needed is a federal assistance package that would allow renters to remain in their homes but also makes sure that landlords and property owners also make the money they need to stay solvent. She points to the HEROES Act, which has passed the House and includes $100 billion in emergency rental assistance. The $3 trillion package has been stalled in the Senate for weeks, where Republicans have control. (ew I could barf- I know there is the whole reform with the police but can we please defund the effing republican party? Like please…
- I have no idea how to solve this other then to literally ask other countries to invade our country…
- like, I don’t know what to do but thank you to BBC for the information…
- https://apple.news/Asf2SOyhiSNWAHelQLe1u6g
- Whitney Houston is in my ear… you know the one from the whitney greatest hits remixes… omg.
- I’m so sick of it- and I swear someone very near to may heart says liars go to hell. And I don’t know what that looks like…. But stop it.
- Im terrified- to be honest I’m terrified…. This has my impending doom alarm waving its freak flag, gay flag, and any other flag I have along with my drunk aunt’s wig from mien girls wig- im terrified… how is it that bars where there is a 100% or greater mark up on alcohol re-opening while people are being evicted and broke. Like- it has impending doom written all over it.
Yes that’s me.. sitting here listening to Ashlee simpson lololo love
¡in person- and sorry I was in a hurry but, hey you!
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