I’m affronted...

So from what I gather... I’m one drop. Rumor has it that I guess I have been lying on all my forms but only in some states.  Can you believe that from the information I’ve read tonight as I am always working and payday is coming in some form or fashion... like in some states the one drop law still exists and did you know that it once went to the Supreme Court? And they sided with the right of the power or empowerment or state constitution,.. meaning I guess the state constitutions override the federal/ US Constitution. I just thought that was my dads nickname when he worked in construction. I did ask for more information... I was like- but why? I don’t get it. Kind of like the time I was called a fudge packer?  I was like, even if I did pack fudge why would you make fun of me for it? The person then like was just like awwww... and told me about the meaning in which he was using it. So with the same like why? Attitude or question I then was told well because if there was one drop of rain he would call it a day and go fishing... I was like... ok, makes sense... not that he’s lazy but does indeed like to fish... anyways... I dunno why I thought of that tonight but then that just you know how you get lost in the information that a click or tap can provide... its pretty cool until it’s not.  Like, it offensive and crazy that this is not been brought up... attorney in these states have to be made aware of this.... like have to be. And yet I don’t know of they are like not able to just hand someone a list or pass a note to someone and say here... here’s some crazy laws that shouldn’t have even been written... as I was taught that this was something that was apart of hitler’a belief.... I never knew that it was an actual law and only in some states and was supported by the Supreme Court and hasn’t been brought up since.  Doesn’t that just make you wanna throw up.  So I guess that can be added to the list of... own country... so where does this one country stand on this one issue/inconstancy? I don’t know they care which way we go- but it’s absurd that the inconsistency and lack of knowledge is consistently present and so just absolutely affecting everything. Variance is wonderful... but not this kind. This kind of variance leaves the room for huge things to happen causing huge ripples and the person or people could be so just ignorant to the entire legalities in place... and it wouldn’t matter. The person or persons would be held to the highest level of accountability and responsibly and with an attorneys advice never have to or get the option to even have the words ‘but I didn’t know I was doing anything wrong...’ ever said to those 12 + 1. The right to not incriminate or whatever is wonderful... it’s just it almost and kind of beautifully creates the need for a justified appeal when that right is exercised and a guilty verdict delivered. Ok cool, so I guess they did need or want to hear my side... cause we about to start the appeal process. Or at least I am... over a case that can’t nobody find... the judge made the unprovoked decision to seal the records... with the ‘of course’ phrase in there somewhere- my attorney didn’t make a motion or request and neither did the DA that likes to bake (pun or No pun intended I dunno- but the behind the bench request a questionable question...).   

Like I knew I hated fractions for a damn good reason.  And it’s because of this... it’s like there’s a 1/16 law and then I don’t know but I’m it breaks down into like if dad is 1/4 and then mom is 1/16... I do wonder which one wins if the lesser is this and the greater is that... like- this is what has been argued all the way to the Supreme Court.  I’m just lost... literally- I just can’t believe it. It’s like I’m back in school as a child and a teacher is telling me that even as a child of 14 there are places that I be locked away in for my entire life because a crime.   Like that shit just doesn’t and didn’t seem real... and how fucking stupid am I from being in my room crying over this bullshit like I’m shocked as... our history is indeed so kind... like, it ain’t. And I’m still just uncovering all this shit, and I know that it’s not a get out of jail free card as it pertains to me and my best friend... but like, after reading this and all- I still have to be able to sleep tonight and my heart just wouldn’t have it any other way... I mean my heart of course wishes my best friend were here or I was there... but just like every other night I’ll pray that we don’t have bad dreams and for God to bless us both... yes I say our names individually just so there is no confusion... not last names though as identify theft is real.