I’m trying to keep this civil but there’s some... so how do you feel about like the work conditions. I do think it’s a bit unfair that we consider having a full time job, yes- that person with a job you may consider mediocre by your standards but as per the standards of someone/entity other then themselves.... and possibly by you or someone you know.... not pointing any fingers as I’ve probably done this as well, it never crossed my mind that the reason that person has the job they have.... is because of a misdemeanor. It’s offensive. Not o ly that but because of the educational trap city I grew up in, I got a similar job and do you know what i found out... that my job and the wage it pays at my 40+ hour work week means that I’m at or below the poverty level?! Like- if that’s not something that will put things in perspective I just don’t know what is. Oh besides the fact that... that person may have a full time job, a part time job... and still somehow with your looks of judgement or ‘yes, mr confidential informant.... I did just see you fuck up that bathroom and then leave bitching about homeless people’... and even then... somehow that poverty level job and a half having person doesn’t kick that persons ass.... why? Because all those same people that created that job, the opportunity to acquire such, and the convenient bus or metro schedules to get that person from their home, and possibly in the same city in which they grow up in... to.... I know, I don’t like talking like this or feeing like I’m just nagging nagging nagging for things to change... but, the violence and crimes etc, probably started with the same energy or feelings that I have... like damn, this is offensive. How is it I’m from a town with a four way stop sign and no effing traffic light... I know I know, you’re welcome.... (I think people thought there was running water in every home in our country, or power...) sarcasm as a defense mechanism is sooooo something that I have to work on because it’s not fair that once again the injustices continue.... because- he here is poppin off and making jokes while literally my child and my mother and my neighbors and everyone I know are living in these offensive situations. I have no excuse other then I don’t know how to get or keep and audience and I probably am going about it all wrong- but some people see an article about those without a home and skip the entire thing because it’s not going to be up bet and perky... it’s going to be real and hard and... I don’t blame that person for doing that they may have a job and life where they don’t have the extra in their lives to allot to that energy so that it doesn’t carry over and then all off a sudden- damn I shoulda read that article about housing cause I just lost my job. I’m not mad at the fancy, or the quality over quantity item selection- I’m not... but I do feel like mad or lied to or something more, maybe disappointed- I feel disappointed that there are these entire populations of people that literally- it’s not available to. Like, a college degree not an option and I thought people may just not go- like, college or university isn’t for me right now or at this time... I never ever thought that one mess up, or injustice- hey, technically I just don’t see the legal ness of giving a minor a record before they’re 21... I just, it seems neglectful of the legal system to do so or like child abuse or what the fuck is that parent supposed to do but be madder then hell? I’m not the first person to have these beliefs or probably to put them out into the universe.... but, I was devastated beyond what I want think back to when I got a misdemeanor. I’m so lucky that I had the opportunity to have a private attorney, pay like $20k total for everything in order to satisfy the courts and keep my nursing license- but had it happened before I was licensed or before I was educated..then I wouldn’t have even been accepted to university with that major. I don’t know that there is a mechanism to let someone know that hey- you’re not being accepted to blah blah blah with the major of blahblahblah because of.... or is it just a declination letter? It’s not the academic institutions it’s in this case the board of nursing will not allow you or that person to sit for the licensure exam... and that’s one criteria for which the school is funded, accredited, donated to, its..... its like pretty much everything as far as keeping the doors open and a Dean or associate dean have jobs and livelihood at stake that make it as easy for them to be held as personally accountable as anyone. Like that number has been the same or increasing since I took this deans hip position and it falls one year because... life happens, and I’m loosing my job, my pension, my health insurance... effective today?! It is that quick....lalllllll of this pressure that’s on society and is just way tooo much.... I don’t know if it’s any less for our elected public servants... as only the best probably are able to swallow such a true label- I mean it’s also very honorable or admirable so if you chocked up that’s probably a good place to start... but, make things better for society and maybe some of your pressures will ease up... people are being held to beyond reasonable standards in the media and politics and it is directly and absolutely because they can’t take it anymore. They can’t have their pain, their child’s, their boyfriends, their grandmothers... they can’t have that type of generational pain build anymore... I don’t know if it’s intentional, or if it’s just the system kicking people out so that maybe the next person will bring about some huge monumental just only a human could do something that amazing for another human or for the world... cause we aren’t animals... we don’t come into this world being able to do anything! Like- we have to have someone to take care of us... and that care and concern doesn’t stop... or at least the need for it. So the pressure to be perfect or not offend or whatever that’s causing a lot of just chaos and... it sucks becuase I’m not going to pretend like good better then average people or leaders haven’t fallen because of this and maybe just didn’t know or wasn’t informed of the actual state of people’s struggles. But struggle doesn’t do these injustices justice because even me, and my student loan owing non-employable though once thousands of dollars a month making employee can’t phantom- even at where I was... I was paycheck to paycheck and literally didn’t even think I had my shit together enough for it to fall apart the way it did. And I know a lot of nurses like that... I don’t know it it’s the tax bracket or just how expensive it is to exist let alone raise a kiddo- like, damn. I look back and laugh and think- I really worked at a job in a state in the states that paid $5.75 as minimum wage? Like- before taxes? And then managers at that store had to have a degree and made $30,000 or $29,000 something per year before taxes? Like, for real though?
So many arguments and fights within a family unit and community and now even if it isn’t directly something you struggle with- enough people are that it is affecting your family unit in some way or another in an impactful way that ain’t gonna get better- and that’s not a threat or warning... it’s a reality. Because, we many be many states... but we are one country. Like- I don’t know who what when where how if an individual Provence in Canada- I just know Canada... like a lot including me think of Europe as a country and that’s just how little I know about their individual countries but the point is... they aren’t the issue.... and they may be impacting your family unit now as well. I mean, I know they are- as they should. Because it’s stupid to nosey around and give and build and rebuild and blow up- in other countries....and lie to the communities and people in which you serve within your own country in the manner you do.... like- it speaks to what are you’re true intentions? What are you doing? Ok fine, maybe as a politician you honestly didn’t know what a daily (forgive me) nightmare some people’s struggles are and yet how amazing they are or it is that they carry on- even if it’s to go to a meeting and try to see what’s going on at one of these planning or zoning or what have you things... truly it’s amazing. So acknowledge your ignorance, look to people with admiration and not with a ‘oh woe is me, what are we gonna do..... with these people and...’ lemme just tell you real quick how real things are... cause I have seen a foreign leader hung on YouTube... like this man was in modern day times, tied up, and literally I swear I heard it pop.... it was one of the most humbling terrifying, oh my
God I cannot believe that I just saw that, and damn- we really at War kind of moments in college at a friends house that it shock me and her and she in the military! Like, this is real life... oh, so you only been in that seat for how long... oh well... long enough. Just because we are a democracy... it doesn’t mean that a person or public servant will be held any less accountable then we did in that situation. So... yes, it was beautiful and awful and thank you YouTube for showing the reality of that... it was weird to hear a newscaster say it after having actually seen the video first... because I was like, damn that doesn’t do what I saw justice but.... to stop or the current movement of censoring or blocking or whatever with YouTube is only going to not only piss people off and show everyone that clearly your head is still not in the right place because keeping people who don’t know from knowing- especially when technically we have a right to know- and you mean I’m actively seeking this information out and can’t find it? Seriously? Censorship, all of that... if you think something should be censored then you are in the know, know that others aren’t in the know, and are not only afraid of their reactions or input or push back or.... but you’re going to raise money, put propaganda out there but only to certain groups of people that will support your further illegalities of not telling the truth. It’s a generational issue that has you creating and torturing people by putting fear in their lives- which I’m saying are already met with adversity far beyond what was known to me. Like- as if I didn’t have to worry about someone enough- now I have to worry that... and I’ll bring it up again... I have to worry about the people in the border camps or my husband not coming home becuase I forgot he had court, didn’t remind him and a bench warrant was issued and then he’s not home from work and it’s 11:30o- so even if he doesn’t get deported, or killed in the process will damn sure maybe have to find a new job because y’all can go to people’s jobs and arrest them?! Or to their homes and I’m going to post this thing.... I hope it helps, or does something. It’s like JLo in that movie saying- and what am I gonna do- throw it at him? But, it’s something... actually I need to adjust my cuss words- my great said I needed to carry myself in such a way... so but the thighs are already posted....actually- that would be another injustice right... so all at once... and on a Saturday! I love you, and no one will fault you for making things better. Violence and guns and nicotine—- regulate the shit out of. Like- cigarettes only come in one variable concentration right? Ok cool. People, education, criminal records, public services—- the only people that support some of these ignorant ideas like repealing this or not finding this.... I cannot support anyone who is supported by people with judgement and bias in their hearts. Ok- if you don’t think that person on the street is a victim in need of safety and shelter... then the belief is yours... but that judgement and bias has no place, and this is for your own sake, being something that started by a statement from a public servant at the tip top of our, the people’s, government. Why would you put... no, right now or anytime here on... publicly is not always good- saying something to get attention or... what is it? Any is better then no press... or whatever.... yeah/ that’s more like you being the admirable leader You’re capable of being while saying that to yourself as Saturday night live just had a skit about you that may have been a little hurtful... that idea isn’t a get out of jail free card for you to give yourself about a douchebag statement you just said about a person to whom you’re called to not only protect but make life better for. Like, if you’re at this table and are more concerned with oh that person just offended me or i don’t feel... or... omg- like, are you here for yourself or the population or people in which you serve... and I don’t mean you’re friends or your individual interests but... you at the top are only as strong as the person in need the most... that premise or clique can just sashay you all the way to....
yes yes- somehow they were right side up in my phone and are now upside down.. so sorry. :/


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