SOS!

Omg I have so much to do... but help we have POW’s in the states!  Help!  It’s in the form of these so called border camps!  Help! 🆘 SOS! 

What’s the point in having a blog if not to blog? Well, procrastination is literally something of mine that gets on even the most elite of the procrastinators that exist... did you know that’s a cultural trait specific to.... 

Financially...

So if I have a business- wouldn’t it be nice if I had the opportunity to have my own and stay out of politics? Oh wait- I can do both... but like if I run for office and then must, once elected cut ties or whatever with said business, is it ok for that business to then contribute money to me during re-election?  I dunno... that’s kind of like a ‘keep- away’ or like a ‘library suspension’ or a ‘restraining order’- no, I’ve only had one of these and that was the library suspension and I couldn’t go to, or talk to, or et al anything with that library... so I’m just saying.... financially there may have to be some diversification, as well as, so money returns. I do hope amazon.com will be ok with you returning that already opened red shirt... oh wait, they won’t.... and it should be blue. Cheers to Sunday Funday...

I dunno what to say...

Sen. Graham: 'I Don't Care' If 'These People' Are Held In Cages For '400 Days'
Adrian GarciaJuly 14, 2019

https://thegailygrind.com/2019/07/14/sen-graham-i-dont-care-if-these-people-are-detained-for-400-days/?fbclid=IwAR0r5G6Jnw3XHxrMsQt6ALJmbLvtaiLrWbw3JOLnL0D17oOlIsF3mj0cF2s

Less than 24 hours after his visit to a dangerously overcrowded and foul-smelling Texas Border Patrol facility holding hundreds of migrants in cages, Sen. Lindsey Graham (R-SC) said he doesn’t care if “these people” are held in detention for “400 days.”

“I don’t care if they have to stay in these facilities for 400 days, we’re not going to let those men go that I saw,” Graham told Fox News’ Maria Bartiromo on this week’s edition of Sunday Morning Futures.
“I saw 900 illegal immigrants that were captured for coming into our country illegally, housed in detention facilities that was meant for 385. So they had to put a tent in the back. What I saw is a bunch of people who have been here before, broke the law before, and we’re not going to let them go,” Graham said of his visit to a border patrol facility with Vice President Mike Pence.

Graham also said immigration enforcement officials are doing an “incredible job” and says he plans to introduce a resolution in Congress to praise their work.
“We’re not going to let them go,” Graham continued. “This is not a concentration camp that I saw. It is a facility overwhelmed. I’m willing to buy beds for these people so they will have a better place to get a night sleep, but I’m not going to let them go.”

“I don’t care if we have to build tents from Texas to Oklahoma, we’re not going to let these people go,” he continued.
More in Latest. (May I add that this would be doing so in tornado alley... and tornado season is upon on...- oh, Mr. Some kind of security military clearance must be trippin cause the wizard of oz only pertains to these people’s malnutrition and literal living hell... like wtf...)

Pence and Graham toured a dangerously overcrowded and foul-smelling McAllen Border Patrol station in Texas on Friday.

Images and videos from Pence’s visit showed around 384 men being held inside standing-room-only mental fences in the “sweltering hot” facility where they didn’t even have anything resembling mats or pillows.

The men, many who told White House press pool reporters that they had been detained for more than 40 days, complained of not having had a shower or having been able to brush their teeth in weeks.

“The stench was horrendous,” a reporter said. Video footage showed some of the border officers guarding the cages wearing face masks to combat the stench.

The temperature in McAllen, Texas, hit 99 degrees on Friday, with a heat index climbing to 110 degrees.

One man held inside the facility yelled through the fence to reporters, “Cuarenta dias, cuarenta dias” or “40 days” in Spanish. He could be seen holding up four fingers with one hand and forming a zero with the other to indicate his 40 days in captivity. A patrol agent at the scene claimed the longest any detainee had been at the facility was 32 days.
(But they’ve been held so much longer then that... as they were in California before for a long time... I dare say maybe forty weeks?)

Seen this ad multiple time
“No shower, no shower,” someone else could be heard shouting from the cages. The border patrol agent acknowledged that many of the men had not showered for 10 to 20 days for the simple reason that there were no actual showers at the facility until recently.

Another could be heard saying, “No agua,” or “No water” in Spanish.

“There were no mats of pillows — some of the men were sleeping on concrete,” the pool reporter said.

The vice president and pool reporters were pulled out of the caged area within 90 seconds.


Im so concerned, like we’re holding these people, these humans, these brothers, sisters, fathers, children, and grandchildren literally hostage. I mean I do want to make sure the ‘this speaks to the Republican Party and their character and overall humanity as a whole’ part is clearly stated.

Warning... this may keep you up tonight...

At least look at the two photos at the end- English and Espanol

I’m trying to keep this civil but there’s some... so how do you feel about like the work conditions.  I do think it’s a bit unfair that we consider having a full time job, yes- that person with a job you may consider mediocre by your standards but as per the standards of someone/entity other then themselves.... and possibly by you or someone you know.... not pointing any fingers as I’ve probably done this as well, it never crossed my mind that the reason that person has the job they have.... is because of a misdemeanor.  It’s offensive.  Not o ly that but because of the educational trap city I grew up in, I got a similar job and do you know what i found out... that my job and the wage it pays at my 40+ hour work week means that I’m at or below the poverty level?! Like- if that’s not something that will put things in perspective I just don’t know what is.  Oh besides the fact that... that person may have a full time job, a part time job... and still somehow with your looks of judgement or ‘yes, mr confidential informant.... I did just see you fuck up that bathroom and then leave bitching about homeless people’... and even then... somehow that poverty level job and a half having person doesn’t kick that persons ass.... why? Because all those same people that created that job, the opportunity to acquire such, and the convenient bus or metro schedules to get that person from their home, and possibly in the same city in which they grow up in... to.... I know, I don’t like talking like this or feeing like I’m just nagging nagging nagging for things to change... but, the violence and crimes etc, probably started with the same energy or feelings that I have... like damn, this is offensive. How is it I’m from a town with a four way stop sign and no effing traffic light... I know I know, you’re welcome.... (I think people thought there was running water in every home in our country, or power...) sarcasm as a defense mechanism is sooooo something that I have to work on because it’s not fair that once again the injustices continue.... because- he here is poppin off and making jokes while literally my child and my mother and my neighbors and everyone I know are living in these offensive situations.  I have no excuse other then I don’t know how to get or keep and audience and I probably am going about it all wrong- but some people see an article about those without a home and skip the entire thing because it’s not going to be up bet and perky... it’s going to be real and hard and... I don’t blame that person for doing that they may have a job and life where they don’t have the extra in their lives to allot to that energy so that it doesn’t carry over and then all off a sudden- damn I shoulda read that article about housing cause I just lost my job.  I’m not mad at the fancy, or the quality over quantity item selection- I’m not... but I do feel like mad or lied to or something more, maybe disappointed- I feel disappointed that there are these entire populations of people that literally- it’s not available to.  Like, a college degree not an option and I thought people may just not go- like, college or university isn’t for me right now or at this time... I never ever thought that one mess up, or injustice- hey, technically I just don’t see the legal ness of giving a minor a record before they’re 21... I just, it seems neglectful of the legal system to do so or like child abuse or what the fuck is that parent supposed to do but be madder then hell? I’m not the first person to have these beliefs or probably to put them out into the universe.... but, I was devastated beyond what I want think back to when I got a misdemeanor. I’m so lucky that I had the opportunity to have a private attorney, pay like $20k total for everything in order to satisfy the courts and keep my nursing license- but had it happened before I was licensed or before I was educated..then I wouldn’t have even been accepted to university with that major. I don’t know that there is a mechanism to let someone know that hey- you’re not being accepted to blah blah blah with the major of blahblahblah because of....  or is it just a declination letter?  It’s not the academic institutions it’s in this case the board of nursing will not allow you or that person to sit for the licensure exam... and that’s one criteria for which the school is funded, accredited, donated to, its..... its like pretty much everything as far as keeping the doors open and a Dean or associate dean have jobs and livelihood at stake that make it as easy for them to be held as personally accountable as anyone. Like that number has been the same or increasing since I took this deans hip position and it falls one year because... life happens, and I’m loosing my job, my pension, my health insurance... effective today?! It is that quick....lalllllll of this pressure that’s on society and is just way tooo much.... I don’t know if it’s any less for our elected public servants... as only the best probably are able to swallow such a true label- I mean it’s also very honorable or admirable so if you chocked up that’s probably a good place to start... but, make things better for society and maybe some of your pressures will ease up... people are being held to beyond reasonable standards in the media and politics and it is directly and absolutely because they can’t take it anymore.  They can’t have their pain, their child’s, their boyfriends, their grandmothers... they can’t have that type of generational pain build anymore... I don’t know if it’s intentional, or if it’s just the system kicking people out so that maybe the next person will bring about some huge monumental just only a human could do something that amazing for another human or for the world... cause we aren’t animals... we don’t come into this world being able to do anything! Like- we have to have someone to take care of us... and that care and concern doesn’t stop... or at least the need for it. So the pressure to be perfect or not offend or whatever that’s causing a lot of just chaos and... it sucks becuase I’m not going to pretend like good better then average people or leaders haven’t fallen because of this and maybe just didn’t know or wasn’t informed of the actual state of people’s struggles. But struggle doesn’t do these injustices justice because even me, and my student loan owing non-employable though once thousands of dollars a month making employee can’t phantom- even at where I was... I was paycheck to paycheck and literally didn’t even think I had my shit together enough for it to fall apart the way it did. And I know a lot of nurses like that... I don’t know it it’s the tax bracket or just how expensive it is to exist let alone raise a kiddo- like, damn.  I look back and laugh and think- I really worked at a job in a state in the states that paid $5.75 as minimum wage? Like- before taxes?  And then managers at that store had to have a degree and made $30,000 or $29,000 something per year before taxes? Like, for real though?
So many arguments and fights within a family unit and community and now even if it isn’t directly something you struggle with- enough people are that it is affecting your family unit in some way or another in an impactful way that ain’t gonna get better- and that’s not a threat or warning... it’s a reality.  Because, we many be many states... but we are one country.  Like- I don’t know who what when where how if an individual Provence in Canada- I just know Canada... like a lot including me think of Europe as a country and that’s just how little I know about their individual countries but the point is... they aren’t the issue.... and they may be impacting your family unit now as well.   I mean, I know they are- as they should. Because it’s stupid to nosey around and give and build and rebuild and blow up- in other countries....and lie to the communities and people in which you serve within your own country in the manner you do.... like- it speaks to what are you’re true intentions?  What are you doing? Ok fine, maybe as a politician you honestly didn’t know what a daily (forgive me) nightmare some people’s struggles are and yet how amazing they are or it is that they carry on- even if it’s to go to a meeting and try to see what’s going on at one of these planning or zoning or what have you things... truly it’s amazing.  So acknowledge your ignorance, look to people with admiration and not with a ‘oh woe is me, what are we gonna do..... with these people and...’ lemme just tell you real quick how real things are... cause I have seen a foreign leader hung on YouTube... like this man was in modern day times, tied up, and literally I swear I heard it pop.... it was one of the most humbling terrifying, oh my
God I cannot believe that I just saw that, and damn- we really at War kind of moments in college at a friends house that it shock me and her and she in the military!  Like, this is real life... oh, so you only been in that seat for how long... oh well... long enough. Just because we are a democracy... it doesn’t mean that a person or public servant will be held any less accountable then we did in that situation.  So... yes, it was beautiful and awful and thank you YouTube for showing the reality of that... it was weird to hear a newscaster say it after having actually seen the video first... because I was like, damn that doesn’t do what I saw justice but.... to stop or the current movement of censoring or blocking or whatever with YouTube is only going to not only piss people off and show everyone that clearly your head is still not in the right place because keeping people who don’t know from knowing- especially when technically we have a right to know- and you mean I’m actively seeking this information out and can’t find it? Seriously? Censorship, all of that... if you think something should be censored then you are in the know, know that others aren’t in the know, and are not only afraid of their reactions or input or push back or.... but you’re going to raise money, put propaganda out there but only to certain groups of people that will support your further illegalities of not telling the truth.  It’s a generational issue that has you creating and torturing people by putting fear in their lives- which I’m saying are already met with adversity far beyond what was known to me.  Like- as if I didn’t have to worry about someone enough- now I have to worry that... and I’ll bring it up again... I have to worry about the people in the border camps or my husband not coming home becuase I forgot he had court, didn’t remind him and a bench warrant was issued and then he’s not home from work and it’s 11:30o- so even if he doesn’t get deported, or killed in the process will damn sure maybe have to find a new job because y’all can go to people’s jobs and arrest them?! Or to their homes and I’m going to post this thing.... I hope it helps, or does something.  It’s like JLo in that movie saying- and what am I gonna do- throw it at him? But, it’s something... actually I need to adjust my cuss words- my great said I needed to carry myself in such a way... so but the thighs are already posted....actually- that would be another injustice right... so all at once... and on a Saturday! I love you, and no one will fault you for making things better. Violence and guns and nicotine—- regulate the shit out of. Like- cigarettes only come in one variable concentration right? Ok cool.  People, education, criminal records, public services—- the only people that support some of these ignorant ideas like repealing this or not finding this.... I cannot support anyone who is supported by people with judgement and bias in their hearts. Ok- if you don’t think that person on the street is a victim in need of safety and shelter... then the belief is yours... but that judgement and bias has no place, and this is for your own sake, being something that started by a statement from a public servant at the tip top of our, the people’s, government. Why would you put... no, right now or anytime here on... publicly is not always good- saying something to get attention or... what is it? Any is better then no press... or whatever.... yeah/ that’s more like you being the admirable leader You’re capable of being while saying that to yourself as Saturday night live just had a skit about you that may have been a little hurtful... that idea isn’t a get out of jail free card for you to give yourself about a douchebag statement you just said about a person to whom you’re called to not only protect but make life better for.  Like, if you’re at this table and are more concerned with oh that person just offended me or i don’t feel... or... omg- like, are you here for yourself or the population or people in which you serve... and I don’t mean you’re friends or your individual interests but... you at the top are only as strong as the person in need the most... that premise or clique can just sashay you all the way to....
yes yes- somehow they were right side up in my phone and are now upside down.. so sorry. :/



Dear Gilead

Ok so it’s 10:58pm in California and I‘m like oh I just happen to be watching television and on TBS they had a commercial for Truvada which said some thing in the last part.... the wording gave me the impression that there is only one dose/version and it was for prep only.  I mean, the prep dosing is different then the antiretroviral therapy dosing?! I do hope that I misheard, but in the event that I didn’t... I tried to submit a form or something on your website... but...

And one more...

So here it all is....

I can’t remember but.... I was thinking about things... and has anyone who has one of those auto-immune your body like attacking itself situations... and I was like, I do wonder if that person could just be in a whatever level of a sickle cell crisis. Like I realize there is a lot of research behind lupus and fibromyalgia and like those sorts of things... but at the end of the day all those diagnosis will be considered drug seeking or... at least have been in the past... not be me but your local conservative. This being said literally sickle cell crisis are brought on by dehydration. Ok fine, an illness... however, that illness brought on dehydration.... and dehydration causes the sickling to take place which then get stuck in those tiny capillaries and it then is a medical emergency as those tiny vessels are in organs, finger tips, and your brain and lungs. Literally, water... is the prevention and so I was just I dunno.  To think that even the smartest of people and patients with some of these hurtles that they must face literally before they even open their eyes to then seize the day... literally, it’s so out of the box that only me and my silliness would even think it twice and also share it... Either way the increased water consumption or just mental log there of will only do go...


Oh yeah, and can please please someone put it in black and white or apple background and whatever color that incarcerated persons in whatever manner that may be... as in, jail, prisons, the fed versions and sentenced or still fighting they case, convicted but appealing.... those of course apply to all of those different entities. It’s just a mess...

And then like I was looking up the email addresses earlier and it’s like hmmmm.... I see your there with what ought to be a .gov ending but... alas you have a balhbalhgov.org which is like access to grants, tax write offs, and lots more... in just saying... when the work in which you do parallels that of a children’s hospital or other non or not for profit entity as such that is for the people and not prosecution and persecution of... then, you can have that respect and honor.... but no offense just like in San Jo when I called it ‘Paris’ like where they train marines... yes it was said to be the fastest... yet... here I am... 6 years later... and once again ‘Paris’ as in something ain’t right!

Drilling for oil, eh?  Are you sure it’s not fresh water?


Ex Machina- fantastic though a little creepy at the end....

Charlie Wilson’s War- So, Tom Hanks and Julia Roberts and those two dogs... like all I’ve ever had are dogs that are little smart asses that wanna think they’re leading me and I’m following but yet have their neck in a u-the position to make sure that I am indeed still following or leading depending... and perpetually run into a wall and then act the wall jus came out of nowhere. Oh, I can wait... like everything is becoming sorted in a way... or for me... yes, I still have no money (that I know of..), am still trying to find an attorney/ or interviewing/and looking for...I’m still jobless, I’m still homeless, I still have what seem to be weird thought or statements... then I give you two hours of we’ll see what had happened was... this then this then did you know you can be suspended from the library... and then this and then that... it’s like oh may that’s coming from a place of oh shit no, I did not know... well, that’s like suspending someone from a sidewalk I’d say.... I’m about to have a strawberry pop tart and I like, am so hopeful that I don’t then waltz to get ice cream... but, quality progress v/vs perfection...  

I’m so thankful...

Hey hey!  So omg I’ve decided one must be uber careful... por que if I told you that those who raised me were actually the ones who stole me and then once upon the take back... they were like omg that bitch took my child... or bitches... I don’t know... but just like they were gonna let me rot in the gutter in a city unknown to me... I mean free a year and a few months and a few blog posts and also the acquisition of such a records record of everything... I can say those people could be up in the jail house not mirandized cause who knows.... and innocent but you know what... those souls knew or found out or came to be aware of the mess and took a deal y’all.  If I told you that also imagine a baby just so mf’n cute that you... create a scenario that you know what... got those people framed for some shit and just like Ashley Judd... they still sitting there just like what the hell happened... and that person was sitting there with they arms ready to love their child as was the whole plan all along and it’s medicine, nursing, homeless people, indigent people, welfare people... none of those groups of people allowed that to happen... it was indeed the government.... ok they wanna point fingers... only, and Ive seen her do this... at herself (Our amazing Madam Speaker) like literally these fools yayanin’ and like... shit you’ve had your job longer then I have and... I’m just keep it on ‘I’ and go from there. Because while you sit and think about what you’ve done, non- mirandized, and that energy is the kind that just wont stand any longer... not that the energy just goes away... as I’m sure cases are being... sighed over as we speak...but the people (US/the states/ et al) have such reliance... like we basically either live in swamp land, desert land, or... tornado alley... I’m just saying... sent us in to never see us again or I dunno, Plymouth Rock is a long ass time ago and look... we still here.  So, yes, it’s taking collaboration and efforts that I don’t even know because... everyone is taking a break.  Can you imagine some of the... books that will come out of these people.... at our best... we are all teachers... but some in form of professors, mentors, and as the universe so aligned and every once in awhile it just so happens you get or we get a teacher and a leader!

I do hope that something is like probably my bad... but I need a system that allows me to see my name, and the votes it made.... maybe not jn a back log kind of way cause I know.... that would be a lot... but I would love it as a verification and security and legitimizer kind of way to make sure that the five ID’s I have requested, taken a pic for, and that were mailed to me but as... my ID was sought out as I was fresh meat I guess... so my aid was gone... go get one... oh wait it. Didn’t come in the mail... 4 ID forms and 7-8 months later and multiple blog posts... oh, what the hell?! And that was like two years ago... so anyways... please vote... I know the system only as much as I need to... but- always go with your gut... and always please vote in a way that provides for people vs serving ones own interest. I think I did that with the last vote- there was something and I was like oh ‘no’ because it didn’t or doesn’t apply to me so like- why... then I was like, I need to re-read this... and then the distractions came and then I was like, well if I was in that school per se then hell yeah- extra milks for everyone. It wasn’t about milk but it was about something that people feel they need enough to put it on a ballot communicating... and I know someone who knows someone who knew Mr. Kaiser (Kaiser Permanente)  and, I heard through the most reliable of reliable sources that when there was discord or issues or a union strike coming... he would say ‘give it to them... it doesn’t matter, give it to them’ in a not like sock it to em or give them hell... but, give them opportunity and better conditions and  a better life...

And I know that billionaires just wanna lay in their beds or be on magazines.... yes, mike posner that song so applies... but when someone saw opportunity to help people... insert Josh Kushner... did you know that the systems for the affordable healthcare act were created by his company or name... or business.... like that’s crazy. Imagine all those rich conservatives at blue cross blue shield and the virus and malware and hacking assaults that took place... and all he did was help people! Thank you!  Just another person doing the most and that’s commendable... either way... thank you. I don’t know what that all entailed but I’m thankful someone did it and did it well versus just hoping for the best.

Woke to pee, so here it is...

So can I just tell you about the time my dad found a weed pipe, actually it was my mom and dad... but they found some weed and a weed pipe- naturally broke themselves off a little, and then of course they unscrewed the pipe part and I dunno if they put something in it like rat feces hoping I’d get hantavirus or something but that’s a little much... but the fact that those big ass rats are present in the parks like I dunno what’s normal or not normal but some of this weird ass shit isn’t and there the are some many things under normal circumstances to die from... I get out country is in some places is swampish... but like the nastiness brought on by human suffering and poverty....  fuck my life I wish it stopped there but oh wait... I wish it stopped there.  But guess what, poverty level describes people with jobs... like for real... below poverty level... like yessir I’ve been one of those people who work two and three jobs to pay the minimums on credit cards and not only that but then just to survive... like if there was a time to stop it’s now.  Like not only are taking a job from someone who needs one....but you’re not doing anyone a favor and definitely not your country or your family and I love the word injustice. Like you be having all these jobs to live... what about the living part. Its so difficult for me to acknowledge that oh yay we created 200,000 jobs!  Ok 175,000 of those were obtained by people for whom that is their second job, 23,000 of those went to people re-entering the workforce and then, for 11,000 of those went to people who are working under a student work permit and are under 18,000 and holy hell 1,000 people whom didn’t have job now have them!!!! Yay!   Thank you! I do .I wish to commend our governor. He is someone that I did indeed vote for, and I dunno if that vote was counted... I’m unsure how to find out.... but never the less I am indeed sure that one of the issues would be that people may or may not re-register once they get out of jail and then mail is a federal type thing so I dunno... anyways, I think they can just return to sender it- and also I wonder how many they don’t send back cause that would be another way in which to see how many people, were, weren’t, aren’t, and still are in just a soy force fed... nightmare. Anyways... my commendable governor sign a bill that makes it so that it’s not illegal to carry a condom...and walk down the street.... doing so meant you were a hooker/ or was at least an ‘add’ charge or a... intent to commit prostitution.   I don’t know what the charge carry’s, I’ve never been informed of that for most of my cases... so that doesn’t really matter to me the issue I and others have is that... it’s a misdemeanor. . There was a law in place that... took opportunity (I want to make that a plural statement... but one is one or is it two and so take one or infringe upon one and it makes it a very very very- like if America promises opportunities and then doesn’t provide or decides to take it away... where is that law or what does that carry....by carry I mean a sentence or does it have a minimum sentence of a jail or prison term and then what is the maximum that one could receive and my head hurts already) away from people who are living a life they want to right?  Like, think about your body, and having to do something like let someone stick something of theirs inside of you... and I don’t know if it’s this or that or has this but I do know that that person cares- but money is money and you working a job that isn’t the most enjoyable isn’t the same... I’m only saying that everyone knows prostitution is legal in some areas or to be honest at some levels... clearly.  Cause if I have a condom on me in my car would it be the same?  I dunno...  how do I find out? Do I literally have to speak to an attorney to find out these things? I dunno.  Why is it that my battery has been at 4% for like almost an hour when it was literally falling a percentage point every one to two minutes. I know you hate that I have a portable charger... it’s a game changer in such a way that it is phenomenal to not only have a back up since my battery on my phone hasn’t been used in possibly years or was used by some one who didn’t follow manufacturer recommendations for how to charge it and what types of cords to use and all that but fuck... either way I can’t wait for a trip to the apple store in Cupertino. I’m sure they will be able to tell me the fuck happened to my phones and accounts and how best to secure them because just like saks fifth and Louis Vuitton (I do think that there was a question about a color scheme and I am so sad because of someone’s bitch ass attitude and sour heart that they set a snowball or steam roller type cascade of events that made it so I can at least still blog- though they do wish I would just... I dunno but I love the fact that I purchased that amazing peice of luggage... I don’t know about some of the legislation... but you don’t hear about peta taking on lambskin condoms or the mother fucking carbon footprint or equivalent of latex condoms or that a lot of people may have undiagnosed latex allergies... because yes we used to use them in drapes in Operating rooms and very rarely do we now... if ever... but I will say that the only symptom of their then pain, and... so essentially a latex allergy should you have one will cause skin irritation- i mean/am trying to convey...(see I speak and write in broken ass American English just without the accent... did you know that people from Los Angeles are the only people without accents?... tricky tricky tricky.... at least now... and I wonder if Zac Efron or his people or Hollywood or someone like a risk manager whom has a law degree or a sense of the world said or spoke to the potential for legal action or misdemeanor acquisition as it relates to that condom that slipped out of his pocket that time... on a red carpet and if it did was said red carpet on the street or side walk... and does that matter? And what about well you identified yourself as and told me to stop which was there sir and then you asked me to step over here which technically after an identified in law amount of steps have now moved me into what makes me fit that legal course of action and acquisition and as I was asked by an authoritative  designated person whom I’m not sure is on the clock, or working within the jurisdictional... see all of that horse shit.. is like not important to me or anyone else really... as I’m referring to you know who... you may think it is in your realm of the world you live and work- see even the words I use I don’t know what the fuck they mean in some ways. ... but  depending you could potentially loose layers upon layers and since your skin is your largest and most beautiful organ so I do believe it only affects the areas of contact.  The point is that I am not ok with that... like the whole plastic straw deal and then you have condoms.   I don’t know the carbon foot print or if it applies of even how readily they are used... how good for you is the spermicide in a condom for you and what’s it’s half life if a condom breaks? Does it have one? Can you imagine that it doesn’t and then I dunno all the crap that can happen after that... like let me ask the person who was getting on the bus until I rounded the corner why he is or isn’t doing so... no. Not happening. It does make me think of how shitty people are though.  Like let me not work the idea that I can use a term of which I’m not even educated about... that is an effing medical diagnosis... like oh all of a sudden the whole god damn world has a psychology degree and I dont care that I agree with the whole life is hard kind of thing and so I must work harder then I want to when normal life happens... I mean I’m so thankful that not only am I a strong person... but I finally found out what a double whatever that word is lol ‘so strapped for cash...’ like I am now strapped for cash in a very literal way...I’m not exercising a certain right as that pertains to that double word that kind of means nothing... but it could. People have been taking to me that way kind of my whole life.... I’m like so sick of it in a way... 1- no one should be desperate for money... this is the land of opportunity... 2- the fact that people have to obtain a weapon, obtain a ‘strap’ to secure said weapon.... and then... you see the pain and suffering that exists in just that person?  Like, what has it taken to get to that level of desperation... it may seem like angry person, or hateful, or evil person... and look fool, porfas, there is continuum of sorts or to me it seems so... I hate that where you are on the continuum is pre-determined probably by the state of the universe... I swear we’ve spent gagillions of dollars on building telescopes not only to see the aw cuteness of a place we now go... kind of but I swear the fear is that gravity may be taking affect or still has a pull on that shit and eventually that shit may come back and bite us in the hole.  Either of the many we’ve created in the heart of humanity as a whole-  it literally Because we accept that trauma and all that is passed down... but so is like tolerance, patience, and motivations.... and may I just say... that I am not happy... like I just passed the law library and it was like oh pro bono clinic... and the fuck I haven’t been doing anything like that this whole time and I’m so glad that the bar can now say that it requires so many hours per who cares of blah blah blah... in some states I do believe that is where the public defenders come from and I swear to most of what I do and don’t know that I just always thought Pershing square had a  like back entrance or exit or something but damn I sure couldn’t find it when I was just looking for jt.   I dunno. I guess that’s one way to keep the stations empty at night? Is have the entrances like up and down and the escalators and I’m sure I. Tsunami areas this is a possibility. And fuck the  bullshit.  Rude i know.:. But the bullshit has been the bullshit for a longer time then I’ve been alive.... so like I can’t just describe the issue at this point... I have to describe the issue with the bullshit  and then the other descriptive term and I know you know I think you know I know what i know plus what you think... I mean think about it... imagine how much it would cost to properly defend someone against someone else who was like ‘the war of the roses’ imagine having to measure someone’s dick so that when one was asked... and all I’m saying is that do you account for the curve or not... cause I’ve started issuing the phrase ‘where is that in law’ omg all the mamas just rolled they eyes and... no no, I mean not the person that’s broken in a way but the system in place that broke him... I’m not that fucking crazy to say that it may or may not be the same from state to state and for me to say that may be a reach... cause county to county it could be different? I dunno.  I know some places so I don’t say small.., cause there could be big heart ache or big dollars there... so quant is what’s  utilized.  I hate that in a quant town I may have to go to city hall see someone I know to apply for assistance with food. Omg and then guess what... ‘I made sure to submit your application before I left! It’s in the mail (sometimes that county doesn’t even have one therefore a county rep has to sign off and submit it for you!... oh thanks! How do you get those stairs out of blah blah blahs uniform?  Cause that conversation ought to be taking place then and there (that’s sarcasm as a defense mechanism for something that’s kind of heart breaking, I mean now my kid bows, the family knows, and blah blah see I was trying to describe the magnitude of that situation that I already was cringing over and only because it is that big of a deal and no I don’t need you to tell me... or him to tell me... but you may need someone to be a little descriptive about what potentially someone goes through or has been through on a daily basis or once in a while or who knows)... was it intentional I dunno, and this is in a country that may still require that procedure to be within its own established building... and away from a hospital why? I dunno one was bombed where I grew up and furthermore I am saying now that they don’t talk about bombings because it causes hype or copycats or I dunno... but keeping news from people in the past has been so wonderfully rewarded right? No. It hasn’t.  Because one country. And, like my point is is there a hippa that the government workers... like all the branches and...Blah blah.... I do think it ought to be more a spider web the branches anyways personally so that there are no dead ends but in a way I’m more referring to the bills and laws and stuff... I mean if the three branches of government don’t talk to themselves then that’s fine as a means of checks and balances... but that’s great, until it doesn’t fit into the world anymore or your world comes crashing down when your information gets leaked... or your kids find out or your co-workers find out... like it’s all so terrible. And then who has accessed my criminal record- like in the hospitals that information is available... and checked and you better fucking have a no no... not a right to know... but a need to know. Haha show me where that is in law.  There are different... there different criteria for and of which we can assess for diabetes. For example.... maybe even four now... fasting, non-fasting, and random... and then those would be a little different if a woman was pregnant and at what stage... omg thank goodness right? Life saving.... but I do wonder, that type of just human innovation and like... someone helping someone have a better life... where is that in law.  Cause I saw that pro bono signage... and was like ‘oh yes, come, freely talk about your query and we will thank you by not only listening and then possibly finding a conflict of interest to then be unable to represent you... but we will create a round about way to remedy the loop hole that your case would have gone through and also hustled whatever entity or whatever... to get ourselves paid!’ No no I don’t think it’s like that... but I don’t know... But, where is the for the people stuff?  Like ok, we regulate the alcohol content in beer... the quality controls are so important and I don’t know why you would try to... I dunno. I embarrass myself more then I care to and I always have, and then sometimes still I’m so thankful and amazed that someone wants to be around me or hand out with me or talk to me... I mean my dad did forget my birthday again! But that’s ok, like what am I going to do... I can’t change someone’s actions or behavior... as kind as it is and needs to be a little stricter or as harsh and heartless as it is and needs to be kinder.  I will not even get to into the... so why would a county want to remain a dry one and does it speak to the issues it may or may not have within its borders... remember.... one county or township affects the whole world.  Why wouldn’t they want that sales tax?  And if a lottery provides education on the level of a B or better average in secondary school earning someone a four year degree from university then.... that happens in all the states with a lottery correct? And all states don’t have a lottery why? Ohhhh cause they enjoy that degree of separation.... and just the good ole satisfaction that some douche bags get from saying no!  Like- it’s no ok... I do expect the government on a federal or state level to step up and not allow this oppression and injustices happen any longer.  It truly is a baffling consideration to even consider that if I blow my nose and don’t wash my hands in one area or city... that doesn’t carry a minimum sentence or minimum amount of time one must spend in jail or prison... but 1 mile or sometimes one cross walk away... if I blow my nose and don’t wash my hands... then that’s a mando 10 years in prison... I am so sorry sir or madame or douche bag... there is nothing we can do... and see defense mechanism coming out again when I make a joke even in writing about something that is just so.... un humanity like.  What the hell is the opposite of humanity... to me it’s I dunno.  Like, to be human is to care for one another... period. To the point to where I do love animals... I really do.... but do not project the love your soul should be showing to another all because of fear or security or trauma. I mean you can do what you want... it’s just that... we are social creatures to the point of creating social media... like, in some places a condo by the metro... omg five times what a condo a even 10 minute walk would take to get to that same metro... and yet... hold on... you mean they are blocking building a metro station? Like the hell is going on? Not my words... but the reality is.... you didn’t stop freeways, you didn’t stop or have for long enough stopped another from surviving... like who dare says, I’m sorry sir but housing isn’t a necessity!  Someone said that, who is educated and bitter so let me just be honest when I say that education doesn’t fix everything cause sometimes people still see a different picture then what’s the reality or the need or the more human thing to do... like a predator in the wild says no no that’s mine... or no no thats my bitch or let fight it out and see who wins... hold on I gotta put my shoes on, tie my hair back, take my rings off.... see from the git go we already to civilized for that shit... If the states aren’t going to have a system in place for disaster of the individual or family then they need to chance their name.. maybe survivor... cause they trying to outwit outlast outplay... then it’s like ok... but the reverse psychology motif does resonate there also....

It’s all fun and games until it’s not... but the fun and games are like... I love walking around and seeing this community having get togethers and just a real sense of like.. its funny when someone calls the cops on those situations... it’s like ok and you live where? Cause everyone there or within the  noise is bothering me vicinity.... is at the event... so who the fuck are you?!  Like, so there is some violent death counting legislation in the works and I’m like... if you didn’t know that jails and prisons have to be specifically listed in the ink on the paper but let me tell you that I was told that the only people that dictate or decide anything in jails specifically... prisons are state facilities so it’s a little different but then what about the federal jails and prisons?  But I heard don’t nobody make decisions about jails but the sheriffs and then I dunno about the other... if you want to see a documentary of sorts... The last castle is phenomenal... these mother fuckers have tanks? Hell yeah and in resident evil... that’s MCJ fool! The one with the armoires tank thing?!  Hell yeah... but thats not what my showers looked like and... the yard is on the top... and let me tell you about how two effing weeks? That’s not even long enough to get store... which I’m not saying you should get more time... but fuck my life... I’m just saying... you’re not even going to get out of Delano/reception... you won’t even really go to prison.  Like it take six months in reception at least.... so I’m not saying you won’t get a memorable experience.  But- when I say it’s a process to get in the inside of the inside of the onion which is this working towards being better system... just cause I fix something or make it available doesn’t mean that I don’t need to do continual reassessments and I mean after all, maybe now it’ll be harder to keep some of these seats.... like it’s the reverse of the not turning a patient away at the ER that has to happen.  It’s just crazy... oh that’s hot.

Don’t for get to watch Ex Machina. That’s more what I’m talking about when I refer to robots.  I mean that is like a decade old... but just to be clear. ;)

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The metro stops are hard for me to deal with... someone who doesn’t look like someone without a home or of the ‘indigent’ status like I am getting a citation... like, at least in San Ho when they got on the rail they checked everyone.... a dude that makes probably half a million per year got a ticket... I was like damn.... same thing in SF.  Ugh, as if life isn’t hard enough for that person already just go ahead write that person a citation or ticket... I’m sure that’s a realistic expectation that our wonderful government has of its people.  To be able to pay that kind of ticket. A speeding ticket that costs $350 divided by minimum wage is how many hours, and then the insurance premium increase and then spousal or parental relationship strain.... omg! ... I mean the dude just asked this man what day it was- then wanna ask him if he’s under the influence of any drugs or alcohol... the dude doesn’t look like he has a phone, and where can one charge their phone these days, and also.... how is he supposed to know what day it is if not... like... be kind. 

And why isn’t it that all states require emissions testing?  Like- I get the states are the states... but like, it doesn’t make sense... like why wouldn’t all states be doing this? Are they? It’s just silly.  And interlock devices- omg when I finally get a car... haha or SUV, or Bentayga, or Range, or Kia or whatever...like I’m not trying to be picky.., just saying- I know that I’ll have my moments of it’s been awhile ya know... so like not only do I think an interlock device is wise just for my own personal accountability but also you get a deduction on your auto insurance.  I dunno... it seems silly but I think it’s brilliant... I just dunno if those are all over like they should be.... what I remember for some of my friends was that they had to do testing like all the time... like, how is one supposed to keep a job doing some of these things... like ok so you made a mistake and had one to many of the like two you’re able to have a woman and the three you’re able to have as man.... so you’re now required to do testing every week when your number pops up, have to do so or else the judge may remand you from court and put your ass in jail.... holding someone without bail or in a scenario where they are unable to pay the minimum or whatever it is coercion...  I do hope people take that and run with it.  I mean I’m terrified to go to court... like I’m terrified. But I mean I have to.  Right?   Like I have to.  But it’s scary, my public defender promised that they wouldn’t remand me from court but like I said I’m trying to go to the dentist just in case... cause last time they arrested me in the park when I was sleeping and then didn’t let me out for like four months. It sucked.  Like, all that shit that I have in the works.... a semi stable place to stay, my volunteer commitments, my social life (ha!), what else could there be?, um my benefits, health insurance... like all that stops... even if someone is on ssi/ssdi or social security (I think all those are different) that all stops when you go to jail or even get arrested.  I mean I don’t know if it should or shouldn’t... I’m just saying it does.   So like- a national standard for that would be amazing!  Not only amazing- but very very human or restoring faith in the American humanity. It’s not all equal... the inequalities from state to state... did I mention there are still ‘dry’ counties? Like counties that don’t sell   etoh.  It’s crazy- why wouldn’t a county sell alcohol?  I dunno.  Kinda weird, right? I don’t even know why in some places they limit the sale from like 2am-6am, or not selling it on Sundays.  I don’t know I know- I’m not attacking or saying that things should be changed as it pertains to alcohol but holy moly the shit is real for the criminal justice system. Like- I can’t even fathom the crap that individuals go through.... my struggle is so small compared to some people’s. As big as mine is... the beauty of it all is that no offense, I’ve been the only kid of difference at a school... or one of the only kids of difference... and then whatever.  Who cares... the point is once again I don’t feel bad... but I am concerned that the fucking opportunity I had coming from a town so small we only had a four way stop sign at the main intersection.... like no no... not a traffic signal... but a literal stop sign times four and guess how you decide who goes... the person who arrives first... or I think it was the person to the left goes first.  Like, that doesn’t really have a global effect/affect.  I’d say until you factor in the emissions testing and then I guess your fucked. Or maybe not... like even there the gap between rich and poor was staggering in a way.  I’ve said that I had no idea there would be people in my own town didn’t have running water... until I had an amazing teacher that made a wrong turn on a bus route when she was driving for my regularly scheduled bus or yellow cheese wagon driver.   I’m just saying, that’s just how honesty ignorant some people are of the world we live in.  They refill their gas tanks at the same time on Thursday, which is also when they are to suck off the neighbors dick at the tanning salon... ha no! But anyways (I had to/have to let you know it’s me or else one might question the lack of cussing or vulgarity as its provocative and gets people going...) their gas light comes on at the same place on the freeway every Thursday or whatever schedule only to have that type of routine because that’s what makes them happy or that’s what they are ok with... or else they would do something different right?  No.  That person could be broke as hell, or just sad because their family member is in jail or prison or if it’s not that big of a deal then yes the hell it is!  I’m telling you once or twice if not this is the fifth time I’m saying that our actions have a global effect/affect.  It’s obscene and nasty- that things are the way they are. All this combined with like those guns that took lives of our family, or foreign neighbors... like they had to come from the states? Correct?  I mean I don’t know if that type of information has been released or not I’m just assuming that it’s the case.  And that crap we’re writing about foreign leaders alike is not ok... is referring to the prime minister of Canada as Justin Traudea the same as referring to him as Prime minister or in the proper manner you should in published or written form a get out of jail free card for the person who wrote it when if not referred to in the proper manner I can straight up write lies about him? No I don’t think so... I think until you consider everything that’s going on.... especially like is a latex condom biodegradable. And me, behalf of me myself and I want to know why someone from certain organizations wouldn’t take on lamb skin condoms v or vs throwing paint on someone’s fur coat. Like- I get it, I love the passion, or the umph behind that... but in my mind that could just be a get out of jail free card cause no no we not beefin it cause she slept with my mans man... but I’m with ‘such and such.’  I dunno. But home girl isn’t even going to go to prison.  No offense she’ll sit for however many days in Delano or whatever reception place females go to and let’s be honest that’s not even enough time for her to get store or decent shampoo or deodorant. But lemme tell you... the water is foul.... and no, they don’t have floss.   I mean, if you do get store and someone does put peg on your books then yay!  You can get those rubber band things... or if not then you can pull the string out of a sheet/ the tread of a sheet and then that’s defacing jail property and girl the way they are sticking it to you- isn’t gonna get any of those people elected to office or appointed anywhere... cause they clearly are way tooooooo out of touch with the big picture.   Like, unless you have record or something? Which you might?  But damn, like how much does that go on... and is that the pressure that still exists after I’ve already been like... what the hell- SAT.... a standardized test that measures only your ability to comprehend or study for that particular test not actual factual information?  Seems pretty stupid as high school is stupid enough and hard enough... clearly all the real learning is like... I dunno my head hurts now and like prison?  No offense I beat the hell out of three ‘officers’ and am not/didn’t go to prison. And I only say that because.... no I didn’t know they were cops/officers, and no they didn’t identify themselves as such, and yes I thought/ still believe I was fighting for my life, and all because I have these stories to share and experience and I’m not trippin when I say that... yes, I’ve created little family units my whole life and I’m terrified that someone saying civil rights aren’t always civil terrifies me... and I’ll be shocked if we don’t make it through this together cause that’s not what I know to be.   Like, what I know to be is real people making real decisions that make the lives of real people better. I don’t know the ideas of public policy that speaks to one group of people only combating segregation or disparities or inequalities having a true and proper premise to them as.... I don’t think that makes sense... and regardless of what who or where it says what it says... ain’t no way.... like, I don’t get it... truly though that’s not my place... all I’m validating is the feeling and my personal feeling that shit ain’t equal, ah it ain’t available to everyone, and shit needs to change.  I don’t know who what when where or how but I guarantee you it involves money, the spending of such.... and like holding up the federal funds and all that is only going to strengthen the idea that once again you’re worrying about shit that doesn’t pertain to you when right now you need to be taking care of your people and these issues and maybe it will change or impact those in which you ought not be concerned about.... see, already I’m going around and about when... like you I should be worrying about my home front.... but, as my home front is at a dead end.... like- I’m educated, a person, smart, dumb in all the right places one can’t be good or awesome in all ways.... cause that would be just.... like, I have no where to go as it pertains work or income or social life or anything... it would be so easy for me to do what I did over the weekend and kind of just be sad. Like, that’s ok.... it happens.  I’m not living in it, I’m not dwelling in it.... but I am communicating it.  Which is... not the sadness, but like the dead end that I’m at with no round about.... or DuPont circle of situations.... and yes, I’ve been there/driven through there as a high schooler on a charter bus the same time the Pope John Paul II has passed as my 35mm pictures or real film... or maybe I had a digital camera but I don’t think so.... the flags are all at half mass to show respect.... in the same manner can I as a respectable respecting and respect showing person say, can you please respect the person.... like the person who you want to judge or are judging.... such as the person with out a home, can you just respect that he or she is a person and go from there. Like the people in the border camps... those are not only people but individual persons.... like a person.  You’re a public servant even if you’re the President of the United States... if that’s hard to swallow.... I’m sure there is water around to wash it down... for some people in our country or in the states that’s not readily available even if there was a store within walking distance or even in driving distance.   This is the people or persons you should have in mind as they probably go to work and pay taxes and file taxes. I’m sad that I put myself in situations that make it so I’m awkward as fuck... like crowded buses even before all this happened.... did you know that this is my first time taking the bus?   My whole life never gifted me the opportunity to even have that as an option... as where I’m from and when I was there... no buses. Seriously.  Besides the school ones. I’m San Jose that was the very first time and also for the rail.... same thing in LA. I mean a friend and I took the rail once to downtown.... and yes, we missed our stop/got lost but it was fun then and I wasn’t so hard on myself.... it was a different time.   I’m going to try to not be so hard on myself.  I don’t think I’m hard on others.... and if you think I am... then, that’s your feeling you have that I’m not responsible for... but, the self concern for how I feel about you is more so.... how you feel about you... I’m just trying to help you focus your efforts.... do people know that charitable contributions are tax write offs?  And I’m not hating on St. Judes research hospitals.... but I have never seen one nor do I know anyone who has worked there... but I see the commercials on TV and I’m sure they are real.... but I can’t help but wonder... is that the government trying to get some of their coin back? I dunno... I still wrote all weekend and before... I just like I said got to into the people in the stories I’m telling or sharing or the faces of people I saw in jail that aren’t alive anymore, or the people on the streets that I know are still there and hurting, or the families I saw living on train tracks without a government or resources to help them when they need it most.... so, when I write or when I seem a little dramatic.... just know that the memory recall and then memory to words in the blog your reading take a toll on me.... it’s not just out of the goodness of my heart or self preservation that I do this... it’s so I can live with myself.  It’s so I can sleep at night- and I still have my own shit to deal with. Like, for real. And then the mess I guess that’s still following me... that’s not even mine. Like, once I come into contact with you... or once we know each other... I will always be like, just as fond of you as the day we haven’t talked since... so don’t trip when I try to pick up right where we left off.  But, with that said.... I care just as much as I did then as I do now. ;) 

I got presents!

Adult like apprehension...

I do think that this whole thing could have...I dunno, (ok lady sovereign) but what’s the difference between DOMA and DACA? And- is there order clarification in a way of order read back (or messy ass hand writing clarification?) or one of the things we write or had to write back in the day when we as nurses called on call docs when we needed to and still have to do this today it’s just a little easier with computers (assholes are still and always will be the same, however thankfully the tech giants... and there probably is a pun in there or their somewhere but nevertheless...) but we wrote ‘telephone verbal order read back’ as in a ok so this is what I have... and after they said yes, then I wrote that... (TORB... literally there may be millions of dollars and court cases around those four letters, or just attorneys that worked for hospitals in what we call risk management... I dunno... or I don’t know) I wonder with adult like apprehension if this whole time all he meant to do was repeal the repeal of DOMA?
I haven’t watched anything on television today or read anything really... I kind of cried about it last night, I did see like 5 seconds of people, our people, in suits covered with asbestosis.... went and laid down for a minute and then heard Adele singing about how the world fell at our feet... and I know there is a mathematical equation that could and would and should make this some kind of something cause it has to be hard to provide adequate legal representation, or work when if each one of those 2000+ lives lost each had a mom and dad and a brother like I have... then that’s a lot of people with very heavy (Oprah says Full v heavy related to mind over matter maybe) but those people have very full hearts today... I remember watching on television soldiers getting deployed, like that day.   Back then if you did what was it, two weeks a year and one weekend a month in the reserves the military paid for your university.  I don’t know if some one came and tapped them on their shoulder or if they got a call or if they knew to report as soon as the news broke but seeing their faces and the giant planes outside of the aircraft hanger is just on my mind.  Haha it’s hot as fuck outside and I’d be like that kid that just started school and even though it’s not current weather appropriate... I would still wear that FDNY Hoodie with the world trade centers on it and the smoke billowing from the two towers. That is... if my mom hasn’t of called the police over and over and over again telling them I was in the park and shouldn’t be and to arrest me and it’s not about cops today so let me just stop... it’s about a hero or two or thousands... Thank You.

It’s a blog dough!

Like, where are the double buses. And no offense, the bus is usually more packed and no offense it is on purpose- like it has to be... ain’t no damn way... I bet all y’all have those degrees and no offense but did you see how loud they got.  And no offense I’m so glad we are like.... on the same page. But I worry all the time because I have friends being pulled over all the time anyways and now they are being deported on top of that. This isn’t tip for tap or mines longer or I can pee further.... and it’s not the men doing this.... it’s the divide we have... one country, one party, or at least a mechanism and system that.... what y’all know what I know? Or?  Cause don’t play like shit is all falling apart like the  utilities and water systems and mcj is technically condemned!!!! Yes girl, the sheriffs pay like thousands, on a per person up in there level. And also you totally could- did you see the captivating qualities you have?  Threat of not having an attorney, not being able to, yeah but look at it now and I’m sure you are... but like the feds keep us where we are.  Food banks must provide food... the gift card system wasn’t around and you can’t give cash or cash like items with federal money.  And the state is doing the most. Like in other states and even some counties inside some states they don’t have the cash aid we have... it’s just dumb, it’s because nothing has been updated.  Sim City wasn’t supposed and hasn’t ever lasted this long.... or if it has we sure have made some leaps and bounds lately and it’s because of what? Academia.  Like- went from shared phone auntie bea phones to phones attached to the car floor, then the bag phone, then the phone the stored 10 numbers, and boom an iPhone... and I know I do that a lot and show my age a lot, but damn, they went to the moon and back with some rocket fuel, a calculator, gimbels unit and a couple and strategically balls to the walls placed windows and I’m just like... (Insert stupid inquisitive possibly sucking a straw that’s invisible or about to state something profound face her) I don’t get it... and one of those buttons on propane grills... you know the ‘pop’ or the ‘loud click’ that sometimes means you don’t have eye brows anymore... yeah, they had that to!      How generous!  People worried about the world running out of food and shit... that’s so real and realistic but it’s more because of doing things the quick, easy, I’m stronger then you kind of way or mentality. Like I get it. And they’ve come to see me before.... see y’all don’t even know. No offense.   And I’m not talking about those that say they do and don’t... I mean, here goes a snack kinda caring. Like real life.... I can feel it again... the jeans were donated, the shirt is h&m less than $10. Just in case... like omg, I can like feel it. Oh and not to mention this is the fucking third time I’ve gotten on the wrong train or the train going in the wrong direction. When it rains it pours. Speaking of that, you’re 50 fucking years old, at least you paid top dollar for the shit, rocked it, and I agree with you... people in tents being set on fire by someone with a home and you’re telling me that they may create a law that makes my coat illegal... like, essentially the equivalent of doing drugs... I just don’t know if it will be a site and release or take you in cause then they get to strip search you with a squat, spread em, and cough situation... like, girl you know that happened in Sex and the city and I’m not saying anything but you know the government wouldn’t let them use blood like what happened in real life, or shit, or whatever. And I get it, I can see people have hurt me or someone or a person so much that I put all that love and all advocacy into animals because they don’t have a voice but I’m just saying... I hope you’re ok, and you know what... you fight and I’m away maintain their right to speak about their beliefs and passions- but girl I’m glad you didn’t fall over that thing cause I mean if a heel broke or some shit...  then I’m glad you feel my pain about how  they can fuck with you and if not then the same damn thing happened to me and those damn wrong trains today... like, it’s so fucking frustrating... not I had a different meeting to be at... so I didn’t get to attend however I do hope that there was a stellar turn out that supports people... which would yes, be rent control.  Cause I hate to break it to you but you know damn we’ll companies get a huge discount... like travel nurse companies... for like an extended stay room... I think all they have to pay is the tax on those rooms/apartments. Like obscene- same thing with (this man taking about a dollar and that’s how much I tipped the dude/staff at the coffee bean for my coffee. I know I’m eating strawberry sour patch kids in remembrance of the ‘pickers!’  Like, what was I watching and this commercial was straight up shade and disrespectful and I do hope that there is legal measures taken... other people of whatever pick up that battle in that manner... and just go ahead and ride that shit all the way to the hill! Just like so many of my friends are getting pulled over even more then they did before all so that I dunno... incentive ticket giving has long arms... and I will fucking testify, swear, promise, and go to jail for purgers if I’m lying in regards to that female sheriff whose like first night ‘back from vacation’ it was said she hadn’t had one in awhile and because of my bail amount would be getting like $1100?  So just cause it isn’t called that and they put a ‘price’ on everyone’s head individually so that it’s just part of the pay roll or something like that... the work around is real hunni.  How much does kidnapping someone for potentially deportation go for?  Like I said, I’m not one of those people that have and also have stayed in contact with friends for most of my life... but in the same respect I do have friendships of the equivalent and it’s kind of like... something real, ha imagine a kiddos birthday party and an ICE kidnapper/officer walking up, ripping down the piñata, candy going everywhere and an entire friend and their family being placed in handcuffs, kids either being placed in handcuffs depending on their age, or dept of child and family services being called to take an infant or newborn even into custody. Girl I’m glad all that candy there cause I’d either gauge their eyes out with it, or eat it or both... cause ima tell you right now I’d be in the back of the car with them.  Literally. They’d arrest my ass and forget about them... cause this fool is crazy as hell.  Like- imagine the actual real life hell... cause I have seen those holding cells full of people and when I asked ‘omg how do I get in that room’ cause I always forget how cruel the word is and my jump on it mentality, quickly turned literally to teary eyes and sit down cause they are waiting for immigration. I was like... but...and... the guy goes if they won’t keep them all and I’m like so they go from the birthday party with the candy and the uneaten cake and half drank soda with condensation still on the side with the lovingly eye rolling at the wifey and keeping an eye on those teenagers over there cause that’s all bad in all the right ways, to handcuffs, to a holding cell, to a bus, to a ‘camp’ and or ‘tent’ and we just now are building courts out of tents for these people to hold court in... oh I’m sure that will be a well excited panned, argued, I initially object cause I’ve got make up in my eyes, can’t see straight and honestly your honor I have a license to practice law and I am uncomfortable concerned and do what you must but I will not have my name and license anywhere around this other then in such a way as... I could also go to jail or prison for my part as a licensed bar passing legal mind... and if you aren’t thinking like that- I do hope you are now because I am concerned for you all... as you all will be held accountable for these actions and lives and lives lost... like- you prosecuted nurses in hospitals turned swamps for two weeks with patients on vents running out of sedation and medication and clean water???? And you think those people, and me, and the rest of the country aren’t going to... see I get that situation a little... but you’re kidnapping adults, their children or children for whom they care for who may not actually be their own and putting them in tents in TEXAS!  It’s fucking hot.... and some have died? Of dehydration? You let a child, sweat themselves in ventricular Tachycardia with a pulse, then to without a pulse, their potassium and magnesium out of correctable ranges... and I’m so assholish to sit here and complain about the jail I was in not being Jacho approved or certified? Like, what the hell is wrong with me?  God I don’t know what to do and someone once told me that you can’t control the weather, the government, or something else.... and I’m just like ok well let me walk across the street and not only that... but ok cool.  Cause I have a blog and I have maybe not an administration that cares, or mother in that administration that cares, or a father that cares, or a grandfather that cares cause... oh here kiddo do you see what they’re having for their birthday? And we’re their parents there?  Were they there to hold them? Or was there another child there? And do their parents even know? And what are the visiting hours? And is that mother getting her beta blocker? And are they getting a proper or jail issued 2000 calorie per day diet and fruit at least once a day... cause rickets is real!  I’ve seen it.  And your doing this to people as the President of the United States of America?  Or as the.. I’ve basically done that at the bedside before so when I’m saying I would say let these people go or shoot me or whatever you have to do, when something I was made aware of wasn’t sitting right in my gut or gave me that feeling of I have to stop what’s going on- I did it every time I felt that cringe, or tug, or literally like it was all I could do, all I could do was say, ‘what is going on here?!’ Like, I can’t say that to your face, if I could I would, not with violence, or anger, but with literal concern from my heart and soul and you would have to at least look me in the eye before you dismissed me as trust... it’s saved children before, kept me from getting the shot beat out of me with a belt with my mom sitting right there watching, and it’s so silly that I’m doing this here, in the black and white document that has been argued if it is a document or not and a sidewalk doesn’t have any , like literally it’s a side walk... you simply can’t lay on it?! And yeah that’s me the same person as it was argued over the technicalities of why I thought I could lay down on a sidewalk and sleep at night in San Jose... same me, same blog, same rigorous honesty that is asking, please consider each and everyone of these people as a person for whom’s blood is on your hands and I’m not adding to the situation, this is the situation and I’m concerned for them and you... much like my traumas that are coming back to me in my dreams, waking up at night- putting two and two together that paints a persons blood all over concert of a jail cell and being drug across the day room or whatever... like, I hadn’t even like for two seconds thought of that.. not even long enough to be like Kobe and swat that thought out of the way of my thought process, cause not today satan.... I’ve got to finish this blog and then... it’s not like that, your brain is shielding you right now to get you through this... but once it’s over and you are recovering... have you even seen the names of these people? Or is their a protocol for notifiying their families or what did actually happen, are their families having to consent to autopsy, what actual countries were they supposed to be sent back to and what will they think of this? And... that’s just way out of where my heart is... but I’m sure all this has been considered or discussed or? I dunno.  But now that some are in Texas and some are in California- it’s not up to those states as they are in immigrations custody and that’s federal and that ain’t no body but you at the top. Ok- I can’t just go on and on and on... like, American citizens have to live with these decisions as well and sleep at night and ... I do have faith but I cannot just have the stupid ass mentality of ‘oh that’s fake news’ or ‘that whole doing the double take with one eye on the tv one eye on the dog or kiddo or loved one in the room and then like go back to what your doing and think... I’ll read up on this or that later... well for me that was a long time ago when this started and...I’m concerned

LA Board of Supervisors...

Just saying that today the LA County Board of Supervisors votes on permanent rent control... I guess this explains traffic this morning.... it’s set to start at 9:30 and is on the agenda for 11am!

I’ll post the agenda!

http://bos.lacounty.gov/LinkClick.aspx?fileticket=Mh-1VcpO8u4%3d&portalid=1

No, I don’t have a case of the Monday’s... but this is good...

No, no case of the Monday’s here... but I am reminiscing on ‘good times,’ if you can call it that. Yes, I know I shouldn’t be sarcastic- but it’s a defense mechanism for all of a sudden remembering this one time, in san (ho), at Elmwood... I guess someone had pushed the panic button in their cell (I dunno if they have those in LA or not) and so we were on lockdown (yes, I’m putting a story and another story together- finally). Like the guard for my pod went running to the ‘panic button’ and of course good came and it was like- 45 minutes and food was late I was hungry. I mean this one dude kept kicking and kicking his cell door... so I was like- ugh... well, I pushed the panic button in my room to say.. ‘I’m hello?!’  So this big tall guard comes and is being not nice.... he says it’s going to be late whatever.... thank good ness. So the dude still kicking the door right?  Bamm, bamm, bamm, bamm, like... relentlessly in a way.  The guard goes kick it again?! I dunno if he did kick one more time or not.... but he stopped. So that was good!

Well, when I was in jail another time, like a few months later, this dude tells me about a guy beating the hell out of this other guy. I was like, oh my. They were like yeah, blood was everywhere, and he was like wedges in between the dude and the door and was getting kicked!! I was like, oh my... that’s awful. I was like, did the dude make it? The person telling me the story was like, nope. I really am slow sometimes y’all. Like I really am.  I didn’t even realize they were trying to be like, um hello, blog, or connections, or you forgot that?! How?!! And I’m just like, well, connections I  don’t have ( that I’m aware of), and I’m just now getting to the point of remembering or putting those two things together... geez. Now I’m like in the mindset. But it’ll be ok. I’ll get myself out of it.  I’m glad I’m resilient, I’m glad we all are and thankful/grateful (wtf is the difference?!) that our brains work in such a way that after stuff like that, after a traumatic experience, things kind of come back slowly.... shit for some the memories, or processing of these events, may not even come back cause with resitivism (the probably of someone being re-arrested after an initial arrest) being at 100% for those without private attorneys and some with... it speaks to how phenomenal it would be for President Obama to be the next one appointed and also how any of the ones appointed I feel should always Or mostly be defense attorneys. Like, prosecutors, district attorneys... they persecute and prosecute- often not considering if guilty or not... but for the win or the ‘kill.’ (I mean are they responsible or do attorneys feel that sense of internal concern for people... I dunno, some do... I’m sure a defense attorney more then the other side because they the only ones who talk to the client!) Like, the Supreme Court is meant to uphold and in a way defend human rights? Right! Are they the only way laws get changed?  Cause I hope the republicans don’t dismantle the Supreme Court like I read online... cause it’ll be illegal to get a tonsillectomy and you’ll have to have that procedure possibly under extreme circumstances in a different building.  Yes, President Obama May not, or May meet the qualifications (like, do you have to have been a judge? I meant what was a judge before? A person w a law degree just like he has. And, further more, he may have heard cases as a commissioner.... I dunnno... ). Point is if he hasn’t been a judge in away I think that’s what we need. He brain isn’t programmed like some of the others in a way of I e been a prosecutor for 20 years and judge with mandatory prison terms for jay walking for 10 years... shit thats thirty years of a certain type of thinking...  like I’m just saying... sometimes you need someone to just say, this isn’t right. And I feel like, he would be the person most able to have the courage and the confidence or honestly just the balls to say so... ya know what I’m saying?  I’m not sure if I’m putting all that together appropriately or not... but to be the Supreme Court is for the people, for justice and for our freedoms... and no offense... kinda at fault for the way things are now... I mean, started from the bottom now we here... like, yes I agree it starts with the crappy defense attorney or bullshit arrest that may have been compassion at heart, cause it’s cold outside tonight... but then goes all the way up to them.  

Oh yeah, Wells Fargo took $1.42 out of my bank account making my balance $0.00.  Yay, they know I may or may not be getting birthday money from... but none the less... it’s for the court fees I guess I racked up that are to be collected civilly... at a indigent reduced rate.... no I haven’t called but I did go by there.  And if you’re going to mando take money from me you better have someone at my local branch that can fucking tell me to my face why and all... cause with home automation the way it is, and all that fake shit in general... I could be talking to no one and it is easier for a hard wired strict programmed ‘no, I’m sorry there is nothing we can do’ computer answering machine but interactive and somewhat concerned/empathetic voices is easier to deal with then the turn over rate or sappy employee that keeps nagging at her or his boss. Ugh!  I should post that little paper eh?  They took the money three days before I got the mail... or maybe that’s quality control or risk management playing catch up with the holiday weekend. I’m not sure.

So did the law makers make any laws or changes?  Or they stroll distracting us with the election where there’s real shit to talk about?!

Can you imagine a world... I lie, a country where in one county having both ear buds in your ear carry’s a mandatory prison term.... while 1 mile down the road in another county or state it’s like, oh first offense- credit for time served (as after the arrest it was the weekend and so it’s now Monday and...) you’ll be out later today.... ha! Lucky you! No need to imagine- though maybe not for ear buds but there are crimes in possibly your local area or vicinity that indeed carry’s a mandatory prison term? ‘Oh but your honor, my client wasn’t aware of that!’ ‘Oh, well he is now!’ ‘Well, yeah I guess your right... so sorry mr. screwed American citizen’ and now- 10 years later he getting out of jail and guess what? The bullshit mandatory prison terms still exist. Like, no one has done anything to say, hey that’s bullshit. Well here I am... bullshit!  And no offense- there may be other places calling bullshit as well... for that and many other reasons... but I e already spoken to that!   Yay!  

Omg, I’m so annoyed with not my life, but kind of how long it’s taken to do anything.  I hope o didn’t shut the government down again as I did submit my application for financial assistance so we shall see.

I’m sad that I’m just now putting together Cesar E Chavez’s Poster Board regarding a class action law suit and the San ho jail/elmwood correctional facility... as me seeing that, or the cameras watching me in the M4-C dorm there seeing that and then that person being I don’t know who- but it may speak to the deportations in a way? I dunno- all I know is... I’m calling bullshit.

5224956 for LA (1 soup- $1.25 ‘on or about’ maybe $1.23)

EEB-214 for San Jose. (1 soup- $0.49)

You think that’s trivial until I tell you that even today someone or two or three will die or kill someone over a soup- or less.  I wish I was joking...

Oh! I found out those other two phone that were stolen from me, no not the 5-7 Obama phones, but the iPhones... I might be using one now, but at least one of them has access to my google account! The non profit that I thought was amazing to provide me this phone... I do now believe is a non profit/the people who stole all my shit that night on Beverly and highland as well as punched me in the eye (yes, the one I’m blind in) and furthermore dropped a gun (which was the noise that alerted me as to there was/is someone behind me- in addition to the dude I thought was like drunk in the middle of the toad walking and as I was concerned for his well being was lovingly distracted...thank goodness they dropped the gun...)

I still haven’t posted a pic of my new hat but I am wearing it. And, cheers to the weekend... oh wait, it’s Monday!   However, for those amazing people ( who may or may not have records and are forced conveniently into a career path) that provided your weekend entertainment- it’s their weekend or maybe not as they may have to have two jobs.... thank you.

Like, same country. I don’t know counties and then is a dry county different then a country?  Or is there an opposite?  Like a wet one?  And did you know that shit still exists. No one is telling anyone what to do... esp not a foreign country... what the hell is wrong with you... I’m literally going to have to get a dna or whatever test to see if I can identify as something other then Caucasian non-Hispanic cause y’all are on my nerves. (A person with a entitled attitude like the above, the one I was sassy with just then would be the ones with the butt in the seats that luckily if things are changed at yes, a federal level, will either get on board or vacate... swim or get out the pool which is blue. Water is good, the sky is blue... like, how could you go wrong with a democrat?!  Oh wait, you can’t.

How long do I have to live in a county or state before I can vote even in small elections? What is the grace period in between that registration, the next election or the next election that I register for... and as the only time my ‘other’ ass has voted was until 9500... so is there a way for me to see if my identity is being used elsewhere in voting? One country.  Yet so many discrepancies.

I mean to say that attorneys are shipped in privately... should the ‘innocent until proven guilty’ be shipped elsewhere? As, yes, I asked about the whole speedy trial and rights and once again I was advised to take the first deal and go to prison for like a year... oh, I didn’t take the deal, didn’t get a right to a speedy trial... as they are backed up or that’s what I was informed... and so... I dunno.  But, I get the concern, I get the people make mistakes and I ought to know better, but... those assumptions can vacate the seats as well. Stop trying to put yourself in someone else’s shoes, accept them... with them in their shoes as who they are and treat them with the care and concern for them, not the laws, or law they ‘innocent until proven guilty’ maybe or may not have...

Like terminology.... in other counties or country’s is there a value placed on cool v cold? And.... if someone from another county is from somewhere that literally is like broke down palace... do they have a bias that ought to be noted or taken into account?  Like, for some... if shit is written on paper from someone with the ability to do so... it isnt a choice and to not adhere to such is....well, I don’t know.... so just saying.... this whole innocent until proven guilty thing is perfect. I believe in it, but in other places the investigation occurs before the arrest, not after the arrest or during the trial.  So for some to be able to look up someone’s arrests or have police go to someone’s home and arrest that person or even question them will and has and ought not be allowed at the level of the police being able to... because it then creates not only an onslaught of straight shade from the world and neighbors and all of a sudden I’m out of my home, my apartment, my comfort zone, and have to pay more in rent or lose my job or have a wreck because of all this plus a new commute route and... then turns out that the person questioned wasn’t even who they were looking for but... the defamation of character, trespassing, assault, and then the mental stuff like mental assault, or taking away someone sense of security and well being as if you do t answer cause of you decided to sleep in late that day... oh they coming in... dead bolt or not...  like, my record everyone’s record ought and should be as protected as my medical record. Should you require access to either... there is a policy, procedure, need to know, and also probably a form to compete... this is what should be... but isn’t.  And as jail is jail, prison is prison, the legal system the legal system and a judge a judge... oh and then all this is also present in the federal legal system as well... yes, the nightmare was just squared... as in an exponent kind of way... shouldn’t there be a little more consistency?  I need to rephrase. There is to be more consistency.  To those paid to not talk about your loved one dying over a soup... I’m giving you permission to at least talk to a therapist about it... like, I can’t imagine, I’m feared that might happen to someone I love and it’s something that makes me cry when I sleep, and just overall a little insecure in my safety and well-being to even walk down the sidewalk to get some captain crunch...

Doctors keep records for 5-10 years... body worn camera evidence is kept for how long? And in what type of conditions cause y’all know y’all aready fuckd that shit up once... let me go ahead and make you aware that a nation standard is to be made and adhered to. We have governance agencies and Jacho to report to... as in an accreditation to provide care... there is to be that as well for the legal system... I mean ia... internal affairs? They pay check comes from? Oh.... yeah doesn’t count. (As in- third party.... in a verification on all levels from is that food expired, to credentialing and is that credentialing also valid?)

Is a pitched motion available to all... cause it is and was to me here... it is to be available to you as well.  (Some of these officers have wrap sheets as long as mine.... or longer, is there an equivalent to a 100 misdemeanor criminal record but in a pitches motion form? I dunno. Who would you believe? A third party system would be... I know... I’m talking about one third party entity as there isn’t a jacho in every state...It’s on a national level.  Oh please, I swear if that doesn’t exist simply because hospitals were required by law to create said entity with their own money or funding or figure it out kind of level or mentality then... I dunno. Sounds like a lot of work... but being that jacho already goes to jails and hospitals within jails or jail wards at hospitals... I mean they do right?

Jacho is The Joint Commission.  Just saying... I think they even observe care provided.