Wednesday, September 20, 2017

painless...

that got the baby boomer mouths watering for drugs...



Omg so annoying how you can’t double a computer screen the way you can an ipad!  I bet on a Blessing homeboy doesn’t show up- shhhh I’m in San Jose at a library but I totally thought after riding the Light rail for like 2 hours that I would effing be in a different county but after having to wait/spend the night in Fremont because someone wouldn’t let me on the bus because, oh wait all the sudden the effing card that should get me on all vta whatever’s is all the sudden deficient… I mean now- instead of no free rides, they be back to wanting $2 dollars…. Lemme tell you about a billionaire on the side of ‘what the hell is wrong, homie I’ll send you a- ha, no associating… I couldn’t even get a landing clearance to come help or have the $2 for a fare, but they were totally gonna let me on and I was like- oh shit, it’s not the same as it was for him as it is for me and now….’  See how cray it is- but don’t trip like this wouldn’t set someone over the edge that was not in apposition to lose any ground as it pertains to the cool kids.  They are, ruthless doesn’t even cover it- it’s like, and they don’t even have the oh wait, maybe that person is… nope… doesn’t even go that far.  Bye little ant, enjoy not even the mercy to squash your ass, just let you slowly dry up in an ant farm adding just enough (chicken, egg) water, to give you hope to roll over- most of the baby boomers can’t even lay flat related to all they issues…. Nor should they- by flat I mean on the sidewalk…. Which is by definition not meant for lying, or sleeping, but after the water and the egg and the chicken…. Of wait- a baby boomer will throw a chicken out they house and keep they baby and raise a while mother gross, who wants that…. Not me…. Look at what is happening to me… I can’t believe I got myself into this after knowing what the…. I can’t, wont, but then no one would know about the bans, suspensions, what ever the fuck that is going on that shouldn’t…. I mean, I’m not saying I can’t not be not part of the planning but I’m a nurse…. Lookie here all I have to do is be like- that aint right (though I may know what should be done or etc there are times when ‘oh shit’ happens and that could be a kid throwing up all over me… fine… what im saying is im not a public servant… whatever, that means, or an elected official…. I’m hurrying cause that officer already called and hopefully not- that’s the job of him right?  To not have the workers put themselves in situations to… once through the door im at risk as a nurse usually…. That’s fine and why im advocating of rsecuritry… but I bet he asked them to or hell is I know… the phone aunt rang, or rung yet…. We will see may be traffic will be so terrible I’ll get my two hours before he show up…. Please let me get on that banned for life then I’ll be like boom!  Told you it was possible…. Too bad I font have $2 to effing go where I wouldn’t get harassed…

How is it that even as adults most of don’t know who our associations are as it pertains to other be knowing…. Literally…. It doesn matter…. Don’t argue with the baby boomers though… cant tell them nothing…

So I don’t know what to do about re-instilling trust in public services as a country… let start with an administration that sees that as an issue fiurdst- then we can tackle the problem… or at least start a conversation… I mean the mf’r is president and cant figure out why some of this shit isn’t known to him yet as a- hell im stuck in the igloo bunker and cant get out… but he wanna know but that s a there may be 2 people that know what to do when shit happens and please see that you and I are on the same side of a re-instilling trust in the system, but they are just like… sorry, whereas the last time I was at a library to see what bus to take to go back to the homeless shelter with ebola and TB and god knows what else as it pertains to adopt a fucking human… don’t adopt a possibly drone dog… anyways… he cant understand why I see a huge issue as a it may have to be national day- everybody that was isn’t anymore, and please go and we will have food and a cute American something bag that says ‘not my call- bu tim sure oprah be like oh oh I loive a nice bag and I will look for the biggest chips if I can only have 5…’ great- glad you support the food idea additionally…. But look, when I went…

Someone unplugged my compiter… before I could look… do not mother fucking lie and tell me you didn’t reach for the cord/ and or combined with stool- you knew and if you lie we have another problem…. Do you get my issue…?  It’s a hell of a thing more then an issue but not more then something that cant be solved once you realize that a bus not showing up or ‘going missing’- like the fuck…. My issue with the blue busses and their (tell me in situations fuck isn’t used and I will agree- I hope that when my children are in public schools with they little backpack and snack and lunch meal ticket and ‘whatever you wanna put the book on’ has that and then we banned people from the library… after all the tragitity… we left people behind, bailing out everyone but the mother fucking person…. Like tell me that the people that supposedly causes the bailout need where bailed out with them…. Like if I wasn table to go to bank of America because of a ‘damn you cant add ‘-$2 balance’ gets you barred form anything bank of America… saying, now htat all that bail out happened they can go open an account as a oh here- we were helped, now heres your free account without limits as a, that’s not the same as if…. See they be like, I need a $25 alwqays balance, shit try $100 to even open that shit and they hav eot mail oyu a car dins tead o fgettin git tha tdauy like everyone else amd on top of that the shit hav eot clear taking at least two weeks…. I mean it’s a payrool check and Im sorry no, I don’t have another form of id, I may have the damn first card I had but you will make me want to slap you and your manager after asking for the manager jus tbecuase a nigga might be that pisse doff if they kid is stuck in paris and cant or whatever and needs me to have some cash to send them…. But yeah- point is when I go tmy passport its was lik2 $350 so yeah it took me a while to cancel it, and I even had to send it back cause my misspelled name- I asked my mom, is that an issue?  She was like, duh!  So sorry that I was pissed abou that being wasted after someone attacked me… I guess im calling it attacked.,…. Bu ti think I was jus tmugged… we will see…. Point Is look at how effing hard is it to even get an id for me- I mean literally, and you saying people may need ot have two forms… ugh… that’s ok, they could let you know they issues could they ge tot the library and then awwww hell no…. where that officer at to escort this fool outta here….. ugh.  Ps- ive never done anything inapporitiate in a fucking public restroom- the fuck is wrong with you putting all the energy and effort into that…. No, they don’t… they might but not me… as in a gross… I go there to keep from o rclean up after already having ot shit or shitting my pants, or whatever…. I mean.  Relaly?  Bunch of fucking things to bring up as iligits versus the lieigtmait issues like me being a drug addict with a degree and yes, im addicted to my meds… so yes, I am a drug addict…. Funny how that doctor that’s probably not marked me as a no show but as a oh yeah they be commiting iunsurance fraud like that jus tlike im sure people have gone (people hate these pants, because ethey are not from here or been apart of here so shit done tjus tfall out the pockets like they should if they were form the re-entry center etc… ) point is somehoiw I have pills ready somehwer eot pick up yet, I may or may not need them based on lab values form a  seperat ehopsital system of so I had hopped, and here they post thoselab results on your online profile… we need to work on security and hav e acaremeggon for the internet as a nation… or whatever… lets not wait for a Katrina and have an actual something worth…. I dunno…. But as a getting grid of shit we don’t need we may need some extra time on expiration dates when oh I don’t know… we, no no, I wasn’t there fo rht eoriginal caremeggeon which is hwen they work on a major freeway in one day… literally shut that shit down and handle it… people were excused form work or slept in they car or something… but wasn’t that nice… now when it comes around shit aint so bad…. I don’t know… im unemployed and separated and tax confused and literally considered a crimal as a p[erson who steals food when I have to but before tha ti went ot momentum mental health, I went to no the re-entry center cause si wasn’t referred or in the know, and they I wen tot the hoispital , and literlaly it was the last thing… I know I wish I had those clippers also- my face is burly… but hey… im here in stead of laying- I don’t know hwat is under that tarp by scc valley med on Bascom- its probably where they want me but too bad… I’m a cockroach I heard someone sya.,… as in a they thought I didn’t think I would need a chest tube after knowing I needed one or fuck if I didn’t I mean- they say they were looking for me but that’s only cause the asshole that passed me knew I was already on my way and dusky… forreal- it was like, omg- I know… I don’t know what made me get up and walk to the clinic to even call 911- it’s a thing that I literally almost jus tlaid there… I wasn’t about to wait loing enough to see if the yintervenned as in a hey we heard osme commotion… bu ti was like… then I ‘had that little crazy voice in my head that Is not mine but my everything to even be able ot toalerte this bullshit’ that said- oh my god… don’t worry they weren’t going to intervene, it’s a sound thing and also- literally that way I could be dead, not a problem to be someones diagnosis- mbp, and someones reason to blame someone else… no no.  One person gets credit for that and its not… not worth the time to talk about this instead o fhcecking my email and doing shit…. This is a heres the situational circumstancesa consequended by an…. A…. um….  God let all those people outside be just bulslhit on the windows and not…. Fuck school jsu tgo out.. don’t play like the yparent swill or would let the m come here if they banned or know someone… hey word o fmouth is a hell of a thing….. no no… gossip is another or talking about someone.,… to say, oh wow did oyu hear that ‘fat monica- not skinny monica’s’ self was banned form the library after attacking a vending machine…. The bitch got skinny after tthat and is still banned after…. The p[remise is oh shit im not going there and neither are my children caus ethta aint right… what if she didbetic or what if someone else was tryin got help her… either way… no no no there are real probale,ms that they letting slip by if they worried abou ttha tand no no….. these four wals or whatever are better then where my tax dollars are spent…. At least till now…cause tell me that…. Inform me of something… let me in on the…. Im not that important bu ti will always be a problem… s

So this one time I ordered osme cd’s from that mail order stuff, though my approving family member, then when listening to the sd’s and songs as a 15 year old learning to drive and etc was the passenegers issue of ‘ugh, we here the same ones, blah blah blah….’ Lemme take that away from an influence on my children real quick for you as a….. (you may think about that as a victum of me vs damn I fucked up let me call him and see if I can meet their children that are now in college and not even up for arguing with the people they learned ablt iu in the text books… see its not that specific… bu tlemme let you be a victum… so you can keep yo 2 cents and sense out of the solution equation so that its even more of a betterment for society as a I had to have a chest tube and im not that mad…. Not mad enough to play that vicutum role in that scenario… literally, it will take someone 5 days to ready this not in actuality- I mena like 2 weeks total having opening it and getting pissed off…. Great- once again now oyu can critique the ideas already and then the final product will go live and evceryine will be so greatful that im still a drug seeking slut with a foul mouth here and not around children or where I shouldn’t be… I mean…. Lets be honest…. Like…. For real… ive worked this out so well in my head and it is sooooo grea that I enjoyed chicken mcnuggets today that  I was able ot pay for instead o fhaving to steal food- like, its not that im hating on what people have had to do to get by or that I don’t want ot lieterlal yrepay all that money as in a yes, I know htat stealing food theoretically increases the cost o fothers who pay- bu thtats a whole separate issue for someone who hasn’t had to steal food o reven want for anything of the n 5 minutes peace… can we talk about all the shit that happened when some genious decied to open up public wifi with these gmo trees and craziness…. I mean talk about an issue….. the issue is that like whoppi or the rest of the world im not anything that isn’t ok…. However all the new tech that in the new construcaiton that Mariah carey is just no wplanning to move back into if that…. Whoa oyu mean they now listen in on my private tri level pent house that my dogs are still barking from after being a diva and now you wanna tell me that after all this they weren’t even gonna tell me?  I dunno the issue being the issue if you get an alarm system from a third party…  I don’t know how to keep a city from doing what should be done a federal level like- the fuck are oyu gonna put me in jail over drugs provided to not me… I don’t do drugs, im just lying… bu t if I did- they were provided bya  city employee to get me into trouble… or whatever… like that’s the bullshit of the undercovers and then the new new sytem and then the encintive ticket giving or warrant collecting and then if you think about yes the first isn’t legit so that all shouldn’t happen- but they be doning it or trying to in the most legit way they think is legitamitably possible…. And yet cant figure out where the hell all the tax payers going… they are dying as a result of primary, secoindary, teriary, or bam!  I have no idea whats pas tterieatry if that even appiies here… teriary care is not where anybody in my family should be right now and if they are with out my knowledge I wil press charges against whomever did it or whatever for… no no… im everyones person in my family… so don’t think just cause im not there im not a plane ride away… I emna…. I am not ballin’ on a budget caus ei would need money- but fool I would sho… this is why…. Im so right, correct, and so what we gonna do?  She could let him off wihtpout the face to face if she promised that he was ok, and yes I would wnana know the dets, and yes once I get mine I still owe jhim money and a lot more them that but there I one bitch I can count on… anyways, after that its all family business, I mean that is too but I got my own shit to handle… can I please not have to be a problem for my own problems and self and I will be damned if you gonna tell me a bus not beingoing soemwher eisnt a big deal when I haven’t gotten a conteacr because public transit isn’t relieabl emenas o ftransportation… so there…



Such a bitch- its all coming out… don’t worry…. How my story comes out is our business… the drama will be told… and it will be whatever I woanna put here in my blog becaseu that’s my choice…

The others can be mad as a luxery…. I miss psellit and not fixing htat one… how hard is it to keep them from speeding up my time on my computer that I have borrowed or been leant form the…. Serioiusly, it would have just been time for my type and dash routine that isn’t complete sentances or….. 2 hours?? Long short- day by day…. We shall see….

Whats not my problem, is that how the police gonna stop me, get me a new court date, yet im right here ina library with an officer itching to secure his job security… no.  not happening as it pertains to me or anyone associated that’s been penalized because no no… that’s the bullshit of hitting a person or whomever verses the process or algorithm or whatever… like, why am I as a drug addict having to tell you this.,…. Oh wait, cvause it aint that bad for me, it never has been, I use dot be able toget incontact with those that count tell some of the horror stories that Im cried after someone called me a food stamper- just cuase I needed that actuality after so much shit had gone wrong- so yay I can go buy a nice salad and… it wasn’t even durogerty… bu tlemme tell you about the luxery of even having one or funds or access in a system where thankfully for me, my asshole, my friends, and dah whole world… I have it… im not gonna play like so many people in these tradegites are having to still muddle through the mud- oor if they have jobs or don’t or cant or whatever. Find them, and I bet snotty Barbra walters wont think they are interesting, but she may find me interesting and that’s cool…. I may shot up and have david muir unzip his legit pants just to say…. No I wouldn’t… but see…. That’s why im not playing like that attitude is new or foreign in these chronic places- yes, different programs… I hate the different buildings and people to help people in public service…. A hospital… girl a 7.5 ett tube is for a giant like mr muir…not something I should muddle through…. See I already knew the bull shit of the whomever said that’s not an issue because I mean I have done that and its totally ok that a mama may not want that changed as it pertains to my struggle in the same city, same street, but different buildings to get the ‘oh shit’ benefits that for me is not going ot be a lifestyle or a prison for her or me…. But that aint easily said…. Cause im alive…. I have met hungry people or people willing to take advantage of or whatever as a…. fuck, life can really suck in these places when you and your courage and degree have to go sit and wait and apply and have ot deal with the office eand people a nd the computer that shuts off after 2 hours and that shit just came about for me…. I eman the library for me was  akay scarpetta books to get me across comtruty which aren’t really fiction and provide an exccelent timetable for how fast shit has hiut the no existant ceiling that is killing the fake ozone or the sateeleight provided on that we sont even reall yhav eo tcontroll oyu j sut shot the shit up there and then ir just meshes in?  all you need is the numbers ot keep it form hitting the others but that’s so basic a bitch created it just to keep it from happening for the second one they shot un there aafter the first which I think may be th edark side of the moon…. Hey, even nasa is isn’t perfect… but how am I even able to think about how true that is after istn already been odsne and yet there are drones, and people and dogs, and cats, and plants that cant read and would love to hear these stories of actual people and… fuck.  Yes, I want to be in this situation you judgemnet al bullshit baby boomer and you better work on that attitude if you think that the energy will be taking my kiddos with me to get they first library card… ew gross… no, you’ll be the star and not them… so you can have a cancer stick and maybe ill tweet at you or throw you a… I don’t want that…. Neither do the others… the struggle is the humility of the ones who have, are in, and wont be left behind…  Imagine a cute little snake, putting his cute little listening ears up to yo window and girl a bird be getting got the tri level…. But they be listening, interproteing, screening, fiultering, only sending beack the info to whever or whomever that’s pertinent according ot the artificial intelliegnec etha is your internet and alarm clock and then think about that same cute liitle snake having to socialize and fit in with the other drone snakes and the actual natural snakes as not to fuck with the bio of things and then you’ve got with being that snake is wexhasting ot the snake and they be like, finanlly some acknowledgemnt for the ones that have ot be twice as goo dand work twice a shard… I eman if we iddnt someone lese has and did and would… so moving forward….



Please- don’t be or bring about the chance for someone to die or for confusion… I have no idea what to do but riots, protesting and all that is what we did, itawas a band aid- now we need like legislation to or whatever to make it not able to be enforced or a reason for someone to feel like they as one aren’t enough cause that’s all oyu may have or need when access is an issue and you don’t speak the same langues… that’s why peope don’t be leaving they house evne with all this sht getting beter that im talking about happening… cause the shit is all grea tan dsounds wonderful till they power get shut off and then you cant even make the water safe to drink the hell am I thinking you gonna make it so they have ot go to a building where heaven forbid they have to shit- ababy boomer and your ibs stay the fuck at home…. I aint talking to you cause you will do it and the ones the are actual victums may not because tfo their actuality and yours also but ttoaly not in the same way as a bitch- how you aint see th e that one coming… even the person that cant read saw that coming thanks to apple and reading shit to them…. Im so sorry that the bullshit has mad my blogs unable to be reopend as new people wanting to look at old posts bu thatnk you for the ability of a phone to rememrb numbers and that or those calls to be mad and if you cant or think I havne tposted and then you know the other person please god sue the government o rgoogle as you and the fact of no you didn’t block me from something as a shootin gup baby boomer running the gernemrnt without $2 dollars and oh what im not able ot sue… watch me… you wouldn’t do that to them, but would ot the one and the one and the one all bacuase it needs ot be absolutely done on that level…. The streets are real and so is traffic… so moving forward….. your churches, librarys, nonprofits, should all be able to help- yes, they may get they 10% if they tell oyu something isn’t possible then girenve the shit out ogf that ass casue they make a hell of a lotta money to limit you rapotions as the ones they serve and we had done been stoppied that in healthcare years ago- I got expired iv fluids and lidocaisne and a nure charted the full order of fentanyl given to me when she ponly gave half and was cute enough to think I would spot that as a yes, I was actually in pain, you knew I would see that shit coming and returned it… but if oyu ahd to pee as such that union is totally gonna be in that office with you and you may… at least oyu had the paycheck and opportunity to get by with me for now…. After these changes as the variables and me ans me saying that when I roll I roll like with the light of a uncontrolled by anything but jus thow much of what im talking about needs to be handled then why aren’t you fucking fixing it….. maybe as we help and change and I can actually progress without the bullshit and have some legislation or an officer to come and be like hey, here you are… lets finish that victim report form when you were attacked and did you know that they have put people in line ups with one person…. Like who committed the crime against you….well there is one person and you said I had ot pick one so let an accident not be your grace to keep me from going back to my blog and be like look yall… they still learning….. so I didn’t even know that shit could happen…. Ill introduce you to the person who is a vvictum of that… and got fucking shot… I mean I needed a chest tube but lemme tell ya about a…. im thankful…. But as shit changes or is even available to me then im sure the issue will get better and I can come back with a job as a asshole no more but still a mess..  cause I mean- you may need a friend to… if not im thankful for my selfishness and your larger then life just you to be like… where my money at….



Oh- and if you need spell check I won’t be at legal aid I’ll be under references and that’s a higher then a reading level that can have someone keep a job but not find the fucking spell check… ugh…jk its under review…

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