Take up the battle! or reigns, or something.....

I'm for the greater good- but I'll be damned if I'd let someone buy my browser history in order to 'out or discredit me!'  To those republicans with a....at least if you out yourself then it was on your terms, your couch, in a manner you want! Not a browser history of some4 bullshit you accidentally clocked on- come on I'm sure the speaker isn't that into horses or bdsm? Stay tuned! Maybe we will end up with the coolest blue blooded leaders in the world! Duh!

Can you be forced to resigned for forcing....

always in a hurry...

as of yet....

One of my absolute more favorite designers is Carolina Herrera- not because i wear her clothes but because I admire what I've always heard about her.  and the fact that my Spanish teacher in high school liked her- of who i have admiration for like there is no tomorrow- still ot this day.In the march edition of Vogue she writes about what an honor it is and will be to dress the first lady (and hopefully her step-daughter). Ugh, what an ugly word- i have a step mother who i won't call that, a grandmother also who doesn't get that ugly term, as well as an uncle, or two.   To Marc Jacobs and Zac Posen you clearly do not deserve to dress them since you denounced so before even being asked- stay in yo lane bitch! Miley said that best- DVF said she would also be dressing First Lady Trump- Thank you!

To the creative people of this world- I'm still reading the Tyconess' piece as I think of the SVP I followed during school- she looked fabulous.  maybe something some be written of the Nurse Leaders (I think male and female) but, Vogue is traditionally female.  Lemme tell you- the women in my head could not be more worthy- from the jewelry to shoes to eye wear.  this counts for pharmacists and bedside nurses that show up to meetings also.And I'm thinking mostly of Birmingham, Alabama.  Not to say it isn't the same in LA- but as a traveler I didn't have the same experiences!  A testament to why I hate school uniforms and why i think Ive struggled so much recently- i was given the clothes I'm wearing now.  the grey jacket i have on and the 'obey' gear that i have i love! I also love my levi jeans- as i think of missing my 7's i bought at an off fifth ages ago that i still wore until someone stole them.  I have to admit- i didnt really know anything about 7's until i saw a picture of Blake Lively on TRL in them- I was like wow! and no offense to her I have a weird ass that they make look so much bette4r then it is when they are on the floor.  I didn't even watch gossip girl at the time- however, i have.  And can I say that her and Ryan Reynolds at the golden globes- holla!

Also- I'm still working on seeking legal advice about the Airbnb situation... being that I'm in Ms. J's hometown I don't trust anyone here.  to say she may carry the weight of a momager (this has nothing to do with Birmingham) a wouldn't be surprised... 
yes, there are typos' I'm sure- again this bitch doesn't play so I'm always on the run! :)
We could be friends ya know! :)

Loves!

here we go 4

HA that last part is how tangled your joke gets....

i think it could have been as malicious as you have been- they figured it out just like i did.  I guess- and you've got why the chainsmokers live at ultra had me at hello.  This will turn into something beautiful! 

here we go 3

The world is so small that:

I have, yes left people in your hometown alone in my apartment! To be kind- call it what you want.  But then for you to use that vulnerability- one on my part for being kind to someone who didn't have someone where to go (maybe because you're the mean judgemental aunt) then on your part for being a bitch and either realizing the connection or causing it- have him put those same devices in an apartment that's not yours? but rented in my name? All the sudden his billionaire aunt is like hey- do this and.... yeah I hope you didn't mug him you rude.... and if this does make it out this is testament to..... 

Then I hope you saw what your mugging did to me- cause I still have nightmares about fighting for my life- and Ive dreamed of monsters my entire life coming after me!  Scream was literally the scariest movie to me... I'm going to cope a little bit and say how hot the one or two dudes were....

Also- you heard everything.  my jobs and issues with my family- and I sat there alone on those holidays with nothing but my phone- and what a sad life right? yeah, being that you saw how sick I was in your airbnb's that was only the beginning.  Thanks for the phone bugs also! . 

here we go 2

Continued

Saying hey- you’re doing great, but since you’re already separating them could you please crunch them also because it saves tons of space!’

1.       I have no idea if this was relaid to the people who matter- but being that I woke up and had a hard time sleeping after that and then on top of that being nightshift and already having a sleep deprived- I hope I passed it on. 

2.       Anyways- I hate subtlety- cause at that building a lot of people work during the days and or are doing things left and right.

3.       To my mugger- I thought we were semi-compatible…. You tried to over charge me for a ‘home goods blanket,’ twice that’s happened to me! Once through airbnb and the first through craigslist- but I fought both of those- and if you’re friends then we got problems!

4.        Oh, By getting along I mean I am a stellar employee and would make a fantastic assistant or house manager or something- I can cook also! On top of that- I’m a stellar nurse.  Sorry for fighting you like I going to die- that may or may not have been your intention, but you and your husband suck! And I think it was more premeditated then that being that you had corn rows!  You’re not African America- or maybe… I’ve decided Italian, checkelsevokian, or maybe Armenian…. I mean I know some legit people so let’s not play anymore.  I’m doing you a favor- but my kindness is about to run out…. And think whatever you want, but currently private jets are… I hope you pay well, I have other offers. 

5.       Ashton K- people are recording people in airbnbs! Maybe even ones you’ve stayed in! I mean to my travel nurse friends or anyone who values their privacy and rents airbnbs! Don't!   Also- the whole organ procurement thing and also that whole story- so they are putting people on prop 36? no idea what that really is as i cant use the city of san jose's library system technically... but you gonna test someone for drugs and alcohol for three years? and then tell me that that has nothing to do with the other.  And don't trip like they cant test the prisoners pee per flush or whatever else you do that you don't have consent for! prisoners have rights! or at least according to the IRB they do! And I have no idea what's been done in the three years Ive been staying in airbnbs as a travel nurse! but as someone who has used them and uber since it was only black car in LA I am pissed! and Adds even more to my world of not trusting people! Fuck the peep-hole argument- imagine full color and audio surveillance 24-7! by people who rent their apartments through airbnb! Omg- and then some of them can make noises and talk to the 'intruders' or people being watched- and you're gonna tell me I'm crazy for thinking i hear people? or fucking with me! that's called gas lamping! and its the worst form of 'fucking' with someone their is! because it fucks with ones head by people or things 0ones should know to be true 

here we go...

OMG don’t trip but-

I hope your child enjoys being raised by someone else…

Cause I’m about to put you in jail-

1.       Cameras recording people in your airbnb’s?!

2.       Mugging me?

3.       Harassing me in your home town?

4.       Then your friend hav9ing cameras in her airbnbs also?

5.       Bullying me on airbnb after I left non-inappropriate comments and had a defective TV?

6.       I was sick as shit- thanks for letting me crash the extra time but charging a normal dfee

7.       What sucks is this again proves that in my absentmindedness and just trying to survive and get over losses that people often don’t survive- none of you were alone, knowingly or unknowingly.

8.       You wanna know something- so when I lived at ‘home,’ I say that meaning my true home.  I was asleep one day- being that I work nightshift and all the time this isn’t surprising though I was awoken one morning by the most annoying crunching of my life! It was a ‘homeless man,’ ‘billionaire,’ my roomie? Crunching bottles to be recycled-  I don’t think he was bitter at me, but possibly making an example of ‘you’re doing great- thanks for going the extra mile to separate the recycling for me so I don’t have to go through and  

.....

1.  Someone made the comment about Hollywood and makeup and being gorgeous- then asked if the Weasley twins are twins? I have no idea but I'm so glad there is a new movie coming out!  There is also a music event/orchestra now showing- I can thik of two people that resaonates with!
2.    Ngnanny-
3.    Moving and life keeps going and I feel like I'm stagnant- I wish I knew a better way to change it... or make it happen faster.
4.   I have a hearing for my library suspension- just one more reason for me to hate my life- which is that i cant afford to even meet with one.... and and fo I need one for this? I guess so.
5.  There was

AHHH

God knows what it’s like to be librarian of the year in the most corrupt city on earth being that she banned me for 6 months city wide!!! Is that legal? 

Shit- Jennifer what’s her name from THG thinks she’s just a show pony- ha meet librarian of the year in that city!

Anyways- to my people who love and read and care- just tone more testament to the fact that what I’m writing is cored with truth!

Consequence of circumstance:

They do have an organ procurement office- part of the city?

Also, I’m using one of the free for 15 min commuters which I dunno if they thought about or not….

Land of billionaires- having an office such as that is corrupt to me…

That being said- nothing will maybe happen to me bc the other side still wants my… unless I get to be too much of a risk then I’ll have to have a closed casket funerals and be hollow like the social worker I met with

Also, they got my info- typed me out…

Mugged me- brought me back eventually- in-between when I was assaulted in riverside…

And the residents of San Jose may or may not know-

To think this is where Rudy sent the homeless- satc- and then whatevewhatever- the kids are safe or may not be… not sure.  It may be corrupt in that they try and fail or try and succeed to have someone by and organ

But my internet is being fucked with reguardless-0 hence some of those inappropriate Facebook comments on my part- but they were encouraged by the audience- that was live in the king library on the LL.

Also- that means no water fountains, bathrooms, or anything else for me! I hate it!

I joked bouit selling an organ once- it would literally cost you 10 million dollars-

Organ procurement and now the security guard wants to talk to me! help!

oh yeah... I have no options!

Hey! 

So last night/yesterday they had Social workers in the Library! I think this is a King Library phenomenon only, or maybe it’s just a me thing….

I signed a form, was told I couldn’t have a copy of said form- naturally I then kept said form and signed another.  What a dumb social worker- I can’t have a copy of something I SIGNED….

I’m trying to be very descriptive and clean and neat for when I meet the same bitch/La Flounda/The therapist from Riverside County/the social worker  from last night….in room 390.

It was the same person/hologram- I mean to say you were the one who interviewed me after I was hospitalized for fleeing/running butt naked through the parking lot of my apartment in riverside after two men assaulted me… yeah once again I was running from/fighting off two men- sound familiar…. Like the two guys who mugged me? Me too!

Well one of them was- the one who didn’t get up, shake my hand, and told me I have no options…

p.s.- thanks to whomever gave me the awesome jacket last night while I was effing freezing on the sidewalk! And the guy who bought me the ice cream- yes I ate the whole tub!

I kept it moving last night which was great… finding a corner and curling up- I  like the jacket and the other sweat shirt also- please don’t hate me because I took my shoes off and wrapped my feet in the black one- it may or may not have some kind of gang affiliation and being that im not affiliated… you get the picture.

I still think La Flounda/Shaunda Rimes is really Le Ann Rimes Ex-husband who is sexy as fuck- unless he’s fat now.  Of which we can be friends… 

Just kidding- as I’m typing it gets weirder and weirder… 

I got seconds and asked for no rice! Hey, guess why??? Cough cough cough?-said some guy while I was typing… real time.

 Because the more rice/gluten I consume the sleepier I get! It doesn’t really have anything to do with pure sugar- which is why I would effing kill for another tub of ice cream right now. 

But, how is it that as I’m typing and it gets weirder that- I have no idea what everything has to do with everything… but I know that the little drain I had to or felt compelled to add water to yesterday so that…

Yeah, I just peed in one.  Your Welcome J

And have a nice day….

I did wash it down with a Large cup of hot water also! 

Those graphite grey tesla suv’s- yes that’s the one! I want it! It’s also the one from the Tesla website.  I love them- consumer reports rated them highly! Someone said the doors are slow to open- yeah- that’s in case your chin is in the way probably- oh wait there is a safety feature for that!  And on the screen- that shows the doors opening? Yeah, that’s in real time- incase the dude from the chain-smokers is in the way! Ah! How cool!

Sure beats the Bentley SUV I think I want- urban car myth! Who I’m kidding- I just wish I had a- don’t wish you’re life away! (set of ear buds so the chain-smokers could be bumpin in my ears!)  Wasn’t the dude dreamy!  You know the one…

Yeah- the social workers- Northern California Branch of the National Association of Social Workers….   Fake ass niggas

Cause yeah- the real ones are licensed and that holds weight… to my actual LCSW’s feel free to investigate the King Library and their fake shit…   

If you really look like a ken doll where I think you look like a horse and got the door stuck- forgive me

I have to pee again….

I didn’t pee in the drain this time…

So- I’m going to go and test more things that aren’t options for me… 

It was funny last night- after I missed dinner, told the lady who told me I had no options before the library closed, Funny- I’m typing away could miss dinner again! Ah! She was fake- because- I tested her… which was to say I just talked and talked and told her what all was going on and overloaded the computer (processor) with information- She had a cup that looked like an arm at one opoint that them looked like a (peg arm?) Then there was a braided set of cords on the floor- braided at one point- in riverside I thought it might be a snake and was so scared- did I mention that one time as a child I distinctly remember being locked in my room in the pitch dark and couldn’t get out screaming for my life? Literally- the furber method didn’t work for me but eventually as a toddler yes I did cry myself to sleep… this was in the cold house or east lake house…. No def in the cold house.  Cause remember that time…. No it wasn’t it was in grandmother’s house in that bedroom to the right as you came through the front door. Yeah- so anyways- back to shit that should be illegal….  

So yeah I fleed from my apartemtn in riverside, after invited two guys over from (yeah- I like to have sex.  And if I want to get fucked by whomever I – my business not yours! And no, I don’t think you get to judge me for it and yes, my meme did and does, so does my mom and I don’t care- but that’s ok… that’s how I know they created fake profiles later to get back at me…./teach me a lesion in October 2016.  To see if I was still up to my group sex or sex ways…. Ha! Idiots.  But then Ellen/the guy from Hannibal in the wheelechair/… how I tested the system was to ‘blink blink blink blink’ it changed several times/the scars on the holograms face got better/ the picture changed… I said ‘Oh that’s funny!’ and she/the hologram goes ‘what is…’  of which I replied- ‘Nothing’ I mean, I can’t just say- oh your face is? 

So- see this computer doesn’t tell me the time… or date! You know how I listed those yesterday… well, that was on a computer upstairs0 3-something… this is on a LL- something computer.  When I try to customize the status bar/see what the computer thinks is the date and time- I can’t “This operation has been cancelled due to restrictions in effect on this computer.  Please contact your system administrator.”- Bill Gates? Librarian? You’re fucking with my reality and it should be illegal!

Need I go on?

Oh, and ken doll- I know someone who looks like what I think you look like down there- and I guess I’ll come say hey over at the donner lofts… can we cuddle again?

Oh- and about more shit that isn’t available to me.  I’m going to go see if I can check out an apple macbook pro- apparently you can at The King/MLK library- LET’S SEE IF I CAN.

In Riverside at the County library you can check out chromebooks- there is a snobby lady there who is, give a bitch a little power and they run with it- no she’s not African American Rudy!

She told me one time that I couldn’t renew it past the limit- actually, one of the ladies did let me renew it, then this bitch took it away from me when I asked her to watch it while I went to go pee- Really? Really? People are funny!  Gotta love shift change!

I have to pee again….its 2:33 san jose time per google… and Mozilla.

Hey dude that cuddled- did you know you just randomly walked past me that night I was sleeping outside? I think one of you was fake- not sure which.  Or duplicates? Replicas?

I want in!   I mean on the gig and the lofts!? or maybe Gish apartments? I need a job though- but hey- you guys impersonate officers- and once were a security guard named something at the King library that recommended I go see the social workers here that time I was 'hiding'/'asleep'/ looking for my jacket on the top floor under that desk-  I hated on you for leaving the hot guy downstairs- whom is also jean shorts guy i think from walgreens. No- I have no interest in sucking your dick- dude you know who you are/who i am talking about/what i am talking about- we are friends though! and I can help you out- but no i don't want to- sorry

Do I post it first or not? 

oH, AND I THINK CITY HALL HERE HAS A HUBBLE TELESCOPE (SOMETIMES)

So- now that I have changing eyeballs and floaters and shit- 

Truman Show? Coder? Codes? Huh?  

Rex I added you and messaged you- lunch would have been fun..

and yes janna, I'm on drugs from time to time but so are you!

What else? 

Oh yeah- bike guys who I think are assholes- here the deal about having your own motherfucking lanes, you know the ones you wanted? that tax dollars and the city paid for.... if you get those you have to follow traffic- therefore like going down fourth st? come up behind me again and i won't know you off your bike like i might ought to- but I Will be slightly annoyed-because you should go down third street or fifth street? or shich ever has a bike lane that goes- follow traffic just like the cars do and stay off the sidewalk please! People walk- and just like for your safety you have the lane? yeah, for mine I have the fucking sidewalk! 

T is for many things! So stop hating on me!

 

editing...

Yes, yes... I by far need to do some editing.  I think there is some sort of cut/copy/paste dysfunction function on these computers.  I guess that makes sense for plagiarism!  I type usually in a word document and then copy and paste into the blog-   

I got my check but now I can do nothing with it! I tried to open a new bank account with photos of my ID and passport and couldn't.... so I'm back to square one.  Or I don't know what square I'm at.   The one where I get to go to the eye doctor- but in LA! 

I was reading online that Ivanka Trump got a West Wing Office! That's awesome- I've always been a fan.  I mean, I would, and do make a great employee but can't pass a government background check!  Ha, I knew she was Serena Van der Woodsen!  The irony being that her last name is so short in real life! 

I was finally able to sleep last night- naturally I was woken up by an asshole who told me I was trespassing and also that I had only two minutes to 'get moving.'  which, I did... I walked back by a few minutes later and of course all the other people that were sleeping there with me and around the corner were still there and undisturbed... but they must know the security guard or someone.  I don't.        

I know, I know- cry me a river, eh? 

So those 'free' phones you can get?  I went on a walk and at the tail end...

So you've got this... I leave the library-  I couldn't log in or turn on the computer... just like sometimes the keys are sticky other times they aren't... I mean I've sat at the same computer and its OK or not.... its always the space bar.  and in the past when a keyboard has had an issue, once a key is sticky.... its sticky and en effing nightmare.   a new bulling tactic or funny joke for someone who thinks their cooler then me? or you? or your daughter? or the jumper? or the second jumper? you can't sit with us! See this person who I see something is trying, so I fuck with them day in and day out because? think I can...  This could have been their nightmare they talked about and that made life even so difficult to send that emailed that you completely invalidated as them...

being off on or with something... judgement, hate, i would be livid... and am...

however, at the mlk library you'll experience a variety of funniness, or did, during your allotted by the librarian constantly varied bandwidth and space bar issues...if it was meant to be or... librarian of the year... i poured water in all those drains in the bathroom that after doing so... the air quality or system needed....in the men's room.  There may be said drains in the other restrooms but the men's rooms were the ones i hit because they are accessible to me... a janitor can do both but moree readily a janitor may or may not be female but i think a man going into a female restroom regular for maintenance is annoying if the drain can be one sided and a........- a little out if sync from bottom to top to... I'm not in on it... so I just go with my balls.

My effing head hurt so bad and to me but ye that I had to...I just walked past grocery outlet after getting my mail and eating a few sandwiches to note that hey, the church gave them to me.... it's been months since the booths were set up outside grocery outlet.  I mentioned them today on the second floor at the library so its funny bam- you can get a free phone there after the only place I've been able to get them were sinner road and sacred heart... (senter? alma and 1st).  It got so crowed but somehow it happened today.... I mean there was one.  and they were almost packed up but there were like customers literally trying to get them.  so the need is there- i was just observing and walking and trying to get my life together...  

I bet there were more people in this library then there have ever been at about 3:30 as my computer is telling me at the MLK Library in San Jose... its 4:30 currently...

added:

4:39: in the library and logged in and... 

The Obama's should be investigated for tax fraud or omissions.... that $750 dress you wore to meet the Pope in was made for pennies by people in middle america and they hate your phone and the limited data... but i love you and you have two daughters going to college soon.... and it's scary.  


How does a look into what they could possible go through or be a 'opps' in and take a leap of faith...and try to send you an email when shit hits the fan but then the phone and then the key and it happens again and again an again for four moths! This effing white boy was here so shit go real weird again! and then... it happened again... i knew it.  i knew he out there.  and i told you and told you and you said I was safe and that he didn't and i was making it up... and I told you and told you and its like i blackout... and i just wanted the merry go round to stop.  


and then you got that phone call from 'serial' and Bobby Christina and following footsteps and sacred ground... and this is my real life that I have been living and talking about and trying to 'come up from' for the past... just food for thought.


since dinner at Laurel Hardware... for four years ago! When I moved back from San Diego-


I mean even my first day in this library downstairs...10/27/16 is a girl lost something or said no or I don't know but the attendant dude was brushing it off and laughing and all i was doing was reading and listening... and the walls here echo... so I dunno- but i was concerned.... 

I didn't get to go to dinner tonight... I was working.  and will you please help?