It’s kind of like I lost my breath...
I can’t believe that Karl Lagerfeld died a year ago...
- So I wasn’t being a douche I wasn’t like being attention seeking I wasn’t like trying to cause a supply and demand type of scenario I’m literally just the busiest person in the states and haven’t had a moment... until I got an email...
- Like no I didn’t know him but still... to read the title which was like a year after Lagerfeld or something... I was like... how the fuck does someone like that die and I not know about it...
- of course I what May haven seemed like dramatic but is and was forever be my total truth of blurting out while waiting for a tardy bus with a grip of groceries that I am still showing concern over sat down, and I was already seated so it was more of a... ok ok I was like ‘being homeless fucking sucks! Karl Lagerfeld died?!? A year ago?!?! How in the fuck does that happen? Like this has got to change!’ Not sure what was actually vocalized but that was the diaglogue, thought process, and reality of me literally then having to quickly get my shit and get on the bus as I had lost it all... seriously. Thank goodness the bags and government were getting along and they hadn’t like being separated too much as like sometimes it’s like it goes from a closed situation to a chasing almond butter down the sidewalk and the wind didn’t do anything in the in between and that’s the truth though.
- So I stumble on the bus which is like... it was full. I put my items on the ‘keep area clear’ signage after asking permission and indeed promising to not let anything go flying... and ewww some people were like jelly jelly jelly... I was like I’m standing for an hour... get a... no I didn’t. I was too immersed...
- If I may be so selfish... if I leave behind anyone that cares for me as the people who shared their love for him as well as the author then I will truly have succeeded in life. I’m so serious... the love and just also heartache was just... beautiful. Ha! If I ever right like that it’ll through someone and not my own... but omg...
- It probably hit close to home... as how could it not but just read it... friends that were and are his family speaking to feeing his presence or spirit or essence or just... it’s like he’s with them everyday in their thoughts and hearts and daily routines supporting them or just being him and look I cried on the bus and now I’m crying again just thinking of it. I even saved a picture or two... oh miii gahhhh in one it’s like a put together needle inside of a mess of a paper haystack. I was like... that’s a whole room... he created a desk from a bunch of... read it. You’ll love it. It made me that much more upset that I’ve never felt chanel fabrics as those lyrics go...
- he’s the one that was probably always misunderstood or misquoted in every print the states besides vogue published him in. He may have indeed curved Adele’s heart attack or just been rigorously honest that time and...
- like, it was just like what I remember from the documentary...She always watched her shows from an unseen spot... I’m giving away to much.. but Shirley M did fantastic! Li
- Last notes 📝 as it pertains to fashion... at least I can effing walk my formally fat self... and let’s be clear I’m one or two bad days away from being 300 pounds again! So Adele you’re fabulous. And we can walk into a store and touch Chanel fabrics... it may seem silly but hey... they do their jobs, and do them well!
- Oh, I’m not unemployed... I’m unemployable as set by the limits of the government and the ‘powers at be!’ So call me what you want... but at least get the terminology correct! Ha! I would hate for you to look silly while trying to belittle, judge, or assert your better than/then stature! See, truly- I’m a friend to everyone! ;)
- I know, I know... g-eazy and Cardi B asserting his soldier status or her ability to pussy pop is much more legit... who can guess what I’m listening to?
- So I got called a ‘stupid bitch’ today... and the dude was looking for a fight and anddddd he’s already been taunting me everyday for like a week. So I’ve moved within the same nonprofit AGAIN but I’m so thankful I was supported and was able to get out of that environment. It’s literally never ok to prepare for physically and mentally for a fight and have a game plan and then actually follow through... like, I’m watching golf adding items to my amazon baby registers in a home for now kinda residence having a coffee...
- I know how I look, some may call me a bitch and I kind of am... like walking away and like giving up or losing the fight sucked and it took a lot out of me. I dint support that type of behavior and my actions now reinforce that behavior in that person and will now be exhibited towards another and the outcome could be terrible. I’m not in control of that or this situation and it effing sucks... but, ya know... but I’m not going back to jail and messing up my accommodations and all of that because of someone who’s probably a confidential informant or some shit who will ‘get taken in’ only to get a bonus on his paycheck while I’m back at square one. Like- not happening. Nice try though.
- Somehow I had to pee and this person was like oh follow me! So I did and literally there were soooo many people that my anxiety went bananas! Like, bananas! It was fun though! There was a papusaria and some other places and I was like omg I see ice cream and am on a budget and am a total foodie. So I had to get out of there.
- The police got on the rail and it was humbling how several people literally changed there everything about them.... like one guy literally took a knee which is like a jail or prison thing. When they do their walks you have to take a knee or sit down... and then this one woman stared at the ground and cried. Like- it was reasonably awkward.
- I’m so lost... I re-read and clicked some links and couldn’t believe that a cat could be left $200 million dollars but either way I hope his wishes were carried out- because after all we aren't the government... (sick but getting better!)
I’ll try and see what I can do. It’s amazing... it’s him in the most real photo ever!
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