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• How many incarcerated are sick? The are announcing the first ones made public as of yesterday, I am so sorry you’re going through that- I hope justice is finally served?  Like- let me tennis ball this situation... hell naw, are you for real, or hell naw, been waiting to long... justice was discovered? Maybe?  Discovery right?  Cause they serve you a drink w a vagina schlepped through it, a warrant is served, can justice please be redefined. Wordiness, like stop creating and re-define!!!  just saying- even atrial fibrillation is a pre-disposition to getting this virus, I’m just regurgitating what I’ve read... oh wait! Haha!  L .. and it is an issue to me as they don’t have personal protective equipment... 
• oh wait... what’s that, it’s my soap box, I’m about to ride it for a second....
• I get really pissed about money and lives. Especially in these situations.. it seems as though a negative pressure or some kind of Tb type precautions are needed. Airborne, droplet, Ebola... so in jails they are airlocked!  Like within their system or unit... yes don’t argue nay’er ad they basically keep napalm strapped to their legs per protocol or orders and that can’t just be floating frivolously in the air... like esp the two man cells... you want some cool air either you or your celly must flush the toilet!  So, in a time when these things are needed in the numbers they are...  I as an outsider now in healthcare can say not as an emotional plea of overworked workhorse that it isn’t fair all this money is spent locking people up and is probably the root cause, that and homelessness of this damn virus anyways... I dunno what it is... I’d rather it be that then bioterrorism... but yu in now go digging around and ww2 is right there possibly and we did some shady shit to each other. And it sucks and so I don’t know it could just be from all the filth of the world and it’s natura self
• Not being able to filter out all the unnatural elements we’ve created... and science is like hole up! We just dug a little deeper and found two where we thought there was one!  Like the vents!  Who knew?!  Damn! 
• They said it’s going to get much worse.... the numbers anyways... I’m not sure about actuality in situation as there delays systems wise and then incubation time of two to nine days and then viral course of ten days- in the moderately symptomatic or sick ones. 
• (And I know I don’t ‘work’ or am unemployable let’s call it what it is! ;)... and so this whole thing doesn’t account for me... but that’s ok. That’s a separate issue/matter. I should or we should get the same type of compensation but like I said to me it’s a separate issue.)
• , in one of mine.... you’d make him speed up and I was like.... even giggling my arm with the iv trying to go back to my bed after surgery in jail. If that was the and this is now and if I was in jail right now, have to remember I beat my case (though republican wordiness May have something to say about that.... but, all the more reason I’m taking it to the box as to make sure no confusion or wordiness.... please I realize a public defender and me going to the Supreme Court is a possibility... either way... I beat my case and everyone in the knows it... but like I said the words on the paper have something different to say and are absolute and I’m not... and that’s a separate matter..) 
• .i was thinking about the relief package... make him speed up and I was like.... even giggling my arm with the iv trying to go back to my bed after surgery in jail. If that was the and this is now and if I was in jail right now, have to remember I beat my case (though republican wordiness May have something to say about that.... but, all the more reason I’m taking it to the box as to make sure no confusion or wordiness.... please I realize a public defender and me going to the Supreme Court is a possibility... either way... I beat my case and everyone in the knows it... but like I said the words on the paper have something different to say and are absolute and I’m not... and that’s a separate matter..) 
• So there’s a jacket... literally I don’t know what to do... ugh, I’m attaching a photo box with a photo that gives way to my sentiments...
• Sitting at the bus stop... alone... and of course self conscious... and I’m like at the top it isn’t lonely! Haha!  It’s -11:22pm.  I’m sure no one is laughing....but hey, I did! Haha! ;)
• So if you have a social security number you get something!  But, can people under public charge within our country, green card holders as I don’t know if they have a black and white social security number or a grey one cause they still are in process or a student, work and student visas... like ,I’m not trying to not be grateful but if you’ve been in a room like me, my mother, and the tax man that year... it is no fun, not absolute in regards to putting something to bring about relief to a nation experiencing death and hardships that might have never been in their realm of thought to prepare for, and honesty that’s one more group and sub-group that won’t be shopping or able to have a moment to purchase flowers for a loved one sick or have lunch at the cafeteria/bedside of their loved one in the hospital as an innocent bistandar not infected with Covid-19 but the angina was real and so is the sternotomy and because of a check from our federal government, the President, The Senate, and The House of Representatives et al- they were able to take a leave of absence or not sweat about having already used their sick days and be there in recovery when the reality hits! And also the money and the forms are real... I don’t know what’s what but those forms that back in the day the dreams had to complete can with a submit fee of like $1000 maybe... and the fee for naturalization is going up to $1170... like the warmth and compassion and even empathy are thick in the air right now or at least I feel it when I essential (As in like essential shop or shop for the essential..) cause this lady and this lady you could tell were beefin it or have in the past... but they both just looked at each other and then the ones foot that was buggied and then back and I dunno I’m not Chesmoso but it was so human it hurt. ;)

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• So this business and et al being closed and places shutting down... looting is real... depending on assumptions and presumed.... affiliations... you get different charges for or the alleged situations...so first timer or the soul that has had no Supreme Court at the federal level... me and my public defender gonna be there if it exists!  30 days right?!  Speedy trail is a right! Like- that’s not ‘thats a false claim’ ‘ed. And I’m for real though... this is a bit of a dumb idea... and thats just in the reality of expecting people to do all the work for no money... a lot of planning bodies at the local level and city level and even one that are federally mandated.... are volunteer. So the physicians, attorneys, people, et al... take away from their lives to be a part of progress in a owning it and buying into the pace the reside. Could be the town im from or where I live now.... same type of governance and press conferences don’t have Roberts rules or the brown act to keep order...maybe just a press conference, take the contacts out with the script or someone answering the question as a checking and balancing act... with you behind the podium is dumb!  Cause sabotage is real, and the lights and teleprompter combined w The contacts that are TVs of sorts will do so much harm... you should (not during covid-19) go see about your color vision and also your retinas... from the care and concerned not the to make you look over your shoulder again… hypothetical hopefully!  Ha! If not people gonna look at your ass the way they do mean and your the president... republicans not reevaluating and assessing is a reason for the paranoia or illness side of the liking back cause here we all are.... but to go back.. as a re-addressing a matter and absolute in best interest of the people cause it isn’t a waste of time even if everything is smooth and over what’s adequate... if that’s the case though... may want to do the finding yourself on a all’s well front and you may want to take a step back and reconsider... quoted by RWE... they don’t want to answer for their doings as a been there in that elected chair or seat or et al for a very long time!  In some cases that’s very much a legacy and lifetime achievement of sorts... but for some.., they know.  They just didn’t think they would ever have to answer to people of whom ‘they took care of in a very real way....back in the day... ask madame speaker if she feels bad about that??! Cause though things aren’t adequate... the votes and the history and work is documented and there for your review.... as per governance and federal guidelines. Just saying... cant go wrong with a democracy lead by democrats!  And that’s the truth though!  It’s almost from the inside looking in with a.... trying not to, so trying not to... but, duh!  Democracy and democrats, democrats and democracy.., republics? Public. And re- the ummm.... hate is built in... reassessing yes perfect... but re and those terms in books and out of mouths and hearts (kind of..) would have been out of lives in a ‘hate’ framed manner of speaking had I done better... but, the rap world sang about throwin’ some d’s on it a long time ago!  Just saying!

Oh the line and dumb ass... again inserting itself into the lives of others...

I love you

Thank you to Congress and everyone who is surviving and looking out for another and their other and theirs.... 

Think of all the safety and preparedness we as a country and for sure as a city and state land county and Alabama is not treating a cancer as per the state benefits that exist already... and they are getting stricter!

Oh oh look! I got halfway...

(Omg I had to do the round about.. for who would I be without Avenir next... and my..)

Through and thought I should share before bed time!   Not as a late late...

The numbers I’m worried about because I guess it’s a two to nine day incubation period and a viral period of ten days so some will test negative and could be in that incubation period of a false-negative?  Not sure if that’s the proper terminology but... it’s the best I can do.... like, have you tried to log out of al your apps before?  No I mean like log out completely- some you have to delete to do so and until you’ve done that and then seen the search result variations will you relate maybe. But, there’s that to factor in to the systems in place that report the numbers and the lag time I’m unsure of and can’t search for as my phone literally just does the status line of not budging, nope not gonna do it.... you can’t make me I don’t wanna... nope... and I have a ‘oh look!....’ character attribute sooo ;)

The numbers are gonna get worse just happy thoughts now, so we can get ahead. Like, two fold, three fold? I don’t know, and I’m not trippin but kinda scared... I think projected would be nice... I do believe that projections can be wrong but sheltering... some people say im sheltered and im like choking with a huh in my mouth! Ha! Still me!  Don’t trip like Trina said and lil Wayne also!  Someone said they had never seen the sweetest thing... I oh course was hoofing it and made a reference and so based on that!  I’m about to shake it all the way up to ice cream!  And hope and send happy thoughts to the numbers being a lot higher then I can imagine in hopes of them being unchanged as a no one else died and imagine that! I tried but I might have sidetracked with the hypothetical huh in my mouth...yay! Maybe it’s working already!  I love you

https://apple.news/A7XwOnuPDT12C9PHvg0L6tw

Vogue sites The Who and the cdc before and literally if there was to be a vogue News that would be my go to. I do love the journal in the mean time. And please think of everyone in this, Prince Charles is confirmed and I have no idea what anyone else’s systems are for reporting and then making it public... but it’s a great time to drop the ‘ego-centric american’ reality... so literally, please think of them and then us when putting whatever your version of hope and good energy is out into the world. Praying for them first/ those around the world, then us as in our country and then you and yours- that’s how I do it....praying, giving out good energy, good vibes, happy thoughts, positivity...I put me, my mind, my heart, and my soul... ok all of that and my bologna patch of course! So all of that and then try to project the good onto what the situation is or who I’m thinking of or where the good energy or hope I have is needed.. and then I put it over there... where I don’t know, but it’s there,

Just over there but I don’t disconnect. I don’t gather up all that mess to then disconnect after... if you do that’s ok... I’m just saying- The more connected I am the better I feel inside and no time like now to share this... ;)

And now ima shake and tear up a little!  Good night. No bad dreams... just good thoughts and energy, ok? ;)

Oh! And thanks again to the leaders of the world (Mr. Hanks included et al!) for all of your efforts and transparency- it’s been perfect and may get harder or challenging... but, until it does or doesn’t you’ve all done stellar! ;)

And I hope military and nonprofits and .orgs are included as well- like, I said I’m bumpin my thumbs instead of... (typing...) like bumpin them on the keyboard... bumpin my thumbs... ha! ;) see even this connection is like a... a.... 

Look! I had to post this

Half way through as it says a lot....

I’m sad... that the numbers are going to start getting a lot worse as the virus has a two to nine day incubation period and a ten day period after that... everyone is different and I don’t know what the lag time is in the numbers... the stock market second to second infrastructure isn’t in this realm of the world and that’s ok... but I wish projected numbers of is it going to be two fold? Or?  Please I hope not, but it really could be. I hope it doesn’t touch us all but it very well could in a more real way then is invited or welcomed. But, people are survivors (not like the tv version... which they are for the ones I’ve heard of are pretty effing cool... but we take care of each other and even at our worst!). So happy thoughts. Like huge thoughts and I’m not trying to get in the numbers... but just in a preparedness kinda way... and what I know they are going to get worse and I don’t know how far behind they are but they are unless it’s changed... do people know that?  Have they said ok this many have died as of now... because that’s not the same thing as this is what we know so far... like think of all the hospitals.., just

Relief...

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Don’t forget to count.... 2020 census!  Go to the dot gov or .gov to see what you need to do as I need to take my own advice and do it as well!

• Identify your feelings with two actual!  The worrying is the concern of the universe- not an individual!  Congratulations!  Ha, or at least what I worry about is wayyyyy out of my realm of ‘putting a load of laundry in cause I’m worried I won’t have anything to wear...’ and otherwise... ha!  Good energy and thought from me to you! 
• Please read it!  Madame speaker and everyone’s red flags aren’t waving as I don’t know how president trump has a ban built into the relief package??? All that was signed over? May give reason to...
• The one President Obama gave when I was in college went to my mother as I was able to be claimed on her tax return... like, are you kidding me?  Omg I was hurt, so upset when I found out!  So this one, can it please touch each and everyone’s hands?  love all the money going out... just how many businesses does the amounts include? Lie how much per business... because the majority of the workforce are... not businesses though employees by (thank you!) but not directly financially benefited from profits just the payroll (thank you for that as well!) so how much if I’m a person who’s working minimum wage at a small business and receive a w-2 and then my person does the same but receives a 1099 tax form.... are the payroll incentives the same, the amounts, the realness as the money is good but with the payroll incentives is it based on the actual job security of a employee on a one to one specific level?  So the business only gets the incentive if they keep an employee... so two employees, one not kept on payroll the other kept on payroll is how many per this document or legislation incentivized?  Only one right?  Or none? If the incentive is given universally or as in a kept one out of twenty employees and so the incentive is given.. that shouldn’t happen. It should be that businesses have to keep everyone on the payroll to receive the incentive. I think to then break it down into a business keeping twenty out of forty employees on payroll and receiving twenty incentives is weird... and that’s the reason also for the w-2 question and the 10-99 form scenario. Because I’m not sure that they are both considered employeees. I hope it’s the same by the premise behind the concern is all inclusive as in people.... how a person is then broken down into business lingo is unknown to me really... but, either way.... it’s the person I’m concerned for. Like don’t create animosity within these businesses like what could be in this long drawn out example.... because a dishwasher who works as needed will as a not to be audited probably receive a 10-99 and a server, or manager or front of the house staff could receive a w-2- the financial situation should be given out equally to those people and the incentives for the businesses should protect them equally as well!  
• Dependents who can’t vote or can vote (age wise... and this includes everyone right?  Like, citizens, et al or people in this country et al? Right? Correct?  Please. I hope so!) however they can be claimed on their head of households tax filing and not get the $1200 check (and maybe stimulus versus relief package... but just saying dependents and the family tree analogy here... so during the last money in hand package situation... I was in college, working, and able to be claimed as a dependent though I filed separately as a w-2 employee didn't receive a stimulus at that time.  I don’t remember if that meant the person who claimed me got more then just their amount without me but I think so.)I caved as I could have filed separately but I didn’t- the point is I feel like I should have so I’m advocating for that individual or group here and now... also others ;))  But a person working who files separately as a 17 or 16 year old working their behind (butt) off to make ends meet  (and might be behind.... literally on finances before this and now and omg thank you for the relief- seriously!  But already more then half of workers live paycheck to paycheck in this country and It was at least seventy or eighty percent- a lot more then half!  So who is claimed as a dependent should still receive all the benefits of the relief package... because they could potentially see none and then what was it all for?  ;)  yes, that was some animosity back then when only should have been generosity.  
• I hope the tax system works that way or allows that to be and thank you for including those, as in me, who aren’t tax liable as well seriously... thank you!... little to no tax liability means that everyone gets it!  Like everyone... but can prisoners or jailed individuals get it?  But what if like me they were just there to go to court once a month for four months and then they get out with or without charges or a record or whatever. They work... and get paid...in some cases... 
• someone incarcerated gets this and think... I’m ruining a surprise but if then had a graduation present for their child or money to send home in an actions speak louder then words to someone who has or hasn’t ever met their dad or mother.   Pregnant women doin time... should also get this!  Like, they aren’t getting any of those benefits from a shower or diaper party or all of that- I’m not hating on that, I’m trying to create a sense of everyone and reasons why. It matters so much to me because I’ve met people and they have the same light in their eyes that everyone else does...  like they could be losing loved ones while incarcerated or behind bars and not be able to go to the funeral. Just saying-  it’s a big deal and a separate matter but also part of our people and who I’m thinking of. 
• Please don’t take away anything unless it’s the weirdness about how the trumps and their et als and the politicians and their et als are banned from this...  that’s not fair!
• An attorney conflicting itself/themselves is way over thinking this in that regard, or to me it seems so.   It’s stupid really!  You taking a hit like the one thats written into this living document as in still being crafted is stupid.... doing so does not make me receive anymore or less!  Just saying, please mention your twelve hundred dollar shoes and I’ll say, perfect here’s another as the check you cash from the government in this relief package for a time when we are all experiencing hardship.  Don’t make yourselves apart when you are apart of as elected people of the people!  What came first the person or the politician? The person!   
• Yes a high school student who’s under a student work agreement as in a constraints on when and how many hours per week should still receive this amount!  Fine- they save it, they blow it, they? Hopefully, learn something as a life lesson that’s good though the experience could be positive or negative in a lot of ways... I shouldn’t have blown it on those shoes and saved it for college...well you lived and learned maybe or just have some really nice shoes. Or a gym membership... no offense it’s not ‘your’ responsibly to concern yourself with what someone does with the money... they have their own sense, their parents sense and all of that or whatever sense as in a orphan or foster child... cause foster parents would claim a grip of kids who may or may not see the dollars and they should. Like, ok fine the foster parent takes it when it was made out to the child.... well that’s a crime and not a false claim and is a real example of future trippin...  to take care of people all inclusively as one meaning birth to ventilator or the oldest one who may just live a bit longer to collect is the heart of this matter!  That’s awesome!  Is it your responsibility to make sure it’s able to be cashed or deposited- yes!  As it is a person behind the counters so just saying.... the criminality after this is a separate matter.... accessibility to the relief is in the matter though!  Imagine it being passed down as they pass away ;) respectfully. It maybe the only time someone has had anything to give or pass on money wise, though the love and legacy are plenty and perfect... this would be for them not the survived bys..... It’s a dignity or never have been able to help... and now I can. That’s a lot of dignity for one to acquire... I hope it’s for everyone. Please don’t think this isn’t a real situation of an example... the only thing truly passed down is debt... this can be much positivity, just trying to convey why it’s so important to me!  I realize that’s all a separate matter but is part of what could come or be. Like, thank you!  
• It’s a months extra pay for those at federal benefit level because what I find online on the government websites have an individual receiving between $738 per month and $1258 though it’s hard to say without actually seeing someone’s check... they still pay into the system so it may be less. Yes it’s a purchase to some and survival for some but I hope it’s relief and an adequate representation of the gravity and pain and also accounts for the aftermath or what’s to come as we are still in it!
• Please make sure it doesn't interrupt state benefits or their is a provision for that built in because it sucks having to then have a negative association of a pain in the behind with a something meant to bring about relief! 
• Don’t let the convolution and wordiness (if printed in 13 point font how many pages would this legislation be?   Just curious as to account for all of your hard work!  I’m for real though!) and long winded document (this included! Ha!) and the absolution on the paper is real and black and white.... but people are not... and then... wordiness almost got me just now on a flight of an example!  Ha! I was like in shock this morning when I heard everyone and the amount. Shock. I had to go get my phone, put down the carton of ice cream, and confirm. Thank you!  Only because I’m thirty three and have never gotten in my hands something like this from the government... everything else has ‘not applicabled’ me. ;)
• Like just cause the one kiddo has a President for a father (maybe mother can be exampled here soon!) and whatever money wise that’s none of anyone’s business.... they don’t get relief from the relief package for all of this hardship??? Like that’s not fair- as they have the option to cash it or not!  And I’m for real though.... like, if it’s that big of a deal to some that another or someone like me gets a $10,000 check for example, and they do to... like they can not cash theirs. By all means don’t feel obligated or obliged or annoyed to cash it or deposit it... and please don’t limit another’s in the same regard! ;) Omg that’s another thing... not everyone can.. ... and I need a new -
• Not everyone can go to a bank and put this in an account or access the funds or cash it for free or at no charge... just saying... it may cost hundreds to cash because of the world in which I live... like, I can’t go to a mainstream bank or a credit union as a federal thing and cash or deposit these funds- I don’t have an account as they’ve been closed on my behalf and I dont have a creditable credit score to open one.... I’m not bitching!! I promise I could see the senate minority leader’s eyes and how happy and accomplished he felt and it showed on the view this morning and that was with no sound!  I dunno!  But, just saying $2 trillion and thank you- I’m not being condescending I’m really not!  I swear I’m not.... but, at that amount received twelve year old or fourteen year old could have or start a college fund for themselves or blow it on candy- at that amount of trillions as a actuality of this relief package I hope they are included, please.  Please include them.  Yes I know that someone could take it from them and I hope not.  Someone could do all bad with it... but the trust or faith in the government would have a real here you go in your hands kind of a seeing is believing impact on a very young very impressionable very true (philosophy- meaning true...) mind/person- and that’s cool!  Everyone right- like if the word gangbanger can be said in a court room or implied I hope that they can be accounted for in the relief as well... just cause amazon or home delivered groceries may not go, doesn’t mean the government relief package shouldn’t touch their lives! I’ve been called a vagrant, homeless, worthless, a slang for a homosexual, idealistic, whatever else on paper and in actual spoken to my face words by security guards, regular people.... but not by those of the young little future leaders of the world... if it’s assumed or expected or implied that parents will take care of them through what they receive then you would have me as a right here and now situation, time, place, money, credit score, knowledge, blog et al to show for it.... interpret that as a loop hole or not or however else you want..... but it’s not like the money I didn’t receive then, as a could have studied more, gone out for some fun, or taken a day of.... like, no I didn’t eventually receive it.  I didn’t see benefits from it... because I didn’t receive it- that’s the point. Omg even a seven year old should get in... put it in a cd for them to cash when they are twelve or fourteen. I mean, funny how I’ve had a bank account since I was born... so I don’t know... I’m going by off of what I know which is twelve to fourteen signing for a procedure when I was that age as in a... why are you handing that to her, I can sign it!  And yes, the irony of not having one today keeps me warm at night! Ha! 
• Who knows what will happen? I guarantee you nothing bad comes from putting money into the hands of each individual accounted for or assumed or implied... in an each and everyone kind of actuality!   Omg! Imagine all the fiscally responsible adults that could be a seed of a tree planted now and the shade to be benefited for ages to follow. Seriously!  I just hope it’s literally in their hands and not by or through another’s in some- just cause the hardship is... and so should the relief. 
• Just saying the instillation of trust doesn’t come or for me doesn’t come from anyone even billionaires not being accounted for on an individual level, yes it will help if not but that question will still be there and that’s reasonable. if the business and all that needs to be a separate matter... then I empower who ever to make it so... don’t live with that burden from not doing so!  Omg that would be another negative or something that needs relieved in a sense.   That little box ‘can you be claimed as a dependent’ was a heart break every year!!!! Ugh!!! Yes, I was one of those that always said no first, the would go back... talk about rags to riches- oh wait!  
• Everyone needs $1200! As thankfully everyone is getting... only making $74,999 or less the amount was going to be $600- thank you. People are hurting, their scared, their getting sick just from that... seriously I went to market last night for zinc and vitamin c through apples and chicken fingers! Omg! I got the last bag or second to last...
• How many incarcerated are sick or have died?  Are they or would they be included in the numbers?  Can they be visited?  Are they ok? 
• Same with nursing homes... I know you don’t want people volunteering at a time like this... but good energy and making people aware of situations usually makes the situation better.... in an all inclusive manner! ;)
• Thank you 
• I love you

Omg it’s bedtime ;)

But when will I grocery shop?

So....

• I feel better... 
• I can’t relieve it took like a year or so before I wanted to purchase apples... it’s weird right!?  But it’s like a... not slow and go but like healthy eating was the last thing... it was survival through college and then started working and eventually working out and then eating healthy.  So not that I’m back there but I’m trying!
• Like those who make less should get more... if there is an issue and also those affected...  we are all affected. We are all being affected and I don’t have ‘bills’ but this one time thing shouldn't interrupt benefits or anything like that... and if that’s a concern then get rid of the barriers!  I wrote a thing to the senators of California and I hope that they also get to give them selves a stimulus or relief thing as well.  Seriously I dunno if they are accounted for like that.

• This is stressful- at what point, and my chronic condition/terminal illness included... when do we start re-entering the world?  Is it going to be staged or?
• And for those of you who love how I’m always rounding it out ;) as you have to anticipate and think ahead... like anxiety is going to be so real. Don’t forget your taxes are due. And yes, the going back out... no one ya gonna drive right, your passwords are going to all have to be reset!, your parking spot is going to be repainted, the allotted blowjob time in the afternoon may end up being a power nap, your am coffee!  Omg!  Girl, go on and crank your car the night before and make sure that it does so... it may be as reluctant as you are the next day... the commute, oi! Don’t forget your child care, or the kiddo themselves as the struggle is real!  Get on your confidence cause the bitch that was gunning for your man or promotion or just you're overall happiness will so be there in a morning glory of a nightmare on what could be a fresh start.  Wouldn’t it be nice if all of that drama and nightmare just didn’t come back to work. One to itself decide that or maybe a decision to not be a total douche hole and don’t worry about if everyone else is going to be on their douche hole game or a-game... hopefully no one wants any of that and everyone can just simply exist and co-exist and it’ll be great.  Or I hope so... I would make this decision if I was off and had to go back to work... I have high hopes for no matter if that’s tomorrow or if it’s a week or whatever!

• I wish it would be easier for those that work odd shifts... like if the markets are only open until 8pm and people work until then like the 7a-7p, or 8a-8p. 
• I feel like if there is an issue with people taking it seriously....
• The government has its mistrust imbedded in my dna!  It’s like, I don’t trust at all.  I guess a generation or two of the screw-age. 
• The court websites don’t have hours that speak to a real issue... if there are closures it’s not posted online. 
• A whole generations haven’t really ever had to call before they go somewhere to verify hours we just look online to see what the hours are... none of that was updated at first... on google or the map apps. 
• I love you 
• I’m going to attempt to since the phone doesn’t speak to closures at least walk by and see what’s up or go by my ph luv defenders office. They are wholly douche bags on the phone... I was like y’all need some people skills as the phone was hung up again by the person who answered, not my attorney... but yet again as I supposed my case number or whatever I should know by heart... and if you forget it I guess you’re sol and up for a 180 day stretch- could be like that in some places! But that was me trippin a little haha. Prepare for the worst right? 
• I dunno if you can go see people in jail but I’m about to sign up for that as well!  ;) 

... ... it’s already tomorrow in some places!

So I am so upset...

i can’t believe the world is going through what it is in the manner in which it is...

• What am I going to do?
• Ending the epidemic is huge. All that funding that I spoke of.... the organizations that plan and are doing their part as a true person, a collaborative force, a family member that’s impacted, a child that’s doing the most for their parents, or/and bf f cry someone who is just a ‘up for whatever’ and has a voice....  if it didn’t include or wasn’t all inclusive ima need some specifics and I learned that its pretty much apply, meet, and speak to... like recs should have been given back as to also allow us to do the most.... so the amount is the funds to cover the hours worked by the writers, and people who worked and planned and got excited for... the grant was what... from say for example $5 million to $50 million.... you can’t take the recs involved in the writing process to then critique the requirements for what’s to come or to then just give me something to complain about.
• Continued from above... if other places received the most or the top amount... then based on your subjectivity there should have been recommendations given and then if the purpose was true and to valiantly speak to the administrations end the epidemic/hiv then those same people and the people they go to work everyday to help are waiting! ;) that’s what makes sense to me... just saying!  
• The communities won’t be your slaughter, as the immigration efforts have already.... cults are not gangs... they’ve been documented as gangs for awhile.... being that faith and community is one like where I’m from all white people went to some building for religion and the African American community there had one building for it... or that’s what I was told... doesn’t mean it’s the truth now bu tit was then and that ain’t ok, especially when it comes to everything i know. The white ones would be cults as well right? Frat houses and sorority rows through the country would be also?  I mean to be honest these fourth and fifth generation Yale and Harvard legacy families would be as well right?  Yes to all the above... if you’re baring them from healthcare or information or products through amazon or mail or grocery delivery services then it’s not.... I know that’s happening... where I stay as not a gang member isn’t able to get groceries delivered, or informed delivery through the usps and that’s not ok... and tells you how much privacy there is and how much hate civilians have been up against as that’s what I am on the white privilege side of the spectrum.  I do think I can walk down any street, move anywhere, get groceries delivered when I see the save $50 or $75 on the first order of whatever the amount spent limit is...  (yeah, not a scaled thing... just saying..) 
• Metro buses or scooters able to be regulated by some places as an annoyance and can’t even go as a hard limit in the system.... the scooter stops. Like doesn’t continue forward w it’s locomotion. I know it’s not metros as in the transit people’s fault.... but it’s someone else. Probably law enforcement or lawmakers. Not ok.  And then confidential informants et al to then cause the rest.... you have taggers on the payroll eh?  Or people to steal to strengthen the racism and fear and promote ignorance and further tragedy..
• Like you allow people to hate on (as me not posting this sooner makes me a part of that problem as well!  Like, ugh!  I think of it and then... ) Asians or people from other countries who have money yet you require them to have money before they can enter the country... and people aren’t aware that public charge even exists... not kind and so the problem and where was the vote on that?  Like, was that brought forth by and then did or does it apply to everyone and was accepted by each place and then if not accepted what?  And was then dispersed?  Ever think that some people get so stuck in their own system that relocating is the only option and isn’t supported?  Like I want to relocate to Mexico but I have no resources, and record criminally attached to my name that keeps me here or forces me to go illegally.  That’s not ok- in so many ways... while everyone is at home with your family or gang bang or forced to work overtime as a frontliner.... please consider how stupid it is to quarantine or stay in place a population with so many homeless or incarcerated or reservations of indigenous peoples or commuters or undocumented homeless or car sleepers. Like physicians sleeping jn your car... for access to work please remember it’s illegal to do so! So admirable. Maybe not an issue if you get questioned.... but the right to exist is the same person to person no matter what their cause is... 
• If I can’t get those things and that means something and maybe have me labeled as something I’m not... or if it has been applied and then taken away and.... that’s going to be the liability of a lifetime, that’s my name and my persons name and our lives either as friends or people..... no matter what we are or I am and we are until I know different are uninformed and not aware and you may allow some situations to pick and chose like amazon who or who not or that may be the law et al as well and that’s taunting and creating more racism and hate!   
• I can’t believe I forgot to post this... I’m so upset and I apologize...
• Access to current events is a mando per who and if that changed... when?  Probably after the helicopter story. Not ok.  This was before the internet but so applies.  Freedom of information act? Or? 
• What of the states that overturned roe v Wade or the federal Supreme Court not heating criminal justice matters?  Madder then hell I am because you can’t keep this country in the human poverty it’s in because everyone can’t vote, everyone needs to know and it’s a huge deal!  Energy is energy... the subjectivity with certain things and the sarcasm by white privilege (nothing to do with having money or being considered to have money.)
• I love you
• I’m in a room with someone who said they didn’t feel bad when a cop got shot and killed... I’m like, I feel bad when anyone is shot and killed. I was like- omg let me just be a millennial on my phone... hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmmm! Ha!.

This is what I heard from the autopsy results from other country’s....

Just because I care... here’s some updates.

So this is from the autopsies in other countries/their recommendations.... I’m not sure how long ours will take to get... so..

• The virus they haven’t named yet it seems- they keep calling it the virus...
• Clogs respiratory pathways with thick mucous that solidifies so this must be removed first before treatment can take effect. 
• No cold liquids... warm is best
• Drink warm water every 20 minutes
• Wash hands with a soap that foams. 
• Gargle with an antiseptic like vinegar, salt water, or 
• No smoking. 
• Eat fruit and vegetables...  vitamin c, it’s also important to raise your zinc 
• Animals don’t transmit it
• Sunlight will kill it is it’s in your clothes. 
• Wash clothes daily- or store in sunlight if that’s not an option.
• It’s person to person transmitted. 
• .it enters your oral pathways and can live in your throat for 3-4 days so hydration is very important.  
• If sore throat or et al seek medical attention.
• Didn’t say anything about temperature...
• Probably means that it should be the same for body wash... 
• Metallic surfaces allow the virus’s to live up to nine days..
• When or if you go outside... shower straight away upon entering your home et al as I know so many don’t have... and it can live in your hair and clothes. 
• I’ll double check to make sure I have everything... it’s hard to get it all and it may be whatever, but I do want to make sure that I at least pass it on... and not the virus... just recommendations... 
• it didn’t say to purchase an antiseptic mouth wash or to supplement with zinc but to consume... 
• I love you

Omg... I hope that everyone is adjusting...

the words...

again it’s the bullshit on a page and how many times has a kid or someone ‘aww’d or discredited’ said.... but I have an eraser...

• They’ve been the solution and the voices all along... for me, I’m fortunate enough to attempt to live two lives in a way...
• Expunging a record is free and do it yourself. Just making it to the 3 year mark is the hard part.... for my dui I needed money to purchase the information much like at doctors and hospitals you still have to pay for your record... but an attorney doesn’t and that’s a conflict of interest!  Inside info with no fiscal was/is the only real record of civilians... so how do I know if it’s been done for free... does neighborhood watch have my information... I guarantee you they know a lawyer or get is as a flash of a laminate et al and they can see who that person was after the Android option of facial googling identifies... again my information for free to directly be used directly to my disadvantage or cause me harm...
• Blood marks like a finger print... live scan should be in every state as the new signature... v the one little foot print card that the boomers don’t have done at birth but not their, their theirs... 
• the ones you see are public but military children... was not everyone as I don’t have one and was brought in at a time of emergency and girl... those little blood cards or footprints et al... it’s cool my mom stole them... then in the move and... just like maybe back then you got a copy... or was that state to state?
• Por que you people and the decisions... be the ball. Be the putt. Be the whole hole-in-one!  Give it as a check to everyone who hasn’t had the opportunity to take the bus or get of wherever people incarcerated included... write the check have it available electronically to be printed with void after xyz (no restrictions, or limitations on cashing like entities, in our country or the same for the money orders. Then something like that. 
• A  zero gravity or’s- can you imagine the blood just floating about- so easy to collect much easier then the floor!   Like... ebl... estimated a zero gravity I realize would be the free flow but the reverse would be... 
• So a system ‘dos’ based(remember windows ninety five and the exit to dos or run in dos games...) here its called ‘find out what it’s called in your state as I’m sure county state to state it is there...only not that anyone was or is doing bad... it’s just the system in which you have to possibly type and answer to move forward... and it’s subjective or objective who knows... like it was something when there was nothing to document or account for formally and in a real stellar tech giant airforce kinda way... it’s the one time they intervened and good going because the ‘but how will I know when shut as hit the fan and it’s time to.... oh you’ll know?!’ and like does it get any better with what is possibly going on now?  Imagine us without computers... like, the dark the dark until the green blanking block is there... ok ok it was orange... the civilian exact counter opposite was green which... was an upgrade... can you believe it?!! So the tech giants I joke about andnobjectify them all the time for their hearts... and like, omg it’s true!  Big teddy bears. Probably are douche holes to whomever they wanna be por que I dunno... but I’ve talked and talk and talk and walked and walked and if things were different we’d be... we are perfect... like, in this moment in this time in this pain in this pleasure... or... we are all right where we ought to be and pick up a Beyoncé and all that gd, gd, gd and write your struggles... I encountered about 100 million pounds of human gold in the form of muck in as Little time as it would have if only to say... walking around talking and speaking may not be right for everyone but please the taking it to the grave is something that a journal or whatever can make the world better before you even know it is a thing that happens enough to make you want to responsibly speak to your truth. 
• I was worried about Mexico and South America... no one has talked about them yet... and it’s so frustrating...  
• 1582... is the year of which the calendar... the Gregorian calendar was or came into effect... its and update from the...... based on the..... and I’m like our country wasn’t ‘founded’ yet... is your city? Or town? Or township?  Cause you may not exist if not!
• I wish I knew why my federal mail system, as a citizen in our country has ‘informed delivery but yet... it’s not available everywhere... and so fine you get all your mail 100% of the time!  What about those in certain areas where this is maybe meant to be but isn’t... oh well we created this for this but it isn’t available in the areas in which it was created for?!  

And on that note! I’m going to get moving. I’m sorry if I I’m upsetting the system... but union station where people have been staying as a routine isn’t allowing Them to stay anymore over night.  There, the libraries, and it’s sad.... and is currently a misdemeanor! 

And also I have some concerns... I know people have been getting entrapped like whoa... I get if there’s... but then like some apps download/store multimedia on your device... like I kept having trouble finding photos on my device for like nunya and it was a struggle to figure out why... I can’t help it if someone sends photos or information to my devices and into my life, I can’t help it that apps may or may not store them without my knowledge as that’s not an expected normal or reasonable thing... like, and apps available on multiple devices in multiple ways.... so many ways to screw with a persons life, livelihood, name, character, fiscally, et al... this is a real life thing and it’s so scary that there are non disclosure agreements and may or may not be legalities around the police worn body cams and those things and it’s all coming from a place of love... like, if you're a person that’s done this to another for whatever reason and personalize what I say... It’s none of my business what people think about me.  This to me applies interpersonally and not within like the law and doctors and work... professional, personal et al... like, go fund me? Go fuck me, and then let’s get back to work... reasonable and totally ok... now do that and treat me as an individual one way or another or... then we have an issue... it depends. All that can be a wooded but it’s an unrealistic expectation to expect absolution from anything... these police were talking and I personalized and this security guard was talking about whipping someone’s ass later who ran and then I was going to be searched upon leaving the store as the police had be already called by someone I called a douche bag... I did apologize tough. I was like- the stress, and stress, and that’s the last thing anyone needs ya know!  If you fuck up... then apologize...which I hate doing so I try not to mess up... 

No matter what, your feelings are valid, Identify them...feeling words are tricky   Look them up. It’s a fine isn’t a feeling... 

I love you

When in quarantine... art!

if I wasn’t under a 

Boomers micro-‘reason to not give an eff lens’ then I would ...

• I’m so worried 
• However if I had the availability and didn’t live where amazon may or may not deliver, have housemates that are federally funded name callers (do you know someone stated I was ‘special needs?’  I was so..., or also where they don’t absolute deliver thanks to certain entities then I would order art supplies and a instruction thing from iTunes or whatever... 
• learn to draw comics....
• I’m not trying to wrap canvas but ‘create an acrylic paint of a can be considered an investment mess’ on one is always a mindful exercise, wonderful, absolutely wonderful when everyone needs a drop cloth and gets a coordination and plasticity kick in the head.... ;) like, plastic means your brain can when it gets pissed off or frustrated rewire but remember all the other and can by pass injuries and we only use a percentage for a reason... then we bob and weave around traumas and deformities and bbb insults- not many can cross... (it’s made of three-... I dunno bill bye the science guy that shit- though may be remedial or could it be incorrect? Dated yes, but out dated?  same with art... i would just do and then go from there... ok so painting makes me cry. Or bill nye makes me... I dunno. 
• Movies are the reason I lived and didn’t die of boredom when I was younger...  like
• You can screen shot a comic drawing and then use ‘Mark up’ or your phones version or... being that I have indeed had a like cold on one side, hot/tingly on the other... I should be doing my own advice taking and....
• Oh my exit!!  For now. 
• Yes, I can like on a day by day decision by decision change my energies in regards to someone et al... like... people can be dicks. Hello!  I’m a true pot and a true kettle and not full of water but....I’m sorry if that makes me a variance or outlier as it should... I haven’t had many surprises if any outside the materials of the world other then someone wanting to share space with me or be naked or be friends or omg then to cook for me... twice in my life has that happened as an adult. So- maybe when I don’t like the color of your political party, but can’t say anything to the wiser (a negative or hope for change, and then even learning or ‘oh...’ when like TB skin masks may not be covered but then if exacerbated by and then I’m over thinking all fiscally and shit... it’s crazy to think that we may not be as organized as others may seem or portray... but the quality and internal Ummph is there... Whoopi hates being at home cause then she has to deal with seeing people clean her house or the damn roomba ingnite it’s nongasoline Ass and may give a person a myocardial infarction or a wardrobe change.... I’m serious if it hasn’t happened yet that shit is coming....) 
• See, heart surgery during the covid-19 and bed availability and life does move through and during these circumstances and hopefully that person didn’t get into an automobile collision on the way instead of being ambulanced in regards to the crisis or plague we are currently surviving through. 
• Omg... don’t even have to be in the same room for the ‘always been a smart ass’ because up here is all bad!... omg! I wonder at on or about 10:54am Los Angeles time don’t get me started I know... (plus or minus two or three... I couldn’t. Help by smile and look to my right and then a little extra related to my defense mechanism of what looks like conjunctivitis but is really just irritation for the residual oil and oil and saline and now saline though literally I dunno if dawn soap is intraoccularly fda approved but....

I have to post it!! Art is within its limits perfect!  ;) in school it’s deminsions and medium and directions of the teacher!!  Quantitative v qualitative grading... cause I was like jumpy last night in my sleep- this art teacher at school gave our child a D on a painting and I’m glad I’m preparing now cause I came of out theta waves for that twitch!  Ewww, I’m for real... three times!  Got worse and worse finally... had to effing live through the dream of bitch slapping a teacher as a parent.  Ugh!! Do not use this as a ‘gay gone parental but in the how it started for my grandparents... can you imagine... ewww mine went to lunch, I did invite my grandmama to lunch as a 1st grader!  Duh!  Why not!? And now I’m like... we’re there some familiar faces in this regard? No. But it is a smaller world even before... and don’t get mad at the corner store dude for making the last bottle so high in price as to have for himself related to legalities involved as he can’t as an owner and corner store and... for real!  

Did you know that an A40 can be multi patient supportive and in.... I don’t know... i invite you to see all 20,000 and 20,000 possibly closed circuited but same? I dunno... ;) 

I love you

Don’t let my other thoughts about this take away from my caring about or my concern for people during this... it’s a bit of a defense mechanism cause I’m scared, and afraid... feeling deficient about myself because I’d be at work maybe actually bringing this vent thing to someone who already knows as a in charge tip of the top pediatrician or primary care doctor... seriously..., and also, I’m still craving ice cream so I’m a bit more other there as well. ;) and groceries and all maybe delivered now but when someone says otherwise.... believe me, believe me, I’m that... 

Oh and I did renew my already found love for The September Issue... in documentary form and on YouTube and just... at least now if someone not in but on the... like, now I get to... there was a quote... from Ms. Coddington and maybe by way of but definitely how much responsibly and lively hoods behind the scenes of a photo in a magazine and ‘if you’re working but not out there then no one knows!’ Plus, in a day when a gay still doesn’t have an Anna or Grace or President ... at least people put themselves out there vulnerable and real... i have to change some details... but, don’t let the differences or characteristics hold you back... clearly, the differences didn’t apply... 

Thanks to Mayor Garcetti for no evictions and the support! That takes a strong decision maker... is that happening in your...?

ok, trust and...

During this time...

• Oh us complying and trusting the health issue... 
• I read about the immigration raids... I dunno who, what, where... but the lack of details or vagueness could be truth or fear.  Who knows?  But, it is unlawful during an emergency situation et al to do anything else...
• They were going to do federal financial assistance during this time ask but somehow it didn’t go through.... so some are trying to help but the opposition s so misplaced... to have sick time, and vacation time... like- you want to use yours during a plague and keep or cause someone to completely go without as they don’t have these benefits... if that’s not just the most perfect example of douchehagery then I don’t know what is!
• So instead of the feds providing universal assistance I’m so glad that I can remain a your parents don’t pay taxes so you don’t get public education- like, duh why would I think that?!! Can you imagine someone not realizing that harsh reality and then being called stupid?  Here is the new version and probably in the same generational group just a bit older. I went out the first night the library’s were closed... and it’s awful.  Like not to mention so many people scared, but also nowhere to go… Literally it was just painful to see so thank you to the first responders and also please don’t think that hurting yourself or someone will be a viable answer... I’m not try to let anyone off the hook… First comes to worst call suicide hotline I’m sure they’re open I hope!  I need to see if I’m going out in a minute… I am a bus pass and a craving for some ice cream 321 go!
• And I know nothing what’s going on at hospitals but it sounds like you’re handling it 26 is been extremely and I hope you don’t feel responsible if you run out of masks or medications or anything like that… Because do you know at least no commissions were health care Ian no I think I need to supply chain and all that we can we have it you know the couple that with day-to-day ordering and dispensing and all that like that the best way it’s just perfect it’s contingency and great!
• Just in case… I’m not trying to make my recidivism regular… Because you know my back is already high… But there’s people in there hungry I’ll be sure to give a blow job and a busy traffic intersection that way I can bring some food or Would’ve just gotten bed and that way I won’t have to be there hungry too! 
• They would rather wait for a tax credit or something (you have to itemize for this...) cause they don’t need the federal ‘help’ or the label of federally aided (cause that’s for people that aren’t like me and this is different then me saying there are people who need it more as there are... I have a degree, parents who have parents who have parents who have through the years though the last couple were all do folders the most recent were the projectors of ungratefulness and writers of legislation and had like my parents speak out loud so that not the universe but in direct communication with their kiddos that they had them too early in life and so lemme do that and a few other random acts of coincidence which being about opportunity to then be the hero’s or have that opportunity plus their added bonus really their detriment of psychotic behaviors and tendencies to raise their grandchildren and then further more be ever so vocal about doing so at work and etc in order to gain an accolade or also the quick swipe of a....   ... they know the stigma.  Omg watch stigmata... that will have someone not be so unkind... literally I was like just in case let me not talk back in my head... an open mind goes both ways... just saying.  
• I mean, so what, the same package... same deal.... what would be the goal? I think it would be cool to mentor someone... I mean did you have one or no?  Also- congratulations on being so admired and you worked for it... just am so glad that someone made it that long... and more to come... are you excited? ;)
• So I’m pissed... restaurants and the service industry are laying people off!! What the hell is going on that cannot happen!  We should all get a stimulus  package and furthermore our governor already made it so the state benefits keep going... and another is covering the utilities for the month there... like- the generosity is so great when you think of what’s to come!  I am so sad about Italy.  It’s like, so many caskets, so many...
• And New York City only has 20,000 hospital beds and 10,000 vents?!   Are you kidding me?!  Like- 8 million people!  I do hope if there is a national guard tent to be pitched or erected that the sooner the better!  It’s stupid that there may be people hurting.... and omg. Concierge medicine maybe is helping...
• Hydroxychloroquine was FDA approved in the 90s for malaria & arthritis and Remdesivir isn't yet on the market (but hopefully will be soon)—- this is a time to efficiently and safely please make this happen... I mentioned not blowing through the mummy’s lungs!  I did!  And if that happened it’s the sickness that got the mummy that erected just saying!   I ain’t telling no lie! 
• I am proud of the president- it’s a concern and caring that is also allowing him to work swiftly and efficiently. And thanks for the press conferences instead of twitter. 
• Our governor is fantastic and is so proactive
• Here in Los Angeles our mayor has made evictions not possible during this time. Omg!   Ground breaking and  Some for that window view told me the 60% of people in the states live paycheck to paycheck…… And also like a business or laying people off right now they can’t afford vacation time. Like for real I’m not sure the heat I’m just saying the people and getting laid off and you didn’t fired and don’t have vacation time and it’s almost Christmas… Just saying and my birthday is September soon so I don’t know what the details were for that one person to begin Steve O vacation time thing I don’t know if it was going to require businesses to provide six home and vacation time out of their own pockets or if it was gonna be like federally reimbursed… But it was gonna be federally reimbursed if it really covered then I’m glad it wasn’t approved because the feds have got to help  
• I’m not trying to push anybody on blast but if you’re like on federal pre-trial they will pay $20,000 a month to have you in housing so that they can hear conversations… Like per person. So they can afford some flipping vacation time for their people to work and I don’t even work and I’m just saying I would like a little package to but I’m worried about the big picture and that’s a little picture and yes I know most every Republican has vacation time and sick time so they can use theirs and wait for the government to reimburse them as they write their letters now for that… But there’s acetone when something does come up for a vote it’s not fair for you to think do you have yours in so they should have theirs and if they don’t they’re wrong or something like that because they aren’t and you’re close minded ass is probably holding up the seat for them to meet up in So there you go. My fat I mean pockets!!!