Internet explorer is the only supported browser at the public
library I’m at- everyone knows it’s the least secure and mind you I can’t even
fucking find the refresh button… literally it doesn’t exist. I’m so annoyed that this is how it is for
people- I mean, I am so thankful that I have never been in a position to
discredit, judge, condone, hate on, violate, or disregard the regard for a
human life in thought, word or deed the way so many people have… I mean, not
only that but they have created legislation, computer programs/tech, or be in
authoritative roles to just be total assholes and act like the person sleeping
on the sidewalk is exactly what I say they think… today is a total example… they
have no regard for me or anyone as a person or even… I once did a presentation
on Physician Assisted Suicide in support for the idea as a…. sometimes, and in
all ways I am/people are more humane to their animals then they are people or
their family…. I know that I don’t know anyone who has shaken their dog to
death but I’ll be a human to be regarded when I say I’ve been a part of saving
such as a Registered Nurse…. Literally, I’m creating that first person for
you…. In my presentation I said, ‘I am not sure what actual drugs/substances
are prescribed/given/ dispensed… whatever in the actual process for humans… I
said I don’t know. I personally love
that- an officer will probably make up some shit as something they are though
to do then say that as a way of maintaining their authority or something that
I’m calling bullshit on…. A person who also did a presentation on this had to
one up me… she said I think the information Josh was lacking was that they are
‘Benzo’s.’ That’s what is prescribed…..
sorry bitch, I didn’t like you then, I don’t like you now… but it’s more
related to your closed minded way of thinking…. Why in the hell when we have
paralytics, sedatives, benzo’s, a whole medical practice that is anesthesia-
analgesia, this is from google/wiki I think- I had to look it up so I could get
it right or correct for the assholes too busy covering their asses to actually
make a difference vs discredit me….. In the practice of medicine (especially surgery and
dentistry), anesthesia or anesthesia is a state of temporary induced loss of
sensation or awareness. It may include analgesia (relief from or prevention of
pain), paralysis (muscle relaxation), amnesia (loss of memory), or
unconsciousness.
So
that person is an example of everything I’m not…. I don’t know that what I
presented on then is anything like this.
I hope so if it exists but I don’t know for sure… but the whole ‘benzo’s’ thing just twerks or
tweeks me in the wrong way… sorry for being stellar. The class was living with loss- a person
literally spoke about the death of her dog and sending someone sympathy cards
which she didn’t receive but wished she had--- I was a wreck and couldn’t
handle it so I kinda laughed it off like an asshole I am just because I
couldn’t lose it before I presented mine… I am so terrified of getting up in
front of people…. Well I was then… I kinda am now only because I am not
terrified of being wrong… I’m terrified of presenting mis-information or for
example I love being gay. I love
everything about it (granted I love it even more than I did in Alabama or when
I kid because I know what it is to be able to ‘be’ and be totally safe and
protected. I will advocate for that all
day- but, I also know that a parent, after their child tells them they are gay
or ‘different’ could kill that same person. It’s happened, happens, and will
stop. But, that’s where I get nervous-
should I run for President or Senate would do it as me…. Literally nothing more
or less. San Jose is a perfect example of everything I fear only in actuality. I heard that empathy is dead or dying in the
Bay Area. It’s so bad that I think some
people are drone robots incapable of just feeling… when I was a kid my mom and
I were on the way somewhere there was an older woman doing yard work- looking
back I she’s was perfectly capable and fine… but I said to my mom, Oh that poor
lady- will you take me back to help her?
I think my mom literally felt the emotion I was feeling in my eyes. She said, oh she’s ok- she might enjoy it….
I’m speaking generally but from what I’ve experienced that whole scenario makes
me weak or something… I like it. I still
feel that way- and when I see violence decreased but suffering increasing I get
so overwhelmed that I can’t function… cause what is all this for then. It’s universal and under reported and not
categorized correctly because compare
So in the interest of justice or lack of whatever I’m posting
random things like this- it’s a message I sent to a person, a human life about what’s
happening in my day
Person……(Yes sorry. I was driving between errands on the way
home) Was this persons reply to me which I got today, but the time stamp from
google voice which I use on the windows machine at the public library says I
received it yesterday at 1621
ME….. today…It’s so weird how the texting for google voice
works- like it says I received/you sent that reply at 4:21 or 1621 yet- I
didn't leave the library until 1700. I
was talking about libel- not liable... sorry.
Person….(I don't know why there is a delay but sorry that it
didn't reach you before you left. I am at work ………… What is happening in SF for
you today? Are you finding anywhere to sleep?)
ME……-lol well I sleep by the bay bridge... it's beautiful. Literally
it lights up at night- im scared of the dark and was just attacked... its been
fine until I blogged about.... today three officers came around and totally
harassed me.... I told them about my attack and that I was the victim and that
I was terrified I might have killed/harmed one of them and they said that self
defense wasn't the case and that I was not a victim.... good thing they are
just enforcers of the law and not interpreters right? But anyways, I will still
go back there tonight cause its where I feel safest and they aren't around when
you need them and if they are they are probably the problem.... apparently that
is 'port' property and though there is no signage they were informing/educating
me as such.... but, I think they are totally incompetent so....
Here’s some updates in other matters….
How to get a copy of your library suspension paperwork
Becky Moskowitz
<Becky.Moskowitz@lawfoundation.org>
2:35 PM (20 hours ago)
to me
Dear Mr. Ray,
I contacted the East San Jose Carnegie Branch Library and
asked them to provide us with a copy of your suspension paperwork. The Branch Manager, Aleta Dimas, said that
you can either email her at Aleta.Dimas@sjlibrary.org or call her at
1-408-808-3075 to arrange a time to either pick up your paperwork, or ask her
to email it to you. You can also call
Senior Security Officer Lee Pendleton at 408-808-2048 to request this
information.
If you are unable to do this, Ms. Dimas told me that I should
make a Public Records Request for the information. I don’t know how long it will take to get a
response this way. I think that we will
get the information sooner if you request that they email it to you. Please let me know, if you have questions or
problems. Also, please let me know if
you want me to make the Public Records Request.
Thank you,
Becky Moskowitz | Senior Attorney
Health Legal Services | Mental Health Advocacy Project
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Joshua Ray <jray3401@gmail.com>
2:55 PM (19 hours ago)
to Becky
I guess I will just post this on my blog and let someone call
for me... cause I don't have a phone.... and I don't know what else to do....
I've already emailed someone at library administration downtown whom informed
me about my first hearing for the paperwork... which is where administration
for the San Jose Public Library system is... and no reply...
Best,
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Becky Moskowitz
<Becky.Moskowitz@lawfoundation.org>
3:17 PM (19 hours ago)
to me
Dear Mr. Ray,
I can understand your frustration that no one replied to your
prior email. Now that I already
contacted Aleta Dimas, she will likely be more responsive. Ms. Dimas said that you can email her at
Aleta.Dimas@sjlibrary.org and ask her to email you a copy of your suspension
paperwork. Could you please try emailing
her to request the suspension information and let me know that you did it? If you want, you can CC me on the email. I can follow up with her, if she doesn’t
respond to you within a reasonable time.
Once she responds, please forward me her email, so I can read it and
discuss next steps with you.
Based on Ms. Dimas’s response to me, I don’t think they will
give the information to someone else calling on your behalf unless you are
available to talk with Ms. Dimas or Mr. Pendleton directly. Therefore, I recommend that you email her.
Thank you,
Becky Moskowitz | Senior Attorney
Health Legal Services | Mental Health Advocacy Project
becky.moskowitz@lawfoundation.org | p 408.280.2487 | f 408.350.1158
cid:3CB05B46-1017-4C1F-9933-0CE3DD3A88EC@hsd1.ca.comcast.net.
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152 North Third Street, 3rd Floor
San Jose, California 95112
www.lawfoundation.org
From: Joshua Ray [mailto:jray3401@gmail.com]
Sent: Tuesday, August 22, 2017 2:55 PM
To: Becky Moskowitz
Subject: Re: How to get a copy of your library suspension
paperwork
Joshua Ray <jray3401@gmail.com>
10:06 AM (44 minutes ago)
to Becky
Also- why did you contact that branch? I don't think your getting it- the point is
that technically I don't access to 'this' in the entire County of Santa Clara-
as you yourself noted.... I don't have a phone because per the free phone
people I can't use 80 s market as an address because too many people get their
mail there. So because I am banned from the library, and that is the place I
know to go also that reliably has a payphone I can use then I can't even call
them in that manner... never mind the fact that I am literally dependent on
'free meals' from the salvation army, et al... and getting the in between
nutrition as best I can... so being that I don't have the change for a phone
call and they don't have a 1-800 number and the uplift pass I have doesn't
technically get you out of the County of Santa Clara.... the fact that you are
an attorney being paid and billing Ryan White and wanting me to literally do
things that aren't possible without me putting myself in harms way after
already being attacked and spending 30 days in jail for j-walking, etc. makes
me so disappointed...
Best,
Josh
Joshua Ray <jray3401@gmail.com>
11:04 AM (23 hours ago)
to Becky
Thank you! May I ask
what your billable hours are and the cost- it pertains to Ryan White?
Best,
Joshua Ray
Becky Moskowitz <Becky.Moskowitz@lawfoundation.org>
11:07 AM (23 hours
ago)
to me
We don’t charge clients for our services. I don’t know how much we bill grants for our
hourly rate. Why does Ryan White need
this information? If I know more about
what they are looking for, I can try to track down the information you need.
Becky Moskowitz | Senior Attorney
Health Legal Services | Mental Health Advocacy Project
becky.moskowitz@lawfoundation.org | p 408.280.2487 | f 408.350.1158
cid:3CB05B46-1017-4C1F-9933-0CE3DD3A88EC@hsd1.ca.comcast.net.
Advancing Justice in Silicon Valley
152 North Third Street, 3rd Floor
San Jose, California 95112
www.lawfoundation.org
Please tell me that someone gets my issue- a private attorney
that essentially makes the same in my mind- or is worth more to me wouldn’t
evade these questions the way she is and also would have gotten shit done and
even be thinking ahead at like well this is what we’re going to do…. We’re
going to I don’t know file a billion dollar law suit, call the newspaper, have
the California District Attorney or Homeland Security or whatever…. It would be
a totally different story… At the end of the day (wordiness Ms. Kardashian
West- per the GRE), she gets paid from whatever… I don’t think she has earned a
dime… literally if anything she’s a totally distraction and by me having to
email her and etc when time is everything cause I’m at 8 minutes remaining at
library 1…. Going to lunch- thank you….
Yes, I’m homeless how he going to lunch?
Please see yourself away from my blog asshole… same thing with my
family. They not only because I’m gay
think I’m less of a person and or not a person at all/whatever… but additionally
feel a need to be so worried they just be sick to death… literally Munchhausen
syndrome by proxy,…. Anyways- trust when I say I know what I’m talking
about. I’ve looked into getting a
restraining orfer and kinda hinted at that through messages just in case some
of their friends or Oprah was nice enough to help them instead o fme or
whatever and…. Point is- I’m where I am for a reason not pertaining to them at
all though they jus tbe so worried and are making all this trouble that when I
call them out, like I did my mom when I was in jail for a month she said, ‘oh
no, why would you think that? Or I
didn’t even think about that.’ Funny
thing about people who don’t things through, huh? How were the narc counts at work today? Off?
Were you the one to save the day or go out of your way to ‘help?’ Funny thing about your way of helping,
eh? Point is the same person- said,
you’re homeless…. Implying that my calling them out about either coming to
check up on me/hitching a ride on a friends private aircraft, or whatever… see
how she took away my right to even be a person with that statement. Which is an actual thought process and how
some members of my family feel about me, sadly some even that accept my faggot
ass. Ugh, ……and at library 2- I skipped
around to finish some thoughts…. So I went to St. Anthony’s- love it. In SF it’s on Golden Gate at the 400 block….
You cant miss it. They have lunch 7 days
a week starting at 11:30. They have
non-propaganda like they do in SF that has a list of 0places that serve people
meals and also their menu in case you have dietary preferences or whatever…
that’s for the handsome and wealthy if you know what I mean…. But whatever….
Anyways- I was telling someone about City Team and literally the man behind me
just didn’t like me as a person. He was
like ‘Go!’ and I said, ‘Go where?’ I mean he had already stepped on my heals
once- and so the fact that the wanted me to do the same was just a clue at how
clueless this nigga, sand nigga, wet back, (that’s all I got- please if you
know more hate terms don’t share them with me…. I don’t want more then that in
my mind/thought process I’ll know it when I see or hear it… I mean I didn’t
learn Sand Nigga until the re-ent6ry enter in San Jose. The Sand nigga just took it from honestly I
think an employee of the re-entry centers son… you know school was still in at
the time and whatever…. Cause the lady of course didn’t apologize to the sand
nigga but she gave the ‘kid’ the mom look like you wouldn’t believe… the kind
of look that honestly may have gotten him an ambulance ride or a ticket to 6
feet under…. Who am I kidding…. The bay area is literally disgusting when it
comes to that… it’s a nightmare… a man literally chopped up his neighbor and
was dissolving his remains in acid or something in his back yard- this is an
actual court case…. Additionally St. Anthony’s has these awesome phone
chargers… they are lock boxes with the connector’s inside/adaptors or hookups
or whatever…. Like the smaller hotel version of lockboxes that make too much
sense for life. (going back to the bottom to finish… I’ve got 32 minutes)
Also- I want to see if on the .org they have salaries
posted…. Double or nothing she makes over $500,000 per year… are people worth
that yes, I love extravagance and when I have my condo in SF with a view of the
bay bridge with it on my right and a Bentley SUV I will not feel bad but will
load that shit up with northface Cat’s Meow’s and pass it out to anyone that
wants it… or whatever else I need to do or want to do… who knows… that may be
my heaven…. At this rate and the way things are I’ll still be trying to get
the…. There will not be a policy and procedure for banning people from the
library… It will be a thing we used to do- until we thought about people with
trauma, veteran status, malfunctioning hearing aids, and all this related to
access…. Compare hospital beds in Northern cali to Southern Cali…. LA has
access honey. Here, people die, children
are murdered, and no one’s cares and people and parents get away with it
because of access and no one in public schools and all this shit…. A library is
a life line… but to ban someone cause they loud to be able to ‘do whatever just
cause’ is a reason to say- why was that person loud…. Here the bathrooms were
closed because of a clog…. Well, I said you realize this may cause someone to
pee on a wall, have you announced it overhead?
No. OK perfect… I’m making you
aware that you only have one set of bathrooms on one floor which have been
closed for over one hour and you haven’t annou8ncedit in any way and yet you’re
being a total jerk to people who are making this an issue or giving you
attitude and I don’t think it’s right, and the attitude you’re giving me shows
that you literally could give a fuck about anyone or anything… and should be
fired. Ok, I didn’t say all that but
that’s what we both took away from the conversation in my mind.
To my people that try to do anything- think about the time
constraints I’m talking about. And just
the whatever…. Literally go to your local library or whatever and see what’s
available… literally try to write me email or something like what I’m doing,
whether you think I’m a problem, or my future mister, or my biggest fan, or
someone who wants to see my do intravenous drugs just so you can take my
regrown virginity… whatever…
I think that people are worth so much more then
‘compromising’ myself… but not really- remember Bre walking in on her son with
the other dude and her son was hot… but um imagine the ‘for your own good’ that
can come out of that when I tell you that PICU nurses at level 1 trauma centers
in areas of access can attest to people being set on fire (remember that kid
that made the news a few years ago or whatever? People being locked in closets,
cut off in their own communities, dad’s literally punching their sons in their
privates so hard they can’t have children as adults…) So no, I didn’t keep that person behind me
from a meal even though I felt so threatened I was nervous but at the same time
they have awesome security who literally thank goodness to their always on
system were so on top of it… I knew it, he knew it, and I’m sorry that I didn’t
formally address it from a taking up for faggot’s point of view- but remember…
people and blog before me…. My LLC I have formed on Legal Zoom, but not paid
for yet is ironically JFR Enterprises, LLC.
I didn’t watch the new star trek or whatever until like after that…. It
speaks to me and what I’m or have been doing… Just what they did in the movie-
they didn’t or weren’t supposed to intervene just explore or discover or
something…. I’ve done that and will continue to do so… but this library thing
I’m trying to do is probably worth a lot more….. so chronic users will look for
like $10 worth of drugs or something… same thing with one beer at a time… ok
fine I’ll take $1000 worth…. Drug
dealing and business and legit-ness and corruption and illegitimates… it’s all
out of the box thinking that is just too much for some to think about or
consider which is… why I’m glad ding bat Kelly Ripa got a raise cause when she
said Oprah says pounds after going out on her show in a dress she couldn’t
breathe in…. I mean hey, either she had a burrito, a salad and her husband
turned her out, or she had an appendix issue…. But damn bitch- can we tackle Oprah
says don’t spank your child first? Ok, billionaires, my $5million price tag
wasn’t enough… I get it… but to say I need $15 million would mean that you
would look for a return on your investment or something… I’m not sure… but if
that’s the case then yeah- I’m not a good investment. But, I’m holding out for that person that
cares for people, for justice, for equality, for what I’ve talked about
happening and
Here is more email chains…
Becky Moskowitz
<Becky.Moskowitz@lawfoundation.org>
11:32 AM (3 hours ago)
to me
Dear Mr. Ray,
I am sorry you are disappointed. To answer your question, the reason that I
contacted that branch is because the County’s library suspension policy says
that the branch that starts the suspension is supposed to keep a copy of the
suspension paperwork. Therefore, that
branch is the one we need to get it from.
I realize that you do not have a phone now and that
transportation may be an issue. That’s
why Ms. Dimas said that it would be ok for you to email her at
Aleta.Dimas@sjlibrary.org and ask her to email you a copy of your suspension
paperwork. Given that you have been
emailing me, I thought that this would be possible for you to do.
I believe that Ms. Dimas is wrong about me being able to
request the paperwork for you through a Public Records Act Request. I believe that your suspension from the library
is not a public record. If you want me
to get a copy of the suspension paperwork through the Public Records Act
process, it will likely take weeks or months to get a response. I also think that the response will be that
the County cannot give me the paperwork.
I know that you want to get this problem fixed as quickly as
possible. Therefore, the easiest and
fastest way for us to get your suspension paperwork is if you send an email to
Ms. Dimas with the following text:
To: Aleta.Dimas@sjlibrary.org
RE: Request for library suspension paperwork
Text: Dear Ms. Dimas,
I am writing to request that you please email me a copy of my
library suspension paperwork. Please
also email me copies of any paperwork related to having a hearing about my library
suspension, and when and under what conditions I can return to the library.
Thank you,
Joshua Ray, DOB: 9/13/1986
Please cut and paste the email that I drafted above and send
it to Ms. Dimas. Please forward her
response to me. If she does not respond,
please let me know and I will follow up with her.
Also, your intake with our office says that your only
“income” is food stamps. Is this
true? Have you applied for General
Assistance or other cash benefits such as Unemployment Insurance or Disability
benefits? Do you need more information
about how to apply for benefits?
Sincerely,
Becky Moskowitz | Senior Attorney
Health Legal Services | Mental Health Advocacy Project
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2:38 PM (0 minutes ago)
to Becky
Some people in some places have literally
never left their city, county, or block- either because of comfort, means, or
etc... So I'm being an asshole and not meaning to... but I am
appreciative. It's just that this is
such a huge national issue....
So I did it- I still haven’t heard from Karla with the DA’s office
and the Victims relief fund or whatever…
Like- why does internet explorer keep asking me to bring up a
monopoly between them and chrome…. It auto asks if I want to upgrade and no the
fuck I don’t want to because I can’t… but what is your problem? J
Library 3 session 3 going on 4….
going to dinner at city team.... then... I was warned today by three pigs who completely disrespected my right to exist and also didn't give me anything to identify them.... but I was warned after they told me I didn't exist and they might take me downtown to finger print me...
I wish they would have offered to fuck me first... but yeah- I kinda need a shower.. :0 but yes they were hot...
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