Movies that I need for you to watch... Macfarland- Kevin costner is amazing and if this did well in theaters then yay! [Seriously, I’m not trippin- get people off the streets, in homes (shared living, the type of housing I am in is still considered not having a home as it is not my own and I basically have no autonomy in a lot of aspects of my life.)and they will want to go tot he movies, and instead of hustling, having to do what they have to do to survive they will do what they want, enjoy, and what is better for everyone. The economy will like boom and yes, when you go through housing and I haven’t actually made it nor do I think I will ever make it far enough... but, when you get into government housing they also support you in acquiring furniture, utilizes, etc. it’s not like they just sit someone in an empty apartment. Ew I can feel that ‘people with they nose up’ attitude of (and the only reason I say things like this and mention these comments is it’s because it’s what I’ve heard someone or people say out loud in public or whatever) ‘well, I had to buy my own couch in an apartment that I had to pay the deposit in along with... blah blah blah, cry me a river cause I’ve done that as well... and you know what... it’s not that everyone doesn’t want that for themselves... yes, I think I left all that out about the furniture and stuff. I wish it was as all inclusive as it sounds but I’m not sure. But I’m tired of ‘travel size’ in America being the people without homes or the ‘people who have a poverty level income and work forty hours a week size’. But it speaks to just how amazing sports, music, and all extra circulars are. Can I ask? Like where I grew up county wise anyways it was all equal- no schools had soccer/futball but all had football and baseball. There wasn’t for example any schools in my county w a soccer team and then another that didn’t have. . I wish- I mean soccer is pretty stellar. Yes, futball ⚽️vs football 🏈.
If you think about it... I speak broken English just without the accent.
If I’ve already written about this then here it is again... is there a quorum set for voting? And why are somethings even voted on. I was reading online about how something to do with school nurses wasn’t approved? And I’m so confused- like should that be voted on? Like- you have to have school nurses... you have asthmatics, diabetics, cardiac patients, even transplant kids in public schools, kids with g-tubes, etc- like how is a school nurse something to be voted on? It doesn’t really make sense.
I’m so inspired by Spider-Man’s courage to say that he fees Spider-Man’s character should be able to experiment. I get it... isn’t that what life is all about? Trying things and then maybe return them and things like that? Oh I’ve only ever driven SUV’s... let me try a sedan. Or I’ve only ever been exposed to... I dunno. I don’t know if the debate is that it has to be all or nothing? Like, some of the og gays may feel that way. But I don’t. Just saying. We all experiment right? Foods, people, places to live? Just trying or whatever....
I mean I’m glad there are billionaires. I really am- but I just don’t get it. There has to be more to things like- isn’t homeland security the new fbi? So can the old one be? Or? Cause investigated vs surveillance is the same thing to me and it pisses me off that lawmakers have created and supported that kind of bullshit. And- what about the... Like I get most people work business hours. But part of the you guys not being able to see the realness is that during those times of commuting for you those without homes are eating. Like, I used to think it was like a douchebag move- oh you’re homeless so let’s just have you eat when someone who has a job has to eat... maybe it’ll but that energy into your life. But, I think it’s so we are out of your radar. And it’s hot right now. So most people aren’t able to sleep until late and then sleep late. Nevermind that yes. Downtown we eat from 5- 6:15 so you don’t see everyone. So- when the ‘do gooders’ come through there really isn’t anything to see. Like- people are in their tents, or eating, etc. I’m not saying that you can’t... like, I don’t know who I am or if I come from anything? Sometimes people act like I do and treat me like I do.... and if so- I’m being cheated from a lot but the point I’m making is I don’t even get the real version. I did in San Jose a little bit. But I mainly just stuck to myself. I was always in busketso park, probably eating soup from a can... I was one of those that would come up on food and then fucking forget a spoon or fork. I love hot sauce and ranch dressing is something that I treat myself to/with sometimes. I m serious- when I was at the Russ Hotel downtown it’s like those sanitation people (please tell how rude that is...) were there all the time. On the sidewalks tearing and destroying people’s homes. Yes it’s a tent- but for some it’s the only thing they have to get away from the... I mean I know that people are... I don’t like smells that are unpleasant either. But those comments or some I read about certain libraries... yeah that’s what a tent helps someone get away from. And it’s the only thing that’s there day after day that gives us what we all have inside... a need for independence. I mean (it’s like- I mean, it’s my defense mechanism to apply sarcasm or something to buffer the realness of whats cooking (or what I’m about to say and feel bad about saying) - all their efforts, kinda like mine for any type of financial help (applying for jobs, ssi, or ssdi wtf is the difference?) or money to even get back to LA at the time, may be a dead end however, it’s the bread crumbs, the lack of even... I’m sure that person doesn’t even have a clue... like why can’t they get off the streets, are they lazy, are they on drugs? Well, it might be that they have no family, it could be like me and the couple of people I wanted to call were in my iCloud account/iPhone (which I haven’t had access to since July 2016- I didn’t have my own device to access it and I didn’t want to from the library ones. Like I don’t have anything to hide but I do value privacy and that of those I care for), or I don’t know, maybe comment alike that are someone’s way of addressing it and not showing their own heartache behind it. Or maybe they... ugh. I takes for ever for something someone develops or crafts in a way of a grant or asking someone for something. But like the raises that the ss people got this year happened quickly right? That’s how fast things can happen when... hell I don’t know. All of the lawmakers in the seats about to retire and saw how much money they’ve put in and then that math doesn’t add up so let me raise how much they get so I can get mine. I was using Facebook to contact everyone because my phone was stolen then the Obama phones I got kept getting stolen then... like what the hell. If I start walking north I’ll make it to Canada right? If I walk south I’ll make it to Mexico- and What kept me from walking here from San Jose was the... legal system kind of but also the ‘what the hell?..’ like how am I not able to.... why can’t .... omg are you serious....? Like it’s still like that for me. And there was something else... but... I get here then the cops try to execute me or something I guess in the park. I’m still... I can’t prove anything else. It’s already be done and the beginning of the weeks instance was probably the most needed example... or exhibit. I’m now if i can just finally have someone explain everything to me that would be great. And there’s like two people I trust... to even begin to tell me the truth. Yeah almonds are hand picked also... I don’t think to get political is a bad thing.... I think it’s like an instinct.
Can I just say this about what I’ve learned from addiction theory/knowledge... or what I don’t like about it. They tell you that your friends are bad, no one cares about you, those that do drugs/drink are bad and aren’t you’re friends and what you need to do is to not contact them, stay away from them and rebuild relationships with your family and.... like, seriously. That’s like my worst night mare... like odds are your family contributed to you needing or even being able to go to rehab/treatment. Like, reinforce your bonds and relationships with those that caused all or most or some of the trauma that got you there so that.... I don’t believe that relapse is a part of recovery and I don’t believe it’s not... but- that’s a little back ass backwards for me...
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