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When I was younger I liked wrestling... like WWF before WWE just because it was like my last attempt to try to like... try to have my family accept me... after that I was kind of done.  

It’s weird I’m 32 about to be 33- no idea why people say going on.... but moving on, I was before iphones,  email, computers, just look at what cars looked like in the 90’s!  Julia Roberts as Erin Brovovitch drove that suv and what in the world? No they don’t make them anymore but think of like... a big box barreling down the road. Literally, cars were metal and think of only one stock exchange... I mean people with the $2 bills have proof I guess. I don’t know why Great Britain is wanting to pull out of the EU- European Union. Someone has told me a few times I’m more queer then a $3 bill and I dunno what that means but if you split the stock exchange again or create a new one... like what I understand is that literally if you had two stocks, guess what now you have 4. As in if you had 2 shares of a company, now you have 4.  Is that odd?  Haha and this was even before my time!  Like none of this is really on the internet. Or if it is what someone did was they went to a library... probably like the library of Congress of something, pulled up those film/screen printing things and read... what I hope they did was cite they source.  Cause I’m just saying... I don’t know that I would trust someone else to talk about it.  Or maybe I would. I dunno.  And I could be wrong but if something like that were to happen and... not saying it shouldn’t but I’ll be pissed as someone with no stock cause if I have no shares in any companies... does that mean I end up with 1? Or do I still only have 0?  Cause like that gap you’ve got to watch for swelling... that makes my head swell a little. Or maybe my temper a little.  Cause there goes the gap!  And someone told me today that Obama phones should be available in Alabama. Yay! I do hope that those who need them know about them and seek them out. Please don’t take my asshole remarks about them as a ‘I ought not get one’ cause that’s not true... they even call Puerto Rico and Mexico.  Which is phenomenal as those places are basically, or I thought they were, apart of us.... you know... like Alaska.  Which is basically the size of the entire United States...I mean that’s crazy right?  Kinda sort of- or at least that’s what I learned and hope to be true.  It’s annoying to think that I would question such a thing... but lemme just say- I did learn a lot in my philosophy 101 class... as painful as it was.  I mean it was truly painful... it kind of taught me a new way of thinking.  Like, why wouldn’t there be something on the other side of the door?  Well, but how do you know there is? Haha.  I’m sure some high schools teach it but mine didn’t   There is a class system that’s kind of annoying.  No idea what the curriculum of a private school is or how it varies but there has to be a reason some people put their kids in them...I don’t know why they have the  bus then the other more expensive faster bus... ugh and I hate that people can see inside the bus, the lights being on I don’t care about though it is a pain with regards to getting off the bus and then there not being a lot of street lights or even if there are it takes my eyes a minute to adjust, but yeah at night people can see all up in my ride yet I can’t even look out to see landmarks to acclimate myself to where I am... or even if I am where it says I am. I know I know a little far fetched... but I dunno.  I hate that I keep wow factors in my bag so that people leave my stuff alone.  I hate that I have a very difficult time trusting women in a lot of ways.  I hate that I have put those that genuinely care though whatever I’ve put them through. Like, one day soon I have to apologize with those that I made plans with and rsvp’d to and set up possible graduate school classes with... I didn’t intend to not show up or let them down or hell possibly even put their job in jeopardy.... it was like I was hoping if I made those plans or had something like that in my life it would bring me back to LA or somehow make it so that the gr office in San Jose would approve my application so I could get there by myself or be able to get a pair of glasses or do anything... but it never happened. Oh well, cheers to honestly things being and getting better.  Slowly but surely... and I am so happy that ‘the art of racing in the rain’ is going to be made a movie... it really is such a good heart warming feel good book. ;) 

That’s what makes me mad about not being able to find an attorney that will help- like, I’m sure they know that people have strokes From the food in jail or gain over one hundred pounds in three months or heart attacks. Like the cholesterol levels alone might make a public health professionals cholesterol go out of whack.  It’s like being in primary school and having to eat the school lunch- but it’s got nothing but soy.... which no I am not a fan of. For me- it does nothing but make me sleepy and is literally the exact opposite of the diet that... ugh, that means I totally need to tell my doctor to put in my medical record that I’m allergic to gluten.  So FYI that’s the only way to get a gluten free diet if in jail... naturally they fucking tell you this when you’re in there instead of when you can actually do something about it. Like- oh let me just call my physicians office, cause I know their number but heart/from memory and they’ll accept a collect call, right/correct? These are the expectations set.  Not to mention that they will cut your shit up... like the draw strings in your gym shorts.... and you know in trauma bays at hospitals we’ve done that as well and even though we had to cut your jeans or shirt to save your life and maintain c-spine precautions we then have reimbursed people for that.  Like for real... and that store list is double what it is in San Jose and doesn’t come from a third party like Aramark. So annoying.  I’m trying to make things better. Tomorrow I’m calling a ton of law offices.  And also- I’m sorry but before I go to court about my bench warrant I must go to the dentist.  I do hope they understand. If I could trust I would walk out of there then I wouldn’t prolong it for that but you know... 

Oh it’s now not illegal to sleep in your car but yet it was I guess though that law expired?  Laws expire? I am so confused.  Am I the only one that makes no sense to? If so shit can they all expire and just start over? Cause I’m not sure where ever that law about tying a giraffe to a light pole is illegal is still applicable/relevant.... however, I might be wrong.  But think of all the absurd laws that may exist like that. I mean you want to tackle something... here’s one... and I am glad that they got rid of the bail system or whatever... but I don’t know that it’s stopped people who live in government housing or hotels or those that get hotel rooms... it’s annoying pot que if you have a warrant and are in one of those places or dwellings or accommodations or entities or how many different words are there and is there where an ‘et al’ is used... or is that more for people like where you are listed under the same name, all have the same ID, but work in shifts like what some ‘officials or authority holding people’ do? Once I get face to face with an attorney I’ll be sure to ask and let you know. If you ask why someone would do that or why.... I am not tying to ask why or figure out why I just know I have the ocular proof and it’s so annoying.  Like, right now they be like well those dishes in the sink aren’t mine I’m not doing them... and I just be looking at them crazy like you’re a grown ass asshole- who the eff do you think you’re fooling.... it was your counter part/ you et al.   Ugh.  Anyways so if there are like one or two of you... or even if through the ‘making connections’ system of face book and all they will be like if so this person has a room here and is in a relationship or perceived relationship with this person who has a warrant... so come on partner let’s go come up real quick. This mam officer I overheard say she was getting like $1100 or $1800 for my rear that night. I mean and that’s additional on top of her salary/paycheck?  Like, for real though? But yeah, that includes government housing places like section 8 apartment buildings... they may not be supposed to do this... but I’ve been in court tanks and IRC holding and cellys with and in dorms with people who have said they are worried about their housing/home/apartment because if they are gone more then three days or something like that they get evicted. Not to mention I was in the dorm w a man who was arrested, and you won’t believe what happened... they impounded his cats and then he later found out that the pound had killed them... or what’s that called... put down. Both of them... he was crying because he was like all they needed was each other... like that they missed each other.  I was like- omg. I must admit that I didn’t really show that much emotion as it pertains to how I felt on the inside.  I seemed a little not surprising though I am/was...thinking of my laptop which kind of makes me seem like a douche bag.  It shows the complete disregard for a living creature. I’m not sure how deep the we only hold property for six months goes.  I mean I don’t know if they hold so many pets that they have their own like vet practices or facilities or whatever but it wouldn’t surprise. 

Omg so I’m going to have to see if the apple EarPods fall out of my ears like the wired ones do. It’s a legitimate concern for me.  True story- I’m not trying to loose one - I wonder if they have a magnetic thing that can like bring it back to its little case- what a nightmare... haha, I don’t intend to be dorky it just happens.  Imagine my awkward self- that’s all I need is to have to chase down one of those things at a metro station or if it lands under a bus like oh shit.  I don’t wanna say that if just let it remain on the ground and not chase after it but I can’t make any promises.  What an awful way to possibly waste $120.  Totally worth it- and actually I don’t think I’ve ever seen one fall out of someone’s ears or ear but... something to think about ya know?