Cheers to Hump Day!

So, I was talking to a family member about my pursuits currently- next time I’ll pet my rock or something.  What’s embarrassing is how you manipulated me in college when I came home early from the beach  to take a Stats final… the aftermath will be part of my tell all book.  Both of you should be ashamed- just because I never confronted you about it doesn’t mean I’m weak.  It kinda means I’m ‘who I’ve always been’- I’m kind enough to prevent you from lying but an asshole for making that assumption.  Hey, I believe what Terrence said on Harry. 

I have many Greats in my life- the various employers, supervisors, professors, parentals, etc.  Odds are you know who you are cause I’ve told you-  510.753.4546.  If any of you are ashamed of me or embarrassed by me (or would be) let me know. 

Back to me being an asshole- I had no idea Kim K W was tied up and bound when all that took PLACE! Ew and what kind of DNA was found on her, and I pray she recovers.  I made comments about how it wasn’t her jewelry anyways probably and it was more about her credibility for future ‘borrowing.’  I dunno if I’m telling a secret or not- but Oprah is naturally the only one on any type of surface in Hollywood that owns the diamonds she wears.  I mean, you can only own so much of whatever diversifies your portfolio- and gold is malleable! Once so broke she had a rock for a pet, now… HA!  But seriously, I can’t believe I was making jokes and I hope that she has someone in her life to ask the difficult question ‘Are you thinking of hurting yourself?’ and then asking again and again as it feels necessary. 

I am blessed to have such a person in my life- she had the courage to call me and tell me that she felt the need to ask but didn’t and was sorry… then, asked in all seriousness ‘Are you suicidal?’  This was when my ‘guard’ was still at 95% or so.  Time has created distance between me and a lot of my ‘everything.’  I had the same phone number for literally 10 years- maybe 12.  2052539688 is hopefully still able to be reactivated.  I was mugged by two “race doesn’t matter and it pisses me off that anyone who has made the assumption has been correct” guys in Hancock Park in LA when I moved back last year.  This was after breaking my iphone on move day and having to get a replacement through insurance.  I was walking- with most of my things- literally a ‘checked’ size suitcase, two messenger bags, etc.  I was looking at my phone when I noticed a guy crossing the street ahead of me- me being me I tracked him/focused on him concerned for his well-being as he was literally walking out in the middle of the road.  It was late so there wasn’t anyone else around- until I heard a noise to my right/the opposite side to where he was walking… turning to face the noise meant meeting a fist to my face/right eye straight on.  Like a ‘cowered’ one might say, I was literally trying to hand them my things- then they started kicking me and I feared that them each having one of my messenger bags and pulling them with the straps still around my neck in opposite directions may behead me… I grabbed one of the bag straps with my left hand, pulled as hard as I could and hit the oncoming person as hard as I could with my right hand.  It happened so fast I couldn’t close my hand into a fist- sadly I think this led to an eye injury for him.  And I do mean sadly- I’m not a cowered- I just know that nothing in that situation came before our safety.  I don’t know what their situation was nor do they mine.  I am not one to fight back and get stabbed or shot potentially- not only would that injure me but the one robbing me is someone’s son, father, husband, baby daddy, pimp-  whatever it is my intention was to not only walk away unharmed but for them to do the same.  If he did receive an eye injury then I owe him an apology- as much as they got (even more then the car thieves did) it was not worth a faggot slapping him or clawing his eye out.  Those would be his probable words, not mine.  I won’t use nasty adjectives that became such by evil and hate.  OK OK the ‘N’ word.  I’m gay, faggot is one of those used to describe me sometimes therefore I used it.  They were African American, or American and black or whatever  Raven S would rather be identified as these days- and male.  My biggest regret is that since they ‘got everything’- my ipad, passport, checks, luggage, id badges from previous contracts, my health records, hard copies and originals of basically everything- shoes, nanos, my yellow CF Hollywood shirt, and yes- my iphone was unlocked: att gave me a hard time about filing a new insurance claim since I had just done so and since then its been one thing after another.  And since then I haven’t had an iphone- and its been the biggest deal!  To have a device that fits me, in the way an iphone does, making me a better person in I dare say every aspect… photos, calendar, email, productivity, think about it- everyway!   Additionally, they got my white macbook- the one my boyfriend and I went to the apple store together and purchased- it was back to school, I was about to start nursing school… and had wanted one for years.  I worked and worked and saved… this was a huge achievement for me personally.   I worked part time in addition to school full time as a norm- to come up with $999 extra took months.  That year our colleges had spring break the same week, it had never happened in the past two years of our relationship- and in prep for nursing school in the fall and being the dedicated pre-nursing student apple user that I was meant we didn’t get to spend it together at the beach or lake fucking and drinking like we both wanted.  He even picked up the difference for the tax I had to pay on the free ipod touch I got with my purchase… pardon me while I go pee and wipe my eyes.

Now to return a phone call- omg