Back in the day I had no idea why this travel nursing gig didn’t consider the bus reliable means of transportation. I was like how the fuck is the bus not reliable means of transportation? Yeah I totally get it now! I think it’s cause cars have their own lanes and don’t think buses should exist. So it makes it hard. Plus like with me.... people do all sorts of out of the ordinary stuff it feels like and that yes, can affect the whole city.
I am so thankful to Mayor Garcetti for his interview today about homelessness. It is not a California problem- it is a national problem that revolves around hate and trauma. It takes a lot to stand up for a population who have been considered by ignorant people to be criminals, addicts, lazy.... and probably about every other negative term in the universal language that applies judgement. Thank you. People come here sometimes simply because their home state supports such hate and judgement. Its weird to think of a Mayor as a lifesaver- but taking a stand like he is as well as he said Chicago and New York’s mayor are is a tear jerker for me. Thanking my High Power for Democrats!
Some people don’t have drivers licenses... so the scooter thing is very dangerous. Like, I mean that’s my take on it. I hate that people are getting hurt simply because they literally don’t know right of way. If they did I’m sure it wouldn’t be such an issue with them. I mean if you’re scared to ride them on the street then I get it... but it’s hard to walk on the side walk sometimes and I’m not gonna lie... I’m not trying to be rude.... but at least If I’m late the scooter is a great option. But I don’t think the right of way thing is something that’s thought of that often... and I mean if you’re 50 and want a drivers license do I have to have a permit for a year. I would think duh... but I dunno. Yes, I could very well look that up online.... but I don’t trust what I read on my phone online... not that the internet isn’t a great place.... I hope this was literally to show what a fucking nightmare things could be like if the internet isn’t seen as a... like we have water, electricity, power, and internet is now one of those..,, internet, and data on your phone to me are the same thing... but I don’t think they are considered the same at all. And further more... policing the internet isn’t the feds on Facebook.... it’s making sure that when a security person at target sees someone enter there password in whatever way, I’m thinking through video monitoring or surveillance (and if there is a difference i can’t believe it’s be argued over the point that if your password is seen on a security cam then artificial intelligence/actual intelligence, I think can make that person aware that their password has been compromised. Like I’ve made AI seem bad. But it’s not, it’s people. I bet all the stuff that’s been done to me has been by people vs actual intelligence/AI. It’s not the AI (this is why states now are capitals on the address label for an envelope... cause the capital I looks like a lower case l and can be confused. This is exhausting. I hope the... it’s not the sanitation department, it’s Cal Trans right that cleans all that up? Or is that for the interstates and freeways? I’d look it up but I rather maybe people compare answers. Like look up online where you are or how you normally would and see if the they’re different? Seeeeee AI will keep shit like it is and either validate what I’m saying or will... either way if someone tried to pamper with the situation it’ll know or keep a paper trail. as I’m writing this someone could be writing code to change if things are filtered or not. I dunno. But I looked up so many times things sometimes only to later find out I was wrong... I just think about things and if someone says something about someone else I did look that up and it did say verify what someone said... about someone else’s gender identity and literally that’s how bad some people wanted to make me look... like a total asshole and I am so sorry... i take that very seriously cause I am all about someone being who they are but I am not ok with whom ever or who ever decided to pick a certain celebrity and then use them as ammunition in this character assassination of me (and that celebrity... two birds with one stone?... ugh is hope not) I’m sorry to ruin things.... I have no idea who or what I’m From or linked to... someone I know can attest that I ruined Facebook. All because someone used me as a means to make it so they could see my shit without me knowing but who didn’t have a college ID for their own profile. Yes, I’m glad it is the way it is... but at the same time... it totally went from legit knowing who you were talking to and if they wanted to hang out or be friends or whatever... a way of building friends and a life in college away from everything you know to having to delete 2 billion profiles so far. That’s crazy... fake accounts. I mean- it’s a mess. Like even now... the distraction of someone messaging me while I’m trying to validate myself... and again pretending as though they are my other half or my best friend. Like someone posted a pic of him handcuffed to a lounge chair at the bottom of a pool. Like, the threats or the realness of the messages I’m getting are enough to where I don’t play. I had a nightmare of a day dream that was literally a group of people or person torturing my friend/person, he had whip marks and was bloody all over, with someone holding his dick down their throat which they had cut off... a selfie of sorts. Can you imagine how I feel when I know stuff like that happens in the world... and was it a threat? Or a warning or a... I dunno. But it was like enough to make me decide that this is it... it stops with me.... I swear I hope I’m the last person to go through this type of mean hateful stuff... because as real as i hope( and yes, pray to my higher power and the universe and my positive influential people that aren’t on this earth anymore) all of this isn’t... I am not playing with the fact that Emily Smart was held 6 mIles from her house!!! And walked around and.... was technically kidnapped! Like- true story or that’s what I have read and checked out again a few times only to realize that the numbers may be off but the story was and is real. I’m sorry for putting that person on blast but it’s a recent example I can think of. This is not a reason to shelter or be afraid but it is to me a reason or an example that has a reason to take someone seriously when they are talking, I get that people lie... but in San Jose I literally told every person of like... say a healthcare professional, or a caseworker, or the person at a non profit, or like the people at the re-entry center there after I got out of jail the second time (the first time I didn’t know it existed)... none of them believed me or even offered help to get me out of a situation that was unsafe or that I felt was unsafe/threatening/I dunno. I was a mess. And don’t play like I’m not fully aware I could have been somewhere else other then San Jose.... cause yes I took philosophy and thank God I hated it enough to pay attention. Just because there is a door doesn’t mean that it’s a door or that there is something on the other side of it. Weird? No... it’s abstract and make me someone who just because the sign or phone says 7:54pm or right turn only... doesn’t mean that if I am driving I’m. It going to make sure that I can actually do so... people steal and move street signs thinking it’s funny when really it’s illegal and has killed people. Like- that’s not really the same thing... but kind of.
I hope that I didn’t make it so porn left SoCal... it happened right when I moved here. Also- if there aren’t like 75% of registered voters that voted for that... it’s funny that governments would allow something like that when they actually require such for spending federal money. Which I’m glad they do... like for some meeting a certain number or percentage must be present for the meeting to take place... does that happen with voting? I’m not sure... but if some people very high up didn’t know that what I said about Democrats and Republicans was true... then that’s how amazing public schools can be... just saying. And people being genuine and legit educators. They weren’t teachers to me. They were and are educators. They educated me to be able to pass the high school graduation exam as well as live life... and that we should wear deodorant and who else but teacher... educator gonna know your kiddo smells... you’re at work and then they go home and play... and yeah, it was like at someone in health or whatever that they said alright you guys ask your... this was back in the day I think this one teacher gave out deodorant to her students. Parents don’t realize or maybe they do or... maybe they haven’t or don’t notice... but yeah. If a Democrat is in office look at what good is done and how much like for instance the people who didn’t have insurance still went to the ER’s and were seen... a Democrat made it so that they could have an option besides the ER and also that the hospital wouldn’t eat that cost or whatever. Like, duh. Education was supported. Republicans clearly don’t support that... not to say the First Lady wasn’t part of the teachers strike... but like where is the support and dollars for people and colleges and also.... I have t heard a word from that with republicans as long as I’ve been alive. Yes, President Bush made it so hospitals couldn’t turn away patients at the door... because yes people. At one time you could go to a hospital bleeding and be turned away if you didn’t have insurance. But also while he was in office all the medical research dollars stopped as well as limited what research they were doing out of pocket. Like, that’s why something’s were made an issue specifically.. because it was like...who really. Yep. I’m hating on this administration not really... but to say some men (so far) have lived worked and breathed or breezed their whole life’s in politics and still don’t know what they’ve gotten themselves into probably won’t be admitted but maybe.... look at the stimulus package we got from the democrats... President Obama, thank you- but if you were claimed as a defendant as I was At the time you didn’t get it... but at least a lot of people did. I have never heard a republican mention a tax stimulus check... however I heard they are forgiving billions in IRS owed money... is that to like you and me... or to... like businesses, etc.? Cause some of this rich white people don’t have a business and don’t have anything to be forgiven and let me tell you how happy they’ll be about that.... ok, I’ve now posted three in one day. Geez. All of which are things I’m happy with hoping they weren’t changed or somehow altered. If it’s not happening now, that’s how crafty a written program or whatever can be... it’s like on the matrix... the orgasm caused by the desert... very specific and purposeful for that lady specifically and not anyone else. If you’re watching or looking it might not be making my difficulties even getting the shit on to a document but I’m not ‘grounded’ currently am I? Like... I’m not smart, but I do have a way of... pissing people off. And me putting two and two together to be five in that way as in this and that and the whatever detail no body but like two people in the world are aware of... would equal 5. Then yes, I do do that.... they figured out how to read brain waves when I would look at the people who raised me as a child and be thinking something smart but not saying something smart cause eventually I’d still get popped for the thought. But hey, that was stopped pretty quickly and don’t think she won’t handle your ass from heaven... that’s all I’m saying. I’m on a path that has reached an unsafe... like for real unsafe time (or at least I feel that way... and if I feel that way... so do the people that love me in heaven...) and I hope you get what I mean by.... all of that in the most respectful manner possible. She had a silencer to eh? Yeah... I dunno. The method may have been extreme or whatever... but the message was valid and true and correct and right. Am I right?
I’m sorry gentrification sucks and could affect the whole worlds economy or contribute to homelessness. It’s not something I was aware existed but now that I know... omg, it’s been happening since forever. It wasn’t until people try to cause it that it’s a huge issue. I’m not getting a kick back or money for it...if anything it’s been a challenge only because I see that people may not wanna move... may like everything but the difference in one area to another... such as are sports offered at each school the same? Or are they different? Extracurriculars. Parks. Sidewalks. Shrubbery. Trees. Oh please it’s all desert and I’m so glade city... West Hollywood has those smart bus stops... I dunno if metro decides or the city or whatever the stop is in... but I think upgrades are available... either way... I thought everything was equal and everyone went to college and those that ended up in jail did so because.... I don’t think it existed to be honest... like I thought it was a thing I was told to scare me. Like if you do this you’ll.... like a way of making us do right... but that it never go to the extreme of actually jails and prisons. Boy was I wrong. I went to detention once and was like ohhh no. Then got suspended for drinking on a school trip which had been swapped out for something besides alcohol but nevertheless that was enough for me. After that I just was like... ugh this sucks. And straightened up- but all that I did in a way of having fun... not because I had to. That’s my struggle. Some people live a certain way only because they have to... or it’s what the norm is... some people tell themselves it isn’t ever going to be an option for them... or that those things like graduating high school and then going to college... much like I thought prisons and jails were fake I think some people think that about college, and other things...or they just don’t have a leader that makes them believe differently. An educator will believe in them but the dollars and cents doesn’t even come their way sometimes so... I’m glad something as made up and fake as money makes such a difference in the world. Like, the only reason it has worth is because we say it does. Money is... just make it rain sir... like making it rain is like where you’re at a strip club or a birthday party or someone’s.... and you hold money up (bills, not coins though at one point may have been what it meant if the saying is that old....) and like drop it like confetti. That’s making it rain.... that’s what should happen... not deporting people who may have HIV only to send it to another country with little prevalence or treatment options. I’m not going there... but I think you get my concern. Like, those people that had to pack up today with the clean up... we’re their medical staff or anyone there to assess if anyone needed medical care? I hope so... if not then I’m sure it’s a lack of federal funding. As I know it probably is... ugh. So weird... like yes we in debt maybe as a nation... but what is our credit score? Oh that’s coming next...
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