a mess- in respect

Okokok, so coffee and bedtime and a stellar mood…

I hate having a bedtime, it puts a lot of pressure on someone… and then I promised myself I wouldn’t plug my laptop in because the other night the cord tripped someone I think and I know better… I hope no one got hurt but even things like that people keep me in the dark about…

• I hope that the time his ‘man’ like his ‘help’ that dropped him outside that hotel…… I hope that what really happened is known… in the moment things are or can be not the right time to make decisions but I remember reading about it somewhere… it was a very deal because that’s the first time a lot of America and the world had even seen a wheel chair-you think he’d tolerate all that loud ass beeping?!
• Some shit to be honest really gets on my nerves… like if I were in a wheel chair how would I want them to talk about my walking the stage at graduation… is there a room for improvement there meaning that it is verbiage to fit the generation walking, not the ones filling the seats for without that stellar kiddo (sorry-but like, you’ve got 80-90 years if everything goes with the current)—like besides the about time we dress this or even update the Americans with disability’s act…. As those are for FDR essentially-a piece of his soul and insecurities and vulnerabilities and like shit need an upgrade or revamping within what that population wants, what I think I want for them or where I see a barrier to going out and into the world within the transit systems… as he was indeed affected by polio and I don’t know that they have been undated… to be hones they were the only reason electricity wow even installed on buses to begin with…
• I hope that to be true-if so then thats what tech is really premised on-not sorting data…. Omigosh… but helping someone like me make a resume, or find a friend but first just a one bedroom apt, or truly, truly, truly, just be able to experiment a bit with the internet and social media before college… like tech let me be awkward before I had the courage to be awkward in person or just be goofy…
• Anyways… 
• I don’t have the attitude of many-but I don’t have their courage either or the modern day ‘know’ to know if someone is doing anything there then just carrying on a conversation with me ya know… like are phonetics on?  
• Or what’s up?  I just hope there is something…. Something that makes it so that we can all forget that law or the courts even exist until we get married or have an issue or injustice…. Oh maybe everyone can go to a court room once-that is the one true field trip I didn’t get to have the opportunity to visit as a kiddo I don’t think…. Duh the capitol building and congresses soon or whatever-what is that place or room called?  The floor?  Or?  The gallery?  The capitol?  The session?  Im not sure…. But none the less-I have indeed been there and I truly have to say that no contest wouldn’t stand to be heard their no offense…… as their is truly some freedoms and equality that’s fought there…. It's just I think like the Mississippi emblem being removed form the flag…. By vote no less-the people and people want betterments and equality and for us all to be able to complain, 
• I knew it-I Kne white sabotage was real… I can’t believe he would put that out there, that a world leader might read my blog, or that House speaker Pelosi and the us supreme court justices would nee me to aid in people seeing that the only hands I put or that are put on me are my own… regardless of actuality-by not doing better and speaking to outreach, by not doing better and being my severe and precise with mom words and not saying something that I mean but also that I don’t realize the impact on another like with some documents from a very long time ago, or that a part of my soul goes into every click… so that being said-nothing was averted but the level to which someone says hey, could we chat about something no matter if it is a prime minister or a celebrity with our country has been like Kobe :) or labron hitting a basket out the scoring a point-were they both offense and so no way they would have done that?  Like slapping that shit out and turning over-for an over-turn or whatever and then a do I say score or basket… oh, dunk!  Then ha!  Im not that hole in one only but to remove and to never go back and then to contest with maybe a bitch slap for ever asking again or just thats not what happens anymore as there is an international situation we were to busy punching someone essentially to ask if we were missing out on anything… something that came to be under republican rule and then the democrats were left out or that we were ready for-you don’t punish someone with writing sentences that cant read or write…… you just don't…. So once we got somewhere then we are or where or will remain until we show a disrespect that isn’t optional…. To disrespect law is simply something that isn’t doable…. Love, admire, whether or loving admiration withstanding…or withholding or without oh Vitruvian Man symbol is the w eh?  How many times can I say it then, love advocacy willings without with all with utmost weather within
• I dunno-but I do know that omg guess what loving admiring advocacy with another or within us
• Law allows for us to get over, through, and be friends again technically…. It does to… its supposed to do the work… uncle sam shamble sam…. The law what’s you to permission its purpose or premise…  one of us will get another together or the law can help both see the issue as equals and then within each other… a lot of times you do end up just both admitting you were wrong but that a if and only if you don’t blow up the caravan or convoy…. It would be the only double story on the list… you know that one that is like the okokok so I may have had this irrational convenience factor of organized chaos in the media articles and then in actual circumstances that have been going on…. Bullshit, but if it does there are some repeats that mean he trying to get one over on someone… stop it.  Surrender to your shit homie.  It’s ok, I'm sure someone will put money on your books while you there for some coffee, soups (they from a. Foreign country though, hot sauce (again an import…), et al.  I'm indigent, oh pat your self on the back then, not sure if showers will be single or double but regardless not a place for a joke or talking… those sheriffs don’t break that shit up and especially when it’s wet and damp and steamy-so you’ll be on your own… literally, care and concern here for your making your court date… do not waste international justice finding time as well as you still have an office here that you were impeached in and then the oath removed form but the chair might get cold or lonely and there may be some shit that you didn’t doggie bag here… so 3,2,1 go.  I
• Meaning-the only one that is there and then actually happened-either way, go answer….I would love to, its like Babylonia right, imagine the feeling of Arthurian legend but like before that, you know the folks that gave omg the ideas or legit shit to then work off of and better the world in which we still live our lives in, like the round table, and the sword, his sword does exist…. Can you imagine… I know, back to Babylonia… like, omg have you ever seen the recreations… like the hanging gardens… imagine there might have been floating oasis’ but then we started digging and Uranus in retrograde I hope not anymore and then mercury is like a bowling ball that hasn’t stabled out yet… thats not kind… (hey, is the amg frame like the two bones our skull and spinal column attach with… aw, see thats why there’s a hug for me and stability for you…)don't legend, modern day governance, equality, yes, mass incarcerations but they don't, we do…. Everyone having a space and a solid space in-between…. Imagine, sitting there being like, ok fo this meeting I have to sit between you two you almost speared him last time and thats not cute… or omg the dude on board of the rings with the ax…. Going after one of the liaisons fo the ambassador’s over the liaison communicating 
• God I hope that congress and the president are briefed independently… like, the intelligence committee in Congress made up of a grip of US House of Representatives… like, I’m trying to get all nuck and buck with my Mac this morning, it ain't gonna happen, but may I ask why is it our job to be tough on Russia-oh, hey, Joshua Ray here, responsible consumer here… this is my place, though a bit indigent yet fabulous… there is no unemployable box to check so from now on ill just have to leave it blank and refuse to select one 
• this man just made me spit coffee this former oversight committee person needs to look into his daily regimen and I'm being respectful cause to like get on the news and tell someone as if they are watching to ‘shut up’ is so last world as we know it homie-can that be his last time in the hearts and ears of people and how rude like there are future young leaders of the world and if you were trying to get folks on your side or corner oh wait a sec… I am smarted then this… like you trying to get your shit cancelled early or something eh?  Like oh I'm at the down hill swing of my contractual obligations so let me cut up right now and real quick in the National News Spotlight not to mention that I hope they blocked yo ass internationally cause that’s just trashing… I mean you got regina george, the person’s kiddo that invented a or the toaster strudel, and the weather girl who’s boss parts tell her if it’s going to rain or not…. like, trying to get my face stuck like this and shit… you ever heard that when typically making a funny face at another person like you have a douche bag and are wearing it on your face while trying to actually utilize one, read the directions, and then forgo tot lift the toilet seat top all at once…. It’s typically reserved for that… however this fool has mean mugging my computer like it has really done something to speak truth about it’s character and its like all bad…… ewwwkkkwwwwkckckck.  Like half my face going on way the other going the other way for double all bad… sir, do not try to get my face stuck like this over your fucky ass comments and disrespect… like, enjoy your coffee and freedoms while the HBIC’s go and fight for your right to do so today for your tomorrow and let's be honest democrats and those who are doing the most aren’t just looking for it to be there tomorrow but (insert sandlot reference…) forever…(we may not be ready or prepared or aware… but within this its a bit of a duh, oh wait, I just got pantsed by actuality (you know what I’m saying-I'm not trying to wordi-myself-up-here …. ewww, and I thought you were on my side… grrr…. See I can be irrational or whatever, it just takes a bit and then its like long enough for me to say trust, this is like a hair in the drain of the world if it all went to one… I can be much more fun… but its hard when I know that not every dies with life insurance, or dignity and respect in my words I am taking nothing from people but stating oh wait what’s that… a ceiling you say, ok cool come over by me outside and look up… all you see are the astronauts or cosmonauts wedgies…)… it’s ok, don’t worry, I'm the one getting all worked up… I'm sure Ms. Herrera, Ms. Von Furstenburg, and duh, Mr. Jacob’s have them wearing the most up to date couture/guard against your criticisms as to not then have a insecurity or bad thought try to come from the left or right… like, another day another loud ain't got a solution or recommendations or educated associations to then even try to link some of this up for the butts in the seats but looks like your working during a pandemic… they worry for your safety as someone scrolls through that og file o fax or rolodex to… see, look-thats the second day they try to make me open my contacts lists like that, geez, ha!  Yeah right, jus tot call the one you hired to come and you know… it’s ok, its happened more then just with your guy… that DA is still after me ya’ll… ah, what a stellar place this world is… just wait until I be in my usual h&m v-neck, maybe some rbx joggers, and some flip flops… though if this damn trillion dollar 13 or 14 places between my deposit and the total could hurry up I could get some sunscreen or skin protectant… but the ways in which a republican or domestic terrorist organization as is their party all inclusively like, it has to be… all this deliberateness and intentness/intentedness (I don’t like the one with two d's-thats within pages sir, sit down with that heartbroken let down face… trust… )  and thank you over there let me speak for real about negligence… betta get it together-they trying to figure out what they going to do now that all their strategic court case placements throughout the 2500 counties in our country of choice or rights are being removed…. They sweating like a bunch of whores in church, and thats ok, its good for your passive systems to get moving as a clog and all isn’t good.  Take care of your lymphatic system and stop being a bitch.
• Omg the US supreme court is doing it again-it's like Christmas… religious schools are able now to receive state and federal(I’m sure they already do… or are able if not listed…) funding that is then taxed or whatever!  Cheers!  Honestly, it’s going to be another good day-oh, oh, oh, what’s that?  Four in a row!  
• So me and my social security number need some support- meaning that like here and now-me and this place be like deuces… cause you’re not going to be cute behind my back with the eye rolling over my stellar mopping skills after spilling sticky ass orange juice all over myself… my breakfast was changed the mess cleaned, and then my efforts met with persistence… so it all went to shit or la basura and two cigarettes yesterday and then two so far… but that’s ok.  I have a plan-but I ain’t trying to have my social support, or at least not in full this place or the last… meaning I need a follow up ‘how was your stay’ call or letter- the feds have that on they shit-they may pay a grip of money for those pre-trial stays but they not about the bullshit… so see, that one little side bared, side bar, of a then another side bar within that one subdivision of a division of their… yeah, see there is always good somewhere… don’t give up on my.  I’ve already let this turn into another san Jose of trying to get back to LA but then also falling into that mouse wheel- and ideally the mother fucking mouse has more autonomy then me because ideally he gets to decided to get on or not… I mean they’ve just sat me on a dick and expecting me to ride it… today is not the day, and I am not the one.  like, I cannot have somewhere new footing the bill for the end of the month all because I stayed here for one day into the new month and then sometimes I have to say the gov makes sense, they be like naw homie, I paid that bill… like what else is there… and I'm like a grip of just shit to be a testament again of their lack of quality controls and core measures and standards that have gotten us to here and now and me in this… 
• I have another thank you card to write to the white out of Texas if I rsememrb correctly as to speak to reality stations in a way…for this amazing piece of hardware-could they hurry up though as I may be re-evaluating my investment now that the genius bar’s are open again. And can they serve alcohol please.
• So just tripping a little- like omg justice ruth bater Ginsburg and justice Sonya soto Mayor are here to see you… I’d be like but I haven’t finished the actual opera side of the podcast that I love so much combined with not having a gift!  ugh!  What do you get s justice in the US supreme court for their birthday?  omg, all of this piling of the work I hope I’m providing is like apart of our duty as a responsible consumer, tax payer, public service utilizer, (paying taxes isn’t a requirement for the standard in our country… and I love that..), and a voter wether we exercise that right tor not within our freedoms and right to exist and also choice- some just don’t partake, others, weighing the options within their lives and then making a choice based on availability and work schedules and thats why I fucking love the new new and the re-establishing or restructuring the infrastructures that are present…. 
• Yesterday instead of making it to an appointment I wasn’t comfortable with, I stood in the shower and just enjoyed the water, no dance party, but nothing yet of fucking phenomenal…. 
• Te amo friend…i know but I am going through the bullshit again and you might be to so in person and here (or how to spell it but thank you for the translation google- please have securities in place to then present a republican from algorthythoming it to say butt crack or something…) OK /ˌəʊˈkeɪ ˌअउˈकेइ/
• Just be clear- I don’t need validation from anyone or something (not anymore anyways…) I have found that in my friend and a friend and like my education once that’s been established and absolute or zero’d in the manner in which It has been for me- I hope that everyone has that or has found that- you cant seek it out, it just becomes, but in case someone was feeling themselves this morning rsememrb I ain't nowhere in that… I would hate to be apart of the problem in and of that respect…