But I was right here...

But I was right here!

It’s been awhile and I’ve been writing just not...

Fuck- like I am exhausted. I feel terrible, but I am so thankful for the affordable healthcare act, amazing physicians that work for pennies…et al. Seriously, I have a ton to add to this but I’m on antibiotics to save my eye sight.... and it is like that kind of a deal.  Infections don’t go away and so somehow thankfully she saw me as a walk in after I missed yet another appointment...Thank you so much who or whomever scheduled it on behalf... that being said a unique identifier isn’t the answer as in my situation I have no privacy and have had so much personal information stolen or lost and in so many various places and then word of mouth and like... could you have at least told me you scheduled it?  Oh and guess what?  I was sassy as shit on the phone when i found out I had yet another missed something or failure where I was ‘a no show’ and that does affect me. Very much so!  I don’t take appointments from people who need them as a no show is exactly that, I don’t waste resources, and I don’t waste mine or others time.  Luckily, I went in as a walk in and was seen and the titer increase was revealed which would have eventually lead to blindness in my case and because of the appointments someone scheduled for me... my next one was in January. By then I could have gone blind or it would have required me having yet another PICC line and a month of IV antibiotic therapy. That sucks. But- it was early, and so the life saving injections of abx have me feeling crappy.  But that’s ok. I’ll live and live with eye sight- even if damaged goods. ;)

Speaker Pelosi is going to be on CNN at 9pm our time I believe... I can’t wait. 

I down loaded pages forgetting it was free and the letters I wrote Nd still need to compete or begin look fucking fantastic. I’m serious- I have my whole life to to handle shit and do things like this so I am dedicated to doing so efficiently!  Haha.  I need ice cream and also my other numbers do in fact look fabulous. I’m annoyed with my self because I have to move faster.  It’s hard for me to subject myself to being a pawn in another’s game or what they view as a game which is really my life, but I’m sure by now there are people incarcerated or died incarcerated being tortured by outbreaks of preventable sicknesses happening within the entire incarcerated population in the states.   It’s appalling that someone would acquire something the MMR vaccine prevents while serving time.  I’m so over it. I hate talking about it but I haven’t heard anything about incarcerated people being able to vote and they are still citizens and are still in our country and if someone gets out the day after the polls have closed or are in for a double sentence, I mean term... ;) Politics touches their lives everyday just as much as you or I and yet... they have no voice and aren’t accounted for.  Imagine being wrongfully rested and then your MMR vaccine titer a bit low or in need of a boost and the catching measles, mumps, or reubella and not being able to go to the damn doctor or have any autonomy in your healthcare or even some people can’t even imagine not being able to go to the doctor they’ve been seeing for 20 years. I haven’t heard about credit system reform- or like a reset as there has to be something- I get I can use an entity to help however some are scams and honestly it’s like people don’t have time to be at home to tuck their children in every night because of how many hours they work and still you want them to call and go and is that place open on Saturdays?  Please, be reasonable. Just because I am not voicing my needs doesn’t mean that they don't exist it just means that I’m from a different place where I don’t have the ability to, I'm tire of being that being child at a toy store with a parent/government that gets satisfaction from saying no or later or became of the difference in cost I get a band-aid when really stitches are required and needed and still on my mind.  There were other things... oh, criminal justice reform, law reform, the issue of I pay for a box of cereal what the store posts, meanwhile a a healthcare procedure has a price posted however Medicare/Medicaid reimburses for less then that always followed by the other insurances doing the same and the providers then literally just have to ‘eat it.’  I hope Spain was fantastic for the climate discussion and London beautiful for the NATO discussion or partial discussion that was attended though I’m sure what was missed or unattended will be sent over as a pdf or rich text file...  9pm is coming quickly and the left side of my ass is sore... omg, my professor would slap the shit out of me if she knew that I allowed a person to puncture my skin and muscle with a needle attached to a syringe without requiring that I see the vial first prior to even topping its cap or breaking its seal... I trust, I do... but my sight is dependent on this medication and my mind could be much more at peace had I done so. So, I feel like it’s reasonable and would speak to peace of mind and not distrust all because that’s what the issue is for me and the last thing a person needs is to feel distrusted no matter what type of day they having and even if they are or aren’t the one... ;) 

Break a leg Madame Speaker ;) you’re not performing broadway however there is an audience and a production and as I have looked in the past being unsuccessful in finding the manner in which you wish a politician ‘good luck’ or ‘best wishes’ as ‘break a leg’ does for performers... that will have to work for now. Oh, and if their isn’t a combination of words to do so that’s unique I am sure someone will write a grant, fund a nonprofit, to then cover the hourly costs of you all ‘arguing’ the matter... ;) 

I don’t care who you are... That’s funny and you can’t make that shit up! ;)

Someone else’s words I’m borrowing though making my own... if no one has told you today they love you, I love you... and that’s the truth though.