Rivalries...

Rivalries...

Ok I’m reading this article with the comparisons between millennials (which to be honest had no idea I was one?  I thought they were people born in or around the year 2000 but this Vox article says differently) and baby boomers.  It says that millennials would rather complain about student loan debt then buckle down and get a job.... ok baby boomer, since you either locked up you competition, put them on death row, and oh wait, you’ve done the same to the millennial generation in a way. Created a fail proof system at just making it impossible... yeah, you always have a choice... great, apply that to your stank ass attitude and stop bitching about how millennials want to expand social services.  It’s just frustrating because I don’t get it, I honesty don’t get it... for example HIV/AIDS costs our country $20 billion per year, over 700,000 lives have been lost since 1981- I think that number is  low ball figure as you do have to consent to an HIV test in most places so a respiratory infection/ventilator was probably to blame when really the undiagnosed HIV was the issue. But, I digress. Also in those numbers is it’s projected that with current efforts and preventions another 400,000 people will be diagnosed in the next ten years. So by expanding social services guess what- that can literally be curbed.... not curved (yum) as in the it going from ‘hell’ to ‘Aw that wasn’t so bad,’ to parked, and something that will live in a freezer in a few places in the world/universe and no longer be something that has people dying senselessly, some without families there for them since diagnosis as stigma is real, and oh wait... I know I’m taking this article a little serious but like with elections, the current issues, the space station falling apart- and to think I didn’t even get to go yet, people dying over the ‘principle’ of the issue- remember the good ole days when it was at least over a dollar!?  That’s what I was always told growing up, being that I was constantly seeking safety- you know someone will kill you for a dollar. Ha, insurance scam failed ring a bell?  Even at 5 I should have been able to call a bitch a bitch, but... that line and principle and all existed then in that situation as it does now.... oh! So it speaks to millennials being addicted to their phones... well, if the ignorance et al (cruelty, I’m>and you’re<, you ‘need to do!’) so that’s I’m greater then/than (I still haven’t figured that shit out all the way- but I didn’t know how to spell their, much less the difference between their (I-people) and there (as in a place because of the here) until fuck like the 7th grade. Leave it to a baby boomer to hold me back and the generation above them to catch me up!  She was black, had gigantic glasses, taught me to read in the 1st grade and everything else I needed that year, taught me a little about money, and cared more then a pay check could ever compensate for...).  Do I literally think they

Are raising their grand kids because of situations they put their kids through- in some. In others their is much more that applies.  

It’s weird that I have no idea what ‘tiktok’ is- the hunger games and Kesha come to mind but that’s about it.  I will have to investigate. But it really does speak to how ok boomer- I agree, they would rather be offended and have their feathers ruffled then like look at the situation from a neutral perspective and be like, oh shit... maybe I am an asshole.  Feel a certain type of way- by all means...but if you will either in a vote (that’s cataloged at the end of the day- so they know if you’re an asshole or not) or in any other form hate on a ‘something to make lives better,’ then that’s where I fall off. That kind of cruelty or ‘lack of compassion’ or... its just not something that I honestly know how to handle or approach. Like, i have thoughts that pop into my head sometimes and I’m like- there is no fucking way I just thought that... it’s usually inappropriate not violent- sometimes a little judgmental.  And the answer to all of it is so clear and easy... education.  So if you say, ‘getting dp’d was the moment when I knew...I was in over my head’ and I laugh, not like lol or rotfl but like that like little ‘like half smile, inhale of a fourth of a laugh, with the head/neck backwards and to the side’ maneuver... guess that that means?  It means, I can relate. I thought dp’d would be much better then something like bad or painful- which is when someone can really get offended. But, the maneuver just really signifies that you aren’t alone and tragedy or dp situations happen to others as well. It’s like- when I was outside, in the park, at the library (in public all the damn time!)- I said to someone, one of the very few people I actually would be vulnerable with in the sense of ‘you know to be around people 24/7 and 365... I feel so alone.’  I don’t know if I said lonely or alone or what... but, the take home point is there. 

Butt hurt- saying that being called ‘a boomer’ and ones own offendedness towards that is equivalent to the ‘n-word.’  I mean it sure wasn’t someone who has the right to be offended by the one name who applied it to the other but damn if that doesn’t just accurately paint a picture of how far out some peoples perspectives are.  Neighborhoods where 👮 don’t go and lives lost, not publicized to talked about or to me even acknowledged.... brought on by the boomers et al who ain’t got a clue about the world in which they live.... shit, no wonder climate change is.... imagine a boomer being like... like that’s air..... air is fine... see ‘sniff sniff’ it’s fine... as it pertains to climate change.  Ha. I feel bad- like the whole equality of pay and that whole situation and my comments shows you how out of touch I am in a way.  I mean, I didn’t think of a woman seeing how hard their mother works for pennies compared to what they know someone earns being that voice... I mean, maybe not that out of touch as I’m saying it should be across the board equal... but, even right now I’m like, ‘damn I can be a douche!’ And I can. Especially, now... like of the current situation I’m in I honestly have a... like sometimes I just can’t get it right, like Brexit... I said I was ‘praying for Brexit’... I later was like- self, that was really dumb, you’re an American and our government lies to us and that being said I don’t really know what the fuck it’s even about.... I mean, kind of the overall motif.... but even then.... so what I meant was that I’m praying for an outcome that is best for universe.  It’s like picking sides and you don’t even know if there is more then one person or side when it could be a person with multiple personalities!  I think it’s funny- but what’s not funny is not having all the facts or information or openness of mind and heart et al... to make a decision that’s best.  Like, conservative person... you been restricting social support for a longtime... has it made your paycheck or quality of life go up or down or stay steady? Ummmm, I think... I don’t know... oh please, a duck is a goose is a mallard is.... concern for the type of plastic that’s used as kiddos put those in their mouths when playing with and that stresses me the eff out.  No, nothing good has come from restricting support for people. Ok, restricting Teflon and all it’s cancer causing traits.... thank you!  However,  a stimulus package (wink wink) to go with it would have been ideal.... dunno if a person of the opposite party would have done that and it might have been attempted... but I am so over hearing someone or hearing the government or tv say, ‘you ought not’... without the perspective of ‘but it’s all I have or all I know...’ considered in the equation.  Ok, teenager- don’t get pregnant. Well, how do I prevent- abstinence. (Are you effing kidding me!) When it’s like, well, condoms, or homeopathic things like ‘sorry straight guys I think it’s gotta be searing hot water to the testicles’ decreases sperm count, or other interventions and also pharmaceuticals.... I know I know, I’m right.... going that route and then saying, but listen, just make sure you want a pet of that person with you for the rest of your life- as it is that big of a ‘shit for me a miracle! Ha! What you mean someone wants to get naked with me..... ‘literally at one point in my life I would have made sure no one was standing behind me!’’ It is that big of a deal- how wonderful that with the open communication messages are received and communicated much more... in a bang for your buck kinda way.  Plus- the interpersonal connection, the oh lemme talk about some more stuff (yes, I’d be reaching for a cork screw at this point.... cause I dunno water would mean I’d have to go pee more something- no, I was future tripping a little.) and also with open communication and not the ‘I’m this and you’re that’ motif (love that word! How have I forgotten about it for what feels like forever!) comes the creditability or like legitimacy or respect or whatever.  You solidify you’re a person and not a douche bag- in a nutshell shell. Omg I’m watching the UCLA/USC game- and the announcer just referenced Alabama.  Geez. That’s like bringing up kovorkian in a pre-op bay before a transplant... like, no.  

Ok ok I digress again- the annual commission meeting was like stellar. So like sometime in the 1980’s around 130,000 new cases were diagnosed annually. Now it’s down to <50,000.   What’s important for is that in forty eight counties, seven states, DC, and San Juan... there is a substantial rural HIV burden accounting for 50% of the new diagnoses for 2016/3017.  It takes awhile to acquire, interpret, etc the numbers before they release it.  1 in 2 people with HIV have the virus at least three years before diagnosis.  1 in 4 people with hiv have the virus at least seven years before diagnosis. 1 in 5 people with HIV are diagnosed with advanced aids. And 7 in 10 people with hiv saw a healthcare provider in the twelve months prior to the diagnosis and failed to be diagnosed. 97% of people newly diagnosed are getting it from someone who is undiagnosed or don’t know that they have it. The South currently is 52% of the new diagnoses in our country!  

People living with HIV who take HIV meds daily as prescribed and get and keep an undetectable viral load have effectively no risk of sexually transmitting HIV to their HIV negative partners. 

U=U is a campaign started to reduce stigma and educate- Undetectable=Untransmittable.  

They have the meds for once you have HIV, but also Prep- pre exposure prophylaxis, and pep- post exposure prophylaxis. I do wish I had done more research and started my self on prep back in the day- odds are I would be negative. Take advantage of your resources though!  It wasn’t covered by insurance at the time and had just come out so I was nervous about it.  

The President’s 2020 budget proposal had a lot of new money to it- thank you!  At the amount of $291 million!  Divided out over the agencies and with a broader range of options.  

I know. I hate it also.  It’s uncomfortable, awkward, and saddening- but, talking about it and also asking your medical provider, school nurse, University medical center people, the gay and lesbian centers for a test will take away some of the power over it has over us and for me, I was scared to give it to someone. Seven states account for over 50% of the newly diagnosed cases in the whole country. Well, and some counties. I bitch about stigma- had I not posted it on Facebook and shared it with family- things might be different.  There is one person if diagnosed today with whom I’d share it with- other then that besides my medical doctor it really is none of anyone’s business and you do not have to disclose your status....ever!  (If on meds U=U....!)

I hope that all the ‘get your book published’ commercials I’m seeing are a sign for something great to come... if nothing else it will give me something to do.  Since my criminal record and credit score keep me from working- sadly so does my degree making me either overqualified or raising eye brows... trust I’ve tried. Thanks boomers!  ;) ha!  I love you.  

I just ate a burrito and Kelly Ripa is in my head... long story short she was saying her hubby knows he’s gonna get some if she orders a salad.... if it’s like a nacho platter with a side of beans then it’s all bad!  ;) don’t worry young gay... you just have to perfect your preparation... ;)