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Started on the date above and colored today Saturday....the 12th...I didn’t edit and just posted...still me!  Still not a conflict!

• I am staying at home until after the first of the year-or doing my best, and more specifically hopefully, until after January 3rd when the new congress begins which is something, if you’ve never heard of it as I haven’t until this year takes place no earlier than January 3rd- and this is because i feel i need to, i feel something for the three thousand people that have died the last two days, and mostly our-they are our legislatures plus their staff and the Capitol Building staff, and everyone else that keeps the Capitol running as well as the local government there.  Like, I do mean to have the best for all of them in this and in my daily regard or thoughts and I do-republican or democrat, Senator or Representative which I learned that a lot of the house members identify as congressman or congresswoman and it can mean both however there are some variations or specifics.  Member of congress i think reaches to Parliament and in that i feel a bit more sturdy to say that if you use that-then at least you know now but don’t worry.  I tried so hard earlier to write this letter and i think i do ok and did ok but its hard...i think that though i am an asshole and feel that some may be more or look for more traditional or respectful language and structure and format its known that or felt that it’s someone’s best.  But with me thinking that there is some criticisms present-its kind of not proper but it makes pay a but more attention and put forth a bit more effort.  
• But this year i think is the time, that if i had a nonprofit or the systems to give everyone paper, a writing utensil, stamp, and an envelop and a second or third set cause i mess up bad...all the time...I have like legal pads of mess ups...if you cant write or read I cant imagine anyone turning down the oppuirtitny to hear from you.  It sucks because if your dictations or voice to text option works the way mine does-i have so much to be thankful for, and should write Tim Cook and Bill Gates a thank you for probably including safe guards that make the attention to detail individually specific...if thats not what is...then if i were them (not proper to do...or say...like to put myself in the shoes of government much less jury trial heels geez can you imagine me outside of flip flops?) i would still give this example and take the fault for the improper behavior but in hopes that even if there were mistakes from the software, how would you know or be aware of such-but you are enough.  I promise, you are.  The bicameral, which i am not trying to explain because it makes sense but to rephrase is really hard and again not proper, bipartisan numbers from a piece of legislation that sounds kind of eerie- like, i don’t like the idea of what could be inside national defense but i know that its beyond necessary and like, something every country does, to maintain and advance the securities and safeties provided, right?  So dont think that the national defense authorization act that I’m referring to means that we are being attacked or there is an increased need-it is law that has been crafted for like a long time-but the words bicameral, bipartisan come from the numbers of our legislature-i think.  Like before they vote there is like approval, and then the actual vote takes place and tahdah.  I’m being silly but again i get eerie and did you know that supersticouis is all bad kind of... like, i referred to myself as suspersiticuosu in a letter for who ever Pete is and for the sake of everyhrting i wish I hadn’t!  I’m like-i use the define or look up feature more then I adjust the volume or use the space bar sometimes...and there i go.  But anyways, the description speaks to my soul right now-i dont want to give it away...but the words being applied, the numbers that are, and the statements from lawmakers and that they are taking shorter time with their families this holiday to continue to ensure that the people and their best interests are first with actual data i guess in the numbers to make this so even before i throw all this wordiness into the mix...tomorrow is not promised.  And i hate that.  It should be.  And right now for so many, three thousand per day aren’t seeing tomorrow...and they are as diverse as ever which again I’m like setup but even though they probably know or feel the same way, have families, and want to nap, they are sacrificing its almost undue the risk they are taking not wreckless...but i think thats why I am trying to stay at home.  I wanna clear my throat and be like i am out of dish soap, or would love the opportunity to do my best and sadly right now that requires a stockpile of stuff-I’m not homeless anymore.  I’m not trying to manipulate and regardless there are extra provisions that make it so I’m am not making extra trips or the while I’m out stops so that maybe they stay safe and healthy, but the economic relief or support i look forward to because to be honest i am still negative and it’s driving me insane.  I’m so grateful for my health.  For my life.  But i know so are the people at an increased risk of morbidity and thats even with adhering to and doing their very best and its not fair-its something to learn from i think.  I dont know how but if this ever happens again in my life, or in some future conversation, watch-ill pull out a template or already written letter so that as soon as there is a cause or feeling to do so-i can write then and speak to this lived feeling and experience urging for immediate financial support within a time frame of i dont know but if i could stock up again, i would hope that I would be that considerate and mindful.  I stayed in i think for three weeks or maybe a little less-i had my MacBook Air, groceries, the support of the staff for groceries and meals everyday, and it really went by kind of fast...i think its ok that i struggled in the beginning a bit...i dont know if during SARS or west Nile if social distancing was instituted and masks mandated.  I didn’t know anyone that got sick or had it...but i know nurses who took care of people that were sick sick sick...it’s appropriate.  I’m taking care of someone on ECMO and they are like well I’m glad you can keep up cause there are more then just heart surgery reasons for this and I’m like really?  And they wouldn’t be the phenomenal people they are to me without throwing some random well back in the day-hey, you remember those or that and omg yeah thats right type story into my teaching or nursing practice for it to resonate and mean that I can put it here and hope it saves so many lives just like they do everyday. Night.  I mean night-well day shift and nightshift.
• Oh so summing allove that up-honestly, I’m trying to stay in more so then I was and in regard for those who are expericngn increased morbidity or morbidities and mortality...let me be direct.  They are none white people.  I dont mind saying that, and think it’s easier for me to be honest, i can trip and fall over the jargon and am not trying to do that...and I think it is time to be honest.  That people who don’t look like me and or identify as i do...are so in need of what they aren’t being shown.  I read an article that spoke to GOP Governors are resistant to social distancing and basically all the recommendations that are very simple...staying at a fathom from another and a cloth face covering or facemask.  Limiting large groups even if these are able to be adhered to, staying at home-it seems like there is something about people being stagnant.  Like if i can sit indoors, being indoors not at home, no matter how far we are apart or what the setting is-the susceptibility is there.  
• My going out, people that look like me, no offense to those GOP, don’t even get me started on the abbreviations...but its coming i promise...White people-stay at home, when you are on an essential wear a mask please, and please stay at least six feet apart.  I’m still in my walk or standing in line trying to get comfortable with being that close....i think i get six on to the front, to the back, and so on, and so do the others around me.  I could be totally wrong and it could put an increased susceptibility into the mix...the issue is the same.... the recommendation is six feet which is equal to one fathom...but it seems to be six feet on both sides as like arms... like arm out and then to three feet.. its perfect because that other three feet may not be acknowledged until someone trying to come up behind you and then you have your arm to put up for the three.
• I was just on social media, bars are open, no masks, no markings on the floor from what i can tell, and like this is airborne.  A sneeze goes almost twenty feet...this virus is like that but literally has crossed seas and oceans.  If your governor isnt on board, if there isnt a sense that it is real...it is.  And the activities of people who look like me and others who dont...are, have, and will continue to put people at risk most of whom do not look like them and in different geographical areas and also the same geographical area.  
• My going outside, even with testing negative as i have, social distancing as best i can when i go on an essential task still each time i go out contributes to the outcomes of others.  
• I’ve seen the lines to get tested, know that the concern in some eyes are that of real life tradgety possibly from what’s going on here and wherever they have loved ones and i dont need to know their numbers and as much as i rely and check them almost everyday and factor that into my daily schedule or planning...I don’t know if its that numbers aren’t people, or that it isnt working and I’m getting sadder but i think today i found my new new... i was half asleep, waking up or going to sleep, or desciedeing if I had to pee of If the ice cream in the freezer was worth it before or in the after....see... ugh.  I praying for outcomes.  The numbers are so of value and are real, unargued fact.  But, not that ive been wrong or that because i was praying for the numbers or for less people to die and test positive meant that the prayers weren’t heard or weren’t answered... but, I’m adding the outcomes that way i have the neuro fog that is lingering even though the systems affected are recovered still the coma from the neuro fog or that presents apart of my awareness.
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• ther countries do this offen?  Like do they social or physical distance often.
• I haven’t read that much that about the runoff’s in Georgia but I am loving it-thats the kind of opportunity a lot of my teachers took to teach us when we were in school-i love it but it does seem like the perfect chance to ensure that both candidates are bipartisan and hold them to it.
• I think i just found that opportunity to say i can do this as well and actually do it-i will be honest that i think this is the most heartened I’ve felt for our Legislature, since high school when permissions for war were given, now that they are no more, and I have an interest in it all besides just being concerned secondary to violence against our country..
• Ive become so like susperstidcous or something..I dont mean that word probnabnly as it reads or could be thought to mean...I’m cautious and i really do believe in everything....or i respect everything that another person says is poissible or is real.  Like I’m not weird about things but i swear i can be perceived pornbabntgl as Wheaton
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• I just set a reminder to write every House of Representative, like can a republican vote for a demorcrat to be speaker of the house, speaker Pelsoi has said that she is to retire after the 117th Congress-i am not sure what that looks like for if it is as speaker and will continue in legislature or if to go to the Supreme Court in nomination or honestly as President or home-I’m telling you my family members sitting at home watching CSPAN and smoking cigarettes and or the retouch market and who knows but i know that the permissions were removed and 

Here’s my struggle-when I think about how much I have to look forward to-there is no forward without work on my part and a process to overcome what has me at like a you know a hummer can like climb a twenty four inch right angle of a stop in the road?  That’s what i feel I’m at and literally.  Georgia’s runoffs for both seats in the United States Senate have literally our country divided...not divided until it comes down to the literal numbers in Congress.  The 117th Congress start as early as January 3rd, and its like tied.  I don’t know what the views are from the Incumbents or the I’m sure there is a word that speaks to it better then i am but I’m trying to make it so that i ensure that there is no conflict of interest or compromised character when i say that i have no idea how real of a deadlock our government could be in for the next couple of years-I’ve always been thought that everything works when there is uniformity and i honestly think that comes down to systems possibly outside of the control of what the incumbent or elected individual to that place in our government’s decision is, there could be a systems issue that does come down to political party possibly being in the way.

Um hello, who remembers the Cares act and that it is an individual amount, it is not a stimulus, i wanted to bring that up recently but i think the trying to get through those obstacles that ought to be able to be overcome when there is a reason or a person with the authority and the vote of the people there behind them... the Supreme Court when factored into a systems or thought of zero and ones and this in Georgia means it could be a real paper pushing kind of two years in the 117th congress.  Maybe, it wont be like that...and I’m not discrediting anyone for trying i really am not...but i am going to write to 

Sarah Palin who are you?  Urging the republicans to crush democrats...when i think the only real protections for Alaska to remain alaska and be apart of our land as in, Arizona right here, like Alaska is not...that being said i have no doubt that the Democratic Party’s systems in place, the incumbency, with the variance on the supreme court siding with human rights back in June of last year-all of that could have been said without all these weighted words that are pretty violent.  Crush, a soda, a man in a trunk in a junk yards getting compressed, what happens to a can after being rinsed to then recycled... I know that you may not have fit in and still may not when it comes to defined words that make up or in law, law the parties in to legalities...like, I’m not sure that would have ever been RBG’s/small caps (and if its thought over small caps and small capitals are the same and for now forward... sometimes not to be perfect...) i dont know that legislature like that and executive like this its not the courts do or don’t...its not be brought up...

And when it is brought up or spoken to-yeah, it could be whats it called if i referenced a blowjob right now....or was like see my disrespectful ass really is getting better no political party insinuations to be made...i am a democrat, i will try my hardest to make so that one day my kids pour kids just are like....omg before Alzheimer’s or something gets to much what party are you dad...like, what about you dad?  Both of you?  Like this whole time and....

That how i think it might be if i don’t influence but just provide information or guide towards and then let their lived experience become, the morals become, and their views in politics become...without me saying come on come on or whatever it might look like if i were something i don’t want to be.

I cant wait to say that me and some people can side look and not even be... you know and yet I’m saying free will, doing your best with the freedom of choice, and a due process-i don’t know what anything else i would have to say if i had truly done my best or at least tired, cuss worded up, like-i have no place to validity give advice or recs to, but you know...like the animal kingdom in Alaska might be like where they go?  I’m sure they know...but the matter at hand is that Georgia is fantastic...it really is...I’ve had the pleasure of doing more then just riding out on an aircraft....literally, eating in the neighborhood where a reassurance served a smoking desert that wasn’t on fire and ikea and mostly from what i recall African American culture or living there is pretty stellar as in many be they don’t feel they are different or something-they aren’t but there are differences present...

Like, i don’t know if the people i know will vote one wya or another or if I’m able to sway them-I’m not...if anything sometimes i think i paint a picture of what is and somehow another person maybe able to then decide something....

Like, the urging to cross party lines and vote for Joe Biden now president elect officially official and he and Ms. Vice President elect are the time magazine people of the year...and it all resonates... in what manner i may seriously have to answer for reaching but if i could ever speak to some Republican statements about the NDAA-the national defense authorization act-the support is there in many different ways with criticisms or areas to improve on once those committees convene as the one currently is convened then will be addressed to follow the votes hopefully, like the numbers, the statements in support, all had me in olive with our country all over again and all they had to do was crafty legislation and process it and let it rest and then vote and then give statements about it all-and I’m like there is no doubt in my mind that yes some may not, but the overwhelming majority of legislature has our back and our best interests at heart as well as then our options or sentiments on the actual areas of the issue that allow for movement within the law and laws and whats again safe and protective and its just phenomenal but the president again is attacking military with some legislatures doing the same but also to their peers...I’m like, this is so real, there is no referee though...the only type of umpire there is rests in us as constituency.  In that, to call bad form or speak to it is something i hope I continue to do, but also that anyone who feels a certain difference wherever there wasn’t... like when i think of Georgia and not knowing the individuals running to senators being re-elected possibly...i do have to urge that the Democratic Party just like with Alaska will ensure and protect....no matter what... no one gets sacrificed or abandoned-I’m not homeless anymore, and just now changed my political party preference to democrat after the General election...and i was housed before that cause I put my new physical address...i was literally still a republican in Alabama 

Ike I had voted a certain type of was to Fe but that’s enough but was still registered even then...my point to make without a tone of influence or humor is that as humorous as that all is in my recanting of it all... the facts are true, the situation in Georgia is adversity in politics defined as i see it related to the money that the Republican Party is acknowledging the potential for that  assertion of a majority vote and if its precedent premised of the past it will be disregarding our well-being and our backs where the vote is to be literally....in the impeachment proceedings and vote speaker pelosi stopped that before it is even my though put that something so criminal like rendering a guilty verdict when one is innocent because of political preference or affiliation....there is a quote, go search and read the article it’s a process for both  kind of where speaker of the House of Representatives was put into a true speaker of the house....speaker pelosi followed her instinct and saved our country by having the servant at arms present and speaking with having instituted some real authority over anything to be able to say you vote as you and not as your party there’s something more but i don’t know how it all would, have gone down but that’s not proper for me to do right now... I don’t have to concern myself with any what if’s because the House of Representatives were true to the people...please write to your representatives to vote for speaker pelosi to remain in office as speaker of the house....it’s the 117th Congress, it’s possibly her last years as speaker and the first female speaker of the House of Representatives our country has ever had and no one else would have been able to do the outcomes that have become like the removal of the permissions for the articles of war after decades of being permitted by congress but also under her time as speaker of the house, the impeachment...please, I urge the constituents who feel writing is called for to ask their representatives to vote for Congresswoman Nancy pelosi to be the speaker for two more years in what could come and also for ensuring that’s what has become remains...and small caps/all of justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg’s advocacy and then landmarks and duh dissents will remain as best as can be done...there is so much in these positions and a Vice President-elect, Vice President elect Kamala Harris is so up to this within the dual roles she’s accepted that its again irrational for me to fear that a man would feel inferior or something so that a make representative and a Republican would replace speaker rpelosi to cause turmoil and break all of this into pieces...I’m not saying that it will happen that way... but the time for going with for gut to me but also separate is their lawmaking and incumbency that speaks for itself-no, the president elect and the three  successors should god forbid anything happen to anyone or whatever.... they are all the pillars of our government oh Supreme Court justices stop nudging me in support I’m getting all nervous because you don’t have a say in this...I love it...the court has no pull in any of this.....unless there is something outside normals which cuss word is a lot of normals that could happen but at the top all of what might have been sabotage or espionage or a double incumbent like a double agent... I have to probably do this again...but then I’d get stuck or get digressed...

Cuss word, so here’s my true liberal decision to be, as in being based off of kind of or in reinforcing that I had a lot of misbeliefs or beliefs to just mean things said....so small caps is thought to be and started to be liberal and in that liberal for women’s suffrage.  True statements and the way that was all paved has so many men being the victims with women being the infringed....read Conversations with RBG....like the small caps comes front he first page...and the authors words, and then I’m on page 27-I don’t know whats to come in the book, i can follow up and redefine my support in saying the work that is liberal is nothing like what i was always communicated to for what is liberal.  If liberal is a man receiving the same stipend as a women when the roles are in opposite like primary worker v not the primary worker....thats what the advocacy work at the ACLU looks like....I’m like, cuss word i don’t even put that into the mix with my parents cause if i did i would be a mute-see i can be rational.  And still an asshole-but if you honk its ok...there is or could be a first for everything and i had nothing to do with it its all small caps fault.  

I will be honest I contributed financially to the democrats in Georgia-there is 67 million dollars in the difference in ads or efforts there so far...the republicans have acknowledged the importance, could be setting a distraction, and it’s known that the Republican side is different financially, socioeconomically, education in college or university, and money and criminal records....thats the whole reason they may not chose to build housing...put the people who need housing, and yes you have to fit certain applications criterion to be a competitve applicant and thats not true competitive wise but i will say that i hate that i feel like red states don’t have resources for those whip need it because fo where their vote will be casket at the polls or the mailbox.... they don’t have a physical address they have a hard time voting and then that all changes with being housed.  It could be that the need is not documented or trended, that people may not require what i do as a mess...i don’t know...but i will write to Senator Jon Ossoff and Rev. Warnock to ask them to communicate their stance on bipartisanship, commit to issue of and Constituency as the motive and not political agenda or the buddy system...it don’t like that....i don’t.  

Again, in Georgia-its also the systems-if i can state anything it is that if those seats are not filled with democrats there may never be any pandemic relief, economic relief, or paycheck protections...that was available, the vote wasn’t in regard for the bill but to majority the the narrow majority in numbers and we are....yes, i like the democrats running, but in the systems and in the core values i have to urge voting for the two senators or senator to be’s as is a new congress, voting for the two senate seats ultimately your own...like don’t let me go against your gut honestly, but look it up or if not I’m nothing but trying to do good.  I have no motivations, the republicans that are in support of the president veto’ing NDAA are either setting the present up and/or do not have good intentions for the people...I promise i do....and no matter the optician if you and i write to them with fervor for the issue the letter is I regarding then yay, get ready cause cspan is honestly really interesting....honestly...like for real...and the stock men wont have to get up by themselves now, cause ill be up at 3!  Maybe not everyday, but sometimes and just in what i read-not to ensure that they are true to their words or purpose, but that i have it in my awareness, was true in my writing, and also to not leave them after after counting to three and then not taking off to the finishing line but going for ice cream instead.