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So I love how I have emails saying when I'm supposed to be somewhere yet I can't get even the bus drivers to help me with the actual routes (I guess they aren't allowed to endorse)
I also was actually able to grievance the two officers here on the outside that i wanted to- completely on my own, after going to like 3 places and 2 different meetings. Though since I dont have phone and also that they are the same officers enforcing and extending my bans from computers and (yes, library is a total life line for me at this time.... and for a lot of people and for most of my life) actually coming to enforce it sometimes.... but now I consider it stalking.... I mean is they ban me for life it wont stop me from coming... for how else am i supposed to let my family et al know that I am still breathing... and yes, you better work bitch! Cause the noise had been already brought'n (high comma)
Officer Lee Pendleton (I do have his badge number... but privacy is privacy..) He did reluctantly give it to me but being that he didn't give me a card or anything else- additionally a handshake.... I think he is fake.... it's truley a crazy world.
Andrea and Theresa from the re-entry center
Hi Josh!
I’d
be happy to help you get another sticker but in order for me to do that
you need to be engaged in services with our agency such as following up
on your
medical care and appointments as needed. We can’t provide Uplift
badges/stickers to clients that are not receiving services from us. PACE
would also be able to help with transportation as well but you would
have to reconnect with them. Let me know how Rosa
and I can help. J
From: Joshua Ray [mailto:jray3401@gmail.com]
Sent: Wednesday, July 05, 2017 10:17 AM To: Medellin, Andrea Subject: Uplift pass
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So
is that a 'I can come get a renewal one' or no? Cause I def just picked
up some meds yesterday... or the day before.... therefore...
Best,
Joshua Ray
Medellin, Andrea
Jul 5 (6 days ago)
to Rosa, me
Joshua Ray<jray3401@gmail.com>
Jul 7 (4 days ago)
to Andrea
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Pace Appt
Hi Joshua,
I hope you are doing well, this is just a friendly reminder that you have an appointment at Pace today at 1:30pm, hope you make it.
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Hi!
So
please don't let them mark my chart with more no call no shows- I don't
have a phone... I've been trying to get one but I still haven't been
able to. Additionally, I am still technically banned from the Library
system city wide and can only check my email from time to time.
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Hi Josh!
I’m the social worker that met you yesterday at the
re-entry center. You were supposed to come back today for GA and to
meet with my coworker Rosa. We are closing the center early today but
please get back to me as soon as you can. Hope
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haha Oprah- It's like Katrina for me here... I have no accesss to the library0 which shoiuld be a national right.. and I don't have one of those free phones... a natrual sis
so is Paris Hilton homeless and that's why everyone knew when.... whatever happened happened with a back hand or street or... just so she could get on a housing list.... I don't know.... could her family keep her homeless in da whole world? Yes. Assholes...
Ha, that could be Rih Rih's story also- I dunno...
I do know people so lazy they have instigated a fight just to get on that domestic violence list...it's crazy...
Why in the world after Katrina is it possible that library's can still ban people...given that a whole population of people didn't even know what was coming.... shows how stupid it is that I'm still having to do this... which is sneak around trying to steal food, deal without a phone, miss those legal deadlines when you want to sue or file something... statue of limitation....
well as an actual person... my statue of limitations to and for bullshit from Santa Clara County and the City of San Jose is... real people are dying, suffering, and additionally I tried to play their game here.. which was "oh my ID got stolen etc" Funny story, the police here know the ones with my ID's and even used one of their payroll's to go to EPS and get me discharged... just to
that Ms. Obama was Secretary of State... I think she would have handled it like a boss- but, the white man scared.
ugh... the drama of my life continues.... how is it when you threaten to call the 'cops,' being that youre the store manager at safeway, the one below the 88 building... or the gayeyeight, or gateyeight, or whatever... you're the store manager and yet... you assaulted me? then the other thug came out that side door and followed me across the street and then down the block... if I had a phone I would have called them myself... just like that time at the light rail station over by the childrens discovery meusem when I asked and they said no...
I mean, granted last time I was In EPS, a valley medical establishment I was discharged earliy when another 'Joshua Forman Ray' showed up with my I.D.! Are you fucking kidding me.... I hate this place.
Now what do I do...
Oh, Thank you Brooke Candy... basic bitches...
So, in the essence of, it will be a long god damn winter if you dont get your shit together abd tell me everything...
I found that sprinkler head, or one of them... or I jumped on it... the one at city hall, in between that and the USPTO- the united states Patton office is here... isn't that convenient.... yet- they be struggling to push some papera's... haha!
I'm thinking you would look fabulous in the HBIC Chair... come on- listen to come Jonas Blue like me and I promise it will be alright... in the mean time I'm at the Carnige East San Jose Library reporting these Judges to the Bar Association, etc... well, the people at the library just came and told me I'm not allowed here until September... It's crazy however, that in SF, Santa Cruz, etc., they public defender's office has a Yelp page where you place reviews, etc. but San Jose doesn't? Why not? I'm so confused... and now it says I'm in Florida not California... this is just crazy! Have I been kidnapped??
I hate that I can't treat this library like I want to, which would be like my shower, or the rideshares, or airbnbs I actually pay for! Meaning, I don't be trying to give these fools any more, or more reasons to keep me from mentioning their names and bullshit as a means of holding them accountable for their own worst nightmare... I really want to sing along to this 'jonas blue- mama ft. william singe.' I dare say you stole my idea you piece of shit! I treat Uber's like my shower was actually said by me in an Uber! Now 'jonas blue- perfect strangers ft. JP cooper' is singing in my ears and I'm not out loud... sadly I would hate to be ones distraction like others have been for me and can completely re-reail my train of thought... or is it a train of four... I don't know... I guess being that bullshit you put in my arm in main jail (in San Jose, Santa Clara County- 150 W Hedding St, San Jose, CA 95110. Such a crazy world.. Yes, it was not a TB skin test... and my public defender... I don't know if that's her job or not... but, if I was a person, adn I am, not a robot or someone with pseudo-seizures, though I dare say that that this 'it looked like "now I'm taking a pill in ibiza with mike posner and seeb remixes it" ""there is no formula for me other then No, No because you did it to the wrong bitch will you do it to someone else and or add anything to the person who assaulted that nurse in main jail- because fuck if I didn't want to do the same thing afterwards... she may or may not have been waiting for me to... shockingly, I'm not from here and will assault you with words like here in my blog... do ya hear?"" oh wait is like the order of solving an... no, it's not... cause I'm just gonna keep rowling with my not just kidding seriousness as a way of.... (hang on I got lost on my own... not my own, on your own nightmare that is mine created by your invasion of privacy.... stop trying to compare my waves with the music and shockingly I sang Bon Jovi as me and tommy and gina were there along with It's is my life and it is indeed now or never. So, this can't even be used for anything serious other then where and when I want... in a normal situation... cause my own public defender is the one whom tried to or whatever keep me from the libraries! It's so annoying... the trime frame may or may not be like I think is, but I want something just like this... which is that I used my valid new ID to create a new account as a means of- that's legit being that my identity has indeed been stolen and actually, virtually, etc here. It is and then I think there are actually two sets of my ID with the 80 South Market, San Jose, Ca 95113, but only one with... wait how amazing would it be if I could take a pic of my ID that I have on me to post here so that everyone knows... it would be fantastic... but the library here has these great eliteone 800 (EBTECH06) monitors that have that covering the camera... I can't believe that the touch feature is activated or I'm sure they would (paris and lil (no girl- he aint little...) wayne are having a good time in my ears.... thanks to the Wal-mart I went to in Palo Alto, Ca thats off El Camino Real and showers (ha- I know I need to shower... but I'm not buying in.) with the gift card that I got from thehealthtrust.org that is endored on the San Jose website... I don't know if it is the official one or the .org one... I can't stand that places like the main jail and the officers, cops, (there is a difference- thug in a cocktail dress so applies in a certain way but that's one foe the actual court room and for here later... just trying to see how far and how long these idiots will keep this up or try to cover their tracks or do anything other then- ya know, when a hospital recongizes a billing error as it relates to medicare, medicaid, et al. they have to pay a fortune to correct it, and the fines and fees may or may not still apply but it may work in their favor... I tried to look it up but I dare say that thankfully, Armin Va Buuren adn fiora waiting for the night can't be touched, thank god! God! as can the documents I am google'ing or looking up and then reading in a (virtual, hypoerlinked pdf's?) ummmm. nigga please. That is no not legit after https://www.cms.gov/Outreach-and-Education/Medicare-Learning-Network-MLN/MLNProducts/Downloads/Avoiding-Medicare-FandA-Physicians-FactSheet-905645TextOnly.pdf clicking on a .gov link and then... I dunno.... I'm sure if I could actually save it and then find it or have access to like the screen shots I can take with the software and tech on this computer- so what I did was I (don't come to my resuce will and your shit will be like mine is and I don't care but you might- and I think it is bullshit that those 'memories from how ever many years ago on facebook.com, ugh the perfect world that is and was and will still be thefacebook.com, this gov bullshit- thank you! not, you, you're a peice of shit and are trickering people into posting memories from a few years ago that I did or didn't delete or did or didn't post in a different app, instagram and I think that is totally worth international privacy laws... as is the www that is me... w.w.j.d.- he would call bullshit and let the world know... see- uh oh- eye brows up.. or was that the windows? and oh, fuck. Please, I know some of you know me... that's the point... cause I am pissed... to those that do or don't donate money here or do charitable things... I would stop. I would totally stop. like, even ask for my change... that is a beautiful video on youtube.com and so applies to this situation and stereotypes and I can't stand that after I was mugged in LA by someone from San Jose, et al. that someone, many people asked me if they were.... they didn't- I didn't identify them....I did to a couple of studs, but that was after...or maybe... I don't if then what... but I try to remain non- commited or something... when see... now I'm on a differesnt thought process and I dare say that your little 'animal chip' thing you put in my arm is like that book I read when they hear a tone in theit ears every couple of seconds... i can't fucking find it! Is saying fuck worse or better then/than bloody hell? All dogs go to heaven- let's not make it about anything to strict... a bird is a bird only if a tell a child it is, is, is , or is not... and
You Joined Facebook 12 Years Ago
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See, propaganda... bunch of fakeassholes...this is an actual video/I copied and pasted it... and what I hate is is that I don't know if it is or isn't real or not... I'm not trying to fact check... because I do that as I go and have and have not thought about about that... the facebook thing and posting form other apps and that it may or may not actually be deleted content from other apps, et al. and that's the government run nightmare that is why I don't know anything other then adding things up... yes, in the same conversation with my self last night in the park near or around about here I also said that, 2+2=5, two plus two euals five, two and two equals five.... no, I said two plus two equals 5... do you know why? yes, you do you (I wanted to say stupid bitch- but if you are indeed a female dog in heat... I'd hate to give your ass any other reason to continue to skew and change variable in the system that I control... that is me.) What's worse- is that video I posted i can't get rid of... the one That I didn't post on facebook.com, but that I was actually able to copy and paste (this time- other times I have tried to do random things here and there and couldn't....) I don't know what or how I know what I know... other then two and two could yes, be me and you if you weren't so round about an asshole but then that's why I'm also that extra one... no no.... no diagnosis needed... I'm just not calling you a hermy or a hermeys or a hermes... Don't try to diagnose me because if you do I will petition for that license also- Dr. Tam
Dr. Nam Tran is a psychiatrist in San Jose, California and is affiliated
with Santa Clara Valley Medical Center. She received her medical degree
from Ho Chi Minh City Medicine and Pharmacy University and has been in
practice for more than 20 years. She is one of 77 doctors at Santa Clara Valley Medical Center who specialize in Psychiatry.
This is from the http://health.usnews.com/doctors/nam-tran-176487
I was actually able to find this... I am not even trying to say that you were or weren't there in a proxy state... you did give me a piece of paper, thank God.... Thank you.... now where is the original... and how do I get (you've got 77 psychiatrists here? and yet I'm the one having to justify myself in your system of craziness?) I know right- I don't trust you, and yes, I have no doubt that you did or didn't reluctantly actually come to see me.... yeah- prisoners are a vulnerable and protected population as it pertains to the irb and actual medicine... you may or may not know that... but, I do... I dare say your hospital doesn't deserve to have anything other then me as a person gift, because you have a monopoly on healthcare here and it isn't right or fair and I will prove not legal- giving out meds that are or aren't legit and the papers that do or don't go along with them is a right and legality that you will be held accountable for.... because... I say so.
a duck? a frog? a drone? an animal with rabies? ew I don;t know.... Sia is singing to me about or is about to about the mamas and the papas. Ah, good times good times. You said- well, you certainly know a lot/alot. And yes, thankfully I do.. and I'm not from here and wasn't or was partially educated here and I know the power of knowledge, diversity, experience, expereinces, culture, the risk that I am to myself and others and why I can't stand that facebook.com is asking me or subtly 'causing reminicities or to reminisce or
rem·i·nisce
ˌreməˈnis/
verb
verb: reminisce; 3rd person present: reminisces; past tense: reminisced; past participle: reminisced; gerund or present participle: reminiscing
indulge in enjoyable recollection of past events.
I hate hyperlinked bullshit Mr. Gates, Mr. Zukerburg, Dr. Rice, Oprah, Own'ing my shit isn't difficult... it's this world that I am currently in tha thas it impossible for me to help my myself... which is your fault... thankfully, I am me... and in the interest of justice, or in the interest of lack of evidence... there is the internet... and elastically I trust no one...? God damn Sia you literally and actually....(do I know you?)
No, I don't.... but, music is music... adn don't talk to me a Sterling law.... because I will further ligit illigitimize you.... and ligitamize? Stop with your shit. I will say whatever I want...
or else.... censorshit...censorship and altering the outcomes will occur where you don't want them to... yo uknow I know you know I know what I mean....
1733 7/3/17 .... this is two hours of work.... but, your cameras and always on system tells you that huh.... it got weird didn't it... I am yes, pooling all your resources by not fault of anyones other then that of in the justice of authenticity... and I am pissed!
Ah! The bullshit of bullshit'rs! Google and blogger- the internet here is trying to literally keep me from using profanity- I can't stand it! In a court room, OR, any place where you are in a monent and cant think of anything other then "Oh Fuck," pardon me for drawing attention to the/an issue and keeping my train of thought from derailing instead of accidentally offending someone who may or may not be able to help a situation. Example- I don't have one other then I mentioned last night to myself, in the park, that I thought my public defender did her job but I didn't want to bring attention to her with the bar aswsociation because in this, San Jose, City in Santa Clara, a direct quote from mine and others court cases I've heard, via Judge Monohan as well as... opps
Nov 25, 2011 - When you take your penis and insert it into your study hall teachers anal cavity!
A google search can be so interesting as well as enlightening... and after all, a smile is worth so much!
Judge, Monahan and Judge Ocala... Ya'amani Rao replied to my email... Ms. Rao... welcome to the use of a 'high comma.' Or that's how I would say your man so it's better understood. I don't know if that's how I would or wouldn't spell it if I were you... depends on which shit you're trying to start or light, lite. But, if on the court records there are discrepancies then I'm sure you like me had the power to go back and make a note... or tbc...
so now this is what it says in chrome that's updated....as my location... though I haven't moved... at allll... literally still at the EBTECH03 eliteone 800 hp intel inside core i5 vpro optimized for microsoft lync tm windows professional 7... nonsense that I've posted previously... it's all not adding up for a reason such as the in color changes in the san jose budget of buildings... but that blue hyperlink is almost so real it could the create an email address...no no... I dunno what this is... nut i want something just like it... as I said if I'm really in Ocalla florida and youre around... feel free to say hello! I'm nice... almost too nice....it's not fake, though when my gut tells me something isnt right... or add up...a fter months of people telling me to get my shit together I can be sassy.. additionally.. psych 101 tells us that people know when they are being watched or followed or whatever... variabels with reguaards to area and values of raising and setting can change that.... thank god I'm not from here wherever this is... lol. google and fadcebook and blogger and daddy gates and mark are here helping me... sorry i havent been giving all the details... but there... also... sorry if I've tagged you or your music in my craziness... but good luck trying to prove that I was in the wrong by doing so... and if you have the power to help me in a manner o fnot needing stuff and bullshit... I have a life and memories and remember what things felt like... I need for everyone to have that opputunity... and here with judge ocala, judge monohan, judge manly, ms beckerson in the public defenders office and ya'ammanie d rao in the public defender's office and mental health advocay projects with limitations on tort law... andrea m and theresa at the re-entry center in collaboration with Santa Clara Valley medical center adn 99 vista montana, san jose, ca 95113 and the new city ordanances or whatever changed (equityreidential.com) and the investors that changed their terms as a company and their properties and down the road is levi stadium and I'm telling you they have telephone lines that are always on though not accessed by me the resident- conviently the staff had one year to learn about some of the equipment in the apartments... a fan in the bathroom thats always on adn a vent for fresh air to prevent mildew and mold. etc makes sense to me... the oddities of this that and the others doesn't make sense..Kim Kardashian West! help... did you get a google alert? p.didy puff daddy mark zukerburg (stud) the government.. by way of not updating hteir shit.... thank god ive had a mac that worked so well i couldnt update the hardware and then the software that eventually alerted/kept me from some options in the internet as my browser could only update so far also contributes to my reasoning... and .so nothing free or not worked for... thats not my problem... i literally cant find a private attorney to help me... and no bailbonds man will help me so if i go to jail for jay walking... 30 days is how long the last time... it's crazy... but true... i dont have 10% to put down... and the telephone thing makes sense when they this crocked... cause the actual payphone thats legit adn only really works as a default in this bullshit so i have to use their phone system to call 1 866 cal ebt number... the pay phone in the community center at 24th adn santa clara st in san jose does not work.... the water fountain in guadaloupe park at coleman and 487 coleman st?... it's crazy... but where the water going if the fountain dont work? if this is the new new washington d.c., then stop acquiring it like walt disney did in orlando or something... and this just came on... not necessarily my motto- but i do loves it... and august rush and la are real and legit.... I hope Clean Bandit - Symphony feat. Zara Larsson [Official Video]
so I haven't always been so sketchy but that God I can find out or know instinctively... so yes, now I'm doing my thang with miley after I.... was validating myself and had my earbuds in only to recognize the alert that the computer system gives you when you're time is running out... so what happens and I've dscribed in the past is that if youre typing away and dont have headphones the computer just shuts off... I have no idea why it would alert you to something and then a random keystroke can clear it... as was just happening... thank goodness, i have headphones that I bought from the walmart in palo alto at showers and el camino on the 22/522 route per the vta.org or valley transit authority. So- thats actual, and thank fully I always keep said headphones in my pocket and not my bag and since I actually bought them myself with a gift card from the healthtrust.org.... my give presidence to some of my thoughts... since i heard the alert and was able to and knew the system that I was using... as it is... but also having had a friend at the library, katherine- at the joyce Ellington library on empire and 10th (65 vta.org bus) search for something that I couldnt or tried to online and though the search results were skewed- or different then what I know to feel right.... you've got why I just updated mozilla when the computer restarted after I had luckily saved everything... and had also this time used the library system to book a computer... which is a reason for frustration in itself... because you can literally take acomputer form someone somehow.... my card is a 'temporary' one... not clue why it's that way other then I use the homeless address they've had for 30 years... so the computer restarted after I had updated/published it. not to facebook, I'm about to do that... but, I updated Mozilla and restarted it only to then recalled not having to do that when I logged in the first time... different eh? sonds crazy... well, i havent ever typed in 'current location' in blooger in google and had it work... maybe it was access or something... but i feel like I did everything to allow it to know my location but never 'worked' or i felt it was lying to me or... I dont know... everything seem legit to it says unable to find current location in blogger, i then go to google.com and do current location or google.maps and it says san jose... so anyways... I just published the location as a 'current' location and then gave other info... so i shall now do the same with this one... mind you the 2017 google-map data 2017 is on the actual map in google...
and then after review of available resources find out/discover.... it depends on what it is... I did say earlier on a VTA bus that I felt like .org websites might not be as reputable as they once were... I do beieve that but I have no idea who polices such things. Here's what I will tell you that i know and/or think... I could not access the .gov website at the actual time when I was at the library doing so. I hate that I have to come to the library and don't have a home. I am so harping on this city and the library and I don't care if you want to say I'm not welcome or kick my foot as a means of doing whatever- yes, I do think that this is the city of libilies and bullshit. It is so far beyond here that I am literally not raising a ruccous for no reason... I just cant explain it enough how much I hate it here. I knew something was up the first time I came here. honestly I did.. It was almost like to good to be true.. and it is. I have a theory- that I literally look up what I need to but a llot of my info is old info... in that I know it to be true... it wasn't anything like crazy- I mean knowing the difference between .org and .com and .gov makes sense that the police departments would be a .org. A non-profit... however, I do and dont feel like thats appropriate... I don't see the police dept as a non-profit... it's still a .gov or government entity? I did think abou this when I was in LA and got my DUI... at the time no, I didn't blog about it becaseu I trusted the system and/or it was just a thought in my head like... hmmmm.... I think about a non-profit being 'good, reputable, and not really a place to ever cause harm.' Example... I'm going to use what is in my current com unity as it's a method for consideration in my thought process...I'm explaining because i hate this place. I do- I hate it. Some may love it- and that's fine... odds are they ahve lived here their whole lives and honestly I don't know their story and even if they are lying or not... I know and have a consisneces that I have to again make sure that I'm not in a fake reality show of a world. A round about way or the way I am or am not doing things in to say taht here- the undercover officers aren't made aware of- if you told me that when they were recruited or signed up or whatever it would be a 'new role.' If I told you ther legal system here was that of the 70's... then you would be accuate as I cant believe people have actually been homeles here for 30 years. Like, I don't know this that or the other- but there is no privacy here. I loved my apartment at 99 Vista montana, 95113. I did, I do...and I would live there in a heart beat. It wasn't an opportunistic decision- literally all of this is meant to be... I'm putting myself out there as a way that no one really knows my whole story... i mean they do and don't. Not that I lie- but if I need to be truly authentic with someone about my mental health I will be. I am, and I have been- to say that I experienced moments of insanity when I was a child here and there I think would be normal... honest I am depends on the crowd... that's normal. Have I had mental issues my whole life- with parts of the learning process and stages of developpment concerned yes and no... thats a lot for information...Like- I can't stand it. I make it about everyone else but me- and have been called as fake.... I'm not going to say I was fake ever, honest... yes. Like, the fact that I posted on facebook that I was diagnosed with HIV absolutly is and I know the right thing to do... I love facebook. Literally- I think something I have conversation with Mark Z about what I'm going through. Not that I relate or even actually know him... I know what he is to me, what he gave me, and what a mightmare he is reluctantly still the face of. I don't think he meant to create the nightmare that it is now. It was almost too perfect... but, I get it... sometimes you just do things. You could be a total asshole and have had 5 kidney transplants paid for by your dad the first actual or 1 known billionaire and then he stopped paying for them so you created Facebook or marketed it as a way to keep paying for them yourself.... I don't know. That is of course not in my normal realm of thought- but when I say in San Jose that it's convient they have tenant laws yet they have more people in tents then the apartments those laws apply to... and I dont even know how up to par they are besides that I had an apartment in San Jose that had a patio and street access- and that it is and was considered private- so any work they were going to do on it or anything to deal with it had to come with prior motive.... the eviction notice people so violated that... but my managmetn people didn't Thank you. Or to my knowledge they didn't... details to follow realted to life expereinces and why wait.... I lived at an apartment complex that had a lock on the door totally inaccessible to the outside. then one that was, and then a chain... some may or may not call that false sense of security... I totally call that a true statement and also history. That apartment to me has history.... here in The Bay Area, now know to me as The Shady Bay... I dont know that I want to say they create complexes with a door call box, and then a locked parking garage with the fobes and gates with the same only to have then another elevator or door to your hall that then also requires seperate access only to have a front door with a single dead bolt that is accessible on both sides of the door, no chain, and no lock on the actual door handle... not to mention it was like the door handles in jarrasic park... is that technolgy and thought process far out there... no, yes... (Ah! Thank you for singing to me in my ear at 3:44pm as per the ebtech03 computer/hp all in one at the east san jose library in santa clara county that has version 12.6.1.26 Itune program, a version of windows that is outdated though specifics are locked by the administrator, and 54.0.1 (64 bit) of mozilla, Version 59.0.3071.115 (Official Build) (32-bit) of . chrome, now it's 3:51pm same computer, and internet explorer 11 is, i had to write it down as I couldnt copy and paste it...version 11.0.9600.18015, update version 11.0.23 (KB3087038), Product ID 00150-20000-00003- AA459. 2013 Microsoft.... this is all of info right and wrong.. it's as specific as I need to be because neither the person who sings u2/ (put words in the victoria's secret models mouths), none of the mark's, or my heroes can actually be here, right here with me going through my fight... In my mind though- they can be... which is to either hack the system themselves... or i just gave them some validity tools to maybe put two and four together... and when they do with the details I have given them and the information that I can't see which version of windows I have and if that actual version has proper updates in stalled... well guess what...I bet that can be recreated or validated as such to say that i know what I know... and now I feel posting this... so I am and then going to keep going so that you have a current time line. I have many un-named and name changed heroes... the park here has me quoted- after this asshole came and got me from where I was ok, warm, and sleeping by a grill that was still warm only to take me over where he and one of his priends were sleeping, offered to share his blanket with me, did so, then did a 'whoa bro I'm straight' instance in buckesto park on empire and 13th in san jose would tell you that literally said out loud after having then being to tired of cold to go back to where I was, being literally hate-crimed almost-by someone offering and even coming to me and waking me up, only to have have to use my own body heat to then heat up the concrete I then forced to lay on after 2 minutes or less in his blanket on the concrete and then second blanket on himself... I was like what in the fuck is this hell hole of a nightmare... I don't know that persons intentions- but to me if I was warm and sleeping, then was put into that situation... I did say out loud 'I wish a straight marine was here cause they would cuddle with me and...' I think i also called the dude a pussy and said that if I had a lighter I would set his blanket on fire... which then made him really freak out... I don't care about the labels.. but to say someone or this system here then did so
