Ugh- what happened to Helvetica? I mean it really was the best font and I for
one an appalled that someone or some entity could just take that shit away
without a general consensus from consumers…. Just shows you how much our
government cares. I mean- we had a hard
time with this election so let me not add fonts as a something to be voted on
by the American people.
Computer crashes so far… one… and it was epic. Last night- one also in the middle of an
application that I thank god submitted prior to this crash… the getting of ones
shit together is so easy right? Apple
World.
If someone wants to know what I’ve been up to let’s see I
spent another 39 days in jail. Ugh. I had to go to Jury trial over intent to
commit petty theft. I mean- hey I made
them spend those dollas and now am appealing the verdict as I will testify this
time. Lemme tell you what that was like,
a bloody nightmare. It truly was- I mean
not only to hear the heartless nature of the District Attorney. A female go figure- in her closing arguments
she showed her ass- she told a story about her nephew, I pray for this child as
she said she loved to bake. I mean- she
could totally pass for a tweaker or drug user by all means but she referred to
her nephew coming up to her with chocolate all over his hands and mouth… me
being a person of compassion and commonsense was like of god the kiddo needed
skin grafting and burned himself and no, the bitch was like when I saw him like
this I could automatically assume that he… basically she probably hit the poor
child before making sure if he was ok or about to OD from the home made treats
she had just made. Ugh. I mean- what else would a toddler or kiddo
that can walk do besides literally grab the fucking pan without any concept of
chemistry or science and then have the ill fate of having this bitch for an
aunt… ugh, only in America.
So Ciara’s work video just blared out over the whole
library- I mean. Then I get back from
eating chicken fingers- go figure... and nelly’s st lunatics tip drill remix
did the same thing- love it when they start the song with something about a
nigga and a bitch. It’s a conspiracy- my
fucking headphones were plugged in- it just goes to show you how the connection
is when you have too much crap out there… apple is where it’s at. Swear.
Let me not reach that statement as I am not trying to have our
government sanction them anymore or divide the classes anymore then they have-
just wait until you see the stuff coming down the pipeline… its
terrifying. Labeling other states and
communities within the United States as ISIS coming from the Middle East? Yeah, brilliant- not. Cause that’s where the government hackers and
apple comes into play- hence the Supreme Court case. Yet- has anyone questioned the bail bonds system
and kickbacks? Or whatever that crocked judge nonsense is?
So back to my story- yes, 39 days in jail. I got jumped- which was fine. The realization I come from a broken home hit
like a ton of bricks. Ya, know I do
believe that it takes two to tango- to tangle, untangle, whatever… I mean, we
know bitches be crazy right? It’s not
fair that when I call the only number I remember besides my own is my now my
mothers. Like, it sucks. Then she proceeds to tell me oh well you
remember my cell phone number too- and none of your fathers. I was like you are such a witch… the only
reason for that is that it’s like 2 digits different then my own- and when I
needed him to come get me from school when I was sick I called our house number…
or his office number in the same small town- so let me not trip like those four
digits don’t matter. Most women don’t go
to prison or jail- a man usually takes the fall. No officer, those are my drugs yes officer I
called you but take me to jail not her- these are words actually said by men
who have had to deal with a lot. I mean-
I know dudes with baby mamas that haven’t ever had a paternity test done- which
I think should now be mandatory for birth certificates as it is that big of
deal. Not just cause yes, I am the
submissive male in my gay life and it’s in my nature- I’ve said the equivalent
of ‘you know what asshole, thanks for paying child support for the last 18
years- you and your brother look a lot alike huh?’ Yeah, I mean- I having cut that deep with my
words but like I said so far as it pertains to me and him I’ve said some really
shitty things.… I just somewhat lied to him the other day all because I was
nervous about who could over hear and what all they knew about he and I. Why?
Why? One of the stories I heard
this time in jail is that a woman was collecting child support from 8 guys for
two kids… I don’t know the details. Like
was it 5 dads throwing hard earned dollars towards one and then 3 dads throwing
easy earned dollas towards the other? I
don’t know. But what made me nauseous
(is it sad that I’m thankful for spell heck because I literally misspell that
word every effing time…) was that nothing happened to the woman. Though she had had a few of them incarcerated
for domestic violence, she is the ‘mom.’
Really? That triflin ass person
needs to be evaluated on so many levels that the courts are so fucked up in a
sense that men are more compassionate in nursing- so to me that equivocates to
life and social also. Almost all my
issues between me and my parentals were exaggerated because of me being me, or
because of it was antagonized by one and not the other. True story.
So I’ doing what I was told and seeking all available
resources- do you know how happy some of these government aid websites think
life is for their people. You must have
a phone number, must have a mailing address and if you reside differently that
one also. Funny how in the court systems
I’ve heard- plaintiff lives at the third tent from the northeast corner of the
overpass at Santa Clara and 18th street, san Jose California, city in Santa
Clara county… and now has a 100 yard stay away from said tent.
I was exposed to a lot this go around that made me scared-
like I say homie casually… beware, I’m a victim of that happy go lucky
government I was just hating on cause that’s a whole different ball game. And yet, civil rights aren’t always
civil. That’s what someone said to
me. Still shocking. I still can’t get over it… hang on let me
google that statement while I party rock real quick and see if there is an
alternate meaning…. Remember the days when the success of your child was
determined by if you could afford an encyclopedia set? Yeah, I don’t…. but I
had a family member with all dem books.
Ugh- I’m filling out this form like nauseous. Fuck- nauseous. From the fucking police. Like- I mean- who do they think they are…. I
mean- they are still shooting unarmed citizens and committing other heinous
crimes… so let’s not play like the property situation is going to get any
better…. I mean why not just fucking send it with me…. Like I was extradited. Like they asked me my name- tackled me, put
me in cuffs, took me to the hospital, took me to the twin towers, I think
before the hospital I was in the twin towers for reception, but then I fucking
was put on a sheriffs bus, mind you the same people that arrested me, only to
ask several times if they had my glasses and backpack. They said yes- then I get released after like
7 days cause nothing is quick when youre on their time…. Ugh, I hate that
term. Like I literally do. I’m not on anyone’s mother fucking times-
cause that’s kind of a constant… unless we fuck up the gravitational pull of
the earth and the sun again and have to handle business again- Hillary swank
made a movie about this…. Though it was much easier than the movie made it seem
the fucking poolice don’t know nothing about that…. It’s a good thing they
don’t have to count because they would have to be barefoot or wearing sandals…
no no let me not be like that. They
know exactly what they are doing and I’m sure are very wise.
Anyways- they straight up lied… and were total mean girls by
taking my eye glasses. It’s like the
biggest fear I have- you should have heard me the last time I was arrested… my
public defender literally got choked up when she read the transcript- I said ‘Please,
please sir don’t take my glasses. Please I’m begging.’ Oh yeah, begging huh- was the reply I
got. Thank god this time I didn’t have
to be incarcerated without them- for the first time… however- I probably wouldn’t
have been able to kick the shank out of the one of the guys hands when I got
jumped--- let me not act like that wasn’t just done by the grace of God. Because I don’t know if that has anything to
do with forgiveness or not but I’ll be fucked if I wasn’t about to get stabbed
for being gay in a dorm full of dudes. I
mean- it’s a different world, with a different set of rules, and I for one am
pissed that no one has tackled the…. Why the fuck aren’t they on computerized
documentation yet? They do be in la- the
guard comes with a device and scans the top of the door which also is idiot
proof in the fact that it makes you look in the window of the cell to as an
officer do you job. I mean- we do the
same thing in healthcare- but it’s all computerized and have to be scanned and
all…. Oh wait. Not in Santa Clara county
though… I was at Elmwood in Milpitas…. Can we say literally google is all over…
it’s the tech capital of the world and so what is their excuse? I mean- my mother can’t wait to have a
funeral for me…. Like, it’s a goal of hers… a mindset of sorts. Ugh.
But never mind the people that live there and have to deal with that….
This dude got beat up and literally you could hear this one guy kicking the other
one as he was on the ground wedged up again the door. The correctional officer had to wait for
others to get there so they could like ‘over take’ the situation… omg. He was like stop kicking him, stop kicking
him… whap whap whap whap…. Like bend it like beckham? OMG. I’m
nasuseous again…. Fuck… nauseous… I got it that time but not the time before
related to I did use spell check… I dunno if I was using this part as a coping
mechanism or whatever but fuck.
Ugh- day three of trying to finish and post this. Ha!
But I have completed some of my other to do list nightmares as well as
navigate and go to appointments around the West Hollywood and greater LA
area. I mean- YOLO right.
Hey ya’ll anyone remember when Kelly Osbourne didn’t fall
down the stairs that year at the whatever awards show that was that she
performed at… not gonna lie- I was concerned then impressed.
I wish I could teach someone how to walk like me- it’s a
defense mechanism. It’s hard- I mean I
literally thought I could train for a marathon like Big Sur once upon a
time. When I first moved to West Hollywood
and was living in the same complex that Marilyn Monroe lived in- I would wake
up prior to working on days I didn’t go to cross fit and run… down Santa Monica
Blvd. I mean- really? Yes, why not.
But, you do pass legit some of the most gorgeous people in the world…
thankfully you and I judge ourselves much more cruelly then they do. I promise.
Don’t let yourself tell you differently.
I’m right. Odds are I might have
a video to back it up in an under the sheets kinda way so believe me. Mind over matter. I promise all they are doing is acknowledging
your presence- if they smile, grin, or kinda laugh in your direction- its
admiration and nostalgia for them and is to be encouragement for you. If you don’t feel that way- I’m telling you
to feel that way. No one has been
beautiful from day one. If someone has
dared, from the scenario above, to vocalize or in some actual was communicate anything
mean or self-degrading to you- I am sorry.
That person is no one I know. I
have had people do that to me in a you can’t do that kind of way or you can’t
change that kind of way… a mental kind of taunt about abilities. But that’s more a changing a systems process
of- you can’t report ebt card theft or unauthorized purchases and get the money
back… ok mother fucker telling me that, that also stole them, that also works
for the government… how do you like me now?
Cause the fuck if what’s been done before can’t be changed now. How else do things change? Things will happen so much faster if we all
can have those motivations- I feel like as Americans’ if you get a citation or
ticket that has a court date attached to it- take that shit to jury trial. Do it.
I did- I’m going to appeal all my other shit and we gone see what
happens… it’s become a choice and a pressured deal by the government…. But it
is a right. It is something that ought to
be done no matter what. The current
thing is to oh here’s little deal and
some scare tactics… take it and get out of jail now or risk staying in jail
(possibly) and also possibly getting the ‘book’ thrown at you. Naw- I was in jail in a corrupt system, got attacked-
but the government or police in my mind as they are the ones that but me in
those confined situations… like, if there is a fire at a hospital and I’m an
icu nurse- not only am I not going to leave my patient, but in a way I have put
them in that situation they can’t readily leave on their own so I must be there
to protect them or go down with them… sadly the pigs will leave you. I mean I spent a week solid in a cell with
someone else all because of staffing. Like,
I’m tacking this from my end as best I can.
I’m putting it out there like this because henry Rehnquist- a supreme
court chief justice (or the? Or one or the? Who knows they keep that shit
closed and on lock so they can become billionaires but whatever) said
What many of those who oppose the use of juries in civil
trials seem to ignore is that the founders of our Nation considered the right
of trial by jury in civil cases an important bulwark against tyranny and
corruption, a safeguard too precious to be left to the whim of the sovereign,
or, it might be added, to that of the judiciary.
Conservatives are those who worship dead radicals
At the heart of the First Amendment is the recognition of
the fundamental importance of the free flow of ideas and opinions on matters of
public interest and concern. The freedom to speak one's mind is not only an
aspect of individual liberty - and thus a good unto itself - but also is
essential to the common quest for truth and the vitality of society as a whole.
We have therefore been particularly vigilant to ensure that individual
expressions of ideas remain free from governmentally imposed sanctions
I have no idea why I relate to some of the things he said
when he was live. But, dang if it doesn’t
make sense. The world is so big and I am
thankful that I have my blog. It sounds
stupid but there is an entity that is literally aware of every single, key
stroke, work, letter, deletion, etc. on the internet and in the world… it’s a fucking
fact. Even phone conversations are
transcribed into black and white. So even
me putting this out there and being the person of these stories and words makes
it known. Even if no one actually reads
it or clicks on it. Seriously.
I am so sorry that
the world has put different ideas in some people’s inner dialogue or thought
process. But I’m here to set it
straight.
Damn these drone seagulls are everywhere today- as they just
for decoration?
That video is from 2007.
I love you.
